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Chapter 3: Decisions
Cathy
The minute Seth left the room was the minute the strange feelings I had just expanded into something overwhelming. Sitting with Seth and catching up on things really got me thinking, every minute I spend time with him. I have this feeling like I need him more than just a brother, more than just a friend and it's killing me inside just thinking about it. I mean I promised myself that I'd never date Seth in the future, he could just be my soul friend, or soul brother, if that even makes sense. But things have been shifting, and I know he still views me as his best friend, but do I feel the same about him?
My mind is going bonkers just thinking about the situation I'm in. I've had a small crush on him once like two months ago and I tried so hard to get rid of it and I finally did… for a while.
The only way I could get these feelings away from me was if I dated somebody to shift them away. I never considered myself as the dating type, but if that was what it took to forget about Seth, than that's what I did. I may sound selfish but come on 'Seth and Me'? That doesn't make sense at all, even if I do picture us together, strolling down the beach holding hands, him and I at the movies watching our favorite action comedy, his lips touching my skin…
I mean I can't take Seth out of my life, which would have given me great grief and pain even by the thought of it. So I took on dating and I've been in a relationship with my friend from school whom I met in the 7th grade, Eric.
We began our relationship about a month ago when he asked me out. I mean I liked him. He was a good guy and he wasn't bad looking for a human. He was tall for a freshman, probably 5ft 10, curly light brown hair, green-brown eyes, lightly tanned, perfect white teeth, and his personality is just as better. Straight 'A' student, witty, incredibly charming, he's shy most of the time, and a little sensitive on some issues but I adore it. You may think that he's the perfect guy for me and wondering what my problem is.
Well you see, I don't love him, yes I may have liked him but he's more of a friend in my eyes. When I see him and everytime I'm with him, I can't help but think about Seth, I don't know what it means. So I thought I could get the help of my sister.
Not like she's an expert in dating thus she's only a child herself but I feel like I can confide in her with anything.
"Carmen. Can I talk to you?" I asked her standing in front of her as the silence got more excruciating. She nodded and we headed to the kitchen.
"What's up?" she asked, I groaned and held my hands on the counter "Cathy?" She asked confusedly.
"I don't know what to do," I sighed in frustration, I faced her now "Ok, please promise me you won't tell anyone, not dad not mom, especially mom?" I asked her and she nodded understandingly. "Well, I think I like Seth," I whispered quietly so no one would hear, I thought I'd quickly use my ability to make everyone talk to each other and focus on that.
My mind illusion ability has grown for the past months, now I can control people's emotions, much like Jasper's but I can make people do what I want them too, but only on one specific task and since I grow it grows to, now I can control from a far distance probably a 5 meter radius, after using it. I heard chattering going on in the living room. Carmen's eyes widened.
"You like Se…!" she exclaimed but I shushed her by putting my hand on her mouth. She nodded. "You like Seth?" she whispered lowly. I shrugged.
"I don't know at least I think I do. I mean I know I shouldn't but …I have no idea" I sighed again in frustration.
"How does he make you feel?" she asked, I frowned at her random question but answered anyway opening the fridge to get myself a can of Dr Pepper
"I don't know when I'm with him, I just feel happy and he's the only thing I think of, I care about nobody but him, he makes me smile everytime I see him, he makes me blush just by smiling at me, he makes me feel safe, protected, loved, and when I'm not with him I feel like a big part of me is missing" I explained smiling at the thought of how he makes me feel
"And…How does Eric make you feel?" she asked randomly again,
"I don't know, I mean I like him, he does make me happy and all but…" I said pausing at the end
"Ok, who, do you think of when you're with him?" she asked skeptically, I drank a sip of drink
"Seth." I said slowly. I couldn't believe I just said that. Carmen motioned her hand as to say I got my answer
"But I can't like Seth! I mean he's just my best friend, he's like a brother it's just insane! Maybe it's another phase," I said in obviousness, my sister raised her eyebrow.
"Yes Cat. An imprint phase," She replied. I rolled my eyes.
