Chapter 8: Seeing Double

My hands shook fiercely as I stared into the face of Donny...my Donny, "I-Is it you..? Is it really you?"

He peered hard into the darkness, trying to see the shape of my face, "I-I thought it sounded like you, earlier while you were chasing me..Your voice was unmistakable.."

I reached my hands out to cup his face, "I-I can't believe it..! H-how!?"

He sat up, pulling me with him, "You're asking me? I don't even know where I am right now..but, besides that..I-I can't believe I found you! I'm so glad you're safe!" Quickly, he pulled me in, kissing me hard, the kind of kiss a girl starts to miss after a while, "I searched everywhere for you..I thought I'd lost you.."

I smiled lightly at him, feeling his arm with my hand, "And I, you..I didn't know if I'd ever see you again.." I lowered my eyes.

"Anocari..?" Raph stepped towards us, "What exactly is going on?" Mikey followed after him, both of them standing right in front of us.

"Uh..how about we get into some light first..This...this is definitely going to be difficult to explain..." A horrible thought plagued my mind as I thought of the other Donatello..this is what I had been so afraid of..

I touched my forehead, feeling as if I might get sick. Donny gave me a concerned look, "Are you alright..? Do you need some help up?"

I shook my head, trying to get the thought off of my mind, "No..no I'll be fine. Let's just get into some light..I'll try to explain some things on the way back."

As we stood, Raph walked beside me, a confused tone in his voice as he spoke, "Uh, Don? How did you end up over here..? I thought you went with Leo?"

"Huh? Went with Leo? What do you mean?"

"Ehh.." I felt dizzy again as I realized all the things I would need to explain to them..this was not going to be good..not at all, "How about we just wait on the questions..okay?"

We were all silent as we finally approached the end of the dark tunnel, small beams of light coming through the opening. My whole body seemed to shake as I prayed to god Donny wouldn't be there already..I wasn't sure how to explain any of this to him..what would I do? Just run up to him and say, "Hey! My husband is here so I don't like you anymore!" I shook my head, feeling extremely guilty for everything I had done with the other Donny..I'd made him fall in love with me..and now I was going to break his heart..

Donny looked at me with question in his eyes, "Are you alright..?"

I squeezed my hand over my left shoulder, "I...I'm just not in a good place right now..Let's just say..I did something I'm not particularly proud of.."

He stopped me for a moment, letting Raph and Mikey walk past us, "What are you talking about?"

I bit my lip hard, unsure of his reaction to my actions, "Donny...this..this isn't our world."

He gave me a dumfounded look, "W-what do you mean this isn't our world? I'm here, you're here? My brothers are here?"

I shook my head, looking over my shoulder to make sure Leo and the other Donny weren't back yet, "Donny, I woke up here and no one knew who I was.. Raph and Mikey, they just only met me a couple of weeks ago..when I disappeared from our world.. That's what they were talking about when they said you had gone with Leo..because..because.."

"W-what the hell...?!"

I spun around quickly to see the other Donny standing, dumbfounded, next to Leo, complete and utter confusion in his eyes. I turned back to look at my Donny, seeing him stare back at the other Donny with shock.

"Uhh..okay..this is weird..." Mikey scratched his head, moving his eyes between the two of them, "Why are there...two of you..?"

Leo stepped forward, "Anocari..what's going on..?" I almost wanted to laugh at the fact he knew I'd know what was going on.

I racked my brain to find the right words, but nothing seemed right, "I-I..well.." I took a deep breath, holding it in for a moment before releasing it, trying to find a balance in the emotions running through me, "I don't really know how..but it seems that..the Donny from my world was the one making the sensors go off. We found him in the same place I turned up, so..I guess he got here the same way I did. I..I'm not really sure about anything right now..except for the fact that this is definitely the Donny from my world."

It was completely silent in the tunnels as the two Donnys walked slowly up to each other. They examined the others features carefully, staring at one another as if they had seen a ghost..a ghost that was an exact replica of themselves.

My Donny looked back to me, a blank look of shock still on his face, "..So..tell me again about this 'other world'.."

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw the other Donny, staring at me with a deep look of sorrow in his eyes. I gulped, feeling as if I might get sick right then and there. What the hell was I going to do? Obviously there was only one Donny I was supposed to be with..but now there were two who thought they were supposed to be with me..

