I woke up the next morning to the smell of bacon and eggs. When I opened my eyes I could see all around me were the comfortable surroundings of our dorm back at the academy. I turned to see Dimitri walking out of our very small kitchen with two plates.

"Good morning." I greeted him and he walked over and handed me one of the plates.

"I thought you might be hungry." He said and sat in the recliner beside our small tan couch.

"Thank you. You know I wasn't serious about you cooking for me." I told him and speared and egg and took a bite out of it. I put my hand on my stomach hoping that the baby was ok with eggs and bacon; otherwise I was forcing it down.

"Yes you were." He told me and I glared at him. He'd set his plate down in front of him and didn't touch it.

"Comrade, not eating is not going to help the awkward situation were in right now." I told him and put my empty plate down on the coffee table.

"Rose, you left. I still don't understand why and I'm honestly waiting on you to tell me that you've come back to get the rest of your things and go back to wherever you went because you've found someone else." He looked down at his hands and I felt hurt that he would assume that I'd moved on so quickly. Then I got pissed.

"Didn't seem to bother you when you were out and about with Lorraine." I growled and he snapped up.

"You left. Christian set us up and at least she didn't leave without a good reason." He spat and I could see he was on the verge of losing his iron control.

"You're right. But I left to give you a better future I just didn't think you'd move on in two fucking months!" I screamed standing up from the couch and I felt a slight pain in my stomach. I put my hand on my stomach and counted to three before talking again. "Look the thought that you couldn't have kids and it was my fault was more than I could handle."

"I chose that." His voice was calm but stern and I could tell he was very close to losing his temper. "I chose to be with you. I had the choice to have kids and I didn't want it. I still don't. I want you and you are too stubborn to see that." He was shaking by this point and I rubbed my belly trying to keep myself calm, but damn was he pissing me off tonight.

"I know you chose that, but I didn't want you to wind up regretting it later down the road. Lissa and Christian could announce they are pregnant any day and I didn't want you to feel bad because you think you've taken something away from me or that you didn't want me because I took that away from you." I finished and this time I remained calm.

"Roza, I love you and I don't know how to get it through to you that you are the only person I want. There is no one else and there is never going to be anyone else. If I want kids you are the only person I want them with." His voice trailed as I went into that about this baby.

Now would've been the perfect time to tell him but I couldn't bring the words to my lips. I wanted to tell him that we could have kids. For fuck's sake that we are having a kid. But I couldn't. Christian may have set them up but he'd still agreed to try a relationship with Lorraine and there was no way that that didn't mean something.

He didn't seem happy with her but maybe it could've grown into something. Maybe a close friendship or even a real relationship. Some part of him had probably wanted that which was why he'd agreed to give it a chance.

"Rose, are you listening to what I'm saying?" he asked and I stared at him.

"I'm sorry. My head is spinning from sitting on the couch. Dimitri the point is that I haven't thought of anyone but you since I left and you have been on a date and kissed someone else. How am I supposed to feel about that?" I asked and shrugged my shoulders.

"Get mad, be upset. But that doesn't mean we just throw everything away. Rose, I agreed to it because I wanted something on my mind other than you. It still didn't work. You were on my mind during my day and in my dreams at night. There was nothing else, just you." He gave me a serious look and I sat back down. I rubbed soothing circles into my stomach, trying to comfort both me and the baby.

"I'm not mad I'm pissed that you moved on so quick. But you're right and you had every right to move on I guess I just wasn't expecting it to be that soon. I love you very much and if you decide that Lorraine is what you want then I'll understand. But before we make a decision on whether or not we are going to stay together or separate we need to talk. Take it slow; see if this is what's best for both of us. I love you and I hope you love me as much you say you do and if you do then we need to take some time to know for sure that this is what we both want. For the long run." He laughed at this.

"Says the one who has been refusing to marry me for the past year." I laughed and though the tension was broken I wasn't going to forget about the fact that we were taking it slow. At least for a few months.

Two to be exact and hopefully I wouldn't be showing too much by then if I decided to wait and tell him. I immediately cast that thought away. I needed to tell him soon but I wasn't going to tell him. I knew if he knew he would ignore everything I had to say about seeing if this was right and he'd do the right thing and stay and help support this baby. If he believed it was his. My own mother had accused me of sleeping with someone else and though Lissa had listened, she'd also given me an accusing glare whether she meant to or not.

"So what is on your agenda for the day?" I asked and sat cross legged on the couch.

"Lissa and Christian are going to Missoula today. They wanted a movie night tonight so odds are we'll be going with them to guard them. That is, if you want to. I'm perfectly capable of watching over both of them if you want to stay and rest." He was worried about me even if he was pissed at me. I smiled before grabbing my clothes to go get a shower.

"I could use a little action. Who knows, you might need some help keeping them out of trouble and I wouldn't mind getting out for a bit anyway."

***So they haven't made up yet and it seems that though they are less tense that there are still quite a few bumps in the road. And their problems have yet to even start. That's right they may be broken up but that's going to be the least of their worries before too long. Anyone remember a certain brother that turned up in Spirit Bound? Ever wonder if he might be planning a little revenge on our young lovers? Or what about Tasha. I'm sure she's got something up her sleeve? R&R to find out. aj davis, Yunacarman, and Dimka's chick and everyone else thank you so much for the review you guys gave me inspiration to continue writing and I will be updating every chance I get.