A/N: TPOV
She felt like a complete tosser for asking the question. Yes she had know from his comment about her hair turning red that he still missed Lily, but the pain she saw, clear as day, in his eyes was more intense than she had ever suspected. It may have even been worth it had he said anything to help her own situation.
My situation. What situation!? You have one man who just bared his soul to you, from the looks of it, that you just brought back from the edge of death, and is willing to show you a world you had no idea even existed. Not once since you said you would like to try has he mentioned a bloody thing about it all being "too dark", even when covered in blood. Then you have one who insists everything about him is "too dark" simply because he gets more pissy and unbearable to be around once a month. If that is what classifies as "too dark", every woman, including myself, should be locked up in Azkaban!
Looking back at the pain held in Severus' eyes she wanted to hug him, something she could tell would be entirely unappreciated at this moment and possibly get her cursed to oblivion. Barring that, she wanted to throw something…preferably at a certain werewolf's head…also not a current option. She sighed, running a hand rather roughly through her hair.
"Bloody hell…I'm sorry, Severus, I shouldn't have asked. I saw the contract…and I just wondered…I was just hoping….I had no right. You don't have to worry about Remus. Right now he wants nothing to do with me and I wouldn't mind cursing him to Hades and back."
Severus looked at her as if he was about to object. Tonks held up her hand as she continued.
"Should that change, I…we…" She looked pointedly at Severus. "will deal with it then. That is, if the offer is still open and you will still have me." She looked up at him and couldn't help the hope that was shining in her eyes.