I stood, motionless for a long time, staring around the room as everyone looked to me for answers I didn't have. The walls seemed to spin around me as I felt my legs go weak, a block of stress hitting me like a pile of bricks to the face. My Donny reached over to touch my arm, giving me a concerned look. I heard him speaking, but I couldn't process the words as I blinked a million miles an hour. I took a deep breath, trying to conjure up words, but nothing came out, I simply wobbled and rolled my eyes back in my head as I dropped suddenly into Donny's arms. I prayed to god this would all just be a dream when I woke up again..

. . .

I felt a gentle hand on my shoulder as I came to, shaking me lightly, "Anocari..?"

I pressed my brows together as I attempted to open my eyes, afraid of what I may see. Blinking slowly, I looked up to see Donny kneeling next to me as I lied on the couch. I raised up quickly, "D-Donny?"

He smiled weakly at me, "Yes, love, it's me."

I stared at him for a moment, "Am...am I...?"

It took him a moment to grasp my unfinished question, but his eyes soon fell, telling me everything I needed to know, "..No. We're still in this other world, darling."

I let out a heavy sigh, my shoulders drooping, "Donny, I need to talk to you about something..I know if I keep putting it off it will just be worse in the long run..so I need to tell you.."

He cocked his head, "..What is it?"

I looked around the room, seeing the others standing by cautiously, unknowing of what exactly to say or do. I wondered, then, if they had been talking about me while I was out.. I bit my lip, "Can we go somewhere alone..?"

He nodded, "Sure."

We walked just outside of the lair, the door shutting securely behind us. I was quiet for a long moment, fiddling with my fingers as he folded his arms, waiting for me to speak. I was almost scared of what he would say..I felt almost as if I'd cheated on him..even though it was..well..with him.

"Anocari.." he looked into my eyes as I raised my head, "I'm your husband. You don't have to be afraid to tell me anything. Even if you fear it may upset me."

I grabbed my arm, squeezing it nervously as I looked to the side, "I know..It's just..You need to know, when this happened..I didn't think I was ever coming back..I was scared and alone and no one here knew me like you and your brothers do..I was a stranger and I hated it..." I looked at him for a moment to see his face, still calm as ever. I slowly breathed in, letting out a long sigh of air after my lungs could hold no more, "Donny...the..well..'other' Donny..he..I...well.."

His eyes widened as I looked up at him through my eyelashes, too embarrassed and guilty to finish my own sentence, "...Oh god, you didn't sleep with him, did you?"

I shot my hands up in defense, "NO! Oh god no! No, definitely not!"

He let out a sigh of relief, his shoulders relaxing, "Oh, good..that would have been bad..So...what did you do..?"

My face was beet red as I scratched my head, "We just..kissed I guess.." my words sped up as I became more and more embarrassed, "but I mean that's all we did it was just a kiss I promise! Nothing else! I swear to god! I feel so awful about it and I don't know what to do because I don't want you to hate me and I just-"

Donny suddenly reached out to grab my hands, stopping me in my tracks, "Anocari. It's alright.." he sighed, "Yes..it's just a little hard to know your wife has been kissing someone else..but you had plausible cause. You thought you were never going to see me again..and I understand that.." I saw traces of disappointment in his eyes as he spoke, knowing it wasn't as okay as he was putting it out to be, "I love you so much, and I know you love me the same. As long as I don't have to worry about losing you, then everything is alright.."

I squeezed his hands, "Donny..you can tell me if you're mad.. I'd understand.."

He shook his head, "Even if I was, it wouldn't matter. You regret it, right? And you have apologized, right?"

I nodded, looking down.

He smiled at me as he put his finger under my chin, lifting my gaze to his, "See? It's alright as long as I know that. The only thing I'm worried about is getting us home."

"I'm worried about the other Donny..."

He let out a sigh, knowing it was in my nature to care too much about things like this, "Well..you need to talk to him, then. You need to resolve what's been done, okay? It's the only way you'll feel better."

I pouted, feeling stressed about my task at hand, "I could barely tell you about this.."

He grabbed my face with both of his hands, "Anocari, you need to talk to him." he paused for a short moment, "..I'm not going to let you kiss me until you do."

I frowned as he winked at me, "That's not fair!"

He chuckled, "It's every bit fair. Now you'd better get moving if you ever want to kiss me again, miss."

Sighing heavily, I folded my arms and opened the door to the lair. I bit my lip as we walked back inside spotting the other Donny across the room. My Donny gave me a look as I turned back at him, making sure I knew he was every bit serious.

I nervously crossed the room as my Donny went to talk with everyone else, twiddling my fingers again. He was sitting at his desk in the main room, staring at a stack of blueprint papers. He jumped as I tapped him on the shoulder with my pointer finger. I spoke lightly, my voice shaking a little, "Hey.."

