OK so here's the next chapter of Paramore? Bella? What? I know it's been a long time since I updated and that's because I had a major writers block and I have a sh*t load of homework.
Chapter 9
APOV (Aidan)
A strong hand gripped my arm, forcing me to turn around. I was about to shout at him when I saw the pained look on his face. "Help me, Aidan please I NEED Bella back. Please I will beg if that's what she wants. Just help me get Bella back." He sounded so... old and weak at that moment.
He was my dad after all. Emma liked him even though she didn't know he was our dad and mum. There's no point mention her, she still loved him and I knew it. She put up this wall so she can seem strong for us but I know she misses him, and then there's Josh. Josh was a touchy subject with mom. He was her best friends and Emma's Godfather. He was there with mum, Emma and I whenever we needed him. Even though him and mum broke up he still loved her and mum did too but in the same way? That I don't know. Last and definitely least is Chad. I didn't hate Chad; I just didn't like him either. He was a fat, ugly and half-bald (at 27), covered in tattoos, possessive and annoying man. He didn't like mum being friends with Josh, he tried to get her to quit the band saying she'd do better solo but mum stood her ground. He even tried to get her to stay away from me. That when she lost it, she started screaming at him, told him that he couldn't control her and if he can't deal with that he knows where the door is. Josh and I (who were stood by the door listening) smiled in satisfaction at the fact that she wasn't letting him walk all over her. He would be easy to get rid of. So it's between Edward and Josh. I realised that I had been standing there for a good five minutes and Edward was still there but this time his face wasn't sad and depressed he looked worried about me. Waving a pale hand in front of my face. Mum was there too, shaking me. They were stood next to each other and they looked like a couple who had been married for decades and they didn't even realise that because they were both worried about me. That's when it struck home, I wanted them back together. They were my parents, we were a family, well we were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it.
"I'll do what I can." I said to Edward and mum gave me a puzzled look. I just shook my head and she let the subject drop but something told me she knew something was up.
BPOV
"Aidan?" a voice I could recognize anywhere "Aidan? Hello? You OK?" that's when I realised my baby boy was deep in thought. He tends to zone out when he's deep thought. I jogged over to him at a human pace, although most people on the set were vamps or some kind of mythical creatures it was good to keep practising for when I'm really with humans.
"Aidan?" my voice was laced with worry. "Aidan sweetheart are you OK?" I gently slapped his cheek a few times. "Honey, come on we've got to go home." Being this close to Edward made want to snuggle up to him and stay there forever, but I couldn't. He left me pregnant and broken; besides he had a girl friend now. Aidan finally snapped out of his trance so I stopped shaking his shoulders and slid my hands from his shoulders to hold his hand.
He turned away from me and quickly murmured to Edward "I'll do whatever I can." I raised an openly curious eyebrows but he just shrugged his shoulders in response before turning toward that door towing me along with him. They were getting too attached for my liking. They deserve to get to know each other, a small annoying voice in my head said. He is their father.Yes, Edward was their farther, no-one apart from the guys in the band, Aidan, and a few of my closest friends knew that. It wasn't my fault he didn't know. Yes it is. The annoying voice reminded me again. But it wasn't though. He's the one who left me. He's the one who walked away. I tried to convince myself that Edward was the bad guy in all this but in all honesty I knew had I told him I was pregnant, he would have stayed. That's the thing though; I didn't want him to stay because he pitied me. I wanted him to be free to walk away whenever he wanted to, no matter how much it would kill me. And he did, leaving me and his children behind without as much as a glance. He will find out somehow I don't know when or how but I know that he will.
When we arrived home I let the illusions drop. It was great to be me again. Don't get me wrong I loved the roles I play, Hayley, Katy and anyone else who might come up in the future but I missed Bella. I missed being in the comfort of my own body. I missed my body, my face, my hair and everything that defined Bella.
I loved England but I needed to go home. I had responsibilities there, my children deserved to be happy. With or without Edward. It wasn't my fault they didn't have a father in their lives, someone to teach them ride a bike, someone to pick them up and dust them off when they trip. Josh did that and I will be eternally great for that but they needed their dad. It doesn't mean Edward and I will get back together, I wasn't ready to make myself that vulnerable again, besides he had a girlfriend now.
