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[A/N] Hello my lovely readers out there. Thank you so much for reading and reviewing my little story here. Your kind words encourage me to continue writing it.

This one is dedicated to Stand_Through_the_Pain for telling me that I'm talented. That really made my day and to Ashfisher92 for her constant mentioning that the permanent sex should Bella help to lose weight. I don't really think that it works that way. Would be far too easy, don't you think?

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**Chapter 13**

"Are you okay?" I whispered into her ear as I wrapped my arms around her from behind. Carefully I started stroking up and down her forearm, enjoying the silky touch of her skin on my palms.

"You've been so silent since you returned from the hospital. Carlisle didn't say anything rude to you again, did he?"

She shook her head and the spikey ends of her hair tickled my neck pleasantly.

"No, he didn't…but he said something else that I can't stop thinking about."

"Do you want to tell me about it?" I asked her, instantly pulling her closer towards my body. It was weird how I always wanted to keep her close. Not just in a sexual way although the sex with Ali was nothing but incredible too. Probably the best I've ever had in my entire life. No, not probably…definitely.

"I don't know. It's…well, he said that he wouldn't judge me for whom I love."

"That's a good thing isn't it? That he's so okay with you being…that way."

She sighed deeply.

"The word is gay. You can say it, Bella. There is no need to paraphrase my sexual orientation all the time." She tried to make her voice sound cheerful, but I could hear the slight trembling in it.

I felt her shiver as I planted a kiss on her neck before I interlaced the fingers of my right hand with hers to squeeze them gently.

"That's not everything, I guess. You seem so tensed now." I stated and sat down on the sofa behind me. My arms stayed around her delicate waist, pulling her on my lap.

Slowly she turned around and cupped my face between her hands. I leaned forward and captured her gorgeous mouth with mine. The tip of her tongue nudged against my lower lip before I willingly parted my mouth a little to let her slip in. She moaned into my mouth as my tongue toyed with hers.

Then I tasted something salty on the tip of my tongue and pulled back to realize that she had tears running down her cheeks.

"Hey…,"I mumbled, wiping them away with my thumbs. "Why are you crying?"

"It's nothing."

"You wouldn't be crying because of nothing. I'm pretty sure about that, Ali."

She took a deep breath before she spoke up again.

"Ever since he said that thing about the person I'm going to love; I can't stop thinking about you. I know that it's so wrong, but I just can't stop having all these thoughts about me and you…about us." she almost didn't manage to finish the sentence before another sob escaped her throat.

About us

Somehow I really liked the sound of that. The thought of me and her as a unit warmed my heart better than the sun warmed my face on a hot summer day.

"What kind of thoughts?" I asked her while I started rocking her back and forth on my lap to comfort her.

She took my hand in hers and put it to her mouth to plant soft kisses all over my knuckles.

"How much I want there to be an us."

"Me too," I confessed, my voice barely a whisper.

"Really?"

I nodded my head. "But what I want scares me so much."

"What exactly do you want?"

"What exactly do you want?" I repeated automatically while I started kissing down her neck.

"That's not fair. You're distracting me again and I've asked you first."

"I want to kiss you." I mumbled against her ruby tinted mouth. The tip of my tongue caressed her velvety lower lip before I sucked it between my teeth to nibble on it.

"I want your face to be the first thing I see when I wake up in the morning. That doesn't sound like much, but normally I don't want to see anything apart from a cup of coffee," and a chocolate croissant, I added in my head.

"Yeah, I know. You're not really a morning person, Bella."

Her hands moved up and down my forearms in small circles.

"But that's not all that you want, Bella. Isn't it?"

"Oh no; it's not all that I want" Damn it, I didn't even dare to think about the things I might want from her…with her.

She closed her eyes and rested her head against my shoulder. I stroked her back as I felt her starting to tremble in my arms.

"I'm scared to tell you what I want too. I don' think I can."

I buried my face into her hair and inhaled the delicious scent of vanilla and sweet apples.

"Of course you can, Ali. You can tell me everything."

"No, I can't. If I do, I can't take it back…ever."

She took a few deep breaths in order to calm herself. Then she raised her head from my shoulder and wiped her running nose with the back of her hand.

I pulled a tissue out of my pocket and handed it to her.

"You always have one with you when I need one." She croaked out before she took it in her hand.

A smile flashed over her pretty pixie-face, for a split second it even managed to reach her eyes that were now all puffy and red. Still the caramel color of them was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. What had she said about mine? That they were like melted chocolate or something like that? Caramel and chocolate, I thought, what a delicious combination, sweeter than sweet.

