Soo, back from my 4th class of Zumba this week ( I know, I am addicted :-))) )

and with the good mood I managed to finish my today´s chapter, so I hope you´ll enjoy it :-) as much as I did...

Take care :-) and thank you for reading :-)))

CH 22

Ellen turned the page of her favorite book and continued reading. She wanted to spend a calm evening, Carlisle had a meeting in his office and Patricia was already sleeping. She prepared a hot cocoa and brought her favorite book. She couldn´t concentrate. She was in a big house, she couldn´t help it, but alone here she was feeling awkward. It was better when somebody was here too. She closed the book, she couldn´t read, her mind was always busy with something.

It´s been almost three weeks since they moved here. She likes Carlisle´s company. She lives with him in his house, and he can always surprise her. She knows him as a friend but doesn´t know too much about him. Perhaps they could talk about that. She adored his behavior. She never saw anyone so calm,so friendly. He was her best friend no matter what. She will always have him in her heart. She knew that the time in this house will soon be over. She will search for the new place to live, she plans to begin as soon as possible. She liked living here, but she needs her own space. She wishes to devote more to Patty.

She looked at the big watch on the wall, it showed 9:30 PM. Ellen noticed the pictures around the room and wanted to look at them. She was going around and recognising the people she knew. She could see Bella and Edward in their wedding dresses. They seemed such a beautiful couple. Ellen felt sorry that she won´t be able to have something like they have. She also desired to be loved as much as Edward loves and adores his lovely wife. She had to admit that she envies the love they share…

Then she moved to the pictures of Rosalie and Emmett. These two fit together that much. A lovely blonde and a strong tough guy as Emmett, they are such a perfect couple. And then she moved to the picture of Alice and Jasper. They seemed like two sweethearts. Both are so nice to each other but also to the family. She loved them all and missed them. Then she could see a picture young girl with long curly hair with her most probably boyfriend. It must be their niece they used to talk about. Ellen watched the picture with deep thoughts. When she moved to the side, she saw a picture of Carlisle and a beautiful black haired woman being hugged by him and watching him with an adoring look… She was studying this picture for some time.

She hasn´t noticed that Carlisle is watching her. On the picture they seemed to be so happy, like soul mates. They seemed to be so devoted, watching each other with an adoring look. This way she imagined a happy couple. She was watching them and couldn´t understand it. She asked silently: „ How could she leave?..."

She got scared when she heard Carlisle´s enter the room: „ Well, I let her go….. she didn´t want to…"

Ellen looked at him and he continued: „ She found her soul mate…..you know, the person you cannot live without. You meet the person only once…. And you know it, your body knows, your mind does and there is nothing that can stop you from being with that person…."

She shrugged: „ I don´t know… most probably I haven´t met mine, so …. I have no idea…."

He felt sadness inside but continued: „ She met him, and he recognised her….. she was thinking about this all, she didn´t want to leave but I let her go….I saw the unhappiness in her eyes and I didn´t want to be the one to prevent their love. It just wasn´t fair….."

He looked down and she came closer. He surprised her that he appeared. She had no idea that he was at home. She came closer to him, she couldn´t believe that this man was left alone by some woman. He was the best companion that every woman would wish….. and she was lucky to have met him and spend time with him….. She was already standing in front of him, raised her hand and she caressed his face with her palm.

She could see the feelings coming out of his eyes and she would give everything just to replace them with the happier ones. He smiled at her and she said: „ Sorry, I didn´t mean to ask….. I didn´t want to…."

He watched her: „ Ellen, it´s fine…..it is the past, just memories…."

She nodded: „ I know….. same with me….sometimes I think about my marriage from the beginning…..some things even time cannot erase….they are deep in our hearts…"

He agreed: „ Yes….. sometimes I wonder if I ever find my soul mate…to know the feelings….."

She touched his hand: „ You´ll find her, I am sure… a good person like you shouldn´t stay alone…"

He looked at her deep in the eyes. He knew he cannot tell her the truth. She wouldn´t understand at this point. He needs to take things slowly. But he couldn´t help it. She was standing so close. He didn´t resist but moved a bit closer to her and touched softly her lips with his ones. He kissed her gently but moved back after a moment. He didn´t want to scare her.

He smiled: „ Good night, Elly, I´m going to bed….I am tired….."

And he walked in his room. At the stairs he turned back to her, waved, smiled and left upstairs.

Ellen just stood at the same place and couldn´t gasp for a moment. He shocked her, completely…. They had a private talk, she should have been silent but she couldn´t help it. She just didn´t understand it. It was the past. Carlisle seemed to be over it. How else should she explain his attempt to kiss her? Yes, it was sudden and impulsive….. but she couldn´t say she understood the meaning of it. They are very good friends, but they haven´t kissed since the afternoon in the woods when Derek returned.

What is is supposed to mean? That he feels something for her? Or was it just friendly kiss? She wasn´t sure, Carlisle never talked about anything like this so she had no idea…. Oh, things are getting so complicated. She knew that living under one room with a very handsome man won´t be the best solution. Really, she should begin searching for a new place to live. For the sake of her own sanity.

Few days later she was at home alone again. Carlisle was at another business meeting and she was looking out of the window. Then she moved back in the living room and noticed the nearby piano. She knew that Edward liked to play it. She used to play in college too. She dared to come closer and open the cover and touched gently the keys. She pressed them gently and attempted to give together her favorite song. She used to love musicals. Untill she married Derek, she used to spend many evenings in the musical theatres. She loved the shows and visited the performances sometimes more than once.

