Nerves finally hit me as I pulled my car to the sidewalk at my destination. I didn't park outside as it would not do for anyone to see my car. I am used to keeping such meetings secret so I parked just down the street. For some reason, I couldn't calm my nerves. I had no idea why, since turning up practically unannounced was nothing new to me. As I closed the car door I realized that the front door at my final destination had opened and I was being watched. Managing a smile, there she stood, with a nervous look on her face. Clearly,neither of us knew what to do next.

Walking slowly down the path and up the porch steps I never once lost eye contact with her. Once I was standing in front of her, I found myself with the intense urge to grab and pull her in for a kiss so I thrust my hands firmly into my pockets. Bella spoke first.

"Hey, you got here quickly. Erm, come inside."

I followed her into the house and she motioned for me to follow her into the lounge. Oh, how I remembered being here last time. I had an instant replay of our make out session, and felt myself blush at the memory. She turned to face me, a coy smile playing across her kissable lips.I wanted to kiss them, but knew that this is not how it should play out. We had done the whole unexpected kisses and touching, but the one thing we have not done was talk. I knew that I needed to know what this is; if it was going anywhere or if it was just a game to her.

The silence hung heavily between us and I knew that I had to break it. My nerves were not going anywhere. I needed to do this.

Taking a deep breath,I prepared to speak,

"Hey Bella. Hope you don't mind me calling you to meet up. It's just..I need…How are…"

I just could not get out what I wanted to say. I stopped speaking and took another deep breath. When I looked at her,I expected her to be laughing at me, or at least stifling one. She wasn't. This confused me more. I ran my hand through my hair while I tried to decide what to say next without making myself look like an ass.

"Edward, I think I know why you're here. I want…"

This is not how it should play out. I needed to be in control of this. I am always in control when it comes to me and Tanya but, then again,this is not Tanya, it's Bella. I began pacing up and down the living room as my anxiety grew.

"Bella, let me get this out, please? I needed to know what had been going on recently. We kiss, make out, you come around and play all nice to my folks. Yet, days earlier you were the center of the group mocking me in the school yard. You have to realize that this is all very confusing for me. At school I am treated like something that you wipe off the bottom of your shoe. You make my life a living hell with your little gang, the endless taunts and teasing. It borders on bullying. Yet, at dinner the other night you were, well, you were flirting and teasing me if I am not mistaken. So,what the fuck is going on here?"

She looked shocked at my outburst. Hell,I was shocked. I had no idea where all these recent outbursts were coming from, they were so not me.

"Look Edward, this is all pretty much new to me,too. I never encouraged what Mike and Tyler do at school, they do actually have minds of their own. I didn't ask to be put up on some fucking pedestal by them-"

"But you don't ignore the attention, do you? Let's face it, you swan into town, our school and suddenly you're the one that everyone wants to be seen with, girls want to be like you and the boys, well,let's just say I hear more than they think. Most of them fantasize about fucking you. First one to claim that honor will be the school hero."

I realized that maybe I was being a little harsh as when I looked at her I swear there were tears forming in her eyes. Then I thought back to the number of times that I had cried over their treatment of me. Bella pulling the waterworks routine here, well that was not gonna fly with me, so I continued.

" I was getting by before you turned up here. Yeah, they made my life unbearable, but then, well, you arrived. Suddenly, I was the center of attention and you have no idea how muchI hate that they call me 'Freakward', which was a new addition for them. I am a human being,Bella and have feelings and emotions just like everyone else."

She was standing with her mouth opening and closing, like she wanted to say something, but didn't know what. I stand waiting for her to come up with an answer, any answer will do at this at this point. It's obviously not what she expected from me.

"C'mon, Bella. Surely you have something to say to me? You're not normally so quiet,if I remember correctly."

Anger started to build inside me. I came here with the intention of… well, I thought that we would just fall into each others arms, maybe, but I needed to know that this is not a game for her, that she actually wanted me, wanted us. Yeah, all the chemistry was there, well it was from my side. Just thinking about how it felt to kiss her made my crotch start to twitch. I struggled to remember that she started this. Okay, she was drunk the first time, but since then, like after dinner,she was very definitely sober. I just needed to know that this was for real and not a joke to her then we would see what happened from there.

