(Song for this Scene – Dodie – Sick of Losing Soulmates)
Something in his chest shifted, he could feel it release like he'd just let go of this weight he hadn't known he was carrying and Logan pulled Veronica tighter to his body, her lips as hungry as his as they kissed each other.
She was sorry… all that anger he'd felt evaporated… he'd been heartbroken for so long…
This lust was in a league unlike anything he'd experienced before and he gasped as her mouth moved to trail kisses down his neck. The feel of her so hot and eager in his arms was overwhelming and he could feel the warmth of her as the weight of her petite pressed against him as he felt himself stiffening uncomfortably, he ached for her.
He'd been so lonely…
He pulled her mouth back to his and they continued their feverish explorations and he ran his hands along her thighs and squeezed her ass, his thumbs slipped into the belt loops in her jeans, holding her in place. He didn't trust himself not to run his hands under her shirt and try to start undressing her.
Veronica moaned happily and gripped onto Logan's shoulders for support as he began to kiss along her collarbone and up to her neck. She was dizzy from his kisses. She felt spellbound, lost in the sensations of how good his masculine body felt pressed against hers, he wanted her. It felt like a fire that was drawing them together and he almost came undone when she looked at him with that blatant arousal blazing in her blue eyes.
"I'm sorry Logan… for not being here for you…."
Hadn't he spent countless nights dreaming that she would say that to him over the last year? If Logan had been completely honest with himself. He'd always been jealous of Duncan, he'd seen the way Veronica had looked at him, he'd seen how they been with one another… the sheer certainty of that adoration and complete simplicity of it. Lilly had liked to play games… she always made him doubt her feelings… she'd toy with him until he felt like he was going insane… she kept him jealous and on edge because it had thrilled her to be wanted… chased… being with her was like trying to surf a violent sea, didn't matter how skilled you navigated that wave… she'd find a way to tear you up. Veronica love had always seemed like the eye of the storm but Duncan never had to worry if her feelings were real. He'd always known where he stood with her and when he'd broken it off, Logan had thought he was crazy. He'd have given anything to really be wanted and belong to someone like that… to be important to someone.
God she feels so good…
He nibbled on her ear, running his hands along her back and she began to tremble, whimpering, perhaps the advantage was unfair. Duncan had talked about her preferences with him once before when they had been getting pretty hammered and this one detail had stuck out, she had an erogenous zone just behind her ear and kissing it would make her all floaty and turn her on.
What was he doing…? Duncan was his best friend…
Logan felt her fingers tighten around his shoulders imagining how much better they would feel if her nails were digging into his back and he were kissing her with her petite body clenched around him, the thought almost did him in and he broke away panting.
"I can't…" he gasped.
"Why?" she protested, her blue eyes begging him to continue.
"I don't want to take advantage…" he sighed.
"You aren't… I want this too" she assured him.
"You think you do.. but …" he trailed off as she brushed a kiss along his jaw and captured his lips again.
But you don't know everything…
"Relax Logan… I'm not expecting a marriage proposal" she teased and she instinctively pressed her hips to his again.
"Then what are you expecting exactly?" he asked as he breathed heavily, his brown eyes pouring into her like liquid chocolate.
"A ride…" she whispered in his ear as her hand trailed down his torso and he felt his pulse racing. Logan felt his breath catch in his throat as she reached her hand down between them. "to my dad's office" she said picking up the keys and jingled them.
"Go to homecoming with me" he told her quickly and she looked at him in surprise the dance was next week and the words were out before he even realized what that would mean.
"Ummm… I already have a date" she replied quietly.
She was sitting in the back seat of his car straddling him… and she was dating someone else?
"With who?" he asked carefully.
"Troy Vandergraf? He asked me this morning… it's just a friends thing…" Veronica explained. "I'm sorry…" she said softly as she looked at the disappointment on his face.
"It's fine…" he said casually.
No it wasn't… he felt strangely competitive… possessive
"Duncan said you didn't like school dances… not since…" Veronica continued.
"I don't" he admitted.
But I'd go with you….
"We should probably talk about this…" she suggested as she cupped his face and kissed him.
"Probably" he agreed as he twisted in his seat and laid her down onto the backseat beneath him, the weight of his body pressing against her as their lusty, pleasure-bent hungry explorations continued until he had to pull himself away, fighting for control. He wanted to hold her closer… until they were naked, spent and satisfied.
"Poor Troy" she sighed biting her lower lip that was slightly swollen from his kisses. "He's going to have to get himself another date…" and she watched as Logan broke out into a happy grin. "I think that's the first time you've ever smiled at me" she observed.
"No it isn't" he replied as he kissed her forehead, tucking a few strands of her ruffled blond hair behind her ear.
What was he doing? He should know better than this…
He was an animal, acting on his baser instincts. The pleasure principle. He was making some very self-destructive choices right now and he was dragging her down with him, but he knew he didn't want this to be temporary.