It had been two months since I broke up with Dimitri and I was still crying myself to sleep and regretting it. Abe continued to remind me that it was my choice on whether or not I left him and my mom constantly tried to distract me with training or a movie. But my mind and heart are always with him.

I'd also been sick a lot lately due to the depression I was going through. I'd been eating healthy but I couldn't sleep. Often I'd dream about waking up in bed with him or training with him or some of our more passionate moments…

"Rose!" My mother's voice interrupted my thoughts and I got up clutching my stomach feeling nauseated. Damn depression sucked.

"Yes?" I saw her holding the phone and my dad watching Scream 4 on the TV. She handed me the phone with a quick smile and went to sit down next to my dad.

"Hello?" my voice sounded horrible due to the crying and nausea I couldn't get a break from.

"Hey, Rose. How are you feeling?" Lissa's voice came through and I smiled but felt my stomach twist up again.

"I'm ok. A little sick but that's to be expected with depression, right?" I tried to make a joke but I couldn't. I had to ask "How is he?" I was almost scared to hear what she would say.

"He's more antisocial than when we met him. Always on guard and never taking a moment of rest. You're not the only one depressed. We're heading off to Russia for a while. When are you coming back?" I felt my heart sink hearing about him. I knew I'd left on bad terms but I was hoping maybe he wouldn't be hurting. Not this bad at least.

"Liss I've still got 8 months. I may be coming back early though. I've missed you guys." I really had missed them. Being without her the past few months had been strange.

"We miss you to. A lot. Maybe we could meet up in Russia?" she suggested her voice full of hope, and I didn't realize until that moment how much I had missed her.

"I don't think so Liss. I'm staying with my mom until we go to Hungary for a bit, then we're heading to Turkey. I might be ready for home by the time we leave for Hungary though because I don't know how much more of Abe and Janine I can stand." I let a harsh little laugh come out.

"Ok. Just whenever you're ready. I'll even pay for the flight as long as you get your ass back here." We laughed at the thought.

"I'll see you in 8 months, Liss. I promised I'd come back then. I got to go. I think I'm about to throw up again." I didn't give her time to say goodbye before I was heading to the bathroom.

"Son of a bitch!" I was starting to question if it was the depression or the fucking food we we're eating.

"Rose, try not to talk. You can swear after you throw up." My mom had come in and pulled my hair back.

"Thanks. But I think I'll swear before, during, and after. Can we please just have a sandwich or something for lunch?" I asked desperate.

She smiled and went to the kitchen and laid out some stuff to make the sandwiches with. I got in there and made two sandwiches with turkey, cheese, mustard, and… banana peppers, raisins, and chocolate sauce? Well I'd always surprised myself with what wound up on my sandwich. I usually just grabbed and put it on there. But this was kind of weird, even for me.

I took a bite and it tasted good… really good. I sat down and watched the movie with Abe, while Mom was making dinner. In the middle of the movie where she hit the guy with the painting, I got up and made me another sandwich.

"What?" I asked as they gave me a strange look.

"Don't you feel sick?" Abe asked and I just looked at him.

"No actually this is the best I've felt in a while. Why?" I started to worry when he looked to her and then back at me.

"No Ibrahim, that's insane." She smacked him in the arm and walked back to the stove where she put steaks in the oven.

"What's insane?" I asked putting a hand on my hip and the other held the sandwich.

"Nothing. It's just that you seem to eat a lot more than usual now than you did." He stated.

"Is that your way of saying I'm going to get fat? Dad, I train all the time. I think I'm welcome to a sandwich every once in a while. Especially since I can't keep that shit down we've been eating." I said jokingly and got a smile out of him and he went back to watching the movie, where I heard screams. Looks like someone got it.

"Rose, you've been getting sick a lot right?" Mom asked as I started to walk out of the room.

"Yeah. So?" She looked almost worried. Which, for her, was weird.

"And crying and having weird cravings?"

"Mom, I've been depressed and I'm almost always eating, while food, weird shit."

"Rose. Have you had sex since we left?" she asked, her guardian face up.

"Are you fucking kidding me?" I growled and stared her down. "I left the man I love no more than 2 months ago and you're asking me if I've been fucking some stranger?"

"Yes." she stated and I continued to glare at her.

"No. I haven't fucked anyone."

"Abe, I'm taking our daughter for a drive. We'll be back soon." She grabbed my arm and, ignoring my complaints led me to the car.

We drove in silence until we reached a small store and she got out of the car and I followed her into the store.

"Ok what the hell are we doing here?" I asked when we got in the store. She grabbed a pregnancy test and handed it to me.

"Go take this." She handed it to me after paying for it.

I glared at her but took the test. "This is ridiculous I promise you, I haven't slept with anyone except Dimitri. I have been home or with you guys every second of the day…"

"Rose, please just take them. I believe you." That shocked me and her feature softened a bit.

I walked to the bathroom and took the test. When I got out I handed it to her. Her face didn't change as she handed it to me.

I looked down and slid to the floor. On the test was a small pink plus. A small pink plus that showed my life wouldn't be the same for much longer.

*** Oh boy lots is going to change from here on out. Thanks everyone for the awesome reviews. aj davis I hope this chapter wasn't a disappointment. R&R please.