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CH 13
Ellen had no idea that he was in her room. The wind out of the window removed all his scent and as she woke up in the morning, she was in a better mood. Now she knew that because of the chatroom she was in contact with Carlisle more than she could wish. She surprised herself, how was it possible that her first thought in the morning belongs to him. It should belong to her husband.
But Ellen had to admit that it doesn´t. For the first time she thought about leaving Derek. She was still worried but something made her feel stronger. She is an adult, she doesn´t need to be treated like a kind of servant. Derek had no right to do that. This idea surprised her completely. She believed she would never be able to even think about that. Why would Carlisle repeatedly offered her any kind of help if he didn´t think the same? He just didn´t say it aloud. She woke her little daughter and after breakfast Ellen took Patty to their friends in pre-school and headed to their little kids at school.
Ellen spent the whole evening talking to Carlisle. He was already expecting her online and when she appeared, they began writing. But she didn´t like that. Now when she knew who he is, she wanted to hear him. She couldn´t help it. She just didn´t want to say it directly . But luckily he was able to understand her wish through their bond. He went to search for his cell phone and looked very surprised when Edward handed him the the cell phone:
„ you forgot it in the kitchen….I think she will be excited…." „
Thanks Edward… I hope so..…."
He ran back in his room and dialed the number. It was exactly as Edward claimed. They were talking about their days and planning something for the weekend. Ellen knew that Patty would be excited to meet the Cullens again. In the following week they will be leaving for school. Ellen felt sad because she knew that Carlisle would be alone in such a big house again.
On Friday evening Carlisle was preparing thinking about some activity for the weekend. They could have some fun during the day. He planned a family picnic and they wanted to play some game of course in human speed. In the evening Bella and Edward expressed their wish to babysit Patricia and Carlisle wanted to take Ellen out for dinner and then perhaps some dancing in a club. Who knows….. The only obstacle was her decision. He was not sure but hoped she would agree.
Ellen was also looking forward to a nice Saturday spent in the Cullen house. It was last chance to meet Carlisle´s kids before they leave for many weeks to their studies. She knew that they both would miss them a lot. But thanks that at least Carlisle stayed in the town. She wanted to pack some things with them but in the evening she was too lazy. They spent almost two hours with Carlisle talking. This time he directly called and she was glad for that. She postponed the idea of packing to the morning and went to bed. She wanted to enjoy the weekend and be as fresh as possible.
In the morning she woke up and felt so bad. She couldn´t say why, she hasn´t even opened her eyes to know that something is not alright. It was a very weird feeling. She didn´t know why. She could´t say at first. She opened her eye lids and stared. In front of her on the chair….. there was her husband Derek. She didn´t know how to react properly. It was the first time since the last time. He was watching her carefully and when she opened her eyes, he was shocked too. He hasn´t seen her waking up for so long that he almost forgot.
She gasped: „ Derek? What are you…I mean….when did you arrive?"
He smiled: „ Almost an hour ago….I wanted to be with you both….."
She nodded and felt the sadness. This was what she feared. He was back. Neither would she be able to spend the weekend with the Cullens but also she will be restricted just to work and school. No more fun in their house. This made her desperate. She knew that Derek expects her reply and therefore tried to pretend happiness: „ That is nice, we were also looking forward to you…..Do you have holidays?"
He shook the head: „ No, I quit my job to be more with you…." She stared: „ You quit?"
He nodded: „ Isn´t it what you wanted? You always complained we don´t have much time for each other…"
She immediately supported him: „ Of course I am more than happy that you are here…. Definitely yes…"
She went to hug him and suddenly she had tears in her eyes. She couldn´t describe the feeling but she was incredibly unhappy. This was the end. Derek is back and for an indefinite period of time. This means really the end to her friendship to Carlisle and his family. Derek would never let her seeing Carlisle and his kids. He has proven this enough. But she knew that she would have to come back to reality. She has to be a good wife again and try to save their marriage. She was waiting for this chance and has to try…. Why isn´t she satisfied when this was her wish all the time?
In her mind she was fighting with herself. On one hand she was happy that he is back but on the other hand she felt terrible because she cannot see the Cullens for a very long time. Derek looked her in the eyes and could see the tears. He regarded this as a happy feeling for his decision and wiped her tears : „ Don´t worry, hun, we will work on our relationship, as you wished….." He hugged her again and went to wake up his young girl. Patricia wrote down a short text to Carlisle: „ DEREK IS BACK, FOR LONG, HE QUIT JOB, TODAY IS CANCELLED, SORRY…..MISS YOU ALL…..ELLEN…." She sent it and Derek came back with Patricia on his back: „ Look who we have here…" Ellen had to smile through the tears and followed them both downstairs. She turned the cell phone sound off and left the bedroom.
