Disclaimer: I of course, do not own Twilight of any of these characters. I am merely playing.

Walking out of her house and away from Bella felt like the hardest thing that I had ever done, My heart broke into a million pieces all over again when she slammed the door shut behind me. The sound of it slamming was so final, it was like the final nail in the coffin for us. Stopping, I stood shell shocked on the front porch I slowly turned around, stepping back towards the door. Once there I placed my hand on the piece of wood that was all that separated us in the physical sense. If this was the only barrier between us, I would break it down with my bare hands to get to her. But it wasn't. It was merely the physical symbol of what had happened.

I'd come here in the hope of making things right between us, never expecting it to turn out like this. I hadn't expected her to welcome me with open arms, but at the same time I hadn't expected it to end like this.

I could hear her sobbing mere inches away from me. I wanted to break down the door and hold her in my arms, ever wanting to let her go. I would show her with my actions what I had so badly failed to do with my words. That I meant every last word when I'd said that I was sorry, that I loved her still.

Slumping against the door I found myself slumped on the ground, turning around so that I was pressed up against it, my head resting on the wood. Bella was still sobbing and from what I could tell, she was just on the other side of this damn door. She was only inches away from me but it may as well have been a million miles separating us for all the good it was doing me now.

I decided to stay until I knew that she was okay, but how I would be sure was a mystery. There was no way that she would open the door to me, so if I had to stay here all night, then that is what I would do. Time passed and her sobs grew quieter but she was still there, I just knew it instinctively and my heart continued to break for all that we had lost.

A car pulled up at the curb but I didn't look, not even as I heard the sound of footsteps approaching and making their way up the steps behind me. I didn't move a muscle, I didn't want anyone to come between us. Then into my field of vision, crouching down next to me were Jake, Rose and Emmett looks of concern on their faces. Rose pulled me to my feet before she threw her arms around me. I sobbed uncontrollably as she held onto me, she tried to comfort me with her gentle words. "It's okay, I've got you."

I didn't realize that we were moving until I was ushered almost into the back of the car. I looked up at the house and saw Jake standing on the porch, he gave a small nod as I turned around Emmett raised his hand in acknowledgement. Jake then turned and knocked on the front door, which opened slightly before he was then allowed inside. "No!" I pulled free from Rose and started towards the house. Suddenly my feet left the ground and a strong pair of arms were holding me. "Emmett, let me go, I need to be with her." I struggled against his hold on me. "Let me go!"

"Not happening, sorry. You need to calm down." As much as I struggled it was pointless. Eventually there was no fight left me to protest, only then was I let go and ushered into the back of the car. All I wanted to go back to her, but I just couldn't my fight was gone.

Emmett was silent as he set off away from Bella's house, I assumed taking me home.

"Edward? What happened?" Rose asked in a gentle voice while gently rubbing my back in a soothing motion.

Between sobs I managed to tell her, she listened to me intently, all the time holding onto me, giving me comfort.

"I know it's hard sweetie, but you have to leave her to work this out on her own. You can't just expect her to take you back with open arms after everything that happened. Give her space and time, I know it's corny but time is a great healer. You are both so young, first love is always the hardest to get over. You'll find someone better than her"

This got through to me. "No! Don't you understand anything? I love her, I never stopped." My voice rose in anger. "I don't want anyone else, I want Bella!"

Emmett was watching us through the rear view mirror. "Hey, hey, calm down Edward."

"None of you understand what I'm going through." I sobbed. "She knows about me and Tanya. I told her I was sorry, that I loved her and it still wasn't enough. It's over."

The car came to an abrupt stop and he turned around in the seat. "We're going back to my place, for some man time. Rose I'll drop you off at home." Rose started to say something to him but he cut her off. "No arguments babe, I love you but your little bro needs me." With that he turned back around and we sped off towards home. True to his word, Rose was dropped off and I hopped into the front seat while Emmett sped through the streets towards his apartment. Once there I threw myself on the couch and he chose the chair opposite me while I stared off into space. The silence was stifling, in all honesty I just didn't know what to say to him.

Emmett eventually left me to get a couple of soda's, handing me one there was a serious look on his face as he sat back down. His elbows on his knees and I could tell that he was either trying to pluck up the courage to speak to me, or to find the words he needed..

"I ain't gonna baby you Ed, you know that. Life is unfair sometimes, that's a fact. You did what you thought was best and it backfired. Bella might not want to see you right now, and if she doesn't then her loss not yours." I opened my mouth to speak but Emmett refused to be silenced. "Walk away, let her see that you're not moping around like a lost puppy after her. Yeah, you did wrong with the whole Tanya thing, you know that, but what's done is done. I'm not saying for you to forget her completely straight away, that's not how it works. What I'm saying is, you need to move on cause she will. Soon enough you will forget that she even existed as there will be someone else for you."

