"That was it?" Julia asked with a yawn.
"I told you it wasn't anything special," Beckett answered. "And if you ask we did get dessert."
"Split a sundae," Darnley suddenly said.
"Patrick?" Beckett asked in surprise.
"Yeah, I could hear you talking," Darnley replied, smiling at Julia when she looked at him. "Are you okay?"
"I had a nightmare," Julia confessed.
"I thought that might happen," Darnley replied. "You, Kate?"
"I was trying to fall asleep right now," Beckett replied. "Can you tuck her in again?"
"Sure, night," Darnley told her.
"Night," Beckett said.
"Night Mommy, love you," Julia replied.
"I love you too sweetie," Beckett said before she said goodnight to them both, knowing her friend would take care of her oldest.
Though she knew she needed to get some sleep herself Beckett couldn't help herself and she got up, walking over to Castle. Standing next to him she murmured gently, "Hopefully you can sense this in some way." She leaned down and gently brushed her lips to his, pulling away slightly soon after. She paused before she could get too far away from him and then leaned down again to kiss him a little harder. She knew she shouldn't feel surprised he didn't respond but it didn't make it any less heartbreaking.
To try and distract herself Beckett told him, "Julia's alright, she had a nightmare but I spoke to her and hopefully she'll be alright now." She couldn't stop herself and fixed the sheet and blanket over her husband though they didn't need it. "Goodnight my love," she whispered gently to him, pressing her lips to his forehead.
Making her way back to her bed Beckett climbed up onto it and then watched her husband while she lay down on her side once more. She bit her lower lip as she had remembered; somehow; what she'd written to her husband in her entry earlier about their first night together. She turned onto her back and closed her eyes, letting the memory wash over her to take her mind away from everything going on.
Feeling Castle's hands on her back push it before he took her lips again Beckett was tempted to lay back down. But he seemed to be set on touching her instead and he ran his hands all over her body until they were parting. Instead of saying anything she allowed him to lay her on the bed, breathing a little heavily as his eyes were intense in the sudden flash of lightning in the room. She watched him lean down to her before he reached her neck and she arched her head back, giving him better access to her. Her eyes rolled in the back of her head when he suddenly bit gently at her pulse. "Castle," she breathed out as his hand came up then to cup her breast.
Wanting to speak Castle held off as he lowered his head a little further until he'd come to her breasts. As he'd touched them already he was aware of their size but finally having her bare before him he could see them fully. They were perfect, he thought to himself, and he breathed out a little before he moved to her right breast, brushing his lips against her nipple as he was looking up at her at the same time. He was delighted in her heavy moan before he moved to repeat the same with the other and then used both his hands to run over her mounds.
Beckett was shocked to feel the rush of pleasure at a very simple touch and she cried out when his lips were on her skin just beneath her sternum. She was panting outright while he was trailing his lips down her skin until he reached the apex of her legs. She bit her lower lip as his lips pressed directly on it and she carefully parted her legs for him. The first touch of his lips directly to her sex and she was gasping for air, the shock of it almost overwhelming. "Castle…" she breathed out again.
Moving up then Castle kissed her on the lips gently, relieved when she responded instantly and caught his with her own. He held her tightly, trying not to react too heavily to her pressed against his chest, and fought with her tongue that he'd tangled around inside her mouth. He was shuddering at the taste of her, trying to stand it for a little longer as their hips were pressed flat together. He had no idea when he'd moved to lay directly on her but because she wasn't stopping him he didn't move.
When Castle pulled away from her Beckett leaned up enough to brush her lips against his and then lay back fully as he seemed to lose control on her. He was kissing all around her body, focusing at first on her breasts before he moved lower and returned to her sex. That time he was at her clit and she nearly screamed out his name though she managed to just moan it as she felt almost delirious from the pleasure that radiated like heat through her entire form. She reached down when he kissed and then licked at her, not knowing if she would be able to withstand him for very much longer as she wasn't used to a man making her feel that way.
Able to tell already that Beckett wasn't going to last Castle moved back up to her and kissed her deeply before he felt her legs were parted for him. He had no idea when she'd done that but as she drew him down to her he realized it didn't matter. And hard on the heels of that he came to the realization that they hadn't really been awkward with each other. That thought made him progress until he was poised to enter her, and he looked down into her eyes before he moved at the feel of her hands on his back, an unspoken message to him he knew that told him to begin.
