Chapter 32

GracePOV

This week has to be one of the worst weeks of my life between gun shots and explosions I am a wreck, I am bearly holding myself together. The thought of losing Christian was more than enough for me to bear watching how devastated Ana was nearly sent me over the edge not only for how much she was hurting but for how much she actually loves my son. The thought of Christian not being able to feel all the love from Ana and have a chance of a life together really had be going crazy. I have always wanted the best for all my children an the thought of them not getting full happiness in their lives truly breaks my heart. Tonight was the night that made my heart start to beat again seeing Christian down on one knee proclaiming his love for Ana and asking her to marry him it was the moment every parent dreams of true happiness.

That was until my eldest child decided that it was the best time to lose his mind and resort to acting like a spoilt child, I have to say that myself and all the family are outraged and shocked by Elliot's behaviour this evening. Usually I feel a whole lot of ways about the way Elliot's behaves a good percentage of the time but this time he has really gone for gold. I haven't seen the look Christian had on his face when approaching Elliot since he was a teenager, I usually get more than involved when my child squabble but this is going to be more that a childish argument I know Christian is out for blood. Seeing the disappointed look on Ana's face is enough to make any woman cry I knew she was going to say yes there was no doubt in my mind.
My father tries to reason with Christian to not hit Elliot and when I hear what comes out of Christians mouth I know he actually means what he says and usually followed through. I can't believe the vile things that are coming out of Elliot's mouth I have never condoned violence but I am not surprised that Christian hits him. Everyone is looking back and forth from my two boys to Ana who looks deeply upset she even tries to speak up to defend herself I am so glad Christian didn't want her to as Elliot's claims are ludicrous. Seeing my son fall to ground snaps me right out of angry mummy mode to panicked mummy mode quickly.

After hearing what the doctor has said and now we all know that Elliot was not responsible for his actions everything makes more sense, He will not get off with this easily as Christian and Ana have every right to be mad at him not only for the accusations but for ruining their engagement. I was very surprised about the engagement as no one knew what Christian had planned well I am very sure Mr Taylor did but then again that man usually knows everything that is going on. I sent everyone home as there is no point in everyone being here as I will stay with Elliot tonight, I mostly want Christian and Ana to be able to have a discussion about what has happened and hopefully that ring will be on her finger by morning.
Once I say my goodbyes and head back into Elliot's room i completely let loose one him.

" Elliot are you out of your mind?"! I didn't realise how loud I was until I see Elliot has pulled himself back onto the bed.

" Mum seriously I don't need any of this now" He looks at me very sternly.

" Well tough as you are going to get it. I can't believe how you can continue to be so careless and down right stupid. Did me and your father not raise you well enough"

" Mum I" I wont allow him to finish so I cut him off.

" Just shut up no talking I am your mother and I have earned the right to yell at you especially when you act like a jackass" Yes I know me Dr Grace using that type of language.

" Do you realise what you have done? you ruined your brother engagement you disrespected Ana and said some rather vile things. You are going have to do something amazing if you want to gain their forgiveness because Christian looks like he is ready to lose it"
I stop talking as I see how hurt Elliot is I know he did not do all those things intentionally but still it was him. He starts to sob and I can't help myself but to go back into loving mummy mode. I hold my son while he cries and I try and figure out how I can make this all better.

CPOV
I am not impressed about Ana wanting to go LA I could only imagine the stress that its going to cause me, for one I can't go as GEH needs me when she is planning on going and two see is going with Mia that does not make me confident about a safe and not fun trip. She looks so happy and I don't want to burst her bubble but I have my reservation about all this, she has already emailed Gwen about getting models and has all the ideas in her head of what sets she will have the models wearing she is in the zone and it has only been an hour since the call. I don't know if it's the happy news or me but my baby can't keep her hands off me and we fuck like rabbits for hours, once we are very sated I hear Ana tell me she would have said yes to my proposal.
My brain wont switch off as I have fucked up I should have just proposed in private but I wanted to shout it from the rooftops I guess I made a huge fuck up.