"I don't like him. This is just a teenage phase. It's just like that movie we saw last week, where the girl thought she was in love with her best friend but turned out was just a phase of teenage hood." I said with a chuckle. I mean I was stupid to think about this. It was a teenage phase!
"Yes you don't like him Cat, you love him," she said. I rolled my eyes and shook my head. "You do. You're just denying it, you won't admit it." she said, I looked her in the eyes "I understand you don't want to believe it, but I've seen every couple in this family and the imprint Renesmee and Jake have and what you and Seth have is just that.
I've been watching you two, you've gotta think about this first. I know you're thinking this is a joke but believe me it's not. I don't know what you want do but all I'm saying is you're mature enough to make the right decisions, either choosing Seth or staying with Eric, either way, I just want you to be happy," She said now pulling me into a side hug. I nodded. She was right.
"Hey you're a really smart girl." I remarked.
"Yeah, but more pretty," She replied flipping her hair to the side. I smiled.
"Yeah" I said. She was right. I needed to act fast and make a choice. I know my parents won't be pleased by my new feelings, especially my mom, heck they don't even know about Eric -except my mother, who seemed to be happy about it- but now I know now. The feelings I've been having now is because I love Seth!
I had to think this through…
Seth
As the cry of the wolf howl, Jacob, Carlisle, Edward and I didn't have time to waste so we got out of the door. Jacob and I phased as we stepped off the porch and headed through the forest thinking what was going on.
What do think happened Jake? I asked him with our wolf telepathy with our eyes flickering everywhere. Jacob lurched forward in a sudden burst of speed.
I don't know Seth, but whatever it was, it's serious for us. He thought back and I just nodded. We past the clearing and went to the congregated place where all the wolves we're surrounding, and then the unfocused confusion of pained thoughts began to move together.
Is it true Quil? Paul thought.
How can this be? Leah sobbed as her thoughts flooded through us. I also saw Quil perched in the middle looking hurt and distraught.
Can somebody what the hell is going Jacob shouted using his Alpha voice vaporizing. Sam suddenly appeared from the top of a huge rock.
Jacob, we're glad you're here. The reason why everyone is gathered here is because…Old Quil's dead. He said pained and I could see the hurt in he's eyes, my eyes widened and so was Jacobs and Leah flinched slightly. Quil then growled and whimpered as he started running past the clearing and past the border line.
I'll head after himJacob declared and started making his way to Quil's tail, but Sam stopped him. Jacob glared at him.
Jake let him be, it was his time anyway. Give Quil sometime to think. Sam thought.
Let him be? Sam, Quil is going to who knows where, there could be danger out there and he won't focus when someone or some leech tries to attack him, he's endangered in the outside world, and I don't get why you're okay with the loss of Quil Ateara II, wasn't he like you're second father figure.
The one you looked up too when you were young, he was a legend and you just saying it was his time? Well be in Quil's shoes for once, and I don't think I should take orders from you anyway…I'm going after him, with or without anyone's help he thought and moved out of Sam's grasp. I could see Sam have a hint of sadness in his thoughts, not anger, and I saw he really did care about Old Quil.
He's just accepting it because he knew it would've happened one day anyway. I ran after Jacob and followed his scent through the clearing. I stopped when I saw him standing at an edge of a cliff rock, as the breeze blew through his reddish-brown fur. He sighed and turned his back and walked towards me.
He went through the direction to the Canadian territory. We should probably head back to the house. He thought and I nodded as we started heading back to the house with Edward and Carlisle on our tail.
I couldn't help but think about Cathy and how I needed her to comfort me in the situation I was in. Having my imprint to calm me down was all I needed, even though I knew we can't have a romantic relationship in the near future, and I respected her decision, I'll love her however she wanted me too, whether it was brotherly love, or friendship I'd give her that, if it meant I'd get to see her forever than that's what I'll do.
I virtually saw Jacob, and Edward smile at my thoughts, as we got to the house, Jacob and I saw shorts on the porch that Esme must've set out, and I went behind a tree and phased back, and went into the house. Nessie got up from the couch and into Jacobs arms.