I promised myself to never let myself be hurt by anyone. There was only one exception. There was one person who has always had a special place in my heart. Yes he'd hurt me but I still loved him. He taught me what love was like.
I sighed.
A lot of people wondered why and Josh and I broke up. In truth I didn't want to but I sacrificed my happiness for my children and the band. I needed to be a mom than someone who just goes off with her boyfriend and leaves her children to look after themselves-they were already missing their father, they needed all the parenting they could get. I did it for the band because I knew if Josh and I were to break up and split was nasty that would rub off on Paramore. Josh was my best friend and I didn't want to risk our friendship. Or you were just scared of being hurt again a small voice in my head told me. Yes, that was part of the reason but still. I'd given up on love, pessimism paid off. If I didn't keep looking up I couldn't be disappointed when things crashed and burnt right before me. Another reason Josh and I can't get together is because of Jenna. Jenna Rice was Josh's girlfriend (at the time) for two months now. Only I knew about her. I hadn't met her yet but I don't know why Josh was keeping her hidden, she can't be that bad. If I were her I'd be hurt or offended that he wouldn't introduce me to the people he spends half his time with, maybe it was her who didn't want to meet me? I don't know why but I guess it will happen when it meant to happen.
Being an artist –especially being the lead singer in Paramore was my escape. To tell you the truth I never wanted to be the singer, I actually wanted to be the drummer and be behind everything. But my parents and manager made me. Yes Hayley was an illusion made by me but still she had to come into the world somehow right? Well I made her be born into the Williams family. I had to stay with them and I thanked God that I had made Hayley an illusion. I'd hate the thought of any parent treating their child the way Hayley was treated by hers. They beat her, kicked her, the only person who ever who ever truly loved Hayley was her "biological" father. Her sisters loved her too but it only came out when their mother wasn't around, they were scared of her too. It was Hayley and her father against the world. That made me feel guilty about not ever writing one song about her father, but thinking about it she already had a song fully formed in her head.
Us against the world
You and I, we've been at it for long
But still got the strongest bond
You and I, we still know how to talk
Know how to walk that wire
Sometimes I feel like the world is against me
Sound of your voice, daddy that's what saved me
Pulled me together, make me feel so invincible
Cause it's us against the world
You and me against them all
If you listen to these words know that
We're standing tall
I don't ever see a day that I won't catch you when you fall
Cause it's us against the world tonight
Us the against the world
There'll be days, when we're on different sides
But it won't last too long
We've found ways to get in on track
And know how to turn back on
Sometimes I feel I can't keep it together
Then you hold me close and then make it better
When I'm with you I can feel so unbreakable
Cause it's us against the world
If you listen to these words know that we're standing tall
I don't ever see a day when I won't catch you when you fall
Cause it's us against the world, tonight
We are not gonna break cause we both still believe
We know what we got and we've got we need oh,
We know it's something right
Cause it's us against the world
You and me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we're standing tall
I don't ever see the day when I won't catch you when you fall
Us against the world, you and me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we're standing tall
I don't ever see the day when I won't
Catch you when you fall
Us against the world, yeah it's us against the world
Us against the world
Us against the world
Us against the world tonight
Us against the world
(My internet connection isn't working so I don't know if those lyrics I correct, I wrote it from memory. This song was originally is a song about lovers so I changed a few words in order to make it a daddy-daughter song.)
I was in tears by the time I finished writing that song. It was written for Hayley dad but it made me miss Charlie so much it hurt. My human years came flooding back to me when I moved in with Charlie. How he bought me my first car, when I was ill you could tell he was so worried but he just didn't know what to do, when I fell asleep on the sofa he'd carry me to bed. I didn't leave him for long. After I found out I was expecting the twins I went away for a while, I understand Charlie would be worried but it would be better for both us if I went away for a while but I would come back. I stayed true to my word, six weeks and I was back. I kept my children at the Cullen's abandoned mansion, going back every hour. I'd been changed, I went back to school but luckily my gift allowed me to appear as normal as ever, I acted as the normal Bella no matter how much I was dying inside. When it was time for me to college I left home and moved to Atlanta to start a new life for my children and I, it was hard but we survived.
That's it for now. What did you think? I think I need a new beta because my current one is currently doing nothing to help. People are still complaining about how my work is lacking punctuation at some points and things like that but that's the thing I'm asking her to do but whenever I read over my work I don't notice a difference.