Beckett was breathless, waiting until she could feel him sliding into her and making her nearly tremble before he was fully within her. She closed her eyes tightly at the sensation but finally she forced herself to look at him. She wanted to speak, to say his name, but before she could he was gently moving away from her. When he thrust back in her slowly and gently she was crying out, unable to hold herself back from that. At that point he set up a steady rhythm and she sighed in relief as it allowed her to join him. It was slow, gentle and she could feel the pleasure intense within her already. She couldn't help recalling her lovers in the past and the fact that she was experiencing far more with him though it was only momentary. It still made her wrap her arms and legs around him tightly and she nearly swore as he was brushing up against her clit. And when she came to realize he was doing that deliberately she made him kiss her, wanting more contact with him.
When they moved away from one another eventually Castle looked into her eyes intently, wanting to tell her he loved her but not wanting to push her with it yet. He knew he was lucky enough to have her in his bed and he intended to make sure she didn't regret coming to him. He leaned down and began to kiss at her neck, sucking it hungrily when she tilted her head back. He sucked at her pulse, noting how she reacted to him, pressing up against him and making him move down lower to her upper chest.
Beckett was lost as they continued to move and kiss one another, never losing their slow and very deliberate pace before she realized she was going to break. She broke their silence that she had no idea why they'd kept to and told him, "Castle… don't stop… please…" Her orgasm was strong, and she had only a moment to think, 'I've never felt this before… without anything from me…' and her ecstasy made her hungry for more.
Castle was very quick to follow her, and he was overjoyed to feel how intense they were though he couldn't focus on that for too long as he was lost to his pleasure. He kept moving as slowly as he could make his body do so until she was limp below him and he was following after a few more thrusts. He was kissing her before he could recover, just wanting their connection to linger for a little longer until finally they had to part. He didn't move away from her, staying with her until finally he lay at her side, relieved when she came to him quickly. As soon as she was in his arms he ran his hand over her hair before her lips came to his.
At first Beckett thought Castle was going to fall asleep right away; having had experience with that in the past; but he was soon speaking and startling her greatly.
"Okay?" Castle asked. When she looked at him he explained, "You're quiet."
With a smile Beckett said, "What can I really say?"
Castle leaned down and kissed her deeply, trying to pull her even closer to his body as he could feel his desire growing stronger already.
Beckett was a little startled to feel the same but she didn't stop him, kissing him back hard before they moved together. It startled her when they moved in sync without a word of discussion and she was straddling him as he sat up. "This-" she started to say.
"Will be great," Castle said simply. He was startled when she smiled and leaned down so she could kiss him before they slowly parted again. "Help me?"
Nodding Beckett moved up slightly to allow him to get his length back inside of her and when she was down on her knees more comfortably he was sheathed fully inside of her. Crying out heavily as he held her tight to him she began to move, thrusting as hard as she could as something in that moment seemed to tell her they needed to be rough.
Beckett could feel tears rolling down her temples and to the pillow underneath her as she recalled their second time they'd made love. It had been hard and passionate, and they'd spent that time exploring each other and learning even more about one another. She could remember the way her husband; then just barely her boyfriend; took to touching her so intimately and without hesitation though she had been able to tell when he was careful not to push. She closed her eyes for a moment, her mind going to her orgasm that time and how she and Castle had been so close to each other in timing. It had made her delirious and that bout had taken the last of her strength, so she was sleeping shortly after with him.
When Beckett's mind went to the next morning before dawn when she and Castle had woken up at nearly the same time she couldn't help smiling for a moment. There had been no words again as they'd come together immediately before they proceeded to make love one more time before slipping into outright fucking each other. It had been her first time feeling her husband doing that to her and she had nearly passed out when they'd climaxed. But she always wondered why they hadn't really talked that night, only speaking the next morning and not for that long.
'You made up for it the rest of the time you had off,' her mind reminded herself. She sighed before she forced herself to sit up and dried off her skin and went to her husband, laying against his side once more and pressing close. "I never told you, we spoke so little at first I was afraid you were taking the chance to have just that night," she said. Reaching up and stroking at his face she told him, "I was relieved you wanted the same as I did."
The silence in the room was deafening and Beckett told him, "I have to tell you when you wake up how much that night meant to me. It wasn't just the pleasure it was the realization that you could do more for me and wanted to." Pressing her forehead to his jaw she said, "And every time we've made love after that I feel like I'm discovering it all over again… God that sounds so corny but it's true. I've never…"
Falling silent so she wouldn't start crying again Beckett moved away enough to look back into her husband's face and said, "Remember our honeymoon this summer? We spent the early morning of the second night in that bath, talking together about our baby." She closed her eyes and then said, "I was already pregnant then and we never knew."
