A/N: So…. Yeah I've had a rough month but to be honest… this one took a while to think about… it's close to being over actually since it's been harder to write… however I might change things up in the future with my next stories.

Sam's Heart

"FREDDIE…" I screamed, "I LOVE YOU."

"I love you too," a voice said as I turned around, "Sam…I miss you."

I didn't care at that point; I ran up and just started to hug the boy as tears were falling down. I couldn't stay mad at him. He has been there for me since I first met him. There has been so much pain and suffering that I've done to myself.

I pulled back though; knowing it can't be right at this moment.

"How long were you standing there," I asked as I wipe the tears off.

"About a good few minutes," he said as he held the letter in his hand, "You know you have to be better about writing letters to me."

"Shut it Nub."

Am I ready to give my heart back to him… there is so much in my mind right now that I can't even think straight.

"Freddie," I said, "I don't know…I just don't know what to do about… us."

"I understand," he said, "it's just I finally realized… how much of an idiot I've been."

"I just wish I knew how I feel."

My heart is confused… I can't tell if I am ready to go back to you Freddie…

"I just don't know if I am ready to trust you again."

"I know… Sam I've made a lot of mistakes… I just wish I knew this before you left…"

"I know…"

I just embraced him… I didn't know what else to do. I just wanted to at least know that yes I still care enough to be there for him. It terms of being friends… I think it's at least the right thing to do. I just hope at some point that I can at least find the heart to at least truly forgive him and maybe… just maybe… be with him again.

I left the roof and headed back to the room where Carly and Melanie were. They both notice that I was crying and just went over and hugged me.

I just told them that I just needed to vent. I couldn't just let them know what actually happened. I just want to be able to enjoy the time I have with them. I felt like this was best time to at least keep things quiet for a bit.

It was late and I went downstairs to the kitchen to grab something to eat. I noticed that Mel was downstairs in the kitchen too. She saw me and pulled up the chair and told me to sit.

"Sammie," she said, "what are you doing up so late?"

"Hey Mel," I said, "I could ask the same for you."

"I just have a lot of things on my mind."

"Makes sense Sammie; hopefully things will get better between you and Freddie."

"How did you…"

"Sammie; I am your twin… plus I noticed you wincing when we asked you that question earlier."

"I guess I can't keep it a secret from you and Carly huh?"

"Nope… I do wish you would have told us."

"I'm sorry… I just wish things didn't have to be this way."

"Things will get better… you just have to keep your heart in check. That's what I think at least."

"I know… I just wish things were just a little better in terms of how I truly felt about him."

After we hugged I went back to the room and notice Carly was up. I went to her room and notices that she was just reading.

"Hey Cupcake," I said as I walked into the room, "What are you doing still up?"

"Just doing some reading," she said, "I could ask you the same question but I think I figured you and Mel had a talk."

"We did; I mean it helped a little but I just don't feel good about it at the moment."

"Understandable; I mean things between the two of you just got better again."

"Let me guess; you knew."

She smiled; she just went over and gave me huge hug. I wished I didn't lie to them in the first place. Those two have always been there for me and for me to lie hurts me a little. At least both of them understand why I did it though.

After a long while I finally went to sleep. I was finally able to sleep for the first time in forever. It was morning and I finally went downstairs to see that no one else was actually down here. I saw my food options in Carly's fridge were limited and also I couldn't just leave the apartment. I just took a pep cola and just drank it.

I guess I'm just drinking my sorrow in sweet soda. I don't know maybe I should just give it a chance.

I just went back to the room and fall back asleep to wait for the girls to get up.

A/N: Hey sorry for the short chapter but I want to make the last two… that's right two chapters worth it… So I will make it up to you guys then.