Chapter 5

CPOV

Why the fuck did I ask her to do that, matter of fact, why did I take a picture?! Dumb ass questions to ask myself, I know exactly why I did it. I can't be here, I need to work this excess energy off.

"I'm going to work from home for the rest of the day." I quickly tell her as I gather everything I'll need to work from home.

I need to sort out a sub, I'm cracking, but I don't want to go to the club. Instead I call my trainer to meet me for a workout.

Claude repeatedly kicked my ass since I wasn't focused. All I could think about was the photo burning a hole in my phone. After my workout, I showered and head home, purposely striding straight for my bedroom. I know what I'm planning to do is wrong, but I don't fucking care. Besides, no one will ever find out. Stripping down to my boxers, I lay on my bed. Once I'm comfortable, I take off my boxers and reach for my phone, pulling up the photo of Anastasia that I took earlier. I swallow hard just looking at the photo. I almost wish her blue eyes weren't hiding behind the blindfold, instead I want them on me, but she's perfection either way. My dick stirs, and it doesn't take long before I am rock solid. I slowly reach down and fist my cock. This feels so good. I wonder what being inside her warm, wet pussy or mouth would be like? I'm sure it's heaven. As I'm jacking myself off, I close my eyes and begin to have my own little Anastasia fantasy. I set my phone aside, since it's no longer needed, and speed up at a much faster pace. I'm stroking my cock so fast, I'm almost afraid it will fall off, or I will lose pleasure if I stop.

"Ana." I pant, moaning, chanting her name over and over like a prayer. "Ana."

I'm almost there when my bedroom door bursts open. I quickly stop and cover myself.

"WHAT THE FUCK, ELLIOT?!" I shout when I see it's my dumbass brother.

I quickly grab my boxers and put them on while using my bedding as a cover.

"What the fuck are you, Christian, fucking 15," Eliot is nonstop hysterically laughing. "Why wouldn't you lock the door?"

"I shouldnt have to lock anything, it's my place! What do you want?!"

"I need your advice on Ana." Ana?

"What about her?" I try to stay impassive.

"I want to ask her out and I want to know the best way to go about it."

Before I realize what I'm doing, I launch at him, pinning him to the wall.

"Stay the fuck away from Ana!" I growl at him. "Do you hear me?!"

"Bro," He laughs it off, "I was just messing with you, but finally! You've proved you're into her."

"What the fuck are you on, Elliot?" I release him. "I am not into Ana. We're just friends and we work together, that's it."

"So you getting off while moaning Ana's name was all in my head then?" Fuck, he heard me.

"Elliot, please. Lay off. I can't deal with your immaturity and jokes right now." I walk back to my bed and pick up my phone, closing the photo and putting the phone on its charger, then I grab my trousers and put them back on.

"Just admit it. You like her."

"I admit things have changed between us for a some time now, but I don't understand it, and I don't know what to do about it. I mean, is it even real or is it because it has been awhile since I've had a good fuck? Besides, Anastasia isn't into me like that."

She has never said or did anything to make me think otherwise.

"Dude, everyone can see how mad for each other you and Ana are. Mum is secretly hoping you to end up together."

"It's not that simple, Elliot, she could never want a man like me."

"Talk to Ana. She might surprise you."

"She went on a fucking date with some douche, for fucks sake."

"A date she ran from the second you called her." He adds.

"That was because of a work related emergency." That she knew of.

"Still, she came to you. She came to you like she always does. Just talk to her."

"I can't do it, Lel. I'll fuck everything up between us and she is too precious to me to lose."

"Well, bro, it's up to you, but I wouldn't leave it too long because women like Ana wont wait around forever."

Elliot finally leaves and I am more stressed than ever. I have no idea why he was even in my apartment. He's always dropping by unannounced. I'm considering changing my elevator entry code. I decide on another shower, and yes, I finally get my release. It's Anastasia starring in my fantasies again. I cum so hard when it's Ana.

Apov

I am so proud of everything I've accomplished today, no thanks to Christian taking off early. I have made all the essential phone calls, I have a team of people setting up the apartment for the photo shoot, I have all the lingerie picked out, and the model Christian chose accepted the job. I just hope Christian doesn't find this model attractive, especially since she will be playing submissive for the day. But judging by his reaction to her profile photo, and the fact that he was looking for his perfect type, I think he might. I can only hope my green-eyed monster doesn't show during the shoot. I have to do something about the feelings I am having for him, they're interfering with everything I do. I know it's wrong, and I know he would never be into me that way, but I can't switch it off. Maybe I should talk to someone about it?

