ZPOV (Zack)

"Dude c'mon, put your phone away and get packing." I snapped at my brother. He was busy texting his future wife, don't get me wrong I was happy for him but sometimes the whole lovey-dovey thing was irritating.

That was another thing that I couldn't get used to, my brother was engaged, by this time next year he would be married, and he'd be someone's husband. It was a scary thought; it wasn't long ago that we were both kids, having "band practise" in the garage. Josh and I had never talked about the concept of marriage much, I mean I knew he wanted kids and so he should, he'd make a great dad but we'd never gotten into the whole thing in depth until he came to me and told me he was thinking of asking Jenna Lee to marry him. To Ay I was shocked would be an understatement. As selfish as this may sound, I wanted my brother to myself for a bit longer, he looked after me. When we were on tour he'd act like my dad, but then again Josh acted like everyone's dad, anyways he was there for me I could count on him at any point. The same goes for the rest of the band members, we were good together, I was happy but my loyalty was to josh above everyone else, he was my flesh and blood. (Remember this, it will be important later)

There close no secrets between the five of us. Speaking of secrets, I thought to myself turning toward Josh whose hands were still glued to his phone a small smile playing at his lips.

"Dude when are you gonna tell the guys about you and Jenna?" I asked, genuinely curious. He'd asked me not to say anything as he wanted to be the ones to tell them. "You do know the longer you keep this from them the more it will hurt them right? Hayley above all."

That seemed to snap him out of his trance, he put his phone his bedside, his hands suddenly busy again only packing this time. I didn't push him, I knew my brother well enough to know that he would speak when he was ready. The sigh and sagging of his shoulders alerted me that he was about to speak.

"I don't know man," he sounded pained. "I mean I don't know when the right time is, Hayley seems really distracted right now with her ex turning up at out concert and all and she's really fragile and I really don't know what this'll do to her. I'm scared of her reaction to this might be."

I really hoped he didn't think I believed that. "You're scared of her reaction or you're scared of how you'll take her reaction? That she won't care?" his eyes snapped up at my last question. They were defensive, it was clear that we were not going to discuss this topic anymore. "Whatever man, it's your life, but trust me, the sooner the better. I mean the wedding is when April?"

"May," he corrected.

"Dude like that makes a difference!" I was growing impatient with Josh. "He was constantly hiding behind the littlest excuses and quite frankly it was getting pathetic. "Josh what happened to you two?" I asked my tone softer. The look he gave me made the hairs on my arms stand and me want to cower away. In his eyes was nothing but pure hatred. It wasn't that he had that look in eyes that hurt but the fact that my brother was capable of such things. He didn't answer me, I didn't expect him to, he just picked up his phone and stormed out. Wow Josh, real mature.

Josh POV/ 3rd person

How dare he. How dare Zac think just because we've spent a couple of months on a stuffy bus together he knows every single detail about me? How dare he think in his nineteen years on this planet he'd learnt everything there is to know about love, about life?

He's learnt not to be a coward. A voice called. It was familiar yet I couldn't put a face to the name.

Zac knew nothing about being in love, especially nothing about being in a band with your ex who you're unsure of whether or not you have romantic feelings for them. He didn't know how hard it was to force yourself to move on when your girlfriend dumps you only saying "I'm sorry, it's best for the band" he didn't know what it was like to have her take pity on you saying they'll keep it quiet. They won't say who broke up with whom, just for his pride. It was like adding salt to the frickin' wound that's what it was like. He didn't know how it felt knowing she'd moved on, seeing her with her new boyfriend who was nowhere near good enough for her. He didn't have to see her, smell her sweet scent every day, hear her bubbly voice, hear angelic laugh, see her sweet smile. He didn't know so until he did he could just shut up.

Wow, he was pathetic. He had feelings for his ex. This he knew, but one thing he didn't doubt was that his feelings for his fiancé were stronger. He loved her, with Hayley it was young love, puppy love. He never meant to fall in love with her, it all started as a game, it was never his intention to fall for her, but her did. He couldn't help it. Could anyone?

Yes, Joshua Neil Farro wanted a lot of things in his life, he wanted a wife, children, eventually lots of little grandchildren running around the porch, he wanted to be happy. That was one thing he wanted above all, he wanted it, thrived it. More plants did water. He didn't know whom he was destined to be with. He hoped he did, but couldn't be certain, only God knew that. Josh did not know with whom but he did know that he deserved to be happy; he had been a good child, both whilst growing up and in adult hood. He listened to his parents, bough them good gifts, even though they sometimes paid for with their credit cards. He was over all a good child. As with all the Farro children, his parents had raised good children that he and no one else could deny.

Joshua Neil Farro sat on the roof of his temporary home in the harsh English winter. A guitar in his hand, music flowing from his heart. Writing music was as easy as breathing for him, and for that, he'd always be grateful.

There's a still in the street outside your window
You're keepin' secrets on your pillow
Let me inside, no cause for alarm
I promise tonight not to do no harm
I promise you baby,I won't be no harm

And we're caught up in the crossfire
A heaven and hell
And were searching for shelter
Lay your body down...

Watching your dress as you turn down the light
I forget all about the storm outside
Dark clouds roll their way over town
Heartache and pain came pouring down like
Chaos in the rain, yeah

They're handing it out

And we're caught up in the crossfire
Heaven and hell
And were searching for shelter
Lay your body down...

Tell the devil that he can go back from where he came
His fire he airs all through their beating vein.
And when the hardest part is over we'll be here
And our dreams will break the boundaries of our fears
Boundaries of our fears

Lay your body down(6x)

Next to mine...

TADAHHH

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P.S

There is a Spanish translation for this story. I'll post the link to it on my homepage soon. Night, it's almost midnight and I'm tired.