Authors note: So I still have school work so right now I'm running on lack of sleep and boredom. Here's the newest chapter. Not sure if it's on par, but I tried and it's better than nothing.

SUPER IMPORTANT NOTE: So I've had a few people ask me about the last chapter and how Matt got on the beach. That was no you being confused, that was completely my fault. I started the chapter at one point and ended it much later and I had forgotten to include it. So be clear, Near dropped him off at the beach. I'm so sorry about that. I hope that clears up any problems, if not please mail me and I'll explain. Thanks guys! So read, review and enjoy.

Right and wrong

Mello reclined quietly in his easy chair for once. Across the room Near sat watching him apparently deep in thought. He couldn't even bring himself to tell the freak off because he was too happy for Near to bring him down. Matt was talking to him now. Matt had missed him. Matt had kissed him. The side of his lip twitched, not because he was happy that the red head had kissed him but because in a way he felt that he was stepping all over whatever Matt's other side had been attempting to do. It felt good. Late last night the two had returned to headquarters when Mello returned begrudgingly telling Near that Matt would be back with them today. And now it was time for the waiting game.

Hours passed and eventually night time approached all while Near sat stone still staring at the blond. The elevator dinged and the two glanced over to find the red head with a bag sung over his back. He was dressed in a pair of slacks, goggles replaced with dark expensive looking shades and his button up shirt finished the outfit. Gently he dropped the bag and stepped out of the elevator. "'Sup bitches."

Mello's gaze locked fiercely with the other man before he tilted his head. For once Matt looked away before Mello did. He grinned to himself, apparently Matt's other half had known he was alrady in the winning court about this. "Welcome back." He said aloud watching the scowl set on the other's face. "You took long enough to get here."

Matt held his hand up, "Yeah, yeah at least I actually showed up." He dropped his bag by the elevator. "I came here instead of going back with Raito so what do you two want?"

Near spoke up first, "What game are you playing?" He questioned his dark opaque gaze lifting to look the other in his green eyes. "M, Mello and I need to understand your thought process to be able to help it. How does this fit in?"

It took several long minutes before the man answered, "It wasn't for Matt for once but he's willing to live with it." He told the two before leaning against the wall staring ahead instead of looking at either of the other two men. "You need help figuring out who Kira is; it's a common goal for all of you. I guess the same can be said about Matt so all I'm doing is what he wants deep down. He wants help and what better way than to date the subject?" He questioned watching Near shrug. "Think about it, if I can deal with this long enough he'll open up and then I'll know for sure who he really is."

Mello frowned, "So why didn't you run this by us before you actually decided to go for it?"

He shrugged, "No time." He replied lightly. "Sorry sexy but I can't call you at all times making sure that everything is okay for me to do. Just trust me, I know what I'm doing if you haven't noticed."

Near sighed, "You do what is best for Matt and for no one else." Their eyes met and the red head grinned shrugging.

"It's my purpose. I am here to make sure that Matt is safe and sound at all times. Sometimes it comes down to some very difficult decisions but through it all I left Mello. He's like my anti-cause." He said seriously. "He does everything to Matt that I've spent so long attempting to stop from having. If only you knew what was…locked inside of his head you wouldn't be so willing to play around in there."

"What's in there?" Mello questioned softly, almost tenderly. It was enough for Near to look at him for a long second before turning back towards the red head.

He shrugged, "Enough to send him into screaming fits. It's enough to haunt him to the day he does. It's enough that I can never let him remember something so terrible." He whispered his voice coming out husky and dark. "You're right when you say I only do what's good for Matt but sometimes I'm not even sure if I'm right when it comes to that. I block what I think is wrong and…" He stopped closing his eyes for a second. "He went back to that place."

"Place?" Near and Mello echoed aloud together.

Matt rubbed his temples, "The place that I never wanted him to step foot in again. He's too curious for his own good. It's wrong. It's bad, it's where Mr. Wammy took him from. He had no one left. He had no one in the world and Mr. Wammy saved him." He took a deep shuttering breath as if he had gone back to the place that was locked in his head. "He had no business going there but I hadn't been needed since Mello had come back into his life. Mello did a decent job of acting as me unless he was angry and irritated and decided to hit Matt. It's a lot more than I would like but Matt's developed a sort of masochistic feeling towards it so I allowed it to slide."

Mello thought, "You mean the place where he was coming back from when he got into his car accident?"

Matt looked pained, "I swerved the car." He whispered watching Mello's face change. "I had to." He ran his fingers through his hair. "I fucking had to. He was going to implode upon himself searching through the part of his memory I don't want him in. I had to do something to stop him from it so I pushed him into another lane. I didn't think we'd actually run into an embankment and total his car but what happened happened." He took another breath. "I put him out for a while so I could work. I dealt with Mello in the way I knew how but I can't be Matt. Only Matt can be Matt, that's not my purpose. So, I set Mello up."

Mello stirred, "Excuse me?"

He shot the man a glance, "I needed someone or something to keep Matt's mind off of what he saw and what he was looking for so I used you. I dropped hints about his journal and you took the bait. I waited until I knew you had read it, I even made it easier to get into. I left his warning intact on purpose. It would just cause more problems and I needed all the help I could get. If Matt was brooding about the fact that Mello knew he was in love with him then he wouldn't go digging where he didn't belong."

Mello's mouth was moving but nothing was coming out. He blinked several times, "What's so fucking terrible that Matt can't find in his own head?"

Matt looked down at his feet. "I can't tell you that." He replied just as softly. "I'm sorry that I made you do what you did." The fact that Matt had manipulated Mello hung in the air but no one called it. "I can't tell you what happened."

"If we ask Matt?" Near questioned aloud and the red head almost jumped. His eyes were wide, worried…almost scared. "I see." He said aloud. "As far as we're concerned now we know you're hiding something from Matt. If you don't do as Mello and I ask we will mention it to Matt. Clearly you don't want that happening."

The red head looked desperate, completely different from his usual cocky, self. "Even if it meant that the Matt you have now might not be the same Matt you'd have tomorrow?" He questioned aloud as the room went silent. "I don't like being blackmailed Near. It works both ways. I can easily reveal to Matt what it is and only I know how he's going to react if he finds out. You wouldn't be able to protect him from himself so I suggest that you keep quiet, both of you." The forcefulness had reentered his voice. He coughed once, "I would hate to have to do something like that. I can stop you from telling Matt but you can't stop me from destroying him. I'd rather him destroyed than told I've done wrong."

The two looked fearful as he gave a slow smile.

"Now, where were we?" He questioned aloud. "I need to get home so comb through these details so I can be on my way."