When she eventually spoke, her voice was soft and she sounded unsure of herself,

"Edward, what can I say to you to make you believe me? Since that night at the beach I have thought of you all the time. I have feelings for you that I can't explain and I am struggling to come to terms with them. When I am with you, I feel… I don't know… I'm supposed to be with James but, well, he doesn't make me feel like you do when I'm with you. Edward, you do something to me, almost like you're a drug I cannot get enough of. I feel happy when I am around you. I have no idea where any of this came from and certainly didn't look for, or expect it. I mean look at you. No disrespect, but, your nerdy, geeky and hardly on the top of every girls wish list. The thing is that, I see that you have a heart of pure gold. You showed that to me the first night on the beach. Many people would have just driven off, but not you. No, you stayed to make sure that I was okay, you took me to your home to get me fixed up. Then when you kissed me. Phew! My knees went weak, my heart skipped a beat,I swear and I…"

She didn't get to finish whatever it was she was planning to say, because I closed the distance between us and crashed my lips onto hers. She mumbled something initially as I wound my arms around her, pulling her into my body. She instantly responded and began to kiss me back. My hands ran up and down her back. Okay,so this was over her shirt, but I could imagine what her skin felt like underneath...

My cock began to harden at the intensity of the embrace and she responded by bucking her hips towards me. We stumbled and somehow managed to make our way across to the couch where we fell together, with me on top of her.

Eventually we broke apart, both of us gasping for air but not breaking eye contact. I searched her face for any hint of deception and saw none, she simply chewed the corner of her lip before managing to say to me,

"Wow Edward, you really do know how to sweep a girl off of her feet."

We both laughed. I moved to sit up, but she pulled me back down, and shuffled to one side. Somehow we ended up lying on the couch together, with her body curled into mine and her head on my chest. I just hoped that she couldn't hear my heart pounding. As I laid there I felt complete, whole. I could feel her breath on my face as she traced small circles on my chest with her fingers. I found myself running my hand up and down her side and every now and again she shuddered, almost as if it was tickling her, but somehow I didn't think that was the sensation that she was feeling. We laid in silence. I was happy to hold her in my arms and she seemed content. I don't know how long we laid for, but the reverie was broken when her cell phone rang and she leapt to answer it. I found myself staring after her from my position on the couch, wishing that the damn thing hadn't interrupted us and that she would hurry back to me.

I had no idea who she was talking to,but she was certainly not pleased to hear from them. I was only able to hear her side of the conversation, but I could hear a raised voice at the other end.

"What do you want?... No! I told you I'm not interested anymore, you can forget it… What do I have to do before you get it through your fucking thick skull. We are over, finished…. Yeah, yeah,yeah, tell me another sob story, I know that you are screwing that whore, so leave me alone or I will tell my dad you are harassing me. Or even better why not tell someone who actually gives a fuck about you!"

With that, she hung up the phone and threw it across the room. I was on my feet with my hands on her shoulders looking into her eyes. All I saw was anger as I pulled her into an embrace and refused to let go. I kissed the top of her head as I heard a sob escape from my chest. I held her as if she was the most precious thing in the world, which to me she was. Not knowing what to do,I held her until she pushed herself away from me. She bowed her head and I put my fingers on her chin, pulling her face back up so I could look into her eyes.

"Bella, tell me what happened. Are you okay?"

She stopped crying and her bloodshot eyes meet mine, responding with a whisper

"We split up, me and James. He was, well, he was screwing someone else. I thought that he loved me, that he wanted to be with me,but he didn't."

She started to cry again, and fled upstairs leaving me standing there staring after her. I had very little experience with women who were upset. I normally kept out of Rose's way when she got upset, it was usually safer that way. I had never seen Tanya upset so this was new to me. Something deep inside of me made me follow her upstairs. I could hear her gently sobbing and found my way to her bedroom. The door was slightly open and I hesitated, debating if I should knock, or just walk in. I chose to knock and then walk in. I didn't know what to do as she just laid there crying into her pillow. Making my way to the bed, I hesitated before sitting down. She seemed to be oblivious to my arrival as she jumped when I gently stroked her hair. Turning over to make room on the bed, she motioned for me to join her. Once there was room,I laid down and we resumed our earlier positions from the couch. Except this time I was all too painfully aware of the fact that we were on her bed, only a step away from being naked and together. I decided that I needed to know more,

"So, James is messing around on you? Is that man crazy?"