He smiled weakly, "Hey..glad to see you're up and about.."

I nodded, hesitating to speak, "Listen...we need to talk about what's..going on.."

He let out a sigh, turning back towards his desk, "I know..I've been thinking about the same thing.." his voice was soft, almost depressing to hear..

I placed my hand on his shoulder, "You know..you still are Donny.."

He looked back at me, "..What do you mean?"

"No matter who I'm really supposed to be with, you will always be a Donny. Which means I will always love you no matter what, even if we can't really be together." my hand slid off of his shoulder as I turned, hearing no response from him.

Suddenly, he spun around to grab my wrist, stopping me before I could walk away. I stared at him with curious eyes as he hesitated to speak, looking nervously into my gaze, "...Thank you..." his hand shook lightly as his grip loosened around my wrist, "..for showing me what it's like to love...I mean.."

I smiled lightly, feeling almost as if I could cry. I could tell in that moment just how much I was breaking his heart..the very thing I had been afraid of from the start..that very day, in fact, I had asked him what it would be like for him if I was forced to leave him..the irony..and it just hurt to know he had to restrain all of these feelings he had developed for me. I kept the small smile on my face as he let go of my wrist, "..Don't ever forget what it's like..promise me that. Who knows..one day you might run into me.."

He nodded silently, blushing slightly at the thought of having an Anocari of his own to love. I knew it would take him a long time to get over what we had developed, but I was completely sure there was someone else out there for him, even if it wasn't me. I just wanted him to be happy at this point..seeing the misery behind his eyes, silently hiding behind that awkwardly cute face of his..I knew I wouldn't be completely happy until he was.

I smiled once more at him before turning to cross the room, walking back to stand with my Donny. As I approached, he took me by the waist and pulled me in next to him, "Well hello there." he gave me an irresistible crooked smile and I melted like butter under his arm.

Raph scoffed a bit, "Well I can definitely see the main difference between the two. This Don's got it all under control when it comes to the ladies. The other one..not so much." he laughed a bit.

I rolled my eyes at him, "Raph, don't be mean. This Donny's only the way he is because we've been married for about five years, now."

Donny squeezed me gently to his side, "Five wonderful years."

I giggled, "Yes, wonderful years."

Mikey made a noise of disgust, "Get a shell guys..you sicken me with your goo-goo talk!"

Donny laughed, "Wow, this really isn't our world."

I nodded, "I'll say, usually Mikey would be the same way with Zeema, now he's grossed out by it!"

We both chuckled together as Mikey folded his arms, grunting. I'd have to say, the rest of the day was fairly nice compared to how it had been lately. I'd been so stressed out and worried about everything..Now that Donny, my Donny, was there with me, everything just seemed to flow. I could smile again without worrying about something dragging me down within the next few minutes. My mind was clear as Caribbean waters, and I was happy. The only thing on my mind, now, was getting home..but since Donny was there with me, I really wasn't worried at all. I felt as if everything was going to be alright as long as he was by my side.

Later that night, Donny and I sat on the couch together, watching a little bit of basic cable. It was somewhere around one in the morning, so everyone else had been asleep for a while, now. I looked up at Donny as he held his arm around me, snuggling me close to him, "I can't get over the look on Splinter's face when he saw there was two of you." I giggled.

He smiled, "Yeah, that was great. Still not as funny as when you fainted, though." he smirked at me.

I rolled my eyes, "Oh, and the look on your face wasn't just as funny? You should have seen how wide your eyes were when the other Donny walked into our conversation." I put my hand up to my mouth, giggling a little more.

He sighed playfully, "Must we turn this into a competition?"

I pecked his cheek quickly, smiling smugly, "But of course!"

He gave me a look, plotting something, "Oh..well then I guess I'll just have to force you to give up!" Suddenly, he wrapped both of his arms around me, squeezing my whole body in a giant hug. I let out a play-scream, trying to wriggle out of his grip. Gently, he rubbed the side of his face against mine, "I just love you so much, but I fear I may just squeeze the life out of you! Oh, if only there were two magic words that could make me stop!"

I laughed, kicking my legs around as he squeezed me a little tighter. I exaggerated my voice to make it sound like I couldn't breathe, "No-air-! Suffocating-!"

He ignored me, pressing his cheek against mine, making my cheeks squish, "Hmm..what are those words? I just have no idea!" I refused to give in to his dirty tricks, and I wiggled myself around, turning my head to lay a slobbery lick on his face with my tongue. He made a noise of disgust, but kept his iron grip on me, "Oh, you think your slobber will make me flinch?" he let out an evil laugh, moving one of his hands up to grab my face holding it in place for him to drag his tongue across my cheek, leaving a thick trail of saliva on my skin.

