Hi everyone,
Chapter 30 is here (wow, already 30...), today we´re going a little bit romantic :-)
I wish all of you happy Easter... we have three free days, I have no idea how possible it will be for me to update... (we will be making the children room for our baby girl, so I have no idea how much time and strength I will have for my writing...and then we have some necessary visits...) but latest tuesday morning (Europe time) the update will be here :-)))))
have a nice holidays, everybody :-))))
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Ch 30
Ellen woke up and she realised that it is already thursday . Tomorrow her baby girl will be home again. She was so much looking forward to that. Alice and Rosalie want to do some shopping trip overnight to Seattle and they won´t be at home tonight because Emmett and Jasper will be going too. She thought that she could tell Carlisle about her feelings. It is the best when nobody else is at home disturbing them.
She was sitting at work silently and thinking about everything. Since their argument on monday, Carlisle was so nice to her again. But sometimes she noticed the sadness in his eyes and she couldn´t describe it. When she saw that, she felt kind of pain in her chest. She wasn´t able to explain it. Well, there were many other things she wasn´t able to understand lately.
Ellen was curious about their evening talk. Does he feel the same about her? Or will he reject? She was also kind of worried. She didn´t know this. As she remembered, Derek was the one, who tried to win her heart when she was at the college. She didn´t have to be the one to tell him about her feelings. Unfortunately she didn´t have another experience.
During the day she seemed to be dreaming, she was doing her tasks so cheerfully. Ellen knew that Friday is the last day of her work at the reception. Denise will be back after Christmas and New Year. And she will have to stay at home for another six weeks alone. She had no idea of what she would do. What about the moving out of the Cullen house? She used to plan this before the accident. But truly, since she realised her feelings for Carlisle, she doesn´t want to be away from him. No, she definitely wishes to stay. No moving out at the moment. Well, then she will need to think about some activity to occupy herself.
Carlisle was watching her and Ellen seemed to be absent-minded. Maybe she couldn´t wait to talk to her daughter. In the mountains they had not a signal to phone so Edward was sending a detailed text every evening when he disappeared in the woods.
When Ellen went to bed last night, Alice came to talk to him. She told him about their plans to go for a good hunt over night. To Ellen she claimed that they would go shopping in Seattle. They will be finally alone in the house. Perhaps they could really talk. It is a nice opportunity. And when he reminded the way Alice was looking at him, she must have known more than he…..
Yes, in the evening they will have a perfect chance to spend some time together and talk. Tomorrow will be a busy day. Ellen will be looking forward to Patty and it´s not the best solution with the whole family in the house. He didn´t want any witnesses.
He wanted to surprise her and order some flowers but when he grabbed the phone and wanted to call to the flower shop, his phone beeped: „ The flowers are in the living room…. I am sure she will like them…Alice….see you tomorrow…"
He couldn´t do anything else but smile. This was one of the advantages of having Alice in the house. He thanked her back and went to check the waiting room. It was empty and Ellen was looking out of the window to the snow falling down on the trees. He came silently behind her, touched her shoulders: „ Would you like to go home?" She just nodded and he couldn´t miss the look when she moved her head and watched his hands. He was sure though that his decision to tell her is the right one. She needs to know.
He carried her in the car and then drove home. Ellen was silent, all the time staring out of the window and he was wondering what she would say. He carried her home and there was an incredibly big bunch of pink roses in a vase….
She woke up out of the daydreaming in his arms and looked around: „ Wow, this is amazing….."
He sat her down on the sofa and sat down next to her. He was watching her surprise and had to admit that Alice did an amazing job this time.
Ellen whispered: „ It´s wonderful…"
He smiled softly: „ They´re all yours….."
She turned her head to him and said silently: „ you shouldn´t have… they´re so beautiful….."
He knew she cannot stand up to them and therefore took one rose out of the bunch. He handed it to Ellen´s hand. She could feel the scent of the flower and closed her eyes.
He decided to begin: „ Elly, I… I would like to talk to you tonight…"
She looked at him with questions in her eyes. He was not the only one who wanted to talk. She nodded and listened.
She could see that it´s not a very comfortable talk for him and caressed his fingers.
He could feel her support: „ Ellie, I know…. This is very unusual….we have been friends for so long…. I am so glad that I have met you, you mean for me so much, not only you, your daughter also, but from the moment I met you, I knew that you are special. You helped me when I was down from my divorce by being an online friend and listening to me. You got me out of my depressions and helped me to watch the world with open eyes again. As we recognised each other better, I had the feeling that we understand each other so well, we have become best friends and I am so happy to have you in my life….."
„ So am I, Carlisle….."
she added and he continued:
„ In the last few weeks I have realised that you mean for me so much, I have never felt anything like this to anyone….in my whole existence….. I fell in love with you my dear Ellie and I would like to be with you….to have you all the time next to me, to wake up next to you, to spend the days together, to watch Patty grow and také care of her…..I love you so much that I sometimes lack the words to express myself…."
„ Carlisle, I…"
she wanted to say something but he didn´t let her.
He continued: „ Ellie, I know this is too early, and very short time after your divorce…. I wanted just to tell you how I feel. I think you have the full right to know about my affection for you. I don´t want to make you uncomfortable. I am willing to wait until you decide if you are ready to be in a relationship. I don´t want you to hurry . Just take your time…..I will wait for you…"
Ellen was watching him with amazement. For the whole time he was looking deep in her eyes as if it gave him the strength to talk.