She snorted before responding, "Yeah,totally. He thinks that he could run around on me and I wouldn't find out. He must be seriously tripping."

"Hmm, who was it with, do you know?"

She looked me in the face when she answered, "Yeah,some whore from college named Tanya."

I felt like I had been punched in the gut, "Tanya? You sure? She's one of Rose's closest friends…I can't imagine she would go for James."

What I really wanted to add was, 'She better not be fucking James, she is mine.' But how could I lay claim to her when I was here, laying in bed with another woman. Was that not a double standard?

My jealous side was threatening to rear it's ugly head. Yeah, I knew that I had no reason to complain, given the fact that our arrangement is just that, there is no relationship. Plus, I had been thinking about Bella non-stop since that night on the beach. She filled my thoughts even when I had been driving my dick relentlessly into Tanya. Was Tanya really fucking James? How long had this been going on? Why the hell had I not noticed anything? No, this couldn't be true. Tanya and I were hooking-up regularly and she seemed to be happy with the arrangement. Could I really blame her if she was getting something more than I was willing to give her from someone else?

"Wait a minute, Bella. Have you actually seen them together or is this just a rumor? I know Tanya. It just doesn't seem right to me, she is too good for him"

Shit! I realized what I had said the moment the words left my dumb ass mouth. I think that I got away with it. Maybe she was too distracted with her own thoughts to pick up on my comment.

"No, I haven't actually seen them myself, but he talks about her and how hot she is. I have heard that other people have seen them together. I'm sure he is doing it to make me jealous. We have argued so much about it over the last week and he told me I was being spiteful and jealous. I told him that he was a jerk and to go fuck her if he wanted. I told him it's over, but he keeps calling me and won't leave me alone. Just wish he would take the hint. I'm not interested."

Sitting-up slightly, she looked me in the eyes and continued,

"I've moved on, found someone else who is really interesting, a bit of an enigma." She smiled coyly at me before leaning down and planting a kiss gently on my lips.

Was she talking about me? She must be. My heart skipped a beat. We both obviously had the same feelings for each other and now it was just a case of what to do about them. I kissed her back and suddenly I was on top of her, pinning her to the bed. She responded to the erection that I was grinding into her, albeit through our clothing. She bucked her hips, meeting me seemingly desperate for some friction. I heard her moan in pleasure and this drove me on. I was afraid of where this would end up, but I was excited at the same time. She seemed to want this as much as I did. Her hands were everywhere. I had to wonder if she was part octopus as they roamed from my hair down to my ass and back again with alarming speed.

We had the house to ourselves since Charlie isn't home, and James now seemed to be a distant memory. I knew in this moment that I wanted to make love to her. It would definitely be making love; slow, gentle, and incredibly loving. Nothing like my last encounter with Tanya. No, this would be something to savor, and enjoy.

I pulled back, sitting up on the bed, looking at Bella as she mirrored me. My voice catches in my throat slightly, "Bella, I want you. Now."

She chewed her bottom lip again. God, that did something for me that I cannot describe, and she replied in a quiet voice,

"I want you, too, and have for a while. Edward, please."

Needing no further encouragement, I reached out to touch her, running my hands over her body, removing her shirt slowly, taking my time. As I exposed her porcelain skin, my breathing began to falter. She is perfect. Her breasts were perfect and heaved as she breathed deeply. I assumed she was trying to get her nerves under control, as was I. She reached across to me and removed my t-shirt before placing her hands flat on my chest. I felt that all too familiar spark of electricity between us. It was completely obvious how this was going to play out, there would be no rushing.