I felt a chill go down my spine and I squirmed uncomfortably, "Ohmygod ew ew ew ew ew! Fine! You win! You win!"

Laughing, he let me go, watching me with a smirk on his face as I frantically wiped the slime-like trail off of my face. Suddenly, he was quiet, staring at me with gentle eyes. I smiled softly at him, loving the way he just stared at me sometimes for no reason at all.

He touched my face and I pressed my cheek into his palm, "You are so beautiful..I don't know what I'd do without you, my love."

I scooted myself over, my face just in front of his, "..I missed you so much...how did you get here..?"

He frowned, placing his hands on top of my own, "..I was trying to save you.."

I looked up at him with question in my eyes, "Save me..? How did you..I don't understand.."

"Anocari.." he began in a quiet tone, "right now, at this very moment, you are being held captive by Karai."

I froze, "W-what?"

He nodded, his brows pressed together as he thought hard, "I'm still not very sure what happened in the moments before I arrived in this world..All I remember is trying to save you..and then Karai's foot attacked me. I went alone..so they captured me. The last thing I saw was you.. you were strapped into this..this chair and it was very cold.." he stopped, putting a hand to his head as he rubbed his temples, "I wish I could remember more..but it's almost like something is blocking everything out every time I try to think about it."

"The same thing happened with me..every time I tried to remember the night before I'd gotten here, it was almost as if someone was controlling my thoughts, making me forget."

We stared at each other for a long moment, sitting in silence together. In some moments, there were words needed, sayings of comfort, encouragement..but when Donny and I knew something was going on, we always sat in silence, letting the quiet cleanse our minds to try and find an answer.

After a while, he ran his hand over my long black hair, stroking it gently between his fingers, "Perhaps, we should wait until tomorrow for the stressful things..just moments ago we were so happy, just like we are at home, and..I don't want that to go away just yet." I leaned forward, kissing him lightly on the lips, then nodded to agree. He smiled warmly and continued to place his hand behind my head to pull me closer. Our noses were nearly touching as he whispered, "I know you can do better than that."

Slowly, he leaned in to kiss me, moving his lips softly upon mine. I sighed as he took me around the waist, feeling his hand down the small of my back. His lips pressed harder against mine and I felt his tongue slip through my teeth, mingling with my own. I raised to my knees, bending my neck to continue kissing him over and over, our mouths perfectly in sync, each movement seeming to melt into one. God, how I wanted him in that moment, how I wished we were alone enough to satisfy our growing hunger.

He reached up to cup my breasts in his hands, gently caressing them. I trembled, falling over on to him, making him lie on his shell. Our breathing was heavy, our hearts racing as I rubbed myself against him, wanting to go further. He pulled me down, placing his lips on my neck, leaving a trail of kisses. I bit my lip as he nibbled at the skin along my jugular, trying not to make any noises that would wake anyone up. He chuckled as I let out a little squeak, failing to keep completely silent.

His hands soon found their way under my shirt, and I sighed at the touch of his cold hands on my stomach. He propped me up, placing me in front of him as he sat up, only to lean forward and pin me down. Our adrenaline was flowing, making us both sweat from the heat of our sexual tension. To me and Donny, sex was not just for fun, it was for everything. Stress relief, boredom, romantic nights, getting over a cold, insomnia, accidentally waking each other up in the middle of the night. It didn't matter what it was for to us. When we wanted it, we wanted it bad, and chances were that it was definitely going to happen.

I felt him unbutton my jeans, slowly sliding the zipper down. I looked up at him, unsure if we should do such a thing on a couch that technically wasn't ours, "Donny..are you sure we should do this here..? We're out in the open..someone might see us if they happened to be awake.."

He stopped, realizing how much we had both gotten into the moment, "Honestly..I forgot we were even here.."

I giggled at him as he blushed, embarrassed for doing the things he did in someone else's home, "As much as we'd both like to go there tonight, it's probably best we just sleep. I've got a feeling tomorrow will be a long day, anyway."

He nodded, pushing up and pulling me with with him to sit upright on the couch, "Alright, love. But as soon as we get home, you're mine." he winked, nuzzling my nose.

Smiling, I leaned on his shoulder, feeling tiredness fall over me from a busy day of events, "Is that a promise?"

He hugged me gently, lying his head on top of mine, "I promise."