Looking closely at her husband Beckett continued telling him, "I wanted this baby so badly the same as you, but I thought we wouldn't be so lucky. Remember what you told me?" She smiled briefly and told him, "I don't think I'll ever forget it."
"Stop," Beckett said laughingly. "You're going to splash the water all over the place."
"I can clean it up no problem," Castle said though he stopped trying to tickle her as she'd asked. He held her back to him and murmured against the side of her head, "What are you thinking?"
"Do you really think we can do this?" Beckett whispered.
Moving his hand to her abdomen; as he knew what she'd been talking about immediately; Castle said, "Don't doubt yourself my love. We love each other deeply and that's going to be the most important thing."
"That and our…" Beckett started to say before she paused.
"Release? Is that too crude?" Castle said.
"It's vague enough," Beckett said with a soft laugh. "But if-"
"Don't Kate," Castle said quickly as he knew what she was going to say. "Remember we talked about this already."
"You're worried too," Beckett told him.
"Of course," Castle said easily. "You can't help it, but I think of our daughters now and I realize that even if we aren't successful we're lucky enough to have them. We have exactly what we want; another baby is just another gift to our love."
Beckett couldn't help shivering in pleasure at the tone of her husband's voice and she told him, "I think that's part of why I love you."
"I try," Castle said, smiling when she turned to him. They began to kiss tenderly, and he did his best to hold her tightly again until finally he needed to pull away to look into her eyes. "Are we done?" he asked, his voice a little hoarse as she looked incredible to him in that moment.
"Yes," Beckett said simply before she stood up. She knew her husband was watching her and she was relieved when he didn't say anything or move to get out so he could dry her and instead watched her. She could feel the burn of his gaze on her while she dried off herself, going as slowly as she could with her towel since she knew it would drive him crazy. "I'll be waiting," she called to him.
Breathing through his clenched teeth Castle tried not to go so fast that he would slip and fall though it was difficult knowing what was waiting for him in the bedroom. But he made sure he dried himself off fully until he could walk out to find his wife wearing his robe, standing at the windows opposite the bed. "How'd you do that?" he asked her.
"You were distracted," Beckett said, knowing he was talking about how she'd managed to get his robe out without him knowing.
"I have to say I was; what?" Castle asked once he'd reached her and saw that her gaze was down his body. He looked down with her and said, "I'd pose like a super hero here, but you might think I was too cocky."
Rolling her eyes Beckett said, "Any thoughts?"
"Maybe," Castle replied before he literally tore open his robe on her and then off. Before she could react to that he literally swept her off her feet and said, "I always wanted to do that like that."
"Good for you," Beckett said before he set her down in front of the desk. "Thank you," she told him before his robe was draped over it. "You-" she started to say before he was crushing her lips with his own. She had no idea how long they were doing that before she was picked up and only when they parted she smiled and said, "Fuck me lover."
Nodding his head rapidly Castle kissed her deeply before he said, "Not yet though." When she glared at him he brushed his lips to hers and told her, "I'll make it worth it though."
"I hope so," Beckett replied before she waited for him to move.
Moving down so he could reach her breasts Castle paused and then looked up at his wife before he turned to the chair that was to the side, pulling it over. Sitting down he found he could reach her chest and he soon latched onto her right nipple, laving his tongue over it and around it before he moved away. "Sorry, I didn't want to really go crazy," he explained.
"That wasn't crazy," Beckett said, breathing a little hard at how it felt after his stimulation, brief as it was. "But you should probably continue you know."
Castle wanted to comment on that, but he decided that she was right, so he instead looked her over to decide what exactly he wanted to do next to her. He stood up and he leaned down, kissing her hard on the lips for as long as he could until they needed to breathe. He was about to kiss her again when she stopped him, and he looked at her in surprise before she was speaking.
"Can I make a suggestion?" Beckett asked him.
"Of course," Castle said immediately. He was startled when she made him stand up, but he soon had his explanation when she took his hand and placed it in between her legs. "Okay," he told her with a smile.
When she grasped his erection, Beckett tried not to smile herself when her husband staggered against her slightly. "You're not going to start?" she asked him in mock innocence.
