Ch 47
Ellen closed the door of the practice and headed to Rose and Patty and Rose drove home. Ellen still felt kind of uncomfortable from what happened in the office. Why is everything so complicated? Why cannot they just spend few moments intimate without being felt sad because of it. She knew this wasn´t Rosie´s fault but still... the situation was pretty embarassing.
Ellen could see how bad Carlisle felt when they surprised them. The frustration coming out of him was really visible. She didn´t want to leave him at such moment but the girls waited for her. Patty was talking about her day with her class mates and Ellen just listened to it without comments. Her head was full of mess again.
Rose was a fast driver and before she pulled on the arrival way to garages, she said: „ You´d better do the buttons on your shirt correctly….they are wrong….." Ellen was so shocked and realised that Rose was right: „ I apologise…I just…."
Rose looked back at her with understanding: „ Elly… don´t apologise, there´s nothing wrong about that… I am sure that you won´t sit and hold your hands when you are alone…."
Ellen reopened the buttons and did it all properly.
Rose smiled: „ Now it´s perfect…."
Ellen blushed and she touched her hand: „ Ellie? There is really nothing wrong…you don´t have to feel ashamed….."
Ellen smiled: „ Thanks…."
She got out of the car with Rosalie´s help and Patty ran as the first one to the living room where Bella and Alice were waiting.
Alice was just secretly smiling. Ellen had the feeling that she knows everything but Alice was acting so naturally that after a moment Ellen forgot about all doubts.
Alice turned on the music and they all began dancing for the fast dance songs. Patty joined them too and even Ellen with her crutches was enjoying the girls time.
Carlisle returned back to the waiting room after Ellen, Rose and Patty left. He was feeling desperate, he also felt sorry that he wasn´t able to hide it from Patty. She sensed his weird mood too and he wasn´t feeling very good about it. He paced towards his table, took the folder left on the table in his hands and angrily threw it on the door.
He felt like everything he touches goes crap recently. He just wanted to spend some time with his girlfriend. Why is it so hard to find a private moment. There must be always someone who disturbes... It´s getting boring. It´s repeating again and again and he is already fed up. The frustration feeling made him growl. His thoughts returned back to his mate. The moments with Ellen are always so breathtaking and he wanted to enjoy them to the full extent. However, he is never able to because somebody always stops them.
He knew today it wasn´t Rose´s fault. She couldn´t have know but still this was becoming too much. His always thought that his primary strength was his self-control. But he realised that it was no longer true. At least not with his mate. He wasn´t able to control himself when being close to her and more close to her beautiful body. Everytime he touched Ellen, he felt like lost and he couldn´t think and concentrate anymore.
He also felt guilty because he was rude in front of Ellen, he didn´t want to say the word but how else could he describe his anger and frustration at the moment?
He felt really so overwhelmed because of the whole situation. He couldn´t understand it. He never behaved like this. After hundred years of experience he acts like a teenager. But somehow he felt he couldn´t suddenly help it. It seemed to be stronger than everything he ever experienced.
Suddenly his phone began beeping and he knew it was from Edward. His sons were already outside in the car waiting for him. He took of the doctor coat and with the bag in the hand he headed outside.
When he came in the car, he greeted his sons and sat down silently. Emmett was the driver today and so Carlisle could spend some time resting. Unfortunately he underestimated the abilities of his sons. They immediately knew there was something wrong. Edward could easily read his mind and Jasper sensed the what bugs him at the moment. Suddenly he felt the embarassement but it was too late. They had alreasy sensed the emotions and Edward knew exactly what happened. Somehow he forgot to block his thoughts from his son.
Edward was watching his dad and couldn´t help it but he seemed really sad and desperate. The frustration was visible even to Emmett who didn´t have any special ability.
He wanted to comfort him in a way and began talking„ Dad, don´t worry, it´s gonna be alright…"
Edward contnied: „ Yes, I am sure, next time you will have more privacy….."
Carlisle gasped and couldn´t believe what he just heard.
Even Jasper joined the conversation: „ Dad, Emm and Edd are right….sorry but all your emotion just turn around ..."
Carlisle stopped him immediately:„ Guys, you know what I think about this…"
Edward added: „ Sorry, we just wanted to help….."
He nodded: „ I know, but I am in no fucking mood to discuss this with you….please block your abilities or pretend you don´t know how to use them on me…"
He snaped at them.
Then he looked out of the window again and noticed that none of them talked since then.
He realised that he overreacted. It wasn´t fair. He never shouted at them but this time they went pretty far. Suddenly he felt sorry for his behavior. Again in few hours. This was really so embarassing. He shouldn´t project his anger and disappointment on his boys. They don´t deserve it.
When Emmett stopped and all got out of the car, he decided to talk: „ Emmett, Jasper, Edward... I... I would like to apologise to you...I had no right to be rude to you...….it´s ...just getting too hard…"
Edward added: „ We understand dad…..we should have been silent…..it´s not our business..." Carlisle hugged each of them and Emmett asked: " I am going for a big bear...Jazz are you with me?" He agreed and followed his brother.
In few seconds they were nowhere to be seen.
Edward remained with Carlisle. He had always felt the special connection among them and he felt he could support him a little bit. He had the hands in the pockets and watched Carlisle looking around thinking about the direction to start.
He decided to say what was on his mind: „ Dad, you remember about my beginnings with Bella?"
Carlisle laughed: „That´s not easy to forget…."
Edward grinned but continued: „ It is different when dealing with humans….. I had also hard time before I felt completely comfortable in the relationship…You certainly remember how protective I felt about Bella... and all the escapades connected with our quick departure..."
Carlisle just sadly nodded. He could see everything that happened years ago.
He leaned against the car and Edward moved next to him. He was still deep in his thoughts.
After few minutes he finally spoke up:
„ I know…..you´re right… the relationship with a human is different...I am aware of this...just...Elly has no idea of what we are...I have to tell her everything soon..." Edward remained silent and he continued. In this moment he was glad he couldn´t blush: " Elly...she wants to make love with me...and I want to...but I feel she should know first before anything happens...concerning the abnormalities about our body temperature..."
To his surprise Edward giggled: " Well...if you want to know...she doesn´t need to find out..." Carlisle stared at him: " How do you mean?..."
"Come on, dad...you´re a doctor...a very smart one...you´d better find out yourself..."
He was really surprised by what Edward just said.
"How do you know there is a way...?"
Edward smirked: " There is, believe me..."
Carlisle tapped his shoulder: " Thank you, Edward, but I still think...Elly deserves to know...I hate when I lie to her...it´s not fair..."
Edward watched him and his worries: „ I am sure, Ellen will understand…..she is so caring and she loves you deeply…." Then he smiled and added:
"Sometimes she is even so deep in her toughts that she is not able to do anything else..."
He grinned and made Carlisle smiled too. Carlisle realised that Edward due to his special ability knows more about her than anybody else does. He knew that Edward regards Elly very high but still wanted to ask him. He began slowly: " There is one thing I wanted to ask you...You seem to like Elly a lot….you and your Bella are so close to her…."
Edward nodded: „ I like her very much…..I once told you that since I met her, she reminds me of my mum,...and since she moved in with Patty... I take her as the mother in the family...she is so natural at it and this family already needed a mother figure since..." Carlisle knew he talked about his ex who left the family.
He hugged him: „ Thank you, Edward... You´re a great friend and son….I am sure Ellen would be delighted to hear you speaking about her this way"
Edward added: „ Thanks dad….." Edward pointed to the north: " Let´s try this...what do you think?" Carlisle agreed: " Perfect...let´s go then..." And in few moments they were both gone.