CHAPTER TWO

The months seemed to fly past and Kono's belly grew with each passing month, she worked for as long as she could. She had given up working in the field the moment she had found out she was pregnant, which meant that they really had to give into the Governor's pushes to take on a new member for the team. Danny had taken over Five-0, Chin had taken Danny's spot and well Kono had become the Queen of paperwork. Their new member, a Detective from Danny's homeland New Jersey filled spot number four on their team. She was nice, she had the same quick mouth and mind as their new leader and like Danny, she had the personality which made it hard not to love her. It wasn't long before Kono and Chin noticed something happening between their native New Jerseyan's and Kono was quick to call them out on it, just like Danny had done to her and Steve.

Before long Kono was too big to fit behind her desk, her arms literally not long enough to reach it when she had her belly pressed to the edge, Danny liked to joke she was carry a sumo wrestler. He only made the joke once. So instead she was banished to home where she would spend her days in the ocean or pottering around the house, with the help of her Ohana they had gotten the nursery ready. Kono had done most of it, only recruiting Chin and Danny for the heavy lifting, it didn't feel right without Steve. She had heard nothing from him since that first call, he had warned her then that this might be only call before they went dark. Still had hoped she would hear something from him.

Her waters had broken late into the night, she woke with the worst pain low in her belly and she was out of bed as quickly as she could looking down at the water that was slowly soaking in her mattress. She had been having tightening of her belly for most of the day, they had been steadily growing worse, but she had played it down to braxton hicks since she had been been getting them for the last couple of weeks. Still when she saw the water she couldn't believe it was now finally happening. Kono had planned for a home birth, nothing felt more right than having her child where she felt most safe, most connected to Steve. Everyone had been on standby for weeks, especially when she had passed her due date a few days ago. So when she called Chin, she wasn't surprised when Danny, Eve and Malia all turned up. Though Malia was a given since she was the doctor of the family.

At noon that day John Steven McGarrett was born weighing a healthy six pounds and seven ounces. Kono was exhausted, but in total awe of the small being she held to her chest. With family around her Kono wish Steve had been here to see their son into the world, but he would be home soon, she kept telling herself that she tucked her face against the little body that had fallen quiet after screaming his way into the world. Kono didn't leave the house for days, people stopped by to see the newborn and she welcomed the company, it wasn't that she wanted to be alone. She just wanted to be at home and spend at least the week of her son's life together and with family. It was hard to begin with, she struggled figuring out when to sleep and eat, especially since John was a terrible sleeper and screamed the night and day away. Though she wasn't alone, Danny was literally a angel, John settled in his arms the moment he was handed over and Kono felt guilty for being happy her son stopped crying in another man's arms.

It was when John was six weeks old everything came crashing down around her, it was late in the day on a Saturday afternoon, everyone was over they were sat drinking and laughing in the garden while the smell of meat and smoke hung heavy in the air from the BBQ. The doorbell rang and Danny ran out laughing saying he would get it, but when they looked as he came back in, with two uniformed officers in tow there was no laughter. Not anymore. Kono instantly knew, she knew what they were hear to tell her. Steve was dead, he was never coming home, he was never going to meet his son, he was never going to know he was a father. That was her fault, she should have told him when she had the chance, and now she would live with guilt for the rest of her life. At some point Eve had taken John from her arms as Kono stared at the officers, not really listening as they spoken. Steve wasn't dead, but he might as well have been, he was missing. They hadn't heard from him in weeks and when the two remaining members of his unit had turned up without him, both of them saying he had been taken by unknown soldiers, they might as well just have declared him dead.

They left shortly afterwards, Chin seeing them out. Kono stared blindly at the space they had once filled she couldn't find anything left in her to move, to say anything as people sat around her silent. The only one to make a sound was John, no doubt feeling the tension and anguish in the air. "Kono?" It was Chin that spoke first, his hand settling in her shoulder ignoring the way Kono flinched under his touch. She turned to face him when he spoke her name again, and she saw the pain in his face, making everything hurt so much more. She pushed out of the chair, looking around everything, no one knowing what to say. Kono brushed Chin off, shaking her head when anyone spoke and headed inside, heading up the stairs to what had been hers and Steve's bedroom, now it was just hers. She shut the door behind her, then slowly sunk to the hard wooden floors, back pressed to the door as finally it hit her and she cried until she could cry no more.

A/N: I know! I'm sorry! It's so short! Chapter Three I promise you is a lot longer! Let me know what you think!