Chapter 40
APOV
I was so worried about christians reaction to all of this but he has been perfect a big part of me is disappointed that I am not pregnant as Christian looked so happy when he thought I was, I am worried about the appointment he has made for today as I don't want him to build his hopes up about the test being wrong. Before we leave for the appointment I make sure I have everything I need well all I need is my passport as always Christian hs took care of everything I have the sudden urge to pee so I take a quick trip to the bathroom. I notice that I have my period and my heart sinks I guess the test was right I decided to call Dr Greene and cancel the appointment as there is no point in going now, The good doctor tells me that she believes that there has been a major hormone change in my body lately which could have caused the symptoms.
Once I am done with the phone call I see Christians smile beaming across his face and I know that smile wont be there in a few minutes. I honestly thought that Christian would have lost his mind and have been so unhappy about the situation but I have never seen him this happy before which makes things that much more difficult.
" Hey baby are you ready to go to Dr Greene's office?" He gives me that hopeful luck and I just die inside.
" I called her and cancelled Christian as I have got my period so I guess the test was right after all" and there is the face drop I was waiting for I feel like I have hurt a puppy. He pulls me so close to him and we just stand there I guess both thinking of the what if's.
"Come on baby let's get out of here and enjoy some relaxing time away" the Aspen excitement has officially gone.
Once we are safely on the jet I get comfortable as I am feeling tired and I know Christian plans on doing some work during the flight so it's a win win. I am awoken to soft kisses to my face and I know its Christian. "Christian 5 more minutes please" "wits not dada mama its me swilly" I literally jump awake and Christian rushes over to me what in the hell was that I now know it was a dream but it felt so real.
"Baby are you ok was you having a nightmare?" He looks at me puzzled
" I would say a very vivid dream" I know he is waiting on me to elaborate further but I just can't.
" Baby please tell me what has you like this?"
" I can't Christian it no good will come from it due to recent circumstances"
He gives me is stern you best tell me look and I cave.
" I dreamt that you where waking me up by softly kissing my face but then it wasnt you kissing me"
" What the fuck Anastasia you where dreaming of being with another man? I can't fucking believe this" He does his usual hair pull and stress face.
" It was your son well I am guessing as I could not see him I could only hear his sweet angelic voice" I see Christian practically melting in front of me.
" What did he say baby?" He holds me close and kisses my head.
"wits not dada mama its me swilly"
There are no more words shared between us for a while until Christian speaks.
" Baby you do know that we are in love and going to be married and if we want a baby then we can have one"
Well my ovaries defiantly heard that as I can hear them practically scream yes hell yes fuck yes let's do this now.
" You want a baby Christian?" oh don't give me that sexy smile Grey.
" I would love nothing more than to have our little mini me growing inside of you" Damn period as all I want to do is jump on this man how can one man be so hot I can't control my own thoughts right will have to have a serious conversation about all of this but for now I don't want to kill his happiness.
CPOV
I have secretly been researching on my phone about false negatives and chances of pregnancy and things look good for us I have to admit that I am so thrilled with the Ana of a baby. At one point in my life I was all about avoiding pregnancy now I am all for impregnating my future wife yes I said it I want this to happen. The imagine of Ana with a baby bump makes me feel so warm and content I really want this and no matter what happens today I am on a baby making mission. I read over Welch's email from last night and it turns out that the erratic driver was an elderly male who suffered a stroke behind the wheel he is stable which is good and even better that Ana was not a target.
I see Ana come out of our bedroom and I know something is playing on her mind I worry that she does not want a baby as she wants to expand her career and she is only young. Ana tells me that she cancelled the appointment and the reason why and I feel like my dream has just died right in front of me, I put on my tough CEO face as I don't want Ana to feel any worse than she already does as I can see it all over her face. Once we are settled on the het Ana is soon asleep and I concentrate on doing some work after a short while I see Ana fidgeting and I know she is dreaming I hope it involves me all of a sudden she shoots up like she was shot out of a cannon and I quickly go to her.
I am beyond angry when she tells me what she was dreaming about until she finishes what she was telling me and I feel elated and I practically beg her to let me put a baby in her. I have never been that open and honest about my feelings before but I know I want this I can feel it the thought of holding my baby in my arms is probably the best feeling anyone could feel and I want that with Ana. I hope that I have not scared her off as she is less affectionate once we arrive at our home here in Aspen, I know I should give her the space she obviously needs but not knowing what she's thinking makes me crazy.
" Baby I know that I have probably freaked you out I just wanted to be honest and let you know how I feel"
" It's not that Christian its just what you said has kinda made me errrmmmmmm" She bites that lip and gives me the I need you look.
" Well baby why didn't you say let me take good care of you" She looks so freaked out right now.
" Christian I can't that gross I am having my period and we can't have sex that s to weird no, No Christian Grey do not give me that look you know what that look does to me" Oh I know baby that's why I am giving you it.
" Baby you having your period does not bother me in the slightest so follow me and I will make you feel so good you will even forget your own name"
I find Ana so cute at times like a little blood will stop me from getting my fill of her, after a very hot and steamy sex session I let Ana rest while I get my laptop out and do some online research and I even order some books that will come in handy. I end up on a baby clothing site and I feel like I am a hormonal woman right now I am actually looking at baby clothes and I am going arw that's cute. I click buy it now on the cutest little baby grow I don't know what possessed me to buy it but I just had to have it. I know we will be getting our baby soon I just have to patient and wait. I have even been researching the shot Ana got and to see if there are any flaws or if there are early times that it could run out before the three months it says it lasts.