She pushed me backwards, onto the bed and I see that she wanted to be in control as she straddled me. Her breasts were still confined to her bra, but I could tell they are amazing. They were certainly larger than Tanya's. Christ, what a time to be comparing! Bella was certainly not afraid to put the moves on me. She began by kissing my chest with light feathery kisses making her way up my neck before attacking my lips, hungrily. I ran my hands over her sides and back. Her skin was every bit as soft as I had imagined it to be. She was grinding her pussy over my cock, causing it to ache even more for the release that it was now desperate for.

My hands made their way around her back and like an expert I managed to unclasp her bra, freeing her breasts. I grabbed her hips, switching our positions. With me in control, she squealed in delight. She raked her nails down my back as I closed my mouth over one of her breasts, sucking on her nipple until it became hard and erect. Her actions encouraged me further, and I released the nipple so that I can play the other one lavishing it with the same amount of attention.

Making my way back to her mouth, we kissed frantically again as we fought for dominance. I pulled back slightly to be able to say something to her,

"Are you sure? We can stop if you want. I don't have any-"

Her response surprised me as she motioned to her nightstand and smiled at me before saying, "Don't you even think about it, Cullen. I have everything covered, now shut up and fuck me."

I snickered in response she certainly was organized. "Okay. But first we need to get rid of the rest of our clothing. You sure we won't be disturbed?"

She looked at me with lust filled eyes before saying, "We're good, Charlie's working late tonight."

We both shimmied out of our jeans, discarding them on the floor. She laid back on the bed and I managed to take in the true beauty lying before me. Her legs parted as I knelt between them. She was staring as me her eyes wide with wonder as I rolled a condom down over my cock and moved towards her. We kissed again. This time was different because there was a tenderness there. I ran my hands over every available inch of her skin, noting her reaction to my touch. I continued kissing her moving onto her neck, nibbling gently which she was loving, judging by the sounds that she's making. Slowly, I ran my fingers down her chest, between her breasts, teasing and tickling as I move south. All the time I continued planting soft, feather like kisses on her skin.

I didn't know what she was used to sexually from a partner, so hoped that I was living up to her standards. I imagined that she knows what she wants, I just hoped that I am not a disappointment to her.

My fingers made their way down between her legs and she squirmed beneath me, I could feel the heat coming off her pussy as I made teasing contact with it. I ran my fingers gently up and down her lips teasing her by circling her clit, causing her to moan. Bella looked glorious lying there, her face contorting in the pleasure that I was giving her. All the time that I was touching her she was driving me wild, raking her nails down my back and my chest. Eventually she tentatively cupped my balls in her hand and was gazing at my cock. I feared that I may lose it right there. She took a firm hold, causing me to hiss at the contact. Suddenly, she released her hand from my cock and mumbled an apology under her breath, almost as if she is unsure of herself. God, she is a better actress than I thought. I wanted to show her that I was more than capable of making her happy and just how much she underestimates me, in every way possible.

I could tell that she was growing increasingly aroused, as was I, and was more ready to take this farther. I looked into her eyes giving her a final chance to back out before I pulled away from her and moved myself down between her legs, nudging them apart as I kiss up the inside of her delicious thighs. She shuddered in response and I took this as encouragement to continue. I ran my tongue up and down her pussy and she moaned loudly and grabbed my shoulders firmly with her hands. I smiled to myself as I continued the action with my tongue, teasing her, making her want more before I pulled back and then dove back in. She tasted amazing on my lips and I wanted more of her. I gently parted her and slip my tongue inside at which point she cried out loudly and her back arched on the bed. The next thing I knew she had both her hands entwined in my hair and was pulling at it frantically. I continued my tongue teasing, being careful knowing that I certainly didn't want her to come just yet. That pleasure is to be saved for when I am buried deep inside her and I could look deep into her eyes.

I could sense that she is close and know that now is the time to show her everything. I pulled myself up from between her legs, although I could've stayed there all night. Kissing my way back up her body, I found her face looking slightly flushed, and I grinned at her.

Kissing her mouth, knowing that she could taste herself on my lips spurred me on. I lined myself up with her and entered her slowly. I didn't want to rush this. I wanted to take my time and ensure that we both enjoyed this as much as possible.

