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Hi, everybody. This story is hypothetically Keigh's journal, so the chapter lengths will probably be pretty variable. Also, there may not be too much Dean x Keigh for a long time. I mostly put [Dean/OC] because Keigh has a crush on Dean.
Entry 2
Ruby is messing with the Winchesters. I don't know who she's working for really. I wouldn't believe anybody who told me, anyway. Things are getting really double-agenty and backstabby. It makes me nervous. I'd rather have some stability than more and more power. I know, I know, heresy. I don't care. I like the status quo. Shoot me.
Lilith seems to think Ruby is on her side, but the Winchesters think she's working against Lilith, so probably somebody is wrong. Crowley told me to leave Ruby alone. He didn't say what she's supposed to be doing, but apparently Lilith thinks she's cool with Ruby's activities.
Compounding with the stress about impending chaos, I'm bored. Everybody else has five jobs to do, and I can't do anything. If you're thinking about those math textbooks, kudos to you for remembering, but I studied them already. Besides, I would rather get to work with demons or humans or something. Equations are fun, but they're boring after a while. I need some social interaction.
I am seriously wondering if I should just run away. Maybe I'll go chill with Winchesters. That would give Dad a hernia for sure. Problem is, it might tick off Lilith, and I really don't want to do that. She scares me, big time. Even Dad is a little scared of her. He doesn't admit it very often, though. He pretends to be loyal to Lilith out of the goodness of his heart, or because it's practical, or whatever else he can come up with, but I know he's lying.
I don't know where else I could try, though. A human who wasn't a hunter would be scared of me, and a hunter would try to kill me. Any demon would just ship me back to Lilith with a ribbon around my neck. I could try to find out who my mother was, but I don't know where to start. I bet that Bobby guy could figure out what species I am, but I don't think I want him knowing I exist.
I don't know what to do. I'm just scared and antsy. I wish something would happen, but I hope it doesn't. If I sound insane to you, I probably am.
Ack. I can't help being curious about things that aren't my business. I know the Winchesters are key players, and I can't help wondering what part Ruby is playing over there. Also, how is she not dead already, messing with the powerful hunter duo? I'll buy that Dean might be stupid about her if he gets a crush on her- and she is possessing a pretty good-looking blonde- but I feel like Sam would have more sense. So why is he tolerating her? What is she telling him? I'm so curious, but I don't dare ask around. Maybe I should think about going and snooping on them, but that would be kind of like snooping around a nuclear reactor on lockdown. If you don't die from the radioactivity, you'll likely be caught and get in huge trouble. Maybe hell.
I don't know what would happen to me when I die. It probably depends who my mother was. If she was a demon, I will just be treated like a demon or a human. Torture or be tortured. That would be awful, but at least I wouldn't be surprised. Or if my mother was a human, same thing. I'd just be treated like a human. But what if my mother was something weird? What if I don't fit the pigeon holes? Could something worse happen to me? What if they decide to let Lucifer babysit me? That would be way worse than being tortured by Alastair. OK, so I don't want to go to hell, at least until I know who my mother was.
I found a bunch of unlabeled blood in Ruby's stuff. I didn't touch it. I wonder what that's about. It could be hers, or somebody else's. Or monster blood, that has some uses. Or maybe she's getting blood from the Winchesters for some kind of spell. That could explain why she's all buddy-buddy with them. But why would they cooperate?
Maybe they made a deal ten years ago. That's about when I went to school with them, I think. They didn't seem like the type, but you never know who will make a deal with a demon unless you are the demon. Humans are unpredictable. Individual humans, anyway. Groups of humans behave in fairly reliable ways if you know all your variables, at least usually.
Sam wouldn't have made a deal, I don't think. Unless that's where he got his awesome fighting skills, but I'm pretty sure he learned those from hunting with his dad. And Dean was so absorbed with girls that he didn't even have time to focus in school, so unless the deal was about a girl, I can't see him making one. Unless he just wanted the kiss. (Boys are disgusting.)