"Thank god you're okay." she sighed in relief. Jacob breathed in her scent in comfort.
"What happened, Edward?" Bella asked Edward with concern on her face.
"There was a meeting with the pack and we found out that Old Quil has…left us yesterday night." he said painfully and Bella and Esme gasped and Bella looked like she was about to cry tearlessly.
"Oh god, this is just sad. Are guys and the family ok" Esme asked with her motherly tone, I nodded for us both.
"Is Quil okay?" Bella asked worriedly. I looked at Jacob slightly but he was too preoccupied by the embrace of Ness, I shook my head. I guess that's the lives of an imprint.
"He's in some pretty rough shape. So he ran away just to clear his head, he'll probably be back by noon tomorrow," I said and Bella nodded understandingly. I heard Laura whisper something in Jason's ear.
"Who's old Quil?" she whispered in confusion. Jason was about to answer back but I beat him to it. Ha! How do you like that sucker!
"Old Quil is Quil Ateara the II, the grandfather of Quil. He was one of the tribe leader's of our tribe but most of all he was a legend," I said. She nodded understandingly and dropped the subject instantly.
I scanned the living room for Cathy but couldn't find her. Edward then answered my unspoken thoughts.
"Her room," he said with a smile. I thanked Edward and headed up the stairs with earning a glare from Rosalie, and I got to Cathy's room and knocked on the slightly closed.
"Come in." She said and I walked slowly up to her. She smiled when she saw me and pulled me into a comforting hug. "So what happened?" She asked in concernment as she saw my sad face. I sighed.
"Old Quil passed away last night," I said sadly. Cathy gaped and her eyes widened in shock.
"No!" She gasped with tears forming in her eyes. I nodded. "Is everyone okay" She asked pained, I shook my head.
"They're still in shock…however. Quil isn't taking it as well and he kind ran away" I told her, and she looked like she was about to bawl in front of me
"He what?" she asked and I nodded. "I'm sure his in the worst pain right now. He must be going crazy. I really don't want to know how he is feeling since I never met my granddad." She said and I gave her a sympathetic look. I knew how much she wanted to meet her biological family not that she was unhappy with the Cullen's but she had a lot of questions that needed to be answered.
"Anyway how are you keeping up" she asked rubbing my shoulder which gave me a jolt of electricity. I'm sure she felt it too.
"I'm okay not too bad. So what have you been doing?" I asked and she just shrugged as she straightened up her books. Oh I love how much of a book fanatic she was.
"Nothing just thinking. Seth um I need to tell you…" she said but I cut her off. I had the greatest idea since I don't see her much why don't we go out?
"Why don't we go out, go to the movies or something? Since we don't see each other that often," I suggested she smiled
"That would be great, but first I need to…" she began but I had another perfect idea.
"We could go ice skating you love that right?" I asked she nodded but didn't answer.
"Yeah that'd be great, we could ice skate together." she said happily staring into my eyes. And I think you and I both know what connection we just had.
"We could walk on the beach, in the moonlight." I said to her, leaning a little closer to her face. Her eyes were on my lips. "Have a picnic on the soft sand, listening to Broadway musicals" I said. She just laughed lightly. "Walk together hand in hand" I said only millimeters away from her lips.
Cathy has matured quite a lot. She resembled a 15 maybe 16 year old teenager so it wasn't unlikely that I'd develop feelings for her. I reached for the side of her face "Tell me if you want me to stop." I said getting closer, our lips brushed in hardly a peck until she took a deep breath
"No! Stop," she said quickly and my eyes furrowed in confusion. "I want you to stop. I can't see you anymore Seth" she said slowly, I sighed and pulled away.
"Okay. But may I ask why?" I asked as to why she's saying all of this.
"Seth I-" She had tears in her eyes. As she opened her mouth to speak, her phone vibrated. Her phone freaking vibrated!