I'm meeting Kate for dinner and drinks at the mile high club. I know Kate isn't on team Christian, but I need advice. I meet Kate at our usual table, and before I get a chance to say anything, she is going on and on about Elliot. She asks me for his number so I send him a text, making sure it's okay, before I give it to her.

"So, Ana, how are you and moneybags getting on?" She finally brings up Christian when we're halfway through our meal.

"Same old." Now that we're talking about him, I'm not sure if it's a good idea to admit my feelings for him out loud.

"Ana, do we have to play this game every time he's mentioned?"

"What game?" I ask dumbfounded.

"The game where you hide what you're really feeling for Grey. Why don't you just admit it? You like him." She accuses me.

"Fine, Kate, here it is," I given in. "I think I am actually obsessed with Christian bloody Grey, are you happy now?"

I huff. If she took half as much of an interest in her own love life, she wouldn't be single.

"Finally, Ana," Kate grins. "Took you long enough to figure it out. Everyone else realized this about five years ago. For someone so smart, you are pretty stupid."

"What's that supposed to mean Kate?" I ask offended.

"Ana, everyone knows you are both crazy about each other. It's not hard to see."

Why does she think Christian could like me?

"Everyone sees my feelings, Kate, not his. He doesn't feel that way about me, and you know it."

"Seriously, you are blind. He feels the same way as you do, but neither of you will admit it to yourselves, let alone each other."

I disagree. Kate and I talk a bit more, and we end up having way too many cocktails.I so needed this. Sawyer drives us home and we manage to head off to our rooms.I need to get my stuff ready for the shoot tomorrow. And I want to shower now since I'm going to Christian's first thing in the morning before the shoot. As I'm walking to the bathroom, I hear my phone go off. I run back to my room and answer it without checking the caller ID.

"Steele." I answer.

"Hello, sweetie. It's Grace."

I'm a little disappointed, I thought it might have been Christian.

"Oh, hello, Grace."

"I hope I am not interrupting anything?" She must have sensed my disappointment even though I tried to hide it.

"Of course not, Grace. How may I help you?"

"I was just ringing to remind you that this year's Coping Together theme is a masquerade ball, so you will need a mask."

"Thanks for the reminder, I completely forgot the theme."

"Also, I'm about to finish the seating chart, are you still bringing a date?"

"Oh, uh," I don't want to go with Cooper anymore. I want to go with Christian, but is that really a good idea?

"Ana?" Grace calls my attention when I take too long to answer.

"No, Grace, I'm no longer going with him, I'll be with Christian. I hope that's not a problem?"

"No, sweetie, that's great. I love seeing the two of you together. My son is always so happy when you are around."

"Thanks, Grace. I have to go now, I will see you on Saturday."

"Okay, dear. We'll see you then."

"Bye."

I need to tell Christian so he's aware of the change. I hope he's okay with it. I'll also need to tell Cooper. I'm not sure what to say to him so I'll text Christian first. I know it's late, but he will be awake, he never seems to sleep much.

A. Hi, just spoke with your mum to confirm arrangements for Sat. I would like to be your date again, if that's alright?
It doesn't take him long to respond.

C. I will be lucky to have you by my side.

I feel better knowing Christian will be my date again, well I say date, but it's not a date, date.

A. Great. I need a mask and don't have the time to go hunting for one. Any chance you can work your magic?

C. I already have a mask for you. Miss Action confirmed your dress a few weeks ago and I took it upon myself to get everything sorted for you.

A. Thanks.

C. My pleasure.

A. Are you already for this shoot tomorrow? I have had a team of people getting the apartment ready, and I received a conformation a few minutes ago that it is all set up and ready to go, if you want to go down there and see if it's to your liking. I know you're the expert.

C. I am indeed, Miss Steele. Have you forgotten, I am master of the universe? Maybe you need a reminder .

A. I am fully aware of that, Mr . Grey. No need for the reminder . I am in bed now, so I will see you at your place for pancakes in the morning.

C. Sweet dreams, Anastasia.

"Sweet dreams, Christian." I whisper.