Her favorite one was Les Miserables. She always looked forward to the feeling when she sat in the comfy chair and listened to beautiful songs. The music enchanted her and she could listen to it even hundred times. Ellen´s most favorite song used to be „On my own…" She used to know how to play it but she haven´t tried it for years. But now she was alone there…. She could maybe… She hesitated and then her fingers touched the keyboard and she began playing. She surprised herself that she remembered. She imagined Eponine singing this song when realising that she cannot have the man she always dreamed of….

Ellen finished and realised that it really made her feel better. It brought her back in her teenage years and reminded her how much she missed the theatre visits. Perhaps when Patricia is older, they will be going together. Encouraged by the previous attempt, she tried to play it again. This time she began silently singing too….. „ On my own pretending he´s beside me, all alone, I walk with him till morning…without him, I feel his arms around me…" She continued and didn´t have to think about anything. The only person she saw in her mind was the blond doctor in whose house she is staying…..She knew that he cannot hear her and therefore enjoyed every moment of the song.

She had no idea that Carlisle was just on the way home. As he stepped out of the car, he could hear a piano and a singing voice he has never heard before. He just didn´t know that Ellen was such amazing singer. And he had absolutely no idea that she could play the piano. She never said anything. Actually he realised that he didn´t know anything about her hobbies. They talked to much but never directly about the things that she likes to do. She always did what Patty wanted to do but never mentioned her own interests. He recognised the song and listened to her singing. He opened the door silently so that she couldn´t heard him and entered slowly to the living room. He was standing right behind her and listening. He had to admit that she could really calm him with her singing voice. He had no idea that it is possible but he felt such natural peace while listening to her.

When she finished, he silently greeted her: „ Hi…." Ellen turned around and blushed immediately: „ Oh….hi… sorry, I….haven´t heard you…."

He smiled and came to sit down to her on the small piano chair: „ I heard you so I came as silently as I could…not to disturb you…"

He kissed her on the cheek: „ I had no idea you can play the piano, I thought that Edward is the only one who can use this….." She replied: „ Well, I used to play a lot when I was at college…"

„Why did you stop?" She looked at her knees and he didn´t have to ask to know the answer.

Ellen looked back at her fingers: „ I stopped my hobbies when I married….Derek considered them useless waste of money….."

She could feel her fingers trembling and he took them in his hand and caressed them: „ What are your hobbies? Or were?.."

She couldn´t resist this question: „ I used to play piano since I was a child, then I had to stop, because he didn´t want to have this at home. When I was at college, I loved going to theatres. I enjoyed musicals. All kind of them. Some of them I saw many times. When I wasn´t with him or studying, I was in the theatre….. I spent there every free moment…. I used to get money from my parents so I could afford it as a student….."

„Where are your parents?"

Ellen looked down again: „ Mum lives in Paris, she married an artist, she always preferred these people, and after she divorced, my dad married a new woman, I thought we would be friends but she never liked me ,….. all she cared was my dad´s money. Dad always paid for my education but when Derek appeared, he persuaded my dad that he can take care of me from then on and so Lucy had everything. Dad used to call me sometimes when Lucy wasn´t around. In the last year, he rarely calls, we write emails every week….. but…he has no idea….I didn´t dare to tell him…"

Carlisle laid his arms around her and moved her closer to him.. Ellen continued: „ As you asked about the musicals, I have been a huge fan of the Les Miserables. I love the book and the musical is much better. I could listen to the music again and again. It just brings peace in my soul… I hope when Patty is older…"

She wanted to finish but he knew what she thought. She hoped they would be able to go together. And meanwhile….. He had an idea and planned to make it happen when his kids will be at home so they could watch for little Patty.

He said: „ I liked your voice….."

She moved back next to him and looked in his honey golden eyes: „ Thanks, I haven´t tried it for years…. Patty prefers fairy tales instead of singing…."

He smiled: „ Well, in me you certainly gained your first fan, so concerning me, I will be happy to hear you more often…"

She blushed and looked away. Then she stood up and asked: „ Would you like some dinner?"

He replied: „ Ellen, I was at the dinner with my colleagues…." She nodded: „ OK….."

He asked: „ Wanna watch some movie?"

„ It would be nice…."

Ellen was looking through the incredible choice of the Cullen DVD library. They seemed to own every possible movie. She picked the first one and handed it to him. He noticed the title and looked at her doubts: „ 10 reasons I hate you?"

Ellen smiled: „ Don´t you like that?"

He giggled: „ No, I was just wondering whether you feel like this about me…."

She sat down closer to him and tapped his nose: „ No, and you know that….."

He turned on the DVD and leaned back to her to the sofa.

She asked: „ We talked about my hobbies, but what about you?..."

He looked at her as she was expecting his answer. He realised that he didn´t reveal much about him. She had the right to ask.

He looked at the TV where the movie just started and added: „ Well, I love to read, watch movies, I have my own motor bike, and I adore puzzles. The harder, the better….."

Ellen laughed at the last one, it was weird to imagine such a clever person as him to spend evenings doing puzzles. „ You surprised me…."

„Why?"

„Well, with the puzzles….Patty adores them too, just the easy ones of course….but I don´t have the patience to put them together…"

„That is good to know…."

She nodded and they watched the movie. After few minutes Ellen fell asleep and moved her hand to his shoulder. He hugged her and held for few moments.

Then he wanted to carry her to the bedroom and she whispered: „ I am not sleeping….."

That made him smile: „ I can see that….good night honey…"

He laid her on the bed, gave away her home shoes and covered her with the blanket. She moved to the side and continued on sleeping. He sat down to her. He could watch her all the time. It seemed so natural to be with her.

He enjoyed her company so much. He wished to take her out for a date, but knew, that the right time hadn´t come yet…

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