"What if I-" Castle started to say.
"Don't worry," Beckett said, leaning up and kissing at his jaw. "I'll take care of you."
Though he knew she would Castle couldn't help but wonder what exactly she would do. But as she began to move her hand over him he couldn't think that over for very long before he was reaching for her. Moving his fingers against her clit he watched her cry out and jerk against him before she recovered. They reached a rhythm together though they were soon kissing, and he was doing the best he could to respond to her before they parted. He pressed his forehead against hers and said, "Do you want to take this all the way through?"
"Yes," Beckett replied. When her husband looked at her she said simply, "We know what to do to start again."
Though he wanted to protest Castle knew she was right, so he merely leaned down and kissed her as hard as he could before they began to stimulate each other a little faster. He was breathing hard eventually, and he moved his hand lower to gently slip his first two fingers inside of her, watching her closely to see her reaction more clearly.
With her free hand Beckett was holding onto her husband as tightly as she could, her nails digging into his skin. When he leaned over to her neck she allowed him to spend some time there before she was reaching for his shoulder, gently pushing him back. "I'm going to… come," she panted heavily as she tried not to grind her teeth together since she was trying to withstand things for just a little longer.
"Then do it," Castle grunted as her rhythm around his length was breaking up though it was no less pleasurable. Although it was a bit of a struggle he reached up with his thumb and traced it around her clit. When she let him go he wasn't surprised at all and instead just watched her gripping the edge of the desk as she was obviously struggling with her pleasure. He slowed down a little until finally he felt her snap as her body tensed up fully in front of him and he leaned down, taking her lips with his own while he felt her thrusting against his hand.
The second she had calmed down Beckett had her hand wrapped around him again and was moving it rapidly. She had a brief thought of moving hard but decided to hold off. Instead she just watched her husband as he was thrusting against her that time and she caressed the back of his shoulder with her free hand until he was calling her name. She looked on while he spent himself, reaching up a little higher to the back of his neck to caress that as well. When he had finished she wasn't surprised when he swore heavily and then left her to go over to the bathroom. "I don't mind," she called after him.
"I know but I can't help minding," Castle told her as he returned with a wet washcloth. "It seems disrespectful to you," he said while he was cleaning off her body.
Beckett reached for his cheek to cup her hand over it and she told him seriously, "I don't take it like that."
"Please tell me you find it arousing," Castle said a little desperately.
Leaning up slightly so she could do so Beckett brushed her lips against her husband's and told him, "I do but I'm not ready just yet."
"Do you want to stay here?" Castle asked her. He was a little disappointed when she shook her head, but he let her get off the desk before she turned away from him. "But you're not ready," he said in surprise.
"No but you could-" Beckett started to say. She nearly let out a gasp when her husband spun her around to him and she had no chance to ask him what he wanted to do as he crushed his lips to hers. As they kissed deeply she nearly fell back as he made her go over to the wall next to the desk but since he was holding her she had his support to stop her from doing that. She moaned deeply as he went to her neck, literally attacking it before he went further. She nearly whimpered when he brushed his lips across the tops of her breasts and as he stood up again she said, "I could sit on the desk for this."
"We'll move over there soon enough," Castle told her huskily before he reached for her mounds. He cupped them tenderly before he kissed at them and then pulled away so he could see her expression.
"Yes, I'll be ready if you keep doing that," Beckett said, getting her breath back before he was leaning down again and kissing her once more. She wanted to tell him to hurry up but decided she would let him go at his own pace before he was pulling her slightly away from the wall.
Castle moved down to his wife's lips before they were hungrily kissing each other, tangling their tongues together for some time. When they very slowly pulled away he said, "Maybe you were right about the desk."
With a smile Beckett took his hand and pulled him to it before she got up on it with his help. As soon as she was set she pulled him to her and they were kissing once more hungrily. She could feel her pulse racing when they had finally parted telling him, "I hope I didn't scratch you."
"You didn't but… thank you for trying," Castle told her seriously before she laughed softly. He kissed her again, rapidly that time, and when he moved away she sat on the desk and he took her right breast with his mouth, suckling at her nipple. He felt her crying out heavily in response before her arms wrapped around him. He groaned against her slightly before he moved away from her and nuzzled her breast with his nose. He went back to taking her with his mouth and did that with each mound for some time before he pulled away. "So…" he began.
