Authors note: I apologize for all the confusion in the last chapter. It was meant to be offish in the way that it was written. None the less it was written in my studying sleep deprived state, it sucks. Anyway this chapter will explain the other a whole lot better...I hope. I'm still sleep deprived and I have an exam and 8 am. Yay philosophy! Anyway, still exam week. I'll see what I can do. A special thanks to 494dwangel and harlequindreaming for reviewing the last chapter. Sorry for the confusion guys! 494dwangel, good luck on your book. I look forward to reading it one day! Planning is always the hardest part, once that's done the ideas flow. Anyway, you know the drill. Read, review and enjoy.

Pushed too far

Matt felt terrible, if it hadn't been for his lie Mello wouldn't be in this boat. He was positive that he had pushed the blond too far this time. Mello had always been strange, erratic and in some cases overly sexual but it had never been directed towards Matt and so he had always watched from afar. Ever since Mello had come home yesterday sprouting off about indirect gayness and putting Matt at the blunt of the blame he couldn't help but feel bad.

Currently the blond was sitting in the living room going on about their childhood. It wasn't overly strange that he would be bringing up the past, it was something that the two shared together but his point was to strictly put emphasis on their past relationship. It was platonic on Mello's behalf but on his own he had been head over hills in love with Mello from nearly day one.

He came from the kitchen and handed the blond another chocolate bar that he took happily. Matt watched as Mello examined it and ripped the wrapper off and began to suckle on the chocolate. "Don't you agree Matty?" Mello asked watching the red head with extreme interest. If this continued on for too much longer Matt was starting to feel the need to take Mello back to Wammy house for a check-up.

Matt nodded in response not fully sure of what he was agreeing on but assuming it was better than to get the blond riled up. "Mello, are you positive that you're not having a mental breakdown. I'm not saying that you are but think about it. This isn't you. Nothing about this situation or the way that you're acting is making sense." He flashed a smile hoping that his words would get through this time. Still the slightly dazed look on the blonds face remained.

He shook his head, "Matt I'm not having a breakdown." He began for what had to be the millionth time. "What makes you think that I'm having a breakdown."

Matt frowned, "Mello you sat here with me for an hour denying that you were gay and then you turned around and made out with me. I'm positive that something is going on here." He reached forward realizing that he still wasn't getting through to the other. Mello had lost it completely and it was his fault. He put Mello in a position that he both accepted his own homosexuality and dated Matt or his gave up his God. He realized now that it wasn't the right decision and Mello had set himself up for failure. Now all he wanted was regular slightly erratic Mello back.

Mello didn't respond instead taking the time to sit and toy with the chocolate bar. "Why don't we go out or something?" He offered in his slow voice. He almost sounded drugged and knowing the life that Mello led it was very possible. No, Mello's body was his temple but still someone could have slipped him something and he was just on a really long ass trip. Matt could only hope.

He nodded, "Okay, we'll go out but when we get back we have to fuck." He worked not to wince at his own words. "Seeing as you're so into it I'm sure you wouldn't mind taking that final plunge with me?" Matt offered wanting to believe that he saw something flicker in the other's eyes. He reached down beginning to pull the rosary from around the others neck, "This won't be needed anymore."

Mello's hand flew out grasping the cross before it could get too far away from him. "And just what the hell do you think that you're doing?" Mello's voice had dropped from its slow leisured pace into his usual mafia glower. "Drop it."

Matt did as he was told grinning like an idiot. Mello wouldn't be so fun if he just complied with everything. "Welcome back princess. I was positive that I had broken you for a while."

Mello shrugged lightly putting the rosary back around his neck. He glanced up at the red head, "Now where was I?" He offered as Matt's eyebrow rose. The shock to Matt's face was almost as surprising as the smile that registered on Mello's face. Matt flew backwards, stars flashing in his vision as he groped to find something he could hold onto. Faintly he could make out the blond hopping over the couch and baring down on him with the darkest look he had ever seen on the others face. "Just who the hell do you think you are? I'm the only one around here allowed to mindfuck people you jackass."

The red head held his face where the hit had connected. "I learned from the best." He barely managed hearing the click of the gun to the right side of his temple. Mello was on one of his power kicks again.

His eyes were cold but there was a slight upturn at his mouth as if he wanted to smile. "Be that as it may don't fuck with me anymore. I said that I would be your boyfriend. I'm aware of everything that comes with being in a motherfucking relationship so I don't need you pretending to be your fucked up other half to get me to rush into shit. I got this." He kicked the other in the side the gun disappearing. "So shut the fuck up and let me do it okay?"

Matt nodded watching his longest oldest friend reach his hand out to help him up. He took the hand gingerly waiting for another hit to come. When it didn't he allowed the blond to pull him to his feet. "I'm sorry for fucking you up Mello."

He shrugged, "You did to me mentally what I've done to you physically and mentally. I'm pretty sure that says that we're even." He crossed his arm. "Just one question, do I really talk in my sleep?"

The red head chuckled but it hurt so bad he stopped. "Yeah, but it's not about sex. You talk about chocolate." He gave the other a lopsided smile. "You were going on about me going to the shop to get you better chocolate. It was actually pretty cute." Matt glanced up at the blond who quickly turned. If he didn't know better the other had blushed. Maybe he didn't have to rush Mello because the other was doing just fine on his own.