Bella's POV:

I had finally been dragged to bed by Leah and Emily after days of being awake. I hardly left Micah and Noah's sides and when I did it was usually only for a few moments but I knew that I needed some sleep.

Jasper met us in the bedroom and helped me get past the pain and fear I thought sleep would bring with a large dose of lethargy.

"But the boys…" I argued trying to fight the yawn and my heavy eyelids as Emily laid me down and tucked me in.

"Will be fine. Jarrod and Sam are on their way over with a couple of the others and will watch them until you wake up." Leah said insistently from the doorway. I don't know what I would have done this week without her, Emily, Kim, Esme and Rose.

Alice hadn't been much of a help simply because she was beside herself that she hadn't seen this coming, that she hadn't been able to stop this all from happening.

Everyone had been doing their best to reassure the boys, especially Micah, that daddy loved them and would be home soon and that they had done nothing wrong.

I honestly just missed my husband. I needed him so badly; I needed his arms around me and his deep voice soothing me. I had put up this strong front and I needed him so that I could let it down and just sob.

The lights were turned off as Emily left the room and I felt the blackness overcoming me within seconds. I guess I was more tired than I thought I was.

I was dreaming and I knew it but I couldn't wake up. It felt like I was stuck to one spot and there was nothing I could do to move. I had to stand and watch as Edward drained my precious daughter in front of Paul who was being held back by someone I couldn't quite see.

Paul was screaming in agony and I could feel his defeat as I started to scream "No . . . Paul . . . Edward . . . Molly . . . NO!"

All of a sudden I felt a searing hot hand brush gently though my hair and I awoke with a start. I heard the shattering of the lamp that had previously adorned my bedside table and struggled to free myself from the confines of my sheets and quilt.

I managed to roll over just in time to hear my Paul's sweet voice say nervously "Bella?"

"Paul?" I questioned. I still felt half asleep it was quite possible that out of exhaustion I had dreamt up the one person I needed most right now.

I only paused for a moment before launching myself into his arms clinging to him as if he were going to disappear in a puff of smoke if I let him go.

"Oh Paul you're really here." I sobbed into his shoulder and he rubbed soothing circles across my back and shoulders.

"I am," He whispered his voice cracking as he continued "I couldn't find her Bella. I'm so sorry."

"Paul it's ok." I insisted kissing him passionately as I pulled us so we were lying down on our bed completely entwined. I doubted that anyone could tell where one of us ended and one began if they entered the room right then.

"No it's not Bell" He continued tears starting to roll down his cheeks and I kissed them away. "I broke my promise. I didn't protect you. I didn't protect her. I hurt you and I hurt the boys. I can't do anything right." His whole body was convulsing with sobs as I hugged him tightly.

Paul wasn't the type to normally show emotion so I knew that he desperately needed me just to hold him and soothe him at the moment.

"No Paul you don't apologize to me for doing nothing wrong." I said vehemently "Our boys love you, I love you." I insisted making him look at me.

"But I should have found her or I should have been here."

"Paul you were looking for her. You did everything in your power to bring her home and you will continue to do so." I said softly "We all will until she is home safe and sound in our arms. The boys are ok, they missed you and so did I but they understood why you were gone. I just wish you had said good bye to Micah and I." I admitted the last bit reluctantly knowing that it would cause him pain which I didn't want to do but I needed to get that off my chest.

"I thought you hated me." I barely heard him say.

"Paul I will never in a million years hate you." I insisted. "I just missed you so much." I let my own tears start to fall as I buried myself closer to his chest.

"I love you Bella."

"I love you too Paul." I sighed. I wasn't happy because I wouldn't be able to feel happiness until my daughter was home and safe but I was more content than I had been all week and I yawned slightly Jasper's dosage of lethargy still filling me.

"Go to sleep sweetheart" Paul murmured playing with my hair a little "We can talk more in the morning."

I nodded slightly and kept my grip around him tight. I needed him to be here when I woke up- I didn't think I could do it anymore if this all just turned out to be a dream.

"DADDY!" was the shriek that woke me up only hours after falling asleep again. I opened my eyes slowly and just in time to see Noah being hoisted onto the bed a large grin on his face followed closely by Micah.

Paul had a sad smile on his face and I am sure my face mirrored his. I kissed Micah's head as he nestled into my arms. He had really missed Paul over the past week and had been having a hard time dealing with all this change.

Noah was talking a million miles a minute just like his godmother normally did and Paul was making all the appropriate noises at the right times when Noah leaped into his arms and hugged him ferociously.

"Micah do you want to say hi to daddy?" I asked brushing his hair away from his eyes.

"I said 'hi's before bed!" He exclaimed as if this were the most obvious thing in the world and continued "Daddy's home now is Mowwy too?"

"No Micah." Paul said sadness seeping into his words "Not yet. Bella I called Sam over, I will explain everything when he gets here if that's ok?"

I nodded slowly and bent my head a little inhaling my son's scent for comfort. We stayed this way, just holding the boys until Sam arrived at the door twenty minutes later.