CHAPTER 92

Syu had peaked into the room. Noticing he couldn't see the boy straight away he walked further into the room. "Ryo-Chan." He whispered. The tensai had no idea why he wasn't speaking in a normal tone, but he just thought it felt right for the situations. His eyes searched the room. It wasn't until he heard a small bang did he realize that the boy was hiding under the desk.

Using one hand as support on the desk he bent down and looked at the curled up teen. "Ryo..." Instead of getting a teary look from the boy like he had expected, the cat glared, but what made Syu stop was the fear the was clearly showing in the golden eyes. "Come out of there, Ryo-Chan. Talk to me." He held out his hand and waited for the boy to hopefully take it. Instead it was slapped away.

"Go away." Syu not liking that answer got down on his knees and dragged the cat out forcing him into a hug. Ryoma started to struggle. Trying to push himself away, but finding it difficult since his arms were trapped between his and the tensai's chest. "Let go, let me go." He tried in vain. shifting his legs into strange positions hoping Syu's grip would loosen. It never did. In fact the more he struggled the more he felt the arms around him tighten.

"Ryoma..." The cat stopped. Syu had never called him by his first name like that. Slowly he looked to the others face only to see desperation. "Listen to me." Ryoma had stopped altogether and just waited patiently, wanting to know what the other was going to tell him. "You no longer have to be brave by yourself. You have the five of us and we are your family whether you like it or not your stuck with us forever. We never want to see you suffer alone. We want to be with you even on your worst days and when you get angry with us. You don't even need to love us in return." Syu shifted and left the boy sit between his legs, but making sure he still kept eye contact. "All you ever have to do is to tell us your problems and to let us handle it with you. Please no matter what you've seen or done we won't ever push you away. We all love you so much that it hurts to see you hold all of it inside."

Sniffling, Ryoma looked down in thought. "So does that mean you love me to?" Syu relaxed and loosened his grip on the boy waist still taking into account how bad he was shaking.

"Yeah, a lot more than you probably think. Me, Mitsu, Sei, Gen and Kei all love you very much." Carefully Ryoma brought his hand up and gently place it on Syu's chest. He could feel the others heart beating. "Ryo..." He got cut off by Ryoma.

"But what would happen if my heart was already taken and you could never get it back? Would you still want me even if there is hardly anything of me left?" Syu placed his hand on top of Ryoma's. Finally understanding why he was so afraid. It wasn't just because if his master, it was also the fact that once again it went down to what had happened to him and how it had changed him, not by what you could see on the outside, but his inside.

Syu threaded his fingers thought the boy's and slowly pulled them away from his chest only to place them on Ryoma. "This is yours. It's in you so it belongs to you. It doesn't matter if it's your first, second or even third. This heart belongs to you and it beats to keep you alive. Understand." Syu watched the boy's expression turn into a frown.

"But I belong to master and I love master the most." The tensai felt like he had just been stabbed when he heard Ryoma say that. "Why would I need anyone else. As soon as master finds me I'm going to leave with him." Syu took his hand away from Ryoma's suddenly feeling how far apart they really were from each other. He felt hurt beyond words.

"What would you do if I tried to stop you?" The tensai watched and for a brief moment he saw a small hint of surprise in the boys eyes before they turned one of loathing.

"I would hate you. If master wanted me to go I would. His words are final. As long as master is happy, I won't be punished and I won't be alone." Syu pushed himself away from the boy. Not knowing what he would do to Ryoma if the boy carried on talking like that. "Besides, even if I resisted I would be dragged. It's not like that hasn't happened before."

"What about if you had a choice you would still leave?" Syu knew the answer, he still didn't know why he was asking. Probably because he hoped that eventually the answer would be different.

"Yeah, I would still choose him." 'At least then I know he wouldn't hurt any of you.' He left out the last part not wanting Syu to know. The tensai sighed and looked to the ceiling. He had finally learned more about Ryoma, but it was the half he didn't want to know.

Tezuka felt himself being shaken awake. Letting off a groan he opened his eyes to see Akitaka looking at him with a worried expression. "How's Yukimura doing?" Mitsu look down beside him and watched as Sei slept away with not a care in the world. His mouth slightly open and a bit of saliva at the corner running down his cheek. He suppressed a chuckle that wanted to make it way out of his mouth. In his opinion the blunette looked like a small child. "Well, it's probably best to take him home. He can relax more there. Are you going to carry him to the car?"

He nodded and stood up before having a stretch to loosen his muscles. He turned and pulled the blanked off the other, then scooping him up in his arms.

Both Ryoma and Syu had been sitting in silence for nearly 10 minutes when they heard the door open and Tomo walked in not look pleased at all. "Ryoma, come on we're going home. Syu you have a couple of minutes till the end of class, I would suggest to go straight to the changing rooms."

Syu stood without saying anything and as he was walking passed the butler he felt a hand being placed on his shoulder in a form of comfort. The tensai sent a small smirk to him before leaving. Tomo turned back to the tiger and sighed. "Ryoma, collect you things." With that he left the boy in the room on his own to sort himself out.

He talked to the principle for a bit while he waited for the cat knowing the boy was trying to sort out what ever had happened in there with Syu. Tomo had arrived a while back and had listened into quiet a bit of the conversation. Even the part where the tensai practically pored his heart out trying to get Ryoma to understand how much they all loved him.

He knew he couldn't blame Ryoma for choosing his master since his been manipulated into thinking only good things about the man, but that didn't mean it didn't piss him off every time he heard it. He just wants what's best for the boy the only thing he found troublesome is that Ryoma doesn't love himself and thinks the only person that will ever be able to love him is the psychopath of a master.

He heard the door open and he glanced at him, giving off a sigh as he did so. The boy was a wreak and he could only guess that it was going to get worse. Not only that he could only guess the he was going to have three more depressed teens to deal with along with the cat.

"Let go. Doctor Oishi should be waiting at the car." Tomo winced. He couldn't believe how upset he himself has gotten over this whole thing and he was taking it out on Ryoma.

Ryoma was slightly in front of him, as they approached the car. As they got closer Ryoma stopped when he spotted Mitsu putting Sei into one of the seats in the back. "Ryoma, come on move. I want to get back and start dinner." He placed a hand on the boys head and turned it so the child was facing him. Tomo felt shock. In the boy's eyes he could see the lost look of someone missing another dearly.

"I miss him." Was all Ryoma said as he turned back to watch Mitsu. At that point the butler knew he was going to have to phone Shan and get him to help his sever the tie between Ryoma and Sen once and for all.