Carlisle was reading the message again and again. He couldn´t believe it. He knew that this was inevitable but he felt desperate. The feeling of losing her, not being able to communicate, to phone, this all made him crazy. He was getting angry and threw the book he was reading on the door. That movement made such noise that immediately Jasper was there.
Alice already knew what happened and sent her husband to calm him a bit:
„ What happened?"
Carlisle had his head in the hands, not looking at his son: „ He is back…."
Jasper asked: „ You mean her husband?"
No reply. Jasper dared to come closer, meanwhile he could see the hole in the door that the medical book caused. He could sense the unbelievable grief that Carlisle had after the divorce. Now this reappeared. He felt completely down. Jasper was sending the waves of calm but it didn´t help.
Suddenly Alice appeared in her door. She could feel Jasper´s confusion of Carlisle´s feelings and went to hug her father immediately: „ Dad, I am so sorry….. I didn´t see it coming…. I believed we would spend some nice time this weekend…"
He was looking at her with pain in his eyes and if he could cry, the tears would already be falling down. He knew that this is the end. His hopes are lost. Now when he is back, they have no chance to meet her again. Jasper came closer to Alice hugging her dad and asked: „ Did you write her back?"
He disagreed: „ No, I was just….."
Jasper finished: „ Shocked, unhappy, desperate…. I know….but dad, you must support her….she certainly feels the same….."
Carlisle nodded but didn´t want to move and grab the cell phone, he was too hurt. Suddenly the someone opened the door and a person ran immediately to hug Carlisle….. He looked up and recognised his granddaughter: „ Sweetie….? What are you doing here?"
She had always the ability to get him out of the bad ideas and cheer him up a little bit with her optimistic touch. He hugged her, looked in her eyes: „ thank you sweetie…you always help…."
She spoke for the first time: „ Hi… I missed you…."
He asked: „ You haven´t said you would be coming?..."
„Renesmee desired to see mum and dad before they leave for school again…" Jake replied instead of her and she just smiled at him back.
Carlisle looked at him : „ Hi Jake….welcome home…."
„Thanks, Carlisle….. I can see big changes are going on here…."
Alice went closer to Jacob and said: „ Come, Jake, I will make you something to eat. You must be hungry after the long flight from Europe….."
„You cannot imagine how much…These small portions they hand out in the planes" and they were both leaving.
Renesmee looked at her granddad and replied silently: „ It is gonna be better…just..….. don´t give up hope…if he did it once, twice, he won´t change….just… don´t give up….I will go to Jake…. I don´t want my sweet aunt suffer from his smell…."
That made him smile a little bit, she turned and left the room.
Suddenly Edward appeared in the room coming from the balcony: „ My daughter is right, dad….you must be there for Ellen…. She is desperate… I am afraid she doesn´t love her husband anymore…."
He stared at his son: „ How can you say that?"
Edward replied: „ Well, it was my turn to check her and I noticed her husband coming home. So I stayed and waited for them to meet. I was afraid he would hurt her. When she woke up and noticed him I was looking in her thoughts when they had their first talk. You should have listened to the mess and the incredible pain in her eyes, and heart. Her pain was similar to yours. Dad, don´t give up, you are mates, aren´t you?... she needs you…You can´t let her down…now…."
Carlisle sat down back to his char and took the cell phone and opened the message: „ Ellen, don´t worry, we will figure out…. If anything….let me know…..I miss you honey, and the little sweetie too…..and don´t forget,…. I am here for you, no matter what…."
And sent it. Edward commented: „ Great…. You would be surprised how terrible she felt, no, she doesn´t love him anymore. I think she does just need time to realise it… you´re much better person than that bastard and he has no chance compared to you…don´t worry…."
Edward hugged him and left the room.
Ellen was sitting in the dining room and watched Patricia as she was talking to her father and drinking the coffee. They were eating together for the first time after many weeks and she was hesitating how they will live again as a family. She hoped Patricia would say nothing about the Cullens. They had already talked about this and she promised this. Ellen just hoped she would be able to resist Derek´s questions.
What she didn´t know and what Edward didn´t tell Carlisle, Derek was hiding something. He didn´t quit the job. He was fired. He tried to do some illegal practices and now he was being investigated by the Police. He knew that the charges would follow soon but didn´t want his wife to know about that. This information calmed Edward so much that he decided not to tell his dad everything. He wanted to make things flow naturally and if not, then he gives him some details. But at this point, it wouldn´t have any sense to tell him. He would just be more depressed.
Patricia finished her breakfast and Derek asked: „ What would you like to do now?"
Ellen offered: „ We could go for some trip…."
He agreed: „ Yes, we will go to Port Angeles and perhaps we can walk to the woods for some walk….."
She stood up and began cleaning the plates and did the washing up. Derek helped Patricia with the dress and they went to prepare the car. Ellen read the text from Carlisle and was glad that he didn´t turn away and replied. She believed that the news must have been also hard for him. It was clear to her that they won´t be able to see each other for some time. She texted him back about their today trip and turned off the phone.
