I kinda switched it up as I couldn't begin to want to try and relate to Katniss' s pain when hearing Prim' s screams I just found it easier to write Johanna. And obviously snow and the game makers wouldn't know of Johanna' s feelings so couldn't use it against her. I don't own the hunger games. Also there is a reference to an idea from the Doctor who episode 'a town called mercy' I don't own that or any other references L .

Johanna' s pov

I let my eyes rake over Katniss as she stood next to Peeta, Beete and Finnick, I strolled over resting my hand on her hip alerting her to my presence, she shot me a smile. They were speaking about a plan, that we'd already cleared with Haymitch before entering. "PRIM!" Katniss' s scream broke my thoughts I looked to her to horror only to see her sprinting in the forest "Katniss stop" I heard Finnick shout we tried to run after the pair only to be met with something stopping us. "Katniss! Katniss it's not real" Peeta screamed but Katniss couldn't hear, I noticed Finnick wearing the same expression as Katniss. My chest felt like it was collapsing into itself. I crouched down to Katniss' level and looked her as screams ripped from her chest. I had to close my eyes, I couldn't watch it anymore.

The hour slowly came to a close though it felt like months of pain. Peeta went to comfort Katniss, what hurt most was she let him, they fell into each other's arms. Peeta began to reassure Katniss that it wasn't Prim, "of course Peeta is right, the whole country adores Katniss' sister. If they really killed her , they'd probably have an uprising on their hands. " I said flatly "wouldn't want that would we? How bout that snow? What if we burned down your back yard? You can't just keep everyone in here!" I screamed this time knowing they will have cut away from me already. Everyone stares at me in disbelief. "Whatever I'm going to get water, I walked past the happy couple. I try to ignore them, ignore her, but Katniss grabs my hand. It takes every fibre of my body not to pull her up and take her against a tree. "Don't go in there, the birds" her soft voice makes me shiver, I pull away my hand not wanting the contact anymore, I'd had enough pain. "They can't hurt me, I'm not like the rest of you, there's no one left I love" with that I walked away picking up her arrows on the way.

I returned to see her still glued to Peeta I shove the shell of water at them and slumped down next to them. "Who'd they use for Finnick?" I heard peeta ask as his hand reached hers. Horrifying. "A girl named Annie" she replied I frowned and looked to a heartbroken Finnick poor guy, I can't imagine what it must be like, to let love in. I noticed katniss pulling her hand away, I smirked, that's my girl. Moments later he tried again and she gave in as they began to cuddle I sighed and stormed off into the forest. I began to get more water and slumped against a tree pfft what does he have that I don't? Is it the baking? I can bake…probably, or is it that he's innocent…of course it is Johanna. He's sweet and together, that's why she likes him, he's the opposite of you. I hear a Canon and I swear my heart stops beating. I Sprint up slashing through the trees with my axe I had to know it wasn't her, she couldn't be… I burst through onto the beach. I almost fall over my own feet and searching for her. I hear her before I see her "Peeta!" Of course before my brain registers what I'm doing I throw myself into Katniss' arms. I bury my head deep into her shoulder to smell pine and forest a smell that is utterly Katniss a smell that somehow reminds me of home. "Johanna?" Her confused voice meets my ears but I can't bring myself to pull away enough to answer so I just groan and stay buried in her neck. She laughs "hey it's ok I think it was a career" I'm suddenly pushed out of the way by Peeta luckily Finnick catches me and smiles at me " you ok there Jo?" I shrug him off "yeah whatever" I looked over to see them embraced again. I think of how it would feel If I were Peeta if she loved me, and how when I first saw her at the reaping last year all I wanted to do was save her. How she managed to take my breath away but yet I'd never breathed easier than when I'm around her. My heart beats fast and slow at the same time. "Love is weird" I thought aloud looking at Peeta embracing Katniss. She locked eyes with me and frowned. I walked away again, I can't let myself love her. I can't hurt anymore.

