I just sat there next to her, she cried and I sent her a sympathetic look every now and then. I did feel bad for her; I always have however lately everything began to change. I continued to be empathetic but I also knew she was all to blame. I tried telling her in the end it was always her fault before and she wasn't willing to accept that. She always wanted someone else to blame. I guess as long as there was always someone else to take the brunt of it then she never needed to fault herself. What I think it comes down to is that Kim is a live in the moment kind of girl. Once that moment slows down for her and she can look ahead, it scares her. She is afraid of what she sees and accepts it because she hasn't got much of an idea of what self worth is.
Kim and I grew up together, we had no secrets. Even if we had wanted to keep secrets there is no way we ever would have been able too. We were always right by each other's side, so we always caught a glimpse of them as they fell out of our closets. We would help each other pick them up and hide them away from the world again. Oh sure, as we got older Kim tried to keep things from me before but she was never any way she could have. I always knew she had something she should have told me. Most of the time it was her holding back the fact that she slept with some guy she shouldn't have. Kim had several addictions throughout her life; sex was always her worst of them all though. I hated to put to say she was promiscuous, cause not even that described it. But yeah she had some man issues, Ones that gave her a bad name.
"Kim, don't let him come back here. He is bad news, we both see that right?" I asked.
"Becca, I seriously over reacted that's it, I am still kind of drunk and with everything that we went through you know."
"No, Kim I don't know. "
"Look I overreacted just like I said." She insisted "That is all."
"Seems like your lying." I sighed.
"No, I'm not, I have no reason too." She shook her head, letting her blond hair fall in her eyes. "I really need to chill on the drinking" She laughed.
"You're just not fooling me; you don't have to talk about it now, since you want to avoid it obviously." I may have been a little short with her but I didn't want to beat around the bush.
"Becca, I am fine." She snapped back.
"Kim, I am not doing this now, lose the attitude."
She looked over at me "Fine." I knew what she meant even though it was aid with attitude.
I sat on the couch aimlessly scrolling through my phone, as Kim started to clean the mess she made in the living room. We hadn't said anything to each other for ten minutes. I scrolled through my facebook feed, there wasn't much there. Just friends making plans for the weekend, the usual pictures of peoples pets, a random recipe here and there. Then I got the idea to look for some wrestling pages, thinking it wouldn't hurt to investigate. I typed in Dean Ambrose in the search bar. There was a entire list of pages that came up. There must have been 30 pages dedicated to him, I guess he had a lot of fans. I clicked on the first one that came up. There were tons of pics and posts about him. Reading the comments amazed me they all talked about his eyes and his ass and how gorgeous he was. The pictures of him in the ring were a little different. I mean it was Jon of course; he just looked a little crazy. It was actually pretty amusing to see him like that. I couldn't help but laugh. Kim heard me and broke the silence.
"What you laughing at?" She asked.
"I was just investigating Dean Ambrose." I looked up at her. "These girls really love him."
"Becca, you have no idea, you haven't been on your tumbler yet have you?"
"No you know I don't go on there much, I am not part of the wrestling fandom anyways." I said.
Kim sat down sliding her laptop in front of us. She went straight to work logging into her tumblr.
"You are now tumblr famous "She pointed to the screen.
"Why would someone post this?" I asked. As I looked at a picture from the club the other night of us. We were just standing there talking by the bar.
"Becca, they posted it because of him." She scrolled down further they were everywhere on her dash.
"They all want to know if you're any one of importance." She continued. "He has a huge fan base, you have no idea how over he is."
"No, I don't. He never said he was this huge." I shrugged.
"He is every woman's wet dream and you walk out of a club with him like it is nothing." She joked.
"Kim, you know I haven't watched any kind of wrestling in at least 6 or 7 years." I thought about it, "The last time was because you dragged me off to that show."
"I think you may be the one dragging me next time." She smiled.
" I wouldn't go that far, yet" I said.
"Oh shit!" She jumped. "Don't freak out but someone just posted the link to your tumblr they figured you out".
"Kim, there is nothing to figure out." I said.
"Becca, there is something you're lying to me about now." She scolded.
"No Kim, there isn't anything to hide." I smiled "Not yet anyways."
She looked at me. "Really?" She shook her head "You really didn't fuck him?"
"No, Kim!" I said.
" I have never been so disappointed in you." She looked at me raising a eyebrow.
"Oh for God's sake Kim, Why should I have rushed it?"
"To get him to come back, that's why." She shook her head. "So I take it you won't be seeing him again?" She questioned.
"He said I would, He comes back in 9 days now." I informed her.
"Becca them guys get like zero time to themselves, He is going to end up spending it with someone who puts out." She looked over at me sympathetically, like I was too stupid to know.
"Kim, I didn't put out but I don't think that it mattered."
"oh come on Becca, it matters." She whined. "You know how men are, I don't know how you told him no."
"He didn't push for it, he actually didn't even try." I smiled. "It was nice."
"So what, you don't think you're his type?" She questioned.
"Kim, really you have to be a bitch, just to be a bitch hey?" I snarled
"I didn't mean it like that, Becca!" She shook her head. "All I mean is he is a man, he thinks like one too I am sure, he must have wanted too."
" Yeah, I think if I gave him the green light that he would have."
"Why didn't you?" She asked.
"I just didn't." I shrugged again. "I guess I am not ready."
"You can't hold off forever." She reminded me.
"I know, I will be ready eventually." I assured her, or maybe tried to assure myself.
"Well you better hope you get another chance. I am sure he was nice enough to at least ask for your number."
"Yes, he did." I told her.
"Good maybe he won't lose it." She said.
"Its in his phone" I said.
"Then you better hope he uses it. You will be lucky if he does, but not even a blow job hey?" She was serious. I knew she was.
"No, Kim not even a blow job." I rolled my eyes. "However not that it is your business but he has used my number."
"What?" She asked anxiously.
"Yes he did a few times now" I laughed. "Just maybe not putting out is what keeps them interested."
"Fuck you, Becca."
"No thanks, Kim" I laughed. "If you want this pussy then you have to work for it." I winked.
"Shut up, you prude." She said as she threw a couch pillow at me. "Your turn to cook, I am starving" She announced.
I picked up the pillow and threw it at her catching her in the chest. "You should be cooking for me bitch." I announced.
"You wouldn't like that." She laughed. "Remember you made me promise to not ever cook for you again?"
"Yeah, don't remind me." I said getting off the couch and heading for the kitchen.
Corey kitten, do you still hate Kim? Or did you warm up to her after this?
psion53 I love a warm fuzzy Jon too. I still however do enjoy flirting with his bad boy side as anyone can see by my other fics.
PunkMoxleysViperGirl I can honestly say I probably wouldn't be writing this if it wasn't for you. Everyone go check her out. You will love her stories. You will find cute mushy Dean with her too.
AngelsDestiny22 Thanks for the review glad you're liking it so far.
Also I should probably mention I don't own fb or tumblr and of course I don't own Dean/Jon. I only own Becca and her insecurities and Kim and her bitchy self.