A/N: Thanks for your patience but I've had a lot on my mind while writing this. ENJOY!

False Hope

It's been a few days since I've been acclimated into Los Angeles. I've met up with Tori who only live a few doors away from me. Maybe Tori's place will be the new place for me to get food from. I drove around LA to see the new sites and try to get my mind off of things. I still think about the day, so it has been hard for me to focus and have fun in the city.

I am trying really hard to have fun. I'm trying really hard to not think about the boy that I do care about. I wish he was there. Why did he have to be so stubborn? I hoped that he would have been supportive of me going to LA and allowing me to fulfill my dream. I never thought that you would just ignore me and disappear on me. I wanted to talk to you about how I feel and yet I don't know if I feel the same anymore.

I was at the top of my apartment building. I kept thinking about what I have done to make him feel this way about me. I wanted him to tell me, but I did write him that letter.

"FREDWARD," I scream, "YOU NUB… I…I…"

I couldn't finish my thought because I started to cry. I was thinking about all the fun times I had back in Seattle.

"Sam," I heard a voice say.

I turned around and had hoped it was the person I thought it might have been.

"Are you okay," Tori asked, "I heard crying as I come up here. I didn't realize it would be you."

I didn't say a word. I just ran up to her and just cried. She just held me just like Carly would if I was crying. She was confused but knew that I probably just needed a good cry. She probably is the second or third person to ever see me cry.

After the cry I went back to my room and I turned on my radio as I continue to look my email to get myself prepare for school next week; this song plays…

Look at the pretty girl, Rocking the summer dress.
Look at the boy with the working tan, stealing another kiss.
Look at the way they're laughing
All happy and in love.
So wrapped up in each other, Can't see the rest of us.

Ughh… does this song have to play now…

Don't you just hate those people?
Don't they make you wanna scream?
Listen to em' baby talkin'. Oh ain't that sweet?
It can really cut right through ya, the way they carry on.
Don't you just hate those people, when you're alone.

Why do I have to keep thinking about this? Do I really care about the boy that much?

When your heart is broken, you feel like the only one.
There's a million others, holding hands. Where do they all come from?
Every coffee table, Every movie, every car
They want the whole wide world to know
How in love they are!

I'm making myself look weak. I have to keep a strong front. I probably owe Tori lunch.

Don't you just hate those people?
Don't they make you wanna scream?
Listen to em' baby talkin'. Oh ain't that sweet.?
It can really cut right through ya, the way they carry on.
Don't you just hate those people, when you're alone.

Someday I'll fall back in love, and i'll be one of them!
Missing you's and Love you too's, but until then..

Don't you just hate those people?
Don't they make you wanna scream?
Listen to em' baby talkin'. Oh ain't that sweet.?
It can really cut right through ya, the way they carry on.
Don't you just hate those people, I mean really really hate those people!
Don't you just hate those people, when you're alone.

Oh when you're alone.

Ughhh finally the song is over. Maybe I should get some shut eye.

I heard the phone ring and I rushed over to it thinking it might have been him. I looked at the phone and it turns out to be Melanie.

"Hey Sam!" she said with a loud obnoxious voice.

"Hi Mel…" I said sarcastically, "is there something you wanted to talk me about."

"Not really; just wanted to say congrats on getting into the school. You know I'm proud of you right."

Mel and I have never been on the same page. She was the goody two shoes who happen to be my sister. She went to a boarding school and was always the child my mom liked, even though half the time she doesn't really care as long we both took care of ourselves. Hearing her voice was the last thing I want to here at the moment. However during this time, it was actually nice hearing her voice.

"I appreciate it," I said changing my tone, "that means a lot coming from you."

"Well," she said, "I don't want to keep you. Maybe I'll come down and visit you."

"Someday Mel; I think right now I have to adjust and know where everywhere is first."

I hung up after talking to her for a little bit longer and went to my mini fridge in my room. I took out the bacon I had and just ate the whole bag. At this rate, I'll finish the food in my fridge before I even get to start school. I told myself to just enjoy my time in LA. I'm sure Carly and Spencer wouldn't want me to falter.

I got a text on my phone from Tori, "Hey, Let's grab some food tomorrow so we can talk about tonight."

I knew this was going to happen. "Sure… but Momma's paying." Words that I never thought I have to type. "It's only fair."

"Fair game… See you tomorrow."

"Lates."

I also promise Carly sometime during the week that we set up a day to chat. I'm sure she will want to hear my school adventures as I continue throughout the year.

I can't think anymore. Maybe this night has gotten me worn out. I'll just hit the hay. I finally shut down my Pearbook and just called it a night.

A/N: The song is Don't You Just Hate Those People from none other than Jennette McCurdy. I'll update this as much as I can. Read and Review!