She was really nicely surprised. She wanted to reply but something stopped her.
His cell phone began ringing and he checked it: „Oh, no…not now….."
She asked: „ What´s wrong?"
„Hospital….." He accepted the phone and listened what the person was about to say.
He shrugged and Ellen could feel a weird feeling inside. Something like hopelessness. She couldn´t describe it.
Carlisle hang up and looked at her so desperately.
She caressed his face: „ What´s wrong?"
He touched her hand: „ There was an accident in the nearby area. And they are taking people to the ER and the ER boss is getting every possible doctor to come…."
„Then you should hurry…."
He stood up hesitating: " But we haven´t finished..."
She could see his disappointment: " We´ll talk about that later, I promise...now...go..."
He was hesitating and didn´t move. Therefore she touched him gently: „You should go to save the lives….The people need you ..."
She kissed his cheek and he ran out of the house.
When he closed the door, she realised that she won´t be able to get in her bedroom. She turned on the TV and heard about a mass car accident on the main highway and she knew that Carlisle would be at work for the whole night.
She jumped to the kitchen and prepared some light dinner.
Then she moved back to the TV and watched the news covered in a blanket she found on the armchair.
But she couldn´t concentrate on that. The only person she could think of was Carlisle.
And again she was going through everything he said.
He fell for her and she couldn´t believe it. He is the nicest person she ever met and he loves her.
It was pretty hard to belive. She never had a high regard of herself.
And she apprecitated that in everything he said, he didn´t leave out her little Patricia.
It was so considerate of him to give her time to think. Although she was already sure about her feelings, she was glad about this.
He didn´t attempt to push her into something. He wanted her to be sure. She felt to be ready to be with him.
This is what she wants too much. She has to tell him as soon as possible.
But probably not tonight, she would like some nice opportunity.
Maybe a Christmas gift? Yeah, that would be romantic. SHe was sure that he is kind of such man.
Yes, he must bought her so many roses. He definitely is romantic…. She was looking forward to seeing his reaction.
She fell asleep while thinking about this all.
Carlisle came home around 3 am and felt sorry he had to leave.
This came just in the moment when they were talking about their relationship.
He could hear the TV and turned it off. Then he sat down closer to Ellen and was caressing her hair.
He enjoyed to watch her sleeping. The shift was long and he hoped to be with her soon.
Before 7 he went to make her some big breakfast.
He noticed she hasn´t eaten much last night and wanted to make her a breakfast like for a queen.
Ellen was woken up by the beautiful scent coming out of the kitchen. She sat and wanted to jump to check it.
But he already heard her and headed to také her to the table. He kissed her cheek: „ Hi…. How did you sleep?"
She shrugged: „ Well, the bed is better….."
He apologised: „ Ellie, I am sorry, I came around three….I didn´t want to wake you up…."
SHe agreed: „ Yes, I understand….well…. I´ll sleep in the bed tonight…"
He smiled: „ Here is your breakfast….choose whatever you like….."
She took a pancake in her hand and asked: „ When did you sleep?"
He looked at the plate: „ I had a short nap when I came….three hours are enough….as a doctor you get used to this…."
„I am so much looking forward to my baby girl….I have missed her so much….."
„ I can see that…Edward texted at night, they will be leaving in the morning and in the early evening they should already be back… so you can enjoy your sweetheart…."
She smiled and drank the coffee.
After the breakfast they headed in the office. People were coming but mostly they wanted to wish some Merry Christmas.
Ellen was distracted since the morning. For the first time she had really no idea of what she was couldn´t concentrate.
SHe felt like outside of reality. SHe couldn´t help it.
Yes, she was excited about Patricia coming back but she had to think about Carlisle.
She felt sorry they couldn´t talk at the moment. His waiting room was full.
Therefore she texted him:
„ I just wanted to say, that I would like to take few days to think about everything… I hope you aren´t angry with me…Ellen"
After few minutes he replied: „ I told you I would wait,….. také all the time you need…"
She couldn´t reply anything but a smiley.
He was really so sweet.
In the afternoon Ellen had nothing to do. Carlisle was in the office discussing something with the nurse. They had closed door so she didn´t hear anything.
She was tired of the whole week.
Luckily the Christmas will be on sunday and they will have some nice time all together.
She was watching a movie in the computer when she heard the familiar scream: „ muuuuuuuuuuuum…."
Ellen stared, it was Patricia hugging her around the neck. Ellen had tears in her eyes: „ Patty, I was missing you…" She was holding her tight, not wanting to let her go.
She was so happy to have her back. Then she greeted Bella too but Patty didn´t want to move away from her.
Ellen heard the door open and Carlisle was leaning against the door frame watching his beloved girls hugging each other.
Ellen looked at him and could see the way he looked at them.
She could feel the love in his eyes. She has never noticed this before.
Ellen caressed Patty´s face: „ Patty, look who is there…"
Patricia yelled: „ uncle Carlisle…" and she ran to hug him and Ellen had a chance to hug Bella.
Carlisle asked: „ So will you show me your skiing?"
Patty kissed his cheek: „ Yes, I am good at it, uncle Edward raced with me….."
He laughed: „ You must be very good then… Edward is pretty fast….."
Bella commented: „ Patricia was really a fast learner, in the end she was almost faster than me…"
Patty said: „ You see? I am good….." Carlisle said: „ You´ll show me soon…."