So, we are going a little bit romantic...
last chapter was pretty hard, so I think they both deserve a moment of calm and love...
I hope you will enjoy and thanks for nice reviews :-)))) you made my day shine :-))))
and who still doesn´t have enough, I would like to invite you all to my new story Mirrors... (it´s also Carlisle /OC story... dealing with the idea of an arranged marriage...)
A/N I don´t own anything from Twilight...
Ch 57
Ellen was still standing in Carlisle´s arms and they were enjyong each other´s presence. Ellen felt she needed this more than ever before. Yes, it was true that he told her about his origin. But she couldn´t make herself to think about him like a vampire. For her it was her amazing friend, the closest person in her life apart from her children. She realised she thought about the small baby in her belly like her child. Somehow she accepted the fact.
She stopped crying slowly and just enjoed the moments in his arms. She had no idea of how long they were standing together but she didn´t want to let him go. He could hear that she wasn´t crying anymore and caressed her cheek. He still had no idea of how to behave. He knew she would have hard time accepting this all. It was too much for one moment. But in his heart he still hoped. He hoped that she would at least try….. to understand him and his feelings.
When his hand touched her face, she looked up and her eyes met his look. He was worried about their future and she saw that. She laid back her head on his chest. This was the place where she was feeling safe no matter what. She knew that she is where she is supposed to be. He kissed the top of her head and asked: „ Elly?"
She looked at him again and he took her hand: „ Would you like me to leave?.."
She watched him: „ Why?...you do want to leave?..."
She became scared at one moment and he could feel that. He smiled as nicely as he could and her knees almost weakened: „Only if you want me to….."
She shook the head: „ No, I don´t want that…"
He hugged her again: „ Then I believe we have a lot to talk about…."
She nodded and he lead her to the bed: „ You should have rest now….I believe there´s been too much on you….you should relax….."
She smiled: „ I am fine…."
But on the other hand she could understand his worries. Everything he told her…..was pretty stressful. Despite this all she felt calm. His presence caused this. He could make her feel safe and she loved the feeling.
He took the chair and wanted to sit to the edge of the bed. She took a pillow and gave it bellow her head. When she saw him not joining her, she asked: „ Won´t you be here with me?..."
He nodded: „ I thought…..I wanted to give you some space…"
She looked down at her hands: „ Okay…. I understand….."
And looked so incredibly sad that it tore him inside. In the following second he was close to her. He didn´t want to frighten her but she noticed the speed. He hugged her tight but still tender not to hurt her when she asked: „ What else can you do? I mean apart from the speed?" He kissed her palm turning her opposite to him: „Ellie…..I said the whole family is full of vampires, but I can assure you, we don´t drink human blood….actually I never did….and neither did some other family members….."
She watched him with doubts: „ No human blood?...and what do you eat?..."
He smiled: „ Actually, we don´t eat….human food smells like dirt to us…we hunt animals and drink their blood…so they call us vegetarians…."
She nodded: „ I see….and what else?"
He kissed her knuckles: „ Well. We are fast, immortal, our bodies are cold. We cannot be hurt and some of us have special abilities…."
She watched him: „ Do you also have one?"
He shook the head: „ No, I may be the leader of this coven but I think that I don´t have…but I have a great deal of self - control….. that I practiced over the centuries….."
„ Centuries?"
„Yes, I was changed in the 17th century at the age of 23….."
„ You´re 23? You´re much younger than me….."
He smiled tenderly: „ Physically yes…"
She caressed his hand: „ Yes, you must have lived through many events…. And gain a lot of experience…"
He moved her closer: „ Well, I must say I concentrated the most on medicine….I wanted to learn as much as possible about the human body to be able to understand it…..and help people….."
She added: „ That´s very admirable of you…..to learn to help people instead of hurting them….."
He just silently nodded and she asked: „ You talked about some special abilities? Will you tell me more?"
„Well, you have already found out yourself….Edward is a mind reader….."
„Mind reader?" „He can read everyone´s mind apart from his wife´s."
She blushed: „ well….somehow I knew that….his looks…It truly looked as if he was in my head sometimes…."
That made Carlisle laugh: „ Well, you´ll learn to hide the things you don´t want him to know…it´s bearable then….."
She nodded and he continued: „ Then Bella…..she is a shield….. she can protect anyone from any power…..Edward used to have troubles when he met her and couldn´t read her mind at all…he felt pretty uncomfortable about it…"
Ellen agreed: „ I understand that…..and any others?"
Carlisle replied: „ Alice can see the future…she can tell what will happen if she has a vision….they are sometimes subjective ones…they depend on someone´s decision but mostly they work fine and they are helpful to us…..and Jasper…he can feel your emotions and can manipulate them."
She wondered: „ Manipulate?...he can make me do something?"
He carressed her lips: „ No, not like this,…..he usually makes someone feel calmer, makes you realise your feelings…..he doesn´t use his power to manipulate someone to do something…that´s not his style….."
Ellen nodded: „ I get it…wow your kids have really amazing talents…..that´s incredible…."
He became serious again: „ Elly, I….I know it´s too soon, but do you think….you will be able to accept us?...I mean as a family…."
She shrugged: „ I….I….I mean…"
He stopped her: „ If you decide no, I mean….I will arrange a house apart from us…you will have everything you need…"
She laid her finger on his moving lips and he had the desire to kiss it. But he had to resist.
Ellen replied: „ Carlisle…..I… I have no idea how this all will work…. I hope that I will be able to get used to…..your origin….. I can´t promise anything…..we´ll see…. I truly hope I will be able to walk and return back to my work in few weeks…."
He caressed her belly: „ I understand…..but still…. You will remain there for few months….then you will have the baby…"
Ellen knew what he meant. She will have to leave her work with kids for some time. She plans to stay at home with the baby as long as possible. But this was not the matter of the discussion.
She knew she hasn´t replied to his question: „ About the living together…. It´s gonna be difficult for me…..I believe….to get used to the idea and to accept it…I mean…I need time…"
He hugged her: „ You have all the time you need, sweetie…..I love you….and I am more than grateful that you don´t want me to leave…." She looked up to him: „ Why are you saying that?..."
He shrugged: „ Well, according to your initial reaction and expression of your face I had the feeling that you will want me to leave…truly…I was prepared to do that…. If you had wanted me to….."
She watched him with scared expression: „ Why would you do that?... I thought that…..you… you said you…."
He finished: „ Yes, I do…but I wanted to…..give you some space to think…..I know it must be hard…."
She moved closer to him and he closed her in his arms. She could only breathe his scent and felt so much better.
She silently whispered: „ I can´t imagine a place in the whole world where I would feel better than now… I feel so safe and loved in your arms…. No matter how much I tried to deny….I feel we are somehow deeper connected…."
He kissed her forehead and replied silently: „ We are, sweetie, more than you can imagine…."
He wanted to continue and tell her about the mating bond between them, but Ellen was already sleeping.
He kissed her again and moved her a bit so she would be comfortable resting in his arms.