Though she was a little shaken by how much pleasure he'd given her Beckett managed to recover and she slid down so she could turn around. Her legs were quickly spread but instead of feeling her husband trying to enter her she felt his hand in between. She gasped out in shock when he carefully fingered her clit and she groaned out to him, "I don't want to come like that."
Though he wanted to ask; jokingly; if she was sure Castle kissed the back of her left shoulder before he moved until he could slide inside of her. He hissed in joy at the feel of them coming together until finally they were fully coupled. "You're…" he started to say.
"I told you you knew what to do," Beckett breathed out. She was clutching at the desk as he started to thrust, and she pushed the robe to get it out of her way. Once she was steady she thrust back against him, able to use her hands and feet for leverage. Since they were moving so hard together the desk was rocking against the wall it was up against. The sound, paired with their hips slapping together, added to her body's stimulation and she cried out when her husband's hands slid up around from her waist to her breasts. He gently squeezed them, and she moved hard back against him before she was bringing her hands closer together. He soon started to play with her nipples with his fingers and she closed her eyes tightly, knowing she wasn't going to last. Before she could warn him about that though he was stopping, and she pulled the robe back over before turning.
Castle was relieved when his wife didn't wait for him to move and he helped her up onto the desk before he entered her again. They were both groaning out in joy at the sensation before he went back to the pace he'd had before. That time he had his wife's arms and legs wrapped around him tightly and he relished it, reaching down to her ass so he could cup it firmly and move her though she was already doing so. With them pressed so closely together he could kiss her and he did so passionately while her fingers were raking through his scalp.
Beckett tried not to groan in disappointment when her husband slowed down but when he whispered to her in Irish she realized what he wanted to do. So she leaned back on her hands and watched him as he carefully fingered her clit. She couldn't see much and even less so when her eyes closed almost instantly in reaction to the feeling of shocks shooting through her entire body at his touch. She tried to thrust against him, but he had her stay still as he was continuing until finally he was moving his hand away. She was startled when; his first rough thrust against her; he slipped out of her and she couldn't help the sharp cry of his name that seemed to burst from her lips while he slid against her clit. "Wait," she told him calmly before she took him in hand to help him out.
Gritting his teeth tightly Castle tried not to stop his wife from pulling him gently to her but soon after she was letting him go and he was slipping inside of her once more. "I'm not going to stop," he told her as he paused once they were fully coupled.
"I don't want you to," Beckett reassured him before he thrust. She had her arms and legs back around him almost instantly and she moaned as he was getting deep within her again. She hoped that they would last for a little bit longer, but she soon realized he was stopping. "You-" she started to say before he kissed her hungrily.
Castle let that last for as long as possible before he moved away and then slid out of her once more. Before she could protest too much he picked her up yet again and laid her down on the bed before getting on top of her. He kissed her before he moved down to her breasts, sucking at them both vigorously in the way he knew she loved until he pulled away and stared down at her. She was panting heavily, her eyes closed and her nipples were slightly discolored form the force of his mouth. Shuddering inwardly at how gorgeous she was he told her, "I adore you Kate," in Irish.
"So do I," Beckett told him. "Fuck me, please Rick." She was relieved when he nodded his head and entered her yet again which compelled her to say, "Don't leave me again."
"But… okay," Castle replied. When his wife narrowed her eyes at him he told her, "I'm not going to, but you owe me for that."
"I owe you nothing," Beckett said firmly. She then smiled and wrapped her legs up around his waist before her arms went about his neck. He started to move, and she gasped when she realized he was doing so slowly. She wanted to protest but realized quickly what he was doing, and she instead took his lips as they descended on her own.
Keeping that kiss as slow as possible Castle wanted to match it to his rhythm before he began to speed up. But he was careful not to go too quickly since he wanted to linger as much as possible. He parted from their second kiss a short while later and then murmured, "You're perfect you know."
Since she was at the same time trying to handle his slight increase in speed Beckett couldn't reply for a moment before she said, "Then you should know… I feel the same way about you," letting out a breathy laugh at the same time. She pushed slightly on the back of his head until he'd come down to her and as they were kissing yet again she ran her fingers through his hair. After they'd parted she slid her right leg up higher against his side and hissed as he sped up yet again. "Wh-what would you do if I came right now?" she asked him.
Castle slowed down immediately instead of replying to what she'd said and as she groaned in obvious annoyance he told her, "You don't want this to end yet do you?"
Breathing out as he sped up again Beckett told him, "No but… we can do more tomorrow."