I sat in silence, stunned by Emmett's words. I had been to hell and back in the last couple of weeks and as much as Bella's rejection hurt me, I'd hurt her by not telling her about Tanya. The more I thought about what he said, the more confused I became. How could he think that I would just forget her, move on so easily. It wasn't going to happen, but if she really didn't want me then there was nothing that I could do. Other than nurse my broken heart. Then I was snapped out of my internal musing with a single word. "Pizza?"

"Yeah why not." I replied, knowing that I needed to try and do something other than think about Bella and I, and the mess hat I had created.

Pizza was eaten, then we moved onto Call of Duty on his X-Box, this was what I needed, just time away from the drama that my life had become. It was great to just be a normal teenager, although in the back of my mind there was Bella. I kept checking my phone to see if Jake had called or text me to tell me what was happening, there was nothing.

We played for hours, I knew that Emmett was trying to keep my mind off things, but I doubted that anyone could do that successfully right now. It got so late that he suggested I crash on the couch. I gladly accepted as I couldn't face going home tonight. By now mom and dad would know what happened and I couldn't bear to see the looks of pity they would have, knowing how disappointed they were with me. No, the change of scene would do me good I was sure of it.

Once Emmett had gone to bed I lay on the couch staring at the ceiling, I heard my phone message tone and I leapt off the couch to read the message. Just as I thought it was Jake.

'Sorry I tried, she won't back down on this one.'

I let out a long sigh, my fingers flew across the keys as I replied.

'Ok. Thanks for trying. At Em's tonight.'

Jake didn't reply, not that I expected him to. The message he had sent told me what I already knew. Bella and I were over, forever. I closed my eyes and tried to sleep, but all I could think about was the way she spoke to me, the anger and love that she obviously felt toward me. I tossed and turned for ages trying to get comfortable and put this out of my mind hoping that pure exhaustion would take over and force me to sleep.

When that didn't work I work, the words of the song she sent me came into my head and I needed to hear the words again. They gave me some hope that things would work out between us, no matter how bleak they seemed now. The words hit me harder now, believing that there was no going back.

I was about half way through it the second time when I felt a hand on my shoulder and I turned around to see Emmett looking sleepy.

"Are you trying to access my porn stash? You only have to ask." He yawned before he leaned over and turned the volume down. "It's the middle of the night and that was loud." I began to mumble an apology, he grabbed the laptop from me. "

Taking a deep breath I told him. "Nah, it was just this song, I wanted to hear it again." I was worried that I might cry again, but nothing came.

Emmett just sighed, taking the laptop from me. "Typical chick thing to do. Telling you they want you one minute, then to go away the next. I don't think that a bunch of flowers is gonna fix this." He rubbed his face to try and wake himself up. "You blew it, plain and simple. "

Sighing I replied. "I know."

"Do you love her, I mean really love her?" He fixed me with a stare. "I don't mean in a hand holding and quick fuck to get your rocks off way. What I'm talking about is does she makes your heart beat faster when you see her. You feel lost when you are apart from her. When you are physical it's not just a Wham Bam thank you mam, you want to please her and take your time. You want the feeling to last and you would do anything for her, even take a bullet if you had to?"

I swallowed, everything he described was how I felt for Bella and so much more.

"How did you know that's how she makes me feel?" I asked in a quiet voice.

Emmett chuckled before slapping his hand on my back repeatedly. "You have much to learn my young Padawan learner. But to sum it up in nice easy terms for you, that is how being in love really feels."

The only words that I could muster were. "Oh, shit and I blew it."

He nodded at me a wry smile on his face. "Yup, I think you have. Now I've been thinking. She's pissed right? I mean she told you that she doesn't want anything to do with you, yet she was crying?" I nodded. "You have much to learn about women. She's crying because she still loves you, or at least cares about you more than she will admit. Don't beg, no woman is gonna respect you for that. I'm here to support you and the first thing we need is to get you a backbone, the rest we can work on. You can't rush things, this is one to play the long game on."

I was confused. "But you told me earlier to forget her. What are you telling me now? Cause you said to should walk away, forget her and move one. Now, you're telling me not to?"

Emmett got up off the couch and walked toward his room. "I needed to see how serious you were about her. What I am telling you that this is far from over, I don't hear no fat lady singing. Stick with me and you will be fine. Now get some sleep, we've got a busy day ahead of us."

Watching as he retreated I wondered what he meant, but tiredness took over and I found myself falling into a dreamless sleep.

Authors Note:
This remains unbeta'd so any and all mistakes are mine. Cosmom WILL be back on board, but not for a while yet. I will be going over the chapters she has missed with her and editing them when she is though. I miss her touch on this.

Sorry this has taken so long to update, real life hasn't been kind. My gran was very ill and sadly passed away aged 97 ¾ so my brain as been all over the place for the last couple of weeks and my heart just wasn't in it, so I had to wait until head and heart were back.