I was tired therefore I was in a crappy mood. The guys, my children and anyone who knew me well knew that I was not a happy bunny when I was tired. Vampires normally don't get tired but I am not a normal vampire. This shape shifting / illusion thing can take a lot of a person. Keeping up the pretence was also very tiring, don't get me wrong I loved everyone I created but there are times when I just want to be Bella Swan, mother to Aidan and Emma Swan and nothing else but duty calls and I can't be that. I feel bad for my children; ever since this started they have never settled down in one place for longer than three months. We lived in Tennessee for 3 years but it was really hard on me and my children. I couldn't live with them in the same house without any questions, who are they? Why are living with Hayley? Is something going on with her and the buy? If I lived as Bella then people, the family and friends of Hayley would wonder where she went. It was pretty stressful. I had no choice I had to put food on the table.

Being a single mother is pretty hard, as a child I had always admired anyone who could raise a child alone, male or female, if they were capable of bringing up their child and they weren't spoilt that was one thing I really admired. When, at 18 I fell pregnant, not just with one but two children (just my luck (!)) I wasn't sure how to feel at first. I thought of giving them up for adoption more than once but various things stopped me, they were the last reminder I had of Edward, could I really give my own children to be brought up by another woman? To have them calling her instead of me mummy? Could I really live with that? Knowing that somewhere, out there, my own children, my flesh and blood were out there? Thoughts like that were the ones which stopped me making, what would have been the biggest mistake of my life. Besides, I knew these children were not one-hundred percent human, they could eat food, have a perfect immune system and not drink blood? If I was lucky (which I wasn't). Whoever would have adopted them would definitely notice something out of the norm about them; they'd start asking questions, it would lead them back to me, their biological mother. Let's face it, if I told them about me having sex and getting impregnated by a vampire I'd end up in a room with blue padding on the walls (not mine).

So I decided to keep my children, I moved to Phoenix, to avoid a lot of talk and simply I couldn't anymore "Aww poor Bella's been dumped by her boyfriend" I was sick of it. My mother was surprisingly supportive about the whole thing. She, of all people surprised me with her reaction. I'd expected her to shout, scream, kick and I don't know but what I did not expect was for her to hug me and start crying and take me shopping for baby clothes and formula. i'd asked myself many time's why she didn't freak out, why she reacted like she did and she told me that when she fell pregnant her mother, my grandmother, had called her words that she'd rather not repeat. That she'd kicked her out, that'd she'd been hurt and that she'd lost her mother that day. The memory made us both cry, because I was hormonal or because I genuinely felt sorry for my mother or because I was hormonal I don't know but looking back at it I feel for my mother. She told me she wished I waited a few years, maybe until I was married of course but she wasn't prepared on losing her 'favourite daughter' even though I was her only daughter. I laughed; I loved my mother's quirky sense of humour.

I was startled when Emma walked through the door with Aidan and Jer trailing along behind us on his iPhone. He seemed distracted. He saw me giving him a questioning look, there was something about his eyes that was sympathetic. He knew I hated those kinda looks so must be something pretty serious. He came and sat next to me.

"Hey Bells." He said. I smiled in response. "So I've been doing research, y'know digging some dirt on this Jenna girl Josh's been dating. I think we do deserve to know."

I could only stare at him; I couldn't believe he'd invaded Josh's privacy like that. He would tell us about her, we'd meet her when he was ready for us to. I reprimanded him for it, he didn't look at all sorry.

"Bella I know it's wrong but you've got to read this." His voice wavered at the end of his sentence, he sounded, hurt, betrayed. I reluctantly took the phone from him, I never intended to read all of it, just wanted to skim through it and see what he was making such a good deal of.

It appeared to be Jenna's blog. The article he was showing me was entitled Story of Us. It didn't take a genius to know it was about her and Josh. My Josh a voice inside me whispered.

"Joshua Neil Farro and I met in the 5th grade.

We were in the same youth group. It was called JAM (Jesus and me). Josh always jokes by saying "I've always loved you" because he's had a crush since those days. We became friends and I developed a little middle school crush as well. Nothing came of it because he assumed I wouldn't like him back. We also went to different schools and rarely saw one another.
During high school we would keep in touch a little bit through AOL instant messenger haha! That sounds so funny now, but it was the greatest back in the day! We ran into each other around Franklin, but we were both dating other people. The timing was not yet right.

In January 2059, I added him on Facebook. Wow we are really nerdy sounding (AIM and fb!). He sent me a message and got my phone number. A few weeks later he asked me to coffee to catch up. We went bowling that night too and I met his brothers. I impressed him with my ping pong skills after bowling. We were both intrigued.

He would drive out to my apartment at college to take me on dates. A few weeks after that he drove all the way to Florida to surprise me on Spring Break. I knew then it was serious. We fell hard and fast. November of 2059 he got on one knee and I cried and smiled so much I forgot to say YES! It's been the most incredible journey of our lives. He is my best friend.

And that is the summarized story of us! :)"

Tears were running freely down my face. I didn't know what to say. Josh has known this girl for years and he'd never once mentioned her. He'd "always had a crush" on her even we were together. Josh was engaged and we didn't know.

So much for being best friends.

Hola!

So, those of you who have been on my profile know that I've announced all my stories to be on hiatus but after some consideration this was one story I could not leave unfinished. I am not making any promises but I will certainly try to finish this. Please review because if you don't then I'll think that no one is reading it or no one likes it. Good or bad please let me know what you think. Any questions? Confusions? Suggestions? Anything? I'm eager to hear from you guys, let me know!