Bella's POV:

I don't know what overcame me but I was suddenly leading Paul up to my bedroom. I'd never done this before. Ok well mind out of the gutter we weren't going to do that!!! I just wanted him with me.

I left him sitting on my bed with a peck on the lips. While in the bathroom changing and cleaning up and having my 'human moments' as the Cullen's had called them I argued back and forth in my mind.

You are an idiot. He's going to want sex.

No he's not. He loves me and will go at whatever pace I want to.

He's a guy you moron! You are naïve if you think he will lay next to you all night and not pull a move!

Hey I'm not an idiot!

Took you long enough.

Ok. If I am you are! You are me after all.

Hrrmph. Just know I get to say I told you so when he pulls a move!

I shook my head thanking God that no one could read my thoughts. They'd think I was nuts and institutionalize me in an instant. I groaned and slammed my head into the wall. What on earth was I thinking asking him to stay here?

Oh well too late now and honestly I really didn't regret asking. Actually I was very excited. He'd agreed.

I had changed into a pair of P.J. pants with Christmas decorations all over them and a red tank top. I opened the door slowly peeking in before entering. Paul was laying on top of my comforter in his boxers arms behind his head staring at the ceiling.

God if I wasn't nervous it would ruin our relationship I'd totally jump him. Wait a second – since when did I think like a sex craved teenager? Ok maybe I had wanted it with Edward but this was different. It wasn't really a want it was like I needed him in every way possible.

He raised his head and untwined an arm from behind his head "Hey beautiful" He smiled faintly. I hunkered into his extremely warm form and let myself be enveloped by his scent.

He held me tightly and it just felt right. Like this was the place in the world I was meant to be. It was at that moment that any doubts that I had possibly or remotely had about us working disappeared completely. We truly were made for each other.

"Paul thanks for staying" I smiled up at him.

"Anytime Bella" He chuckled softly "Now I won't have to miss you all night" I blushed slightly. That was part of my reason for asking him to stay. I hated missing him. I hated being away from him for any length of time.

"Do you want to watch a movie?" I wasn't sure what else to do I just wanted something where I got to cuddle with my guy and enjoy myself.

"Sure princess" Paul nodded kissing my temple "Anything you want."

He shouldn't have given me free rein on movies! I got up cackling evilly and grabbed one of my favorites. He would so regret letting me pick in a few moments. Or maybe he really would be happy watching anything I wanted to.

I popped the movie into the DVD player in my cabinet and grabbed the remotes as I settled back into his arms. He was now sitting up leaning against the headboard and I wedged myself between his legs.

"What are we watching?" He asked his hot breath tickling my neck and sending chills down my spine.

"That's for me to know and you to find out" I grinned looking back at him.

I turned the TV on and we listened to the previews quietly before we reached a menu.

"Stick It?" He asked reading the title off the menu. "What's it about?"

"Again for me to know and you to find out." I said. He groaned playfully and pretended that he was upset that I wouldn't tell him but a couple kisses later and he was happy again.

"Fine just play the movie."

I hit play and snuggled back; glad I had remembered to hit the lights when I put the movie in because I was too comfortable to even consider moving again anytime soon.

When Paul figured out that the movie was about gymnastics he laughed so hard he could hardly breathe. "One of your favorite movies is about a sport that requires coordination when you can't even walk a straight line without tripping?" He asked teasing me.

I pouted and he kissed me full on the lips. He gently grabbed my hair as I twisted so I could wrap my arms around his broad shoulders.

Sighing contently I broke the kiss and nuzzled into his neck inhaling his scent. He was a mix of rain and Christmas trees with a dash of gasoline thrown in for good measure.

"I love you Bella" he whispered huskily returning his focus to the screen.

"I love you too Paul" I said and then burst into laughter at the sight of Frank onscreen dressed like a girl going to prom. He reminded me so much of Emmett and I felt a moment of longing.

I longed for my family. All of them. Vampires, wolves, humans- hell they could be banshees or mermaids and I'd still want all of them to like each other. To get along and play nice. It sucked when my parents divorced and that's kinda what I was feeling now. Even if the Cullen's came back splitting time with them and the Pack would be like spending summers with my dad and living with my mom again.

I swear I am going to regret even thinking this but I miss shopping with my Alice. Rosalie wouldn't have made fun of my truck she'd have just fixed it with her wicked awesome mechanic skills. I missed Emmett's hugs and Jasper's rare laughter. But I was happy. Truly happy.

When the movie finished Paul and I moved so we were both under the covers. Which was quite the feat on my measly twin size bed.

"Did you like it?" I asked curiously.

"It was quite funny." Paul admitted.

I leaned up and captured his lips under mine. This had to be the best feeling in the whole world. I was in the arms of the man who would do anything for me and vice versa and I could kiss him without worrying I might be dinner.

Our kisses got rougher and more passionate and I breathed heavily when he removed his lips from mine and trailed kisses down my neck.

The goose bumps rose again and it was a good thing. The affect he had on me was freaking amazing. He could turn me into a pile of goop on the floor with a single touch. I highly doubt if I'd tried to stand at that moment – not that I had any inclination or desire to – I would have hit the floor.

This continued for a few minutes before breathing just as heavily as I was Paul commented "Bella I love you and want to make love to you at some point but right now is not the right time."

I knew he was right and just nodded. I didn't want our first time together, my first time ever, to be in my teeny bed while my dad slept downstairs. "I love you too Paul." I kissed his cheek gently.

We lay back both our chests heaving and slowly fell into a deep slumber. Even in my dreams I felt protected and loved with the knowledge that when I woke up in the morning Paul was still going to have his arms wrapped around me.