"Yeah," Castle said before he began to thrust even faster than he was before. He closed his eyes tightly in the immediate delight he had since the friction was building up between them. He moved even harder and could feel his muscles aching with the effort; even with that he didn't slow down enough to get comfortable, just wanting to get her off since he could tell she wanted it badly.
Beckett tried her best to speak but couldn't as she was trying her best to continue to move with him so they could meet a little more uniformly. But it was becoming next to impossible and she was glad she could hold onto him since it allowed her to continue to move. Her back was arching as her nails dragged over his skin and she took the opportunity to feel the way his muscles were working furiously there. "Rick…" she managed to say before finally she was arching her back roughly and crying out his name again in joy. Her orgasm was rough and hard running through her from head to toe and the ecstasy was making it hard for her to really focus. She had no idea how long she just felt; still chanting her husband's name; her body throbbing noticing her husband's joining her and their friction still going strong. It lessened slightly when she stopped, and she breathed heavily as she continued to hold him against her until he gave one last, desperate she could feel, thrust.
Slumped against his wife as his throat felt hoarse from how he'd been calling her name repeatedly Castle took a little longer before he could move until he did so carefully. Moving away he said, "I hope that was good for you because it sure as hell was for me."
Beckett laughed softly and said, "Me too but you don't need to move…" She sighed as he still did so and she told him, "Thank you."
"I'll thank myself too," Castle said jokingly as he wrapped his arm around her. When she slapped his chest lightly he laughed before he pressed his lips to her forehead and murmured to her, "I was happy to do everything love, believe me."
"Oh, I do," Beckett said. "You don't need to worry." She watched him get up and asked him, what're you doing?"
"I'm a little thirsty and I'm sure you are too," Castle said, going to where there were glasses and a water bottle. He went back to his wife and gave her the glass he'd filled so she could drink first.
With a thank you Beckett sipped a few times and handed over the glass before she said, "Get back onto the bed."
"Right away," Castle replied with a smile before he hurriedly set the glass aside and got back on, wrapping his arms around her tightly so he could hold her close against him.
They were quiet for a while and when she felt him stroking her shoulder gently she said softly to him, "I don't like doubting myself."
"No, it's understandable," Castle replied swiftly. "We're trying our best with something we don't know how it will turn out. But you have to keep positive love," he said reassuringly as he placed his hand on her stomach. "I'm trying."
"You have doubts too?" Beckett asked, tilting her head up so she could look at him. "You should have less than me; you know you're okay to conceive."
"That doesn't mean I'm going to assume everything is set," Castle said. "Until we know I'm going to hope we have the same luck we did with Eliza."
Beckett laughed softly before she leaned up and pressed her lips against his jaw before something came to mind then. "Rick what if we…" she began.
Though he wanted to tell her not to think like that Castle knew it wasn't what she was asking, and he said, "Then we have three wonderful children and we'll love them like we've been doing. But I should tell you I've foreseen four children for us."
"Oh really?" Beckett asked laughingly.
"Really," Castle said simply before he kissed her deeply. "Just something in me."
"I hope you're right," Beckett said.
"Trust me Kate," Castle told her as they were looking at each other. He kissed her deeply and they became involved for some time with each other before they were panting against each other's lips. "I love you," he told her seriously.
"I love you too Rick," Beckett said with a smile before he was leaning his head down to her once more and they kissed yet again.
"You were right love," Beckett said softly to him. "We are going to have four children. I'm repeating this to you so you remember what you need to come back for." She was sitting up on the bed and she reached for his hand, holding it against her stomach and pressing it there. She stared at him and frowned slightly when she saw his eyes were moving yet again. She had to wonder how deeply he was in his coma if that was continuing to happen, but she knew she wasn't going to be able to figure that out until he woke up.
With a sigh Beckett leaned over and pressed her lips against him for a while before she finally pulled away. "I love you," she whispered after cupping his cheek firmly. She got off the bed and walked over to the other before she paused, watching her husband for a little longer before she got up onto it. She sat on the side for a little while longer, just keeping her eyes on him, before exhaustion hit her. "I'll sleep now my love but I'm going to say it again Rick; I hope you can see me wherever you are right now and know that I'm here."
With that said Beckett laid down on her side, wanting to keep him in sight before she slowly closed her eyes. She fell asleep quickly that night but it was an uneasy rest, unable to forget how much she wanted her husband back with her and their family before more time passed.