"It's all set up in here" Mac told Veronica as she led her into the small computer lab before she headed off to her next class. She should have been heading to the Phys Ed but she wanted to get a look at what was on this tape and to go over some of her notes in peace before she joined Natalie and Pam after school.
Dick and Cassidy Casablanca's had confirmed the information she had found out about Logan and she felt relieved, she just had to figure out how to get close enough to Weevil to ask about why the Sheriff's Department had been so interested in talking to him during the murder investigation.
Maybe there was something in his permanent file?
"Come on Mom, how many braless years do I have left?" Lilly giggled from the screen as she pranced around in a very revealing gold sparkling dress and Veronica smiled sadly as the images of their homecoming night filled the screen, they didn't ever seem to make it to the dance.
"Ok I have never… gone skinny dipping" Veronica declared and she watched as the younger version of herself sipped her champagne.
"What are you doing?" Logan demanded as he stood over her shoulder.
"Logan.." she said in surprise.
"I said… what are you doing?" he repeated, an angry edge to his voice as his eyes remained entranced by the screen.
"Watching…" Veronica explained as she pointed at the small cassette tape.
"Where did you get this?" he asked as he watched the couples on the screen kissed, his arms wrapped around Lilly.
"I found it.. at home…" she said quietly. "I'm sorry.." Veronica told him as she stood up to see the hurt expression in his eyes.
"Who let you in here?" he demanded.
"The door was open… I asked Mr Clemmons…" she explained but something in his body language told her that it was just best to end the conversation as soon as possible.
"Get out…" he told her firmly.
Lilly…
"Logan… I'm sorry.." Veronica said softly as she stepped forwards to hug him.
"Just leave… please.. just go…" he said backing away from her and she sighed, picking up her bag and turned and left.
He wanted to go after her and apologize but he was immobilized by the smiling face of his dead girlfriend on the screen... of the sight of Veronica and Duncan kissing on the beach… of the memories of that night reaching into his chest and crushing him. Logan had been looking at images of Lilly for the last two days, but this was the first time he had seen something that truly captured her essence… and the absence of her swallowed him… but Veronica wouldn't understand this… she had no connection to these memories.
I was an ass… I'm sorry. L
Veronica found the note in her locker after 7th period.
Logan was planning to speak to her after school, he had overreacted. He wanted to return her video, they hadn't shared any of the same classes this afternoon but when he left he couldn't find her car in the school parking lot.
Dr Holtz office was chilly despite the blazing sun outside and Veronica slouched in her chair while she waited for him to come back with her latest scans and blood results.
"Dr Carrengton tells me that you think you are having some recall" he said as he took up his seat.
"Just some small things" Veronica confirmed.
"This is good news… has there been anything new in your routine that you can think of may be prompting these occurrences?" he asked.
"Not really" Veronica replied. "Is there anything that could be triggering these?"
Anything other than possibly making out with Logan Echolls?
"Episodes like this, according to your latest scan could be the result of brain chemistry.. we are noticing some elevated levels of vasopressin and dopamine" he explained as he looked at her chart.
"So can we treat it?" she asked.
"I would be reluctant at this stage to artificially interfere, but it could be a good strategy for in a few months from now if they don't occur again" Dr Holtz assured her. "Shall we begin?"
"Can we skip the hypnosis?" Veronica asked. "I've been having trouble sleeping since the last time" she admitted.
"Of course... have you been experiencing any other symptoms? Flashbacks?" he asked.
"No" she lied.
"Well then, continue taking the Clobazam and Frisium and we will see you next week" Dr Holtz smiled as he handed her the prescription.
Veronica arrived back at the school about forty minutes after the final bell, just as the school student council meeting finished for the day and she was greeted by Natalie and Kimmy.
"You want to grab the last boxes?" Natalie asked as she pointed at the small boxes that the arts and crafts department had contributed.
"Sure" Veronica smiled and followed them towards the home economics kitchens.
They spent the next two hours mixing up cake batter and making snickerdoodles and cookies for the Homecoming fundraiser, it was a fun afternoon and they chatted about their dates and where to buy their dresses. They also shared some of their stories from where various students had been during the day of Lilly Kane's murder.
"So I hear you turned down Troy Vandergraff?" Natalie asked.
"I've decided to go with a friend instead" she smiled. "Or at least I had… I'm not sure if it's still on… I don't even have a dress yet"
"Well we will have to fix that!" May exclaimed, her red curls bobbing around her cute heart shaped face as she fixed her green eyes on Veronica with determination.
"I hear Pam Dalton is going with Duncan Kane" Madison Sinclair announced loudly and glanced in Veronica's direction.
"Actually I think he was going with Faith Schultz" Natalie corrected.
"Oh…" she replied snidely before she carried another tray of spirit cookies into the other room where the other cheerleaders were helping to pack them into the boxes.
"I'm sorry if she bothered you" Natalie apologized to Veronica.
"It doesn't bother me" she smiled genuinely.
"No? Good! Now about this dress of yours…" May declared as she began to make arrangements to meet Veronica the following afternoon to go shopping with her along with Natalie and Meg.