So, here goes chapter 17
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Chapter 17
Ellen was standing in the living room and noticed Derek coming. She looked up and saw him smirking at her. She said silently: „ Ok, I was silent when you hurt and hit me, but tell me? Why did you have to break her favorite doll?"
He looked at her with amusement: „ Because you claimed that you didn´t buy her expensive toys and now she has such doll? And she needs to learn how to behave to me… she has to respect me but she doesn´t…"
Ellen knew she cannot say the truth and therefore stayed silent: „ Still it was very unfair of you. Patricia is almost five years old. She cannot understand our fights….you should leave her out of this all, she doesn´t deserve this….."
He frowned: „ She is the same as you….. you brought her up very badly….. I should probably have already requested for a whole custody over her….You are a very bad mother…bad icon for our baby girl…."
She stared: „ And who are you?...a father figure? A father that breaks her favorite doll purposely?...just to punish her…sorry but recently you…..behave like an IDIOT ….." She couldn´t hold on, she had to say it even though she knew that he will get furious.
Immediately he hit her in the face and threw her on the sofa.
She was scared and worried of what he would do.
He said angrily: „ You will be silent and will obey me….understood?"
She nodded with fear in her eyes and he continued: „ And now you will be true loving wife and will finally be with me….Is that clear?" She was shocked and began shaking as he laid on her and began kissing her everywhere and she knew where this was leading. She couldn´t fight, she was stuck and silently crying. This was the worst of all punishments. This was like the worst nightmare and it should have never happened. It was her own fault. She should have already left…
He really forced her to have sex with him. She felt so misused, and guilty. It didn´t have to happen if she had listened to Carlisle´s advice and left. Why did she want to save something that wasn´t worth saving? Why couldn´t she accept the fact that their relationship is wrong. He changed and was dangerous to her. Yet, Ellen was worried he could hurt Patricia more than just by breaking her favorite doll. No, this is enough. She won´t tolerate this. This time he went really too far. She won´t have anything in common with him anymore. She put on quickly some warm clothes and took her purse.
She woke Patricia up and took the little one in her arms and sneaked out of the house with the back entrance. She barely used it but now it was safer. Then she hurried to Carlisle´s house. It was pretty far but she knew that they should make it in thirty minutes.
The further she went from the house, the better she felt. She needed the fresh air. She went behind the houses and didn´t want to be seen by the neighbours. She was carrying Patricia untill they were far enough from the house. Then she woke her up properly: „ Patty, sweetie…can you walk now?" Patricia silently nodded and ran together with mum. After few moments Patty asked: „ Mum, I am so hungry….can we eat something?"
Ellen kissed and hugged her: „ Patty, listen, baby….just a few minutes and then we will be at uncle Carlisle´s house…. He will certainly have some food at home…don´t worry…."
Patricia agreed and walked on. It wasn´t far from Forks but they had to walk in a pretty cold weather but finally they made it and saw a big Cullen house in the distance.
Ellen felt content again, she was so happy when they reached the house. Patricia was very tired again, she was still a bit of sleeping. It was late evening and she was still a small child.
For the last few metres Ellen took Patricia in her arms and carried her up to the door. When they were at the stairs, the door suddenly opened and Carlisle ran away out of the door. He took Patricia in his arms and carried her in the house.
Ellen could suddenly feel the indescribable feeling that she had when she was in his presence. He had so much calmness around himself and she liked that. But she couldn´t help it. She had immediately her eyes full of tears.
He had no idea of what happened but he knew about Ellen´s tears. He had a suspicion but it was constant in the recent few days and he couldn´t do anything. He repeatedly asked, texted, but Ellen didn´t tell anything.
He carried Patricia in the guest room bed. Ellen dressed her in the pyjamas and Carlisle brought her some cookies to eat and an orange juice. Patty ate a few of them, drank the glass and laid down back on the big bed.
When she finished, he caressed her hair and said: „ Sweetie, it´s night, go to sleep and I need to talk to your mum…."
She smiled: „ good night, uncle Carlisle…..I am glad we are with you again…"
He replied touched: „ good night, sweetie…..sweet dreams….I am more than happy to have you here…..."
Patty smiled gently and closed her eyes. In a minute she was sleeping.
He came back to Ellen who was looking out of the big window weeping. She seemed to be so distant, something terrible must have happened. He had no idea what but she was acting weird. When he came closer, he could smell it. His super senses worked again and he knew immediately. That BASTARD…!
He hugged her as tight as he could not to hurt her: „ Ellen…"
She wished so much to be in his arms. It was so comforting to be with him again. He was caressing her over the head and kissing the top of it.
They were standing like this for very long, she couldn´t stop the tears. He was still caressing her hair, holding her softly and whispering sweet words. He wanted to calm her. Her heart was beating fast and she was still in shock. He took her in the arms and carried her downstairs. He sat her down on the sofa and sat next to her.
„ Ellen, what happened? ….please tell me….."
He wiped the tears gently out of her eyes and gave her his handkerchief. She thanked immediately and hugged him again. She felt so bad, she was scared and mostly ashamed to tell him. It was so nice to be with him again, he made her feel as in the arms of a true friend….. He waited patiently for her to calm down a little bit and she began shaking. He tried to calm her: „ Come on, no need to worry…..you are here and he won´t hurt you again….." Ellen began sobbing again but slowly began explaining:
„ We…we have had another argument…. Derek…I…. mean…he broke down Patricia´s doll that you gave her, she was so unhappy, and yet he sold my laptop, our TV…..stole my saved money….and then he…"
She cried again a lot. He stared and finished the question: „ Did he rape you?"
