A/N: I know it's been a chapter every other few days… but I think I'm semi on a roll with writing… Even though it's only a been a few people reviewing… it gives me great pride in writing this story… Enjoy!

Memories

The time has passed since both Mel and Carly have left Los Angeles. It was nice that all of them gave me a hand on helping me with the whole Freddie thing. I don't think I could have done it without them. It has been 5 months since the whole incident and I've been wondering about all the things that have happened to me. I can't really shake this feeling…I never thought that I would still be crushing over the boy. Maybe I was really hard on him… I just wish…

I got out of my apartment and just went straight to my car. I just drove around the city to just see if I can shake off the feelings in my head. I ended up by the Hollywood sign and just chilled by the sign…

*Flashback*

"Sam," Freddie said, "I have a gift for you."

"Nub," I said, "You know I don't want to…"

Freddie pulled out Mr. Ham and I just dropped my jaw.

"You nub," I said, "I love him."

We both kissed as I grab on to the Mr. Ham.

*End Flashback*

I started to cry… I couldn't just keep to myself anymore… I hated how things were going for me. I just wanted to be myself and just enjoy the time that I have being down here. I've met up with great people and just had a blast with them. These past 5 months though have been hell for me.

Damn it Freddie… Why did you have to be the one for me? Why did you leave a gaping hole in my heart? I should be able to move on from you and just be me… I then realized that I'm not who I was in high school when Carly, you and I have been together…

I started to remember more things that he and I did when we did go out for the brief time. It was awkward but it was worth it. We had a lot of fun when we did go out. However when he did go out with Carly because of the whole taco truck incident; I just have a feeling that it was weird for him.

I was about to leave from the sign until a phone call headed my way. I looked at the phone and it was Mel…

"Hey Mel," I said after wiping off my tears.

"Hey Sam," she said, "You wouldn't happen to be by the Hollywood sign and just got through a crying session would you."

"Nothing can get past you."

"I'm actually down by your car."

"When did you get in?"

"About an hour and half ago, I'm on a week-long break; I figured you would like some company."

I went down as we continued to talk for a bit on the phone. I finally met up with her and just gave her a hug. It was so nice to see her… I don't think she knows that this really helps me…

"Thanks for coming back down Mel," I said, "How did you get here if you didn't drive?"

"You owe me dinner," she said.

"You took a cab?"

"Yeah I did."

"Let's get you back to my place."

We both got onto my car and just headed back to my place. We caught up for a bit as we entered my apartment.

"So Sammie," she said as she plops onto my bean bag couch, "How has the last few months been?"

"Could be better," I said, "I just wish I wasn't too caught up in the memories that I have."

"I'm sure you had a lot of good ones with Carly at least."

"Yeah I did; it's just most of them have always been with him too."

"That's understandable. You've guys have been best friends for a long time."

"You know you are included in that topic Mel."

"Yeah but I left around high school."

"Even then, you still are considered out best friend even if you are my sister."

"Aww, thanks Sam." We embraced in another hug.

"I know it tough still Sam but, any memory in particular that still bothers you."

"I just wish he would have told me how he felt."

"Would it have changed your mind about coming down here?"

"I wish I could tell you Mel."

She did get me thinking though; would have I decided to come down here if he would have told me sooner. It's an opportunity of a lifetime and I can't miss it. At the same time though, I wouldn't have met up with Tori and Jade again while being down here.

"So Sam," She said as I had just finished making dinner.

"What's up," I asked.

"I'm finally moving back to the West Coast."

"No way that's great. Where have you decided?"

"I have gotten offers from two different schools. One here in California and the other one back home in Seattle."

"Wow that's great Mel. Does that mean I get to see you more?"

"Pretty much; we can finally catch up more and bond a lot more."

"I would cringe more but you've been too good to me."

"Gee thanks Sammie."

We both laughed; it was a huge surprised to hear that Mel was actually moving back to the West Coast. I'm glad though, it would be nice to have family around more. Honestly if it wasn't for the whole her getting a scholarship to go to the boarding school, I think her and I would have gotten some more bonding time together. I cringe to think that I still have that ability to get along with my sister.

After dinner we just messed around and told each other things that had happened over the years. She apparently had a few boyfriends that she would of love to have gotten rid of sooner. It's hard to see my sister having such a hard time with boys. Maybe we are alike in that sense.

"You know I would have love seeing you with a butter fill sock and just swung at the guy," she said.

"I could honestly say I would see myself doing that," I said.

"How many boys have you and Carly fought over?"

"Too many to count; I just wish at times we didn't like the same boy."

"It's tough to see that but at the same time you both had caught them at the same time."

Don't remind me… I think the one boy we chased after the most before Freddie was I think Shane…

We kept talking for the rest of the night as the memories just flown back into my head. I just want some solution for all of this. I just wish… no… I don't want that to happen… It was going to be a tough couple of months down the road, but I just have to keep being stronger. I knew at some point though I am going to have to get over either at being mad at Freddie or honestly lose a friend that has been there for me up until the point I left.

A/N: I know it's been Melanie related chapters but hey it works… Sam is finally probably having second thoughts about the whole thing. Maybe Mel will be able to help Sam in all this. Read and Review!