I didn't get very far out the door before I heard someone running after me. I turned into Lissa's jade green eyes and stopped in my tracks.
"I'm sorry. He was miserable after you left. We couldn't stand to see him like that and so Christian set him up. We we're all going to watch a movie tonight and Christian suggested bringing her. I promise Dimitri wasn't bringing her down for what you think. She was going to ride back with us." She let out in one breath. I laughed softly and she looked back up at me. "I don't see anything funny about this." Her voice serious but she was still out of breath.
"I know. Ok fine let's go. I guess I was just hoping for a reason not to tell him." she laughed and though it was true I could see the way she looked at him but I didn't see the same thing in him.
She walked by us in the hallway and Lissa turned to her. "Lorraine, are you leaving?" she asked and faked a smile.
"No, I'll be back in a few. Going out to get some popcorn for the movie." She smiled back at Lissa and then walked off. I felt jealousy swell in me and the butterflies in my stomach reminded me to keep my cool.
"I'm still kicking Christian's ass." I told Lissa and she laughed before shrugging.
"Fair enough." She agreed and we walked to the door.
"Have you had sex with her?" Came Christian's voice and I looked to Lissa. I so didn't want to hear this conversation. But she pulled me so I could hear.
"No. We kissed good night and… I don't know. It just didn't feel right. She's not Rose." Dimitri's voice sounded both hurt and stressed. "I don't think a relationship with anyone is a good choice right now."
"Even with Rose?" I leaned in closer to the door, wanting to hear what he had to say. "Now that she's back."
"She's back, but she left. She said she wasn't happy in our relationship." His voice was tight, guarded. Almost sounded like he was afraid to let it out. I was mentally kicking myself. I'd really messed up and felt horrible about it.
"Chicks say that all the time. She wanted you to be happy. Like when she talked about you and Aunt Tasha? I think she has in her itty bitty brain that if you have kids you'll be happier." Ok he was right. But he needed an ass kicking for the "itty bitty brain" comment. I'll have to remember to give it to him later.
"I know. I don't know what it takes to get across that I don't want anyone else. I love her. I don't want anyone else. I don't need a baby to be happy. I just need her. But now I'm not sure if she feels the same."
"She's crazy about you. With all the comments to Lissa she used to give I am pretty sure she is still shot in the ass by cupids bow in love with you. Still. And if she says otherwise, she is bullshitting big time."
They laughed at this and apparently it was time for us to come in, because Lissa stood up and opened the door. "What are you two laughing at? It better not be my speech the other day."
I walked over to our little couch and couldn't take my eyes off of him. He'd stayed faithful. Even when I'd left. Hell, he still loved me. I felt butterflies in my stomach and this time it wasn't because of the baby. Then I remembered something.
Christian yelped in pain as my foot connected with his knee cap and looked up at me. "What the hell was that for?"
"Because you're an asshole." He continued to glare as Lissa rubbed his knee. I just shrugged and turned my attention to the movie.
Lorraine walked in a little while later and I saw Dimitri force a smile. One that was clearly fake. I couldn't believe I hadn't seen it before. I felt a sense of pride wash over me and I knew even though I'd left his feelings about me hadn't changed.
He sat in the recliner he loved so much and that we'd made love in several times, where as she joined me on the floor close to the TV. I cast a look at Dimitri and walked out of our dorm and into the hallway.
The students weren't out because it was about mid-day for the humans but I can recall hundreds of times I snuck out after curfew. Dimitri joined me 5 minutes later. He was guarded but I hoped he would listen to what I had to say.
"I'm sorry." I told him and did my best to keep my eyes on his and not look down.
"You weren't happy. You did what was best for you." He was guarded and I didn't need him to be guarded. Not if he was going to listen to what I needed to tell him.
"I lied. I have never been more happy than when I'm with you. Being away from you the past couple of months have been miserable. I thought about you every single day. I cried myself to sleep and I know I've fucked up, but I swear to you, that there is no one else I will ever want. I love you more than anything and I am so sorry I hurt you." I felt the tears spilling down my face and quickly tried to wipe them away.
He didn't respond for the longest time. He just stared at me for what seemed like an eternity. I was about to walk back inside when he pushed me against the door and kissed me. His tongue touched my lips begging for the entrance we both needed and I granted him entrance. As our tongues fought for dominance our bodies weren't so calm either. My hands went to his hair and his went to my lower back and pushed me close to his hard body.
His moan was like a splash of cold water on both of us. We pulled back and I felt my heart still racing and he relaxed against the wall. Our eyes stayed on each other as we tried to get control of both our breathing and our bodies. My body was screaming at me to take him to our bedroom and make up for the past few months but my brain was in control right now.
"If we're going to do this we need to do it the right way." He said, finally breaking the silence. I nodded still out of breath.
"We need to tell Lorraine." I told him and he shook his head.
"No. I need to tell Lorraine. You wouldn't let me help with Adrian. Now you're not helping me with Lorraine." He kissed my head and I put my hand on my belly. This is your daddy. I love him so much and he's an amazing person. I thought to my baby.
"Ok. I love you." I told him again and he smiled.
"I love you too. But we can't just pick up where we left off, Roza. We need to take this slow and we need to talk about some things before we even think about getting back on track." I kissed him again and he put his hand on my cheek and let the kiss linger for a moment before we walked back inside.
***So Dimitri didn't rush into a relationship or have sex with Lorraine. Remember to keep her in the back of your mind. How much did Christian need that kick in the knee? Rose and Dimitri are taking it nice and easy. Wonder how he is going to react about the baby? R&R to find out :) and thanks again for all of your lovely reviews!