"I'm sorry," she whispered and went to answer her phone "Hello?" She said. That's when I heard crying on the line. "Okay Claire calm down, everything's going to be ok" she said. "No I haven't heard from him…Ok ok I'm on my way" she said then hung up and grabbed her coat and put her phone in her back pocket. "I'm going to the Uley's" She told me and I grabbed her wrist.
"Are you crazy, it's like a 30 minute drive from here? Let me take you." I said, totally forgotten about the situation we were in and what she said. She shook her head.
"Seth you don't have to do that." She insisted. I got up and looked down at her
"I sure as hell have to! You're only a kid." I said looking into her eyes. She glared up at me, knowing how much she hated being called a kid. I gave her a brilliant smile and then she sighed and obliged. She looked away and made her way out of the door and downstairs with me by her tail.
"We're heading to the Uley's!" she declared to the family and that's when Rosalie came into view.
"Okay, just be careful, and be home before ten. It's a school night remember?" she said and Cathy agreed, Rose then turned to face me "Take care of my daughter." she glared I nodded. I half expected her to castrate me for almost kissing her daughter, it was either Bella shielded us or Cathy used her ability on them.
"Always," I said and she nodded and we headed out of the house, we got into my car, and I drove, we sat in awkward silence.
"Okay, Seth I know you're upset and I'm sorry for that, you don't know how hard this is for me" she said to me and I shook my head
"Why? Okay I understand that maybe the almost kiss, was too far, but why?" I asked her, she just looked out of the window
"Seth I didn't mean it in that way it's just…we've been friends for over three years now and all want to be is stay your friend, and I'm not saying you must stay out of my life, I just need time." she uttered. I sighed. She was right. I shouldn't be rushing her into this. I made a promise earlier right?
"Ok, I'll you give time but I just can't stay out of your life." I told her and she nodded.
"Of course," she said nudging my arm, I smiled "Hey you remember Eric right?" she asked. I huffed at the name. How could I forget the guy who's stealing my girl away?
"Yeah" I said lowly not wanting to hear his name again.
"Well, I'm going out with him tomorrow so can we reschedule to probably Saturday." She suggested.
"Yeah sure no problem" I said with my usual smile. She smiled back slightly.
The whole conversation ended the rest of ride to the Uley house. We both got out of my Durango and walked up to their porch and knocked on their door. Emily's happy face brightened when she saw us.
"Hey guys. I was wondering when you guys would come" Emily said pulling us into a hug with her usual caring smile but a hint of sadness. Probably because of what happened to Quil's granddad.
"It's good to see you Em," I said to her. She nodded and patted my arm.
"Claire! Cathy and Seth are here!" she shouted through the house, then I heard soft footsteps coming down the stairs, then a 13-14 year old looking teenage girl stood in front of us, black hair that lay past her shoulders and her dark brown eyes, and lightly tanned skinned. It was hard to believe she was only thirteen.
"Claire!" Cathy exclaimed and pulled her best friend in a tight hug. She returned the gesture, and we headed into the living room. Claire was initially Renesmee's friend as a kid but soon Renesmee past her in age and they sort of grew apart. When Catherine came to live with the Cullen's and when I imprinted on her, I introduced her to Claire. Long story short, they clicked.
"I'm getting muffins. You guys want any?" Emily asked and I nodded slightly and she soon left the room.
"So are you sure you haven't heard from him yet?" Claire asked, and Cathy looked at me before I nodded.
"He ran away, to give him time to process the information" She said slowly and Claire just laid her head back and had silent tears falling. Cathy comforted her.
"He'll be ok Claire, Quil's a big boy" She said trying to lighten up the mood. I smiled.
"Cat, can you think about the possibilities? He could be who knows where, and could get shot by a poacher. I don't know why but if that happens I can't live with myself, I need him, I just need my best friend back." She cried out and Cathy pulled her into her chest.
"He'll be back Claire, I promise, just give him some time." Cathy said. Claire just nodded into her shoulder, and as if on cue, the door swung open and there stood Quil soaking wet as the rain poured outside, we all spun around and Claire was the first to get up.
"Quil" she said running and colliding into his chest. He hugged her tightly in comfort as he let silent tears fall, Claire breathed in his scent not having a care in the world about getting herself wet.