"I like having what you need." I whispered, knowing that I really wanted to say something like…

I like being what you need.

Tenderly I kissed away the last of the tears. They tasted salty on the tip of my tongue.

"And I'd like to know what you want too. Please, tell me."

She stood up from my lap and walked over to the window at the other side of the living room.

For a long awkward moment she just stood there, like frozen. Then, slowly, almost hesitantly she turned around.

"I want you to choose, Bella. Not just me…I want you to choose us."

For a moment the warm tingly feeling in my stomach increased. At first I didn't really know what caused it. What she had told me, should scare me more than anything, but it didn't. I was glad that she had managed to tell me what she wanted. But what was it that I really wanted? It had been so long that I had taken the time to think about that.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't." she stumbled out when she realized that I didn't respond anything.

"Ali, please. It's not that don't want to be with you. I'm just so scared of the consequences."

She raised her hands in a placatory gesture.

"Yeah, I know that you're not ready for that; that's why I shouldn't have said it. I don't want you to feel pressured. Can we just pretend that I didn't do it?"

I shook my head and stood up. With a few shakily steps I closed the distance between us. I reached my hand out and cupped her face in it.

"You're so much braver than me, Ali."

"I don't really feel brave right now, Bella." She murmured nervously.

My fingers stroked down her cheekbone so gently that I could barely feel her warm skin on my fingertips.

"But you are."

XXXX

"May I open my eyes now?" I asked her as she guided me into the bathroom, insisting that I kept them closed. Inside the small room in was very warm and the intoxicating scent of roses mixed up with the sweetness of her skin.

Her lips moved over my face, showering it with dozens of soft, featherlike kisses.

"You may," she whispered while she turned me around to pull me into a tight hug.

Automatically I opened my eyes, expecting to blink into the flashy light above me. It didn't happen; instead I realized that she had placed dozens of tea lights all around the tube. They turned the entire room into a warm orange light. There were rose-petals swimming around the steaming water that had already been filled into the white tube.

"Do you like it?" she wanted to know as she pulled me even closer to her.

I nodded my head, because the thick lump in my throat made it impossible for me to speak for a moment. The thought, that she had made all of his effort just for me, almost managed to make me cry.

"It's not too much, isn't it?" she continued and started rubbing up and down my bare forearms with her fingertips.

"No, it's not, Ali. This is the nicest anyone has ever done for me. You make me feel so special, if you do things like that."

"Bella, you are special." she mumbled against my neck and pulled my shirt over my head. Her fingers unclasped my bra that fell down a few heartbeats later.

The rest of our clothes landed on a small pile on the ground next to it. Then we stepped into the warm water. I realized that she had poured some oil into it. That was where the intoxicating rose scent was coming from.

She was half sitting, half lying in front of me. Her back pressed against my breasts. I cupped hers into my hands and started massaging them gently while my tongue grazed the shell of her ear.

"I really love touching you." I whispered hoarsely.

Slowly she turned around, letting a little bit of water slip over the edge of the tube.

Her mouth found mine and a low moan escaped my throat as the tip of her tongue licked over my upper lip.

"Me too," she mumbled against my lips as her left hand stroked down my collarbone until she reached my cleavage.

"You feel so warm and soft to me."

She lowered her head and swirled her tongue around one of my nipples. It hardened as she carefully started to nibble on it. My hands twisted into the wet curls of her short hair as she started suckling on the tiny nub. Somehow there seemed to be an invisible connection between my breasts and my clit because suddenly I felt slick wetness pouring between my thighs.

Carefully I rolled her nipples between my thumb and my forefinger. It felt wonderful to feel it pebble under my caress. I loved how I could make her body react to my touch. It was like magic to me.

"The water is getting too cold," she whispered as she slowly stood up. My fingertips brushed over the bare skin between her legs and she whimpered slightly.

Then she took my hand in hers and helped me out too.

She lay me down on my back and kissed her way down my stomach, circling her tongue around my belly button. Her gentle hands caressed the inside of my thighs in featherlike movements.

"You're so beautiful, Bella." She murmured before the tip of her tongue flicked over my throbbing clit.

"Ali," I cried out.

"It feels so wonderful to feel your tongue between my legs."

For a moment she raised her head and replaced her tongue with her fingers. Two of them slipped in and out of me really fast, making me moan out in pleasure. I could already feel the tightening in my stomach.

"I love doing that to you. It turns me on so much to lick up every drop of your lust, to feel your little pearl on my tongue…to taste your sweet…,"

I cupped her face between my hands and captured her warm mouth again. Tasting me on her lips was strange. It was sweet and tart and made me curious if she would have a similar taste like that.