I keep watching Katniss like a hawk, my mother used to say "love Is not about possession it's about appreciation, no matter how hard that it" She was weird, I didn't understand it then and I don't know. It hurts to watch Peeta looking over her that should be me. Finnick plonks himself down beside me.

"She doesn't love him you know" idiot, they sure do look in love "sure Finnick" I mutter using my axe to play in the sand.

"Jo she just heard her sister screaming in pain, she thought she'd lost her, I really don't think she cared who she was cuddling" Finnick smiled sadly "what we're you three talking about before you graced me with your presence?" I said bitterly trying to change the subject. "They were asking about Annie" he trailed off deep in thought. His eyes snapped back to me "Beetee says one more night and we can carry out the plan" he said standing up and offering me his hand "what are we waiting for? Let's go save some love birds" he said walking towards the others.

The night had drawn in very quickly; I was on the first watch. I gazed across the water to the tree that would hopefully save her. I heard something from behind me; I closed my hand around my axe and whirled round ready to kill whoever was sneaking around only to be met with a perfect pair of dark eyes. "What the hell were you doing sneaking around like that?! I could've killed you brainless" I hissed lowly not wanting to wake the others but still pissed at what I almost did. I wasn't mad at her…I was angry at myself, If I had killed her…I shivered, that wasn't something I ever wanted to think about. I crouched down staring again at the sea before asking "what do you want Everdeen" it came out harsher than intended it made me seem angry, yes anger is good Johanna anger is safe. "I couldn't sleep, I came to keep you company" she muttered her face going red at the last part; I smiled a little and sat on the ground in a less threatening position. "Thanks I guess" I mumbled.

We sat in a comfortable silence for a long time; it was nice to have someone's presence there. I was still on full alert, a bird tweeted to my left, and the waves crashed in front of me and behind me came the noises of bugs, all clear. "Johanna?" My eyes swept to Katniss who was now lying next to me and she seemed very interested in my clothes "what now brainless?" I sighed fearing the more we talked the worse I'd fall. "Tell me about district 7" she said still not looking in my eyes. "Well brainless there are lots of trees…"she gave me an unimpressed look and I rolled my eyes "fine, I think you'd like it, there is a constant smell of pine and oak...most of the district gets up to watch the sunrise over the tops of the trees, it's one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen…" I trailed off thinking of the home that probably isn't even there anymore…"I'll never get to see that again will I?" I looked to her my eyes begging for an answer. There was a long pause, "promise you'll show me" Katniss' voice rang through my ears…it took me a few moments to register her words, though they didn't answer my question they sort of … did. "Ok, I promise"

I stared at her for a long time, our intense eye contact never breaking, I felt myself lean in. Crap Johanna red zone abort mission, quick think of things you hate about her. Damn her perfection...My mind scanned over Katniss trying to come up with something…there's only one of her? Urgh I can't deal with this. I let myself fall back onto the beach so I too was l lying down…next to Katniss…now who's brainless Johanna?. Suddenly Katniss was leaning over me worry lines etched across her face. Damn her. "What's wrong?" She asked as her hand reached out and brushed some of my short hair from my face. "Nothing…nothing at all…everything is perfect" I spat bitterly. We were again consumed in silence as Katniss continued to stroke my hair.

"Katniss?" My voice croaked out, I winced. Pull yourself together. "Mm ?" Katniss responded still preoccupied with stroking my hair "in district 7 we have a belief…that…well that when we die we have to carry the souls of the people that we've wronged and hurt up a mountain before we find peace…do you…do you think many they'll be kind when…when I go?" I stuttered out, looking at Katniss. Her face morphed into one of shock, probably shocked that you feel something Johanna I thought to myself. "I sure hope so" she whispered, she lay back down staring at the artificial sky. "I've never told anyone that…well I'm scared when I go…i keep thinking of all the souls I'll have to carry…tributes…friends" I swallowed "family" tears began to prick my eyes crap "Get some sleep Johanna" she whispered again just as the darkness consumed me. In the few short hours I slept I was slightly more at peace with her beside me.