After few minutes she came in the car. Derek was already impatient.
He asked: „ What´s wrong with you? You have hardly said a word since I arrived?"
She looked at him : „ No, nothing…. You just surprised me, that is all…."
He kissed her and she felt terrible disgust. She didn´t know why, she just did. She didn´t understand this so she rather sat back in the car seat and looked out of the mirror.
They walked through the town, did some shopping as in the old times and Derek wanted to walk in the woods. He hasn´t been there for many years and wanted to be in the nature for some time. He offered to play blind man´s buff and little Patricia was supposed to be searching for their parents. Ellen was worried about her but Derek wasn´t. He ran away and tried to find a good seek. Ellen was also hidden behind a large rock but still watched what Patricia was doing.
Patty turned around and she could see Edward: „ uncle?..." She smiled and hugged him tight. He kissed her cheek and watched where Derek was so that he could not see them. Bella was watching him and would give Edward the sign.
He smiled at Patty: „ sweetie, you cannot tell your father anything about us, just let your mum know that we greet her….."
She asked: „ And when will we see you again?"
He replied: „ Well, sweetie, me and Bella are leaving for school….as soon as we are back, I will let you know…I love you Patty…."
She hugged him: „ I love you too, uncle Edward….and aunt Bella too…."
He heard his wife´s warning and whispered to the little child: „ And now scream out loud … I am going…." She did that, he hugged her last time and walked away….Little Patty watched him leave and went to search for her parents.
Ellen watched her daughter with Edward but didn´t dare to come closer. She wanted to ask him so many questions about Carlisle but she knew that it was impossible.
She wanted to stand up but noticed a familiar figure leaning on one tree behind her: „ Carlisle…." She whispered in tears and ran to hug him immediately. He closed his arms around her and felt her scent.
She was crying and he couldn´t stop her: „ Ellen, you need to stop crying….. honey….. don´t worry, we´ll figure out a way….."
He handed her the little package and she replied: „ What is that?"
He kissed her cheek: „ your new mini cell phone Vertu and a brand new credit card on your name…."
She didn´t understand why he was giving her such presents and therefore he explained: „ Your husband might suspect you and so this phone is so small that he won´t even notice it in the mess in woman´s purse…"
She smiled: „ And why the card?"
He couldn´t tell her the truth. Alice advised him to give it to her. She didn´t say more.
He kissed her cheek: „ Ellen, your husband may have his weak sides….and I don´t want either you or Patty suffer….or lack anything…." He corrected himself. Ellen couldn´t believe it, he was a real treasure.
He added: „ And don´t worry, spend it on ANYTHING either of you needs…..don´t worry about the limit….it´s a golden one…..I told you money is not an issue for me…."
She smiled through the tears: „ Carlisle, I can´t accept it, the phone is one of the most expensive ones and the card…..I can´t spend your money…."
He whispered: „ You´re the family…I told you…..and it ´s the money of the whole family….. so this implies…it is also yours…."
He heard Bella´s sign to Edward and looked the last time to Ellen: „ Take care, Ellen….and if anything…."
She assured him : „ I will call…"
He smiled and looked her in the eyes. She couldn´t stop herself, she had to do it. She didn´t want to let him go just like that. She caressed his face and looked in his eyes. She stood on her tips and moved her lips suddenly closer to his. They touched for a brief moment and she could feel the sweetest movement of his lips against hers. She held her arms around his neck and let him kiss her slowly and carefully. It was a very new experience for both of them.
The kiss lasted about twenty seconds when Edward coughed: „ Time to go, dad…sorry….."
Then he looked at Ellen, hugged her: „ Don´t worry, we are closer than you may think…."
She smiled at him with all the sadness in her eyes and he waved her and they both had to leave. Ellen looked back to her daughter who was coming closer.
Suddenly Patty exclaimed: „ I can see you mom…"
Ellen came out of a tree and kissed her daughter. Patty said: „ Mum, uncle Edward was here…"
She kissed her again: „ I know honey, but we have to keep it secret….Please….don´t tell your dad anything or we will be in big trouble. Will you promise me?"
Patty nodded: „ Yes, mum….."
Ellen let her go: „ Now find your dad….." and Patty ran in the woods and in few minutes she appeared Derek.
Carlisle, Edward and Bella have been watching the whole family walk from the distance and Edward commented: „ Finally, you have got your proof….she doesn´t love him…."
Carlisle agreed: „ yes, she doesn´t but she hasn´t realised it yet…..and she doesn´t want to divorce…."
Edward commented: „ I wouldn´t be so sure…."
Carlisle looked at him with a very surprised look but Edward said nothing more and he wasn´t the one to get things out of him. He will tell when he wants to.