"Ali, can I try to…kiss you too?" I asked her barely able to bring out intelligible words. Her cheeks reddened and for a split second she seemed to hesitate.

She kissed her way back my stomach, leaving a wet trail wherever her tongue touched my skin.

Then she climbed on top of me, her face still buried between my slick folds, her fingers holding them open so that she was probably able to see everything of me now, really everything. A shiver went down my spine as I opened my eyes to look at the moist covered labia just a few inches away from my face.

I had never looked at another women so intimately before. Damn it, I had never even dared to look at myself in a mirror or anything. Somehow I had expected it to look ugly but now I realized that it was very far from that. Ali looked like a strange, but very beautiful flower that had glittering morning dew running down her petals. Slowly I licked all the way up from her entrance to the tiny pearl of her clit with the tip of my tongue. God, she was so delicious, like honey in a way but way more tart…she tasted like her and nothing else. The way her entire body started to tremble each time my tongue flicked over her clit encouraged me to continue licking.

She inserted another finger inside of me, curling them upwards in order to reach the spot in me that felt better than anything else. My inner walls started tightening around her fingers.

I mimicked her movements. Gently I slipped two fingers inside of her and curled them up like she was doing it to me.

Her moans against my clit were barely audible but the fresh wetness that I tasted on my tongue was enough proof to me that I was doing it right.

And then finally I stopped thinking completely. Instead I concentrated only on what I was feeling now. Her velvety tongue circling my clit, my fingers inside of her, the tip of my tongue nudging against her tiny pearl, teasing it while her tight walls stretched around my fingers inside her…

My entire body went ridged for a moment before the force of my climax made it tremble slightly. Her inner walls clenched and unclenched around my fingers inside her, just a split second later. Or was it in the same heartbeat?

Slowly she moved down from me and I cuddled her against my bare chest. Gently planting kisses on her damp hair. For a very long time none of us spoke a single word. I closed my eyes while she stroked up and down my neck in small circles.

"We can't stay in here forever," she mumbled after a while.

I nodded my head, secretly thinking about how much I wished that we could.

XXXX

The icy air felt cold on my face as I walked towards the tall figure that was standing at the edge of the huge cliff. The wind swirled up my hair and I quickly twisted it into a bum at the end of my neck.

A low chuckle left his throat before he slowly turned around. His face was handsome as always, the green of his eyes like emeralds but the evil grin that flashed over his lips send a wave of fear down my spine.

"You can't be serious about that, can you?"

I shook my head. "I am sure about it. We can't go on like this, Edward. Our marriage isn't working."

He reached out his hand in order to cup my face in it but I instantly stepped back.

"I'm leaving you."

"Are you kidding me? You'll never be brave enough to divorce me, Bella, never. I know that you know that you're nothing without me. Do you hear me? You are nothing!"

Then the expression on his face softened, his lips turned upwards into that damn crooked smile that I had once loved more than anything about him.

I lifted my left hand and pointed to the bare skin on my ring finger.

He grinned sheepishly and pulled the familiar diamond covered gold ring out of his pocket.

"You lost something, didn't you?" he whispered and closed the small distance between us in a swift movement.

"Let me give it back to you, Bella. You'll feel better if you have something that reminds you to whom you belong to."

"No, I won't."

"Oh come on. Don't be like that." He grabbed me by my shoulders and started shaking me so hard that the grip of his hands was starting to feel painful.

"Let me go, Edward!"

I reached out my hands to get him away from me. At first he didn't move at all. Then I pushed again and he stumbled backwards. His feet didn't find hold on the rock. I stopped breathing as his face turned smaller and smaller until it finally vanished completely in the grey waves underneath us. He didn't surface again…

"Bella, please wake up!" she whispered into my ear and a heartbeat later my eyes fell open. I gasped for air as she rocked my quivering body back and forth in her tight embrace. Tears started falling down my face.

"Oh, Ali, that was so frightening."

"It was just a nightmare. Nobody is going to hurt you here, Bella. You are safe with me."

I wiped my forehead and realized that it was covered in cold sweat.

"Ali, what time is it now?"

"About half past seven. You can still sleep a little bit, if you want to. I know that you're tired."

Quickly I shook my head and sat up in the bed.

"Can you give me my cell, please?"

"Whom do you want to call now? It's way too early, Bella."

I shook my head and took a deep breath before I spoke up again.

"The airport,"

XOXOXOXOXOX

[A/N] I can't believe it, but the time has come. We are going to meet Cheat-ward for the very first time in the next chapter. Should Bella go to Alaska alone or should she take Ali with her? Let me know.