Will my next proposal mean as much to the both of us or has it been ruined for good and it will never happen so many thoughts are going through my mind. I hold Ana close to me as she always has a way of making me feel better even when she is asleep. We are back to work tomorrow most men would hate to have to work with their girl all day and then go home and be with her all night but for me its sheer bliss. I hope Ana does not bring up the getting another job shit with me again as I am going to allow her to go anywhere and she can kick up as much of a fuss as likes.

I know that I will have to deal with the Elliot situation sooner than later, I have Taylor making the proper plans to bring fucking Leila Williams to me so I can deal with her. I plan on making her wish that she was never born, I would less murderous if I wasn't with Ana I always knew Leila had a problem with Ana but I didn't care as she was a sub not a girlfriend what she thought of how she felt about Ana was never important. I always prided myself on being a good dom and I took care of them physically and emotionally but by the time Leila came on board I think I was already in love with Ana.
I mean what kind of dom cancels a scene or has no interested that his sub is ready and waiting and would rather talk business with his assistant oh that's right none apart from me.

The night Leila was roleplaying that she was Ana made my lose it as Ana meant more to be than any sub ever did. I think I knew Ana was the one for me after our first kiss that night she stayed over the next day I designed her engagement ring with my guy at Cartier yes that's how serious I got that fast. I look down at Ana's hand where her ring should be instead of being in my safe it actually brings me pain to look at her empty finger. I know after she told me should have said yes I could have the ring and put it on her finger but she deserves so much better than that.
I will come up with a plan to giver her the full romantic proposal experience, I am looking forward to seeing her in a beautiful dress walking down an aisle to come to be with me for the rest of our lives.

APOV

I wake to find Christian not in bed with me I don't need to look for him as I hear him in the bathroom, I feel really disappointed this morning as I look at my finger after telling Christian what my answer would have bee I honestly thought he would have put the ring on me and make it official. I am worried that he has changed his mind and he has realised that marriage and me are not for him oh god I feel sick. I am going to try and not think about it and focus on LA Christian doesn't understand what a huge deal it is I guess all he hears is Ana is going away. I already know that he can't come with me as he is going to be super busy, am surprised he hasn't said that I had planned it so he couldnt come sometimes his mind even shocks me.

To top all that stress of we both have to deal with the Elliot situation, I feel for him as I know Elliot would have never done those things but it still hurts. Christian has never been a forgiving person I just hope this does not go on for a long time as I know it will take a while to truly trust him and be ok with everything but there needs to be a start somewhere. With all the drama that has happened I completely forgot that I over heard Christian telling Taylor he wants Leila Williams found I wonder who she is. When things start look up they go to shit pretty fast I would have prefered to stay in bed all day and hide from the world but I have to go into work can't look like sleeping with the boss just gets me days off when I want them.
I stay in bed until Christian comes out of the bathroom in nothing but a towel i lick my lips like he is a delicious slice of cake. " Like what you see baby?" that sexy voice to his makes me crazy. I launch at him forgetting all the stress from moments ok we have what Christian calls a quickie I would not call it that like but I will go with what he says after all he is more experienced than me. We have been at work for over an hour now and I have near enough finished all the planning for LA. Gwen sent me the pictures of all the models she has available and I pick ten from her list got to love having good contacts. I book airline tickets for myself and Mia we will be flying out friday and returning sunday its a short trip but I am excited.
My phone starts vibrating and I see a text flash up.

Kate: Ana please allow me to explain everything I really miss you.

I decide to ignore her as I am not in any mood for her now she has a nerve even contacting me but that's Kate for you. I head into Christians office as I know he has time for lunch who am I kidding I am in charge of his calendar so I made sure we could have lunch together. Before our food arrives I get a chance to show Christian the pieces I plan on taking to LA and he approves of them it is his
company and you would think he would take more of an interest but he always tells me that this is my baby. We end our lunch with some naughty office sex in where he ripped my panties so now I am walking around bear down there. I see Grace arrive and for once I don't know what to say to her as she will feel like she is torn between two sons.

SIX DAYS LATER.

"ARE YOU FUCKING FOR REAL SAWYER, I AM ON MY WAY TO THE JET KNOW I WILL FUCKING DEAL WITH AND YOU WHEN I GET THERE YOU FUCKING PRICK!