"I'm sorry," he said to her, his voice breaking and she nodded.
"No don't say anything, I'm just glad you're back, and safe" she whispered and he smiled slightly. That's when Emily came into view.
"Oh Quil, you're safe" she said giving him a towel "Don't ever scare us like that again" She said. He didn't answer just nodded, they made their way to the living room, she brought the muffins to the table, and we all talked about other things other then what Quil's going through.
"And he slipped on ice-cream" Cathy said telling them about my little mishap last month going to the Port Angeles mall. Everyone laughed, even Quil smiled.
"I did not!" I defended myself and shied away. Cathy just rolled her eyes at my embarrassment, that's when Sam came into view.
"Hey guys!" he said to us, and went over to Emily and kissed every side of her face, and she giggled. We all had a little chat, until Sam and Emily said something that surprised us all.
"I'm pregnant" Emily said which left the room speechless until we heard the sudden squeals of the girls; I had practically cover my ears at the noise.
"Omigosh, it's about time!" Claire said pulling her aunt into a tight hug.
"This is amazing, congratulations Emily and Sam" Cathy congratulated them pulling them in a hug, Quil and I got up and congratulated Emily and Sam.
"Congrats guys" Quil said patting Sam's back and I did the same.
"I'm finally going to have a cousin" Claire squealed in total happiness. We all laughed at her enthusiasm, as the girls chit-chatted it on. Sam, Quil and I made our way to their backyard.
"Sam going to be a father huh!" I commented and he laughed and shrugged.
"Yeah I guess which is why I think stop phasing" He said with a smile. Our eyes widened.
"You're gonna stop phasing? But why" Quil asked in total shock
"Yeah I mean, there's like so many Quileute's turning, just by the presence of the Cullen's, and they need you, and it's not like Jake can control them all" I said bewildered.
"Yes I know that Seth, which is why I'm handing down my Alpha duties" he said
"To who? Paul? Jared?" I asked him, one of them have to be the new Alpha. He shook his head.
"You." he said slowly, I replayed what he just said. Did he just consider me being the Alpha of his pack?
"Me?" I asked again and he nodded "But Sam, it's not like I'm in your pack anymore, heck I was not even your Beta." I said trying to reason with him.
"I know, but you can handle it. I know you can, and it's not like I'm going to stop phasing now, probably in the next 7-8 years, I mean come on, would you like it if your daughter looks ten years older than you and you still stuck at 20." He said with a light chuckled. I nodded slightly.
"Well yeah you've got a point, and another daughter?" I asked raising my eyebrow. He just shrugged.
"Em, has been assuming, but I told her we should wait and see, but all she says is she knows it's a girl because of 'Mother instincts'" He joked. Quil and I simpered. "One thing I'm not looking forward to is the teenage stage" He said in fear.
"Good luck with that, now I have to go through Claire's pre-teenage hormonal stances." Quil joked with a laugh, "Not that I'm not happy, it's just I'm trying to get use to fact that that two year old I met, isn't a two year old anymore, you know?" He said and we all agreed.
"Yeah, I feel you. I'm going through that with Cathy, well just a little different," I said, and they both looked at me to continue, I choked out "I think I'm in love with Cathy, but I'm trying not to have the feelings, because just by doing that might ruin our friendship" I said.
"If you believe that, then your sorely mistaken my friend, they way your feeling isn't just one way." Quil said. My eyes furrowed in utter confusion.
"How do you mean?" I asked him, and inserted my hands in my pocket. He smiled.
"What I'm saying is, if you're feeling this way, she's gotta feel the same way, if not more than how you're feeling" he said.
"But she told me she only loves me in a 'friend' sort of way. She can't be in love with me, she's only five" I said with a frown, Sam and Quil laughed.