She nodded: „ He made me..….."
He looked at her face, where she had bruises again. She couldn´t finish the sentence, she began shaking immediately and he hugged her. He was holding her in his arms while she was crying…..she wanted to continue but her voice betrayed her.
He asked: „ Would you like me to take you in the hospital so that the doctors would check you?"
She protested: „ No, no …..I just…I hoped I could stay here for this night….."
He said: „ Yes of course you can, Ellen….., but still…don´t you want to go with me to the Police? Bella´s dad works there…"
She shook the head: „ No, I….. I mean…. I can´t talk about that…." He could see that she doesn´t want to go against him and therefore he didn´t push her to do that. He w as glad that at least she told him and came to him.
He replied with urgency in his voice: „ Elly, you can stay here as long as you want to… I won´t let you come back to the house…I want you to be safe..."
She shook her head but didn´t dare to look in his eyes: „ I can´t, I mean…..we cannot bother you here….. I will find some living and then we will leave and I will file for divorce….."
He moved her jaw line up so that he could see in her eyes.
She could see all his pain and he begged: „ Ellen, this house is empty most of the day, it is very big and I will be very honored to have you both here….I won´t let you come back there… you have gone through a very bad experience and I won´t let him destroy you both. You mean to me more than you can imagine and I won´t allow him to hurt either of you again."
She was looking at him cautiously and she knew that he really meant every word he was saying.
He let her look down back to her knees and went to bring her a glass of water and ordered a pizza by telephone. Then he came back to Ellen who was unmoving watching her knees. She was shaking slightly and he came closer to her.
He sat next to her and touched her hand slowly: „ Ellen , please… I know it is too hard to decide now but think about it….my house is always open to you"
She nodded: „ OK….I ….. I will stay here….I mean we….."
He smiled and she continued: „ But truly I feel that we are bothering you so much. You have helped us so many times and now you do again…"
He looked at her hands: „ I should have taken you away earlier….if only you would tell me…."
She replied: „ I know….. it is my mistake…everything that happened….I was so naive…." He stopped her immediately: „ No, it is NOT your mistake, Ellen…you did nothing wrong…. I don´t want you to say that… you did nothing ….."
He hugged her again and she laid her hands around his neck and with her head on his chest she was breathing his scent. It calmed her and she felt much better. She was so glad to be with him again. These weeks were so hard for her, she really needed his presence in her life. He was her best friend and knew how to make comfort her.
Suddenly a bell rang and Carlisle went to open the door. He paid for the pizza and brought it to Ellen who was still deep in her thoughts. He offered her a plate and she ate a little bit: „ I failed….." Carlisle wondered :" Why?" She said: „ Because I was not able to protect Patty…she had to go through some uncomfortable situations in the recent weeks….and yet the thing with Bella doll…" He disagreed: „ No, you did you best to protect her and Patricia knows it… definitely yes, she loves you the most in the whole world…."
Ellen mentioned silently: „ I also used the card from you to buy her new shoes….. when he stole the money…." She was sobbing again. He felt the pain in his chest but tried to comment it: „ Ellen, you know you have the card for whatever you need….you don´t need to tell me …. and if you bought your sweet daughter a thousand pairs of shoes which I am sure she deserves, it wouldn´t ruin me…really….." She had to smile sadly to his comparison.
He kissed her cheek: „ use it whenever you want…it is yours, I told you…. Only yours…." She thanked him and ate another slice of the pizza.
After she stopped eating, she went back to Carlisle, she hugged him: „Thank you… for everything…" He smiled: „ You don´t have to thank me…I would do anything to help you and make you feel better…" She looked in his eyes: „ You already do….just your presence lights up my day…" He just smiled and caressed her face. She calmed down and continued: „ You called me Elly…"
He was surprised that she noticed: „ Do you mind …?"
„No, not at all,….you always nicknamed me….." She smiled and he giggled: „ Well, yes….Ellen, Lilly, Elly….I like to call you these sweet nicknames…" Ellen frowned: „ you are the first one…No one has ever called me like that…." He smiled: „ Perhaps it is the right time to get used to it…." She didn´t say anything but the blush betrayed her. He noticed that but as the right gentleman he didn´t comment it. He was glad that he made her smile at least a little bit.
Ellen yawned and wanted to stand up to wish him a good night but to her surprise he asked: „ May I?" and carried her wanted to make her feel comfortable.
He borrowed her one of his T-shirts and she went to the bathroom to take a proper shower. She really needed it. He wished her good night and wanted to leave the room. She laid down and she had everything just in front of her eyes. She began crying again. She felt like she wasn´t doing anything in the last few hours.
She heard a soft knock on the door and Carlisle´s head was in the door: „ Ellen? I was walking around and heard you crying…."
She nodded: „ I know, I just….when I close my eyes, all I can see is…."
She sobbed again. He came closer to her, she noticed that he was wearing the pyjamas and sat down on the edge of the bed.
He asked: „ Would you like me to stay here with you?"
She looked down at her nervous shaking fingers: „ Could you please hold me…."
He smiled softly: „ of course sweetie…whatever you wish….. "
She laid down and turned to him. She was again laying in his arms, close to his chest, breathing his perfume again. She felt she needed this to finally start to feel a little bit better. She closed down the eyes and breathed his scent. After few moments before she fell asleep she realised that the only thing she could think of is the beautiful feeling safe when being with her beloved Carlisle again. The previous weeks were just one terrible nightmare.