A/N: Sorry for not updating, been busy with other things… but I finally had a chance to write more about this story… Enjoy!

Heart Decisions

I still can't believe that Melanie decided to spend her one week with me. I am very grateful; she has been very helpful as a sister. I love her so much… I wish she can just stay down here. I cannot believe I would say that. I just wish that this whole thing didn't happen. Mel left after the 4th day so she can be ready to head back to school. It was back to the old grind for me. I never thought that I would just have to be hard at work. I was baking and making things that I never thought I would make. It's only my first year and I'm already doing a lot.

Don't get me wrong, I've gotten boys asking me to hang out with them…it's just I would seem to decline because I can't seem to be with anybody else. The only time I would say yes to hanging out with them is when we have to do a group project. It's been a rare that I would have a boy at my place. I just can't seem to shake that feeling because of him…

"Stupid Freddie," I said to myself out loud… Why do have to be so hurtful to me? If you would have said something to me earlier I would have at least considered my options. I was able to survive this long since the incident but it just didn't feel the same.

I finally was able to head back into my room and just jump onto my pearbook. I wonder how Carly is doing…

Just as I thought that I had seen an invitation to web chat with Shay.

"Hey cupcakes," I said.

"Hey Sam," she said as she was lying down on her bed.

"How has this semester been treating you?"

Carly decided to go a community college first to at least save up some money. It was a smart move on her part and at the rate she was going she could probably knock out most of her General Education classes within a year.

"Going well; just passed my latest exams and looking at my options for schools to transfer too."

"Already Shay; didn't you just start school."

"Yeah but the classes that I've signed up for are all really easy to me."

"That's good to hear."

It was nice to just have a talk with Carly. I don't get to do that often since I'm always busy with my homework assignments. Most of which requires me to focus on my cooking.

"I hear Mel was down there for her break. Did you guys have a good time?"

Carly knows all and hears all. I'm glad though; she knows when to cheer me up and I wish she was down here with Mel. It would be nice to all live together.

"Yeah we did. It was nice boding time on our part."

"That's good to hear."

"Did you hear Shay?"

"What's up Sam?"

"Mel is coming back to the West Coast for school."

"That's great Sam! Did she tell you which school she chose?"

"She hasn't decided yet. She got offer letters for both schools in California and in Seattle."

"Wow, hopefully she has some time to think about it."

"She does."

After we caught up about Mel; there was one question that I was going to regret asking. It was something that I have to ask though.

"So… how's Freddie been doing since the whole incident?"

"I'm surprise you wanted to bring that up Sam."

"I still worry about the boy… just wish he didn't do the things he did."

"I understand Sam… he's doing okay… finally was able to just accept on what you had said and move on for now."

"That's good to hear. Is he dating?"

"He decided to hold off on dating for now. He seemed pretty stern about it."

He not dating … Doesn't seem to likely… At the same time though, I would probably have done the same thing.

"I guess the boy is still holding off huh… not chasing you anymore…"

"He will tease but he knows that I'm not interest like I was before."

"Were you ever interested in the boy? Besides being saved by him."

"I did; but when I brought up those feelings to him, he just said I was still Bacon. So I just finally decided to move on from him."

"At least you know how you feel about him."

"Still having doubts about what you said to him?"

"A little but I have more things to worry about now."

"Time will hear Sam… things will get better I promise."

"Thanks Carly."

After we talked a little more, I disconnected the chat and just put my pearbook away. I felt really tired and didn't want have to think about the situation anymore. I just wish things were better sometimes for me. I don't know what to feel anymore… Maybe Tori was right… I might have been a little hard on him. I just don't know what to feel anymore.

I looked at my phone and looked up his number… I didn't know what to do… do I really want to reconcile the whole thing already or do I just keep pushing back for now. Just when I was about to make the decision, I heard my door open from the front. Tori and Jade both walked into my room. Who knew Jade can also pick locks?

I went up to the living room and saw that they weren't alone. Their friends Andre and Beck were with them as well.

"Hey you guys," I said, "welcome to my place."

"Sam its good seeing you again," Andre said.

"Nice seeing you," Beck said.

"They both wanted to see you since I told them that you were here," Tori said as her and Jade walked into my apartment. I brought out leftover cupcakes from my other project and offered it to them.

Jade took a bite and actually smile as she knew I was practicing with my bakery items.

"These are good Puckett," she said as she took another bite, "Lemon Meringue?"

"Good guess," I said.

The rest of them nodded in approval…. It was nice having company over. I wish these guys were here often. It would be nice to be able to hang out with them more. I turned on the music and we just enjoyed the rest of the night.

The next morning I woke up around noon since it was the weekend. I went to check my mailbox and saw that it was another unaddressed letter. Why do I have a feeling? I finally opened the letter and just stared at it for a moment…

Dear Sam,
I know it's weird for me to send you another letter since you didn't want to hear from me. I just want to let you know that I've been well. I know that I may not have been the greatest friend to you so I'm trying to amend that in anyway. I heard from Carly that you were doing well in school. That is good to hear.

I know you may not care about me, but I've been trying to see about finally moving out of my mother's place. She hasn't been the same mom that I've known and I really want to look for a new school.

I hope this letter doesn't get torn up in anyway.

From your friend who wants to make things right…

Freddie

Well at least he is making the attempt first… I finished reading the letter and just didn't know what to say. Luckily I knew the address of Bushwell, so I decide to write back…

Dear Freddie,
Thanks for your concern. At least I know that you are making the attempt. I wish again it wasn't in letter form but it is a start. Right now for me Freddie I just want to let you know it's still going to take some time for me to trust you again… you broke my heart and lost my trust but I will say this…

Hopefully you will able to move out of your mother's place… it's about time you move on with your own life…

I still do think about you Freddie, but it's just hard right now since school has piled up on me. I can't forgive you yet… but this is a start…

From your friend,

Sam

A/N: Well I hoped you enjoyed this one! Is Sam almost ready to get back with his friend… time will tell… Read and Review!