I had run up to my room and had slammed the door when we got there. I hadn't said a word to my father when we'd got back but I could hear him and my mom discussing whether or not to go back to court.

He hadn't been thrilled about me being pregnant, but he hadn't come in here just to scream at me. I couldn't believe it and I don't think they were having an easy time wrapping their heads around it either. I'd left Dimitri because I couldn't give him a baby, and yet, I sat there in my room holding a positive pregnancy test in my hand.

I got off of my bad and walked to the full body mirrors hanging on my wall. I turned to the side and lifted up my shirt and sure enough, there was a small bump. I felt tears spring to my eyes, knowing that I'd really messed up this time. I rushed down the stairs we shared a look before we started packing.

The trip back to the academy was shorter than I'd cared for and we hadn't been able to fly due to the risks for the baby. Abe and Janine had constantly told me everything would be ok, but I couldn't shake the feeling that maybe Dimitri didn't want me anymore or maybe he was to hurt to even want this baby in his life. How is he going to react? Or should I even tell him? Stupid thought, Rose. You have to tell him. That though I immediately shook from my head but I couldn't help but feel sick. From both the baby and the guilt

I saw Lissa and Christian when we got there and she ran over and threw her arms around me. I wrapped mine around her in return feeling a few tears land on my shoulder.

"Your back! I thought you said you weren't going to be back for another 8 months?" she asked and squealed in happiness.

"I had a change of plans." I had a bright grin and looked to Christian. "It's good to see you too, Sparky."

"Well I'm going to miss the quiet. I missed you a little." He said and I elbowed him lightly. I could tell that they both looked kind of guilty.

"Ok what's the bad news?" I asked and felt my stomach twist up in knots.

"Rose, why did you leave?" she asked and I couldn't help but wonder why the guilt was written all over the faces.

"I left because I wanted Dimitri to have a better life. Have kids, get married, and not worry about me all the time." I told her and I looked between them. "I have to go see Dr. Olendzki but I'll see you later."

I walked to her office and I looked around looking for Dimitri. He needed to know as soon as possible. I needed to go ahead and get this over with.

"Rose, it's good to see you again." she said as she gestured to a chair.

"I have a question." I told her and she looked at me, giving me her full attention. "Is it possible that when Lissa brought me back, she may have done something that could cause me to get pregnant with a dhampir's baby?"

"I would think anything is possible at this point." She smiled and I walked out of her office with a quick goodbye. I had hoped maybe it was a mistake but apparently not. Another pregnancy test confirmed that much.

I unlocked the door to mine and Dimitri's dorm room. I walked through the room, half hoping to see him, half hoping not to. He wasn't here. I breathed a sigh of relief and sat down on the bed and looked through some of the old western novels he'd left lying around and I smiled remembering how I used to tease him about these all the time.

I walked to the bathroom and saw everything was neat and tidy like it usually was. I saw the bottle of his cologne and took the cap off. The smell enveloped me and I couldn't help but think of all the time's he'd held me and I could smell this on him.

I put my hand on my stomach and put the bottle down close to my hand. I hoped and prayed he would want to be part of this baby's life. This baby was going to need a father. I walked to the little fridge that was in all of the dorms and looked in it. I smiled when I saw a bucket of cookie dough. He'd always kept sweet stuff around in case I got a sweet tooth.

Memories hit me left and right and when I put my hand on the door frame I felt tears fill my eyes as the last memory of him came to mind. I put my other hand on my baby and wished I could go back and change this. I hoped I'd have the strength to tell him.

I sat down on the couch and pulled the blanket we always kept close after we made love on the couch and had almost froze the next morning. I laughed and butterflies started in my stomach.

Lissa and Christian walked through the door an hour later, arm in arm. I smiled getting up from the couch and Lissa ran over to me and hugged me again while Christian rushed out the door.

"What the hell was that about?" I asked her after she let me go.

"We need to talk about something. I should've told you when you got here." She looked down guilty.

"Is this the reason behind all the guilty expressions?" I asked and sat back down on the couch. She looked down at me and her cheeks turned pink. "I have to tell you something first."

"What is it?" she took my hand and took a seat next to me on the couch. Her jade green eyes alight with excitement.

"I'm pregnant." I told her and she waited for me to finish. "I'm shadow-kissed remember? Well, being shadow-kissed changed some things about me. Our bond for example came with it. So did the ability to get pregnant by another dhampir. Liss, I'm having Dimitri's baby. I left for that reason and it turns out that I was pregnant when I told him. I just hope he'll want this baby and that he'll forgive me for hurting him." I smiled and when I looked back up her eyes we're full of tears and some were even spilling down.

"Rose, I'm sorry." She sniffled and put my arms around her.

"It's not your fault. I left and if he decides he doesn't want me then it's ok." I patted her hair as she cried.

"Rose, if he doesn't want you it is my fault." I didn't move but continued petting her hair and I felt tears spill over my eyes.

"Liss, its ok." she got up and walked out the door. A moment later she walked back in, tears falling freely, and Christian's usually smug expression, was gone.

I stared at them for a moment but no longer. Dimitri walked in after them. His brown eyes rested on mine. He looked as gorgeous as ever in his white button down shirt, black jeans, and boots. His duster was in one of his hands and in the other was… a woman's hand. In walked in a blonde hair, grey-eyed, beautiful Moroi woman with her hand in Dimitri's and a brilliant smile lit up on her face. His eyes held mine and I couldn't help but feel tears spring to them and put my hand on my stomach.

All those hopes of him forgiving me and wanting this baby shattered. As did my strength to tell him and my want to stay here. I turned to Lissa tears spilling over my eyes. I wasn't angry with her or Christian or even Dimitri, but I felt more hate and grief than I'd ever rest on me in that moment. I looked back to Dimitri and back at them before walking out the door.

*** talk about a slap in the face and karma being a big bitch. R&R and I hope your enjoying the story