A/N: I'm sorry in advance for most of my grammar mistakes. I'm doing the best I can. Enjoy! I almost think this should be a crossover… nah… special guest..!

Strength

School started for me and I'm already dreading the basic stuff. I hate having to go through this lecture stuff; but if I want to become an awesome chef… I have to do this. Going to my classes I've met a lot of people who either annoy me or I think who are just crazy. I've tone myself down a little since I came here. I told myself that I can't keep acting like the way I did in Seattle. Momma is really keeping herself in check, but this is something I have to do. I can't let Spencer or Carly down.

As the day went on; I was able to feel about my day. I finally saw someone that I like to talk to. This person came up to me and the funny thing is I already know this person.

"Well, well," the Goth looking girl said, "If it isn't Sam Puckett from iCarly."

"Jade West," I said, "Didn't you and Tori go to the same school."

"What's it to… I mean yeah we did."

"What brings you to culinary school?"

"Boyfriend wanted me to be better at something."

"Made sense; I think."

Jade West, one of Tori's friends that went to Hollywood Arts, was someone who you really don't want to mess with. She and I slowly became friends when I left that party. We haven't really caught up because well… do I really need to say more?

"What about you Puckett?"

"I love food; what more do I say?"

"I can see where that can take you."

Jade and I decided to hang out after our last classes. She met me at my car and we both drove back to my place. As I was walk back upstairs, I still keep seeing things that remind me so much of Freddie. Jade has these weird senses that she picks up when just looking at you.

We walked into my apartment and she saw what my place looked like.

"Looks like someone has changed a little since living in Seattle," she said as she landed on my bean bag couch.

"Yeah," I said grabbing some cola, "I had to make my place a little more presentable but keeping momma's style still alive."

"So about you and Frednub," she said, "I'm surprised that nub hadn't said anything to you at all."

She is quick on the draw like always. I do miss him but she can probably whip me back into my mean self.

"How did you…" I started asking, "I'll pretend I never asked that question. I was going to tell him prior to leaving but he never said goodbye to me."

"That jerk face; I would give him an atomic wedgie next time you see him."

"We definitely think alike that is for sure."

"Damn right we do; and don't you forget it either."

"I just wish I didn't have to keep thinking about him."

She comes up to me and slaps me in the face. *SMACK*

"Puckett," she said to my face, "you have to let it go right now. You really just want to keep being the same sad girl the whole time you are here."

I just rubbed my face; I don't usually let anyone smack me.

"I just can't let this one go," I said as I almost wanted to cry."

She glares at me for a second and gave me a hug.

"You have to be strong Sam… if you don't; you are just going to break down every day. I'm sure you don't want that."

I just nodded my head. She was right after all. I can't be like a sad princess anymore.

"Be strong and just be you Sam… well almost you…"

"Thanks Jade… and uhhh you don't hug."

"I don't give pep talks either; what's your point?"

After out little laugh; she left to return back to her place. I was at home looking around my assignments that are already due for next week. I have write about myself and why I choose to cook. I better be at least serious sounding on these assignments since I can't really just say "Hi I'm Sam and I love to eat…."

I finally just looked at my laptop and just started typing whatever that came into my mind the most. Mostly about how I love eating different types of food and trying to figure out what makes the taste different in each of the plates that I end up eating. That totally sounds like something someone else would say.

I got another phone call; it was from the person I thought I never hear from again.

Oh boy… well here goes.

"Hello," I said softly and nervously.

"Hey," the voice said, "its Freddie."

"So… finally decided to call Momma; boy oh boy if I see you…"

"Yeah… yeah… Sam I just wanted to say I'm sorry for not being there to see you go."

"Your mom told me that you had to take care of somethings." Bullshit… I know for a fact you were hiding in your room… I saw the door open a little with your hair.

"Yeah… I had to take care of T-Bo's laptop."

Great lie…not… "No big deal; is there something you wanted to talk to me about."

"Yeah; I got your letter from my mother… I was just wondering if you really meant what you said in there."

I nearly wanted to cry and just yell at him… "Nu-… Freddie, I poured my heart and soul into that letter… I really wanted you to at least support me in this adventure." I felt tears rolling down my face…

"Yet you chose not to be there… disappear when I wanted to hang out."

"Sam...I -…"

"Don't Sam me… you broke my heart Freddie. I wanted to spend time with you… you of all people. Yet you couldn't even find time for me. Yes Freddie… I love you."

There was silence on the phone… I had to make this move because it was going to hurt me more that it was going to hurt him.

"You broke my heart Freddie Benson," I said as I raise my voice, "I love you and yet you couldn't be there as a friend…"

"Sam I'm sorry," he said as he was talking with tears as well.

"It's too late Freddie… you already crushed my heart…"

I'm about to say the words I'm going to regret for the while.

"DON'T YOU EVER TALK TO ME EVER AGAIN BENSON."

I just hung up and just landed on my bed crying… I thought I had the strength to keep my head up and just be the angry Sam I knew how to be… I became weak and just started to cry like no other… I just had to keep finding the strength and not give up…

I finally wipe the tears off and just save my homework. I went to bed not knowing what my life was going to be like now without thinking about him. It's a start of a new life…

A/N: Before I get attacked… this is just the beginning of how things are going to be fore now… I made Freddie like this because I wanted to see how things will end up… and for now, it looks like it's been a holding up to how I want it. Keep reading in the future… Read and Review… and don't worry like I said in the summary… eventual Seddie… that time will come!