Damn,I'd had a great teacher. I mentally thanked Tanya for our time together. She had taught me that sex was not just about my pleasure, it was about both of our enjoyment. The lessons learned both in the summerhouse and back at her apartment were certainly paying off. I really must find a way to thank her properly one day.

I pushed into her slick heat, making slow teasing movements in and out, going slightly deeper with each movement. I paused when I felt some resistance which came as a surprise. I glanced up to Bella's face, expecting to see pleasure on her face. But I was surprised to see that she had lost the look she had previously and appeared to be in pain. Panic began to flood through me, and I managed to say,

"Bella, are you okay?"

She looked at me with a concerned look on her face as she managed to speak,

"Please, don't stop, I want to, just do it, get it over with. Please"

Shit! I realized in that split second what she was telling me, without actually wanting to say the words. Bella was a virgin. No, she couldn't be. Could she?

This felt so wrong, I was here with my dick partially buried in her, about to take something precious away from her, and she was giving her permission to continue.

"Are you sure? We can stop. I don't mind." I silently prayed that she wouldn't stop me.

"Edward, just shut up and get on with it. Please?"

She then pulled me back in for another amazing kiss. Her hands roamed through my hair and before I knew it I was pushing in her again but this time when I met the resistance, I gently pushed through it. She let out a small squeal of pain into my mouth and I almost stopped then and there, but continued. I was so turned by the fact that I, Edward Cullen would be her first. I paused, allowing her time to adjust to me now that the worst part for her was over. She felt unsurprisingly tight and I needed to stop to stave of my own release in response. I continued to kiss her with as much passion as I could muster despite my now distracted state. Once I felt her body relax, I knew it was okay.

We continued at a slow and leisurely pace. Before I knew it, I was enjoying watching her contort under me. Knowing that it was me, 'Freakward', that was making her body react like this. I could feel my orgasm starting to build as my balls tightened. Although, I knew the chances of her orgasming on her first time were slim, I was intent on bringing her as much pleasure as possible.

"Bella, I am so close, hang in there with me."

"Oh God Edward, this feels amazing."

With that I came, and I came hard. Boy, that was some release. I felt guilty that she was not able to experience this with me, but as I threw my exhausted body down next to hers she kissed my cheek, before curling herself into my side. I knew that we needed to discuss the fact that I had just taken her virginity, and that she had not warned me. Hell, it would have made no difference to me but it would have been nice to be forewarned.

We laid in silence for some time, neither of us wanting to break the bliss that surrounded us. I hold her to me rubbing her back gently as she tickled my chest with her warm breath. I know that we needed to discuss what has just happened, so I decided to break the silence.

"Bella, were you…are you…I mean was that your first time?"

She blushed and simply said, "Yes." She sighed before continuing,

"Everyone had the wrong idea about me. They think that I am far more experienced, I just don't correct anyone."

"But I thought, you and James… Why did you not tell me?"

She broke me off before I could finish,

"No! That first night on the beach, that was when I had planned to sleep with him for the very first time. He blew it, though. He…"

She never got to finish that sentence as a set of tires on the gravel drive of her house announced the arrival of a car. Sitting upright on the bed next to me she had a panicked look on her face as she grabbed her watch.

"Shit! Is that the time? Charlie is home from work! Quick get dressed, he can't find you here. He will go mental if he does."

"Charlie? Fuck!"

I swear I had never moved so quickly in my life, grabbing the clothes that were discarded on the floor, putting mine on and throwing hers at her. I am dressed before Charlie made it through the front door as I could hear him whistling as he walks up the driveway. He couldn't get his key to work in the lock and I can hear him cussing and fumbling with the lock. All this was good because it gives Bella more time to compose herself, but still leaves me with one small issue. How the hell do I get out of here without being seen?

Charlie's a cop, he carries a weapon for fuck's sake I am here, alone with his daughter. Not only that, we just had sex and I had just taken her virginity. If he sees me,it will be written all over my face.

Christ I could be in some serious trouble now!

Authors Note:
So a massive THANK YOU goes out to my ever loving & supportive beta Cosmom – thank you just doesn't cover it for me! She is AMAZING! As always a special thanks to Mamasutra for her support and pre-reading for me, and for helping me make the lemon have that extra 'zest'.

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