"Well Christmas has come early dude. You can't justify what a girl's feeling. Yeah sure they say they just want to be friends, but deep down inside, they want to be so much more. Yeah I get it she's young and hasn't fully matured yet, but she's turning six in just a couple of months, things are shifting and it's now or never man." Quil said patting my shoulder. I nodded. He was right. I have to tell her how I feel, even if it meant Rosalie Hale chopping my head off. At least I'll die knowing she's happy, but I decided I'd tell her when she's full grown because that's when I'm certain I'll be ready.
"When did you become the expert on love?" Sam asked Quil. Who just shrugged and blushed slightly.
"Claire and her stupid dating magazines really made me see the light." He said blushing scarlet, Sam and I burst into laughter.
"Well, keep reading them magazine's because they're definitely working." Sam joked and we all laughed as we walked back into the house. We saw all the girls talking in the living room and I hated breaking up the girl guru but it was getting a bit late and I could see the rain was about to hit so I thought it was time to take Cathy back to her house, we said goodbye to everyone before getting into my car and driving in silence.
"Well that was fun. Can you believe Emily's pregnant?" Cathy said in excitement and I laughed.
"We all can't Cat, but you guys were right it was about time. 10 years together and still not on their second pregnancy." I joked and she rolled her eyes, Sam and Emily have a child named Dove who was born four years ago, she was visiting her grandmother for the week so that's why we didn't get to see her.
And they also had an adopted son Jackson Levy who was currently at college now. They found him walking around La Push because his enter family died in a fire when he was 15. They agreed to keep him in for the next couple of years until he left to college and lived his own life.
"When you put it like that, you make it sound awful!" She said pouting slightly. I laughed.
"Dove must be ecstatic huh" I said. Cathy agreed.
"Yeah that kid's cute huh. I just adore her." she said and I just smiled at her, we reached the Cullen house and I dropped her off "Well, I guess I'll see you later then?" She said and I smiled and nodded. She hugged me quickly before opening the door.
"Bye Cataloger!" I said usually her childhood nickname and she chuckled.
"Bye Seth. Say hello to Sue and Leah for me, and I'll text you soon." she said and I nodded. She walked to her house and when she stood on the first porch step, she turned around and waved goodbye to me before heading into the house, I loved this girl so much, and it's a privilege to have her in my life. I drove off and went back to my house where I saw Charlie and Sue on each other's laps as usual.
"Hello buddy!" Charlie said to me and I just smiled.
"Hey Charlie, um guys have you seen Leah yet?" I asked. My sister has been missing in action for the past few weeks and yes she still phases and we hear her mind but she hasn't been patrolling as usual and that's starting to worry Jacob.
"No sweetie I tried calling her this morning however I went straight to voicemail" My mother answered and I nodded "So how is Catherine?" she asked. Saying my mother loved Cathy was an understatement, ever since I imprinted on her she viewed Cat as a second daughter, however I'm not too sure Leah's thrilled about me imprinting on a hybrid and especially a Cullen but she at least tolerates her.
"Umm...I guess she's alright we went to Sam and Emily's today" I told her not mentioning about Old Quil because he was a dear friend to her and bringing back his memory will surely break her down "She's pregnant" I said with a shrug.
"Oh that's delightful it's about time hey, Dove seemed lonely." she said with her usual smile.
"Yeah that's what Claire said" I told her and she smiled.
"How is Quil doing?" she asked sympathetically. I shook my head.
"He's still a little distraught but his taking it rather well courtesy of Claire Young's presence" I said with a light chuckle. She smiled understandingly. Charlie was watching a football match "Is Dallas winning?" I asked turning my focus on the screen.
"Yeah by four runs but seems like Florida's catching up pretty fast" Charlie answered.
"And he stills the ball...ooh that's going to leave a mark" the commentator muttered
"Come score a touch down" I muttered impaitently.
"Defence!" Charlie shouted as someone crashed into Eric Decker "Now that's a foul" Charlie exclaimed and my mother just laughed.
"My boys" she mumured mostly to herself and got off Charlie's lap "I'm cooking Pasta tonight is that okay?" She asked.
"That'll be perfect love" Charlie said looking up at her "How about you Seth" he asked and I nodded befor my mother went to the kitchen and cooked her delicious Pasta which we all loved...