05 - [Byun Baekhyun] The Warm and Beautiful Things in Life

It was like a dream.

That person's figure was walking slowly in front of me. But no matter how fast I ran, I could not reach him.

Wait for me.

If you will.

I lay on the hospital bed, watching the ceiling with an empty gaze.

The bottle of liquid entered my blood stream, drop by drop. Rigid and cold, it made me uncomfortable.

I suddenly thought of Lee Hayeon.

I remember once when she was sick, she visited the hospital to get an IV. And when I visited her, I saw Park Chanyeol.

His tall figure stood by the bed. Cupping the bottle of IV drip in his hands, he flashed a smile at Hayeon who was on the bed.

Like an Angel who casted a spell.

"This way, it won't be cold." He said.

I subconsciously turned my head, imagining how it would've been like to watch him from this angle where he stood by the bed.

"You're awake?." This time, someone entered the ward.

It was Tae Shin Hyung, he was still holding his handphone, looking like he just finished a call.

"Hyung, when can I leave?"

"After the bottle finishes. You take a good rest, I've already settled everything with the broadcasting station, I told them you couldn't attend. Tsk, why didn't you tell anyone that you were sick?"

"How can that be…"I was a little panicky when I heard I couldn't attend, "We've already finalised the choreography, it's such a hassle to change it last minute. And tonight is such an important event…"

Tae Shin Hyung didn't speak.

"…I can do it, I feel much better now." I wasn't forcing myself. Even though I still haven't got a chance to ask how I fainted, but after resting here for some time, I did feel slightly better. Furthermore, I didn't want to affect our group's performance.

"….You really want to perform?" Tae Shin Hyung watched me.

I nodded.

He fell into silence again, as if he was thinking about something.

"Alright," He finally spoke, seems like he also thought of tonight's performance to be important, "I will call them again. I'll bring you out after you finish the IV. Oh, and I also have to inform the company to send a new report draft."

I smiled bitterly. News report draft? 'Byun Baekhyun continues performance despite admitted to hospital' something like that? Looks like Park Chanyeol would spite me again for arousing pity.

"Oh yeah. When you get back, you should thank Chanyeol. It was him who carried you out of the company and hailed a cab to bring you to the hospital."

"Ah?"

I froze.

It was Chanyeol? Chanyeol carried me out of the company building? And sent me to the hospital?

….Unbelievable news.

Shouldn't he have carried me and thrown me straight into the Han Gang River?

But, if only I was conscious then, how good would that be? I wanted to feel the temperature of his body, I wanted to see clearly his expression, even if it was cold. Looks like I really have such bad luck; how could I have been unconscious at such a rare moment?

"Where are the rest now? Are they preparing?"

"Yes, Chanyeol went too, after sending you here. Looks like you won't be able to make it for the red carpet event, but since our performance is around the middle, we should be able to make it in time."

When I reached the broadcasting station, the recording had just started. I pushed open the door and walked into the waiting room, and the members all froze when they saw me.

I saw Park Chanyeol frown slightly.

Luhan Hyung ran up to me, "Why are you here? Go back and get some rest."

"I'm feel better already." I told him with a smile. On our way here in the car, Tae Shin Hyung had told me that the reason I fainted was due to me not eating.

- - The doctor told me that you are slightly malnourished, so you'd better eat well. Tae Shin Hyung said while driving, without looking at me.

I felt touched, looking at Luhan's worried expression, and explained, "There wasn't really much of a problem to begin with."

"Jung Tae Shin is so inhumane." Luhan scolded in a low voice and I couldn't help but to burst out laughing.

"No, I wanted to come here myself."

"Hey Byun Baekhyun, aren't you going to get your make-up done?" Tae Shin Hyung urged as he poked his body around the door.

"Oh, Ok." I hurriedly ran to sit down in front of the mirror. I heard Luhan mumble behind me, "What did I say."

"Oh yeah, remember to eat this medicine later. Maknae, go hand it over to Baekhyun." He dug out a packet of medicine and gave it to Sehun who stood closest to the door, and left afterwards.

I didn't need to think to roughly get an idea of what the medicine was. I couldn't move as the Coordi applied make-up on my face. I could only watch Luhan Hyung with his darkened expression as he grabbed the medicine over from Sehun with a blank face through the mirror.

"Does he want to force you to death? What the hell is he doing?" Luhan Hyung seemed to be angry for real.

"Luhan Hyung, just give it to me." I watched him.

"Are you crazy? Look at yourself." He glared at me, "Sigh, Min Hee Noona, you don't need to apply foundation on him, look at how pale he is."

"I'm fine, I-"

"Just give him the medicine," Kyungsoo who was silent the whole time finally spoke.

"Are you all crazy?"

"If not, he might be unable to withstand it onstage."

"…" Luhan Hyung didn't speak, he froze for a moment before walking forward, and slammed the packet of medicine on the table before me with a loud sound. "They must all want your life." He mumbled.

I held his hand, and looked at him thankfully. Luhan Hyung whose Korean pronunciation still sounded slightly awkward is always so kind. I am thankful that he always looked out for me - such a useless person.

"Luhan Hyung, don't worry. Thank you."

Kneeling on the elevating platform below the stage, we waited for our turn. My position was at the most right, and next to me was Park Chanyeol, he looked extremely good looking as he waited silently. My heart was beating very fast, but I know it was due to the medicine. The two pills worked well, I was excited mentally, trying to bring motion to my corpse like body.

Our title track's intro suddenly sounded, the elevating platform started to move upwards. With my corner vision, I saw the person beside me stand up slowly. The red spotlight shone on his proud yet calm side profile. His energetic expression made him look like the he owned the world.

This…This is the person that I love the most.

Even if he never spares me a glance, is disgusted to speak to me; even if he spites me and tortures me, he is still the one I love. He is also extremely handsome.

It must be the medicine's effect, my thoughts were rather lively. I shook my head gently, realising that I was already on stage.

I closed my eyes a little to calm my heart down, and put all my best into the performance.

The fans below waved their banners and balloons actively, and amongst them, I saw my name. Some were even crying while shouting 'Baekhyun-ah!'

What a group of lovely children. Your unconditional love and support never fails to make me feel touched, it helped me gain energy more than the medicine. What did I ever do to be able to receive your love? If you knew the mistake I committed to Park Chanyeol, how would you see me then? Rip off my posters and photos? Or like what you've done before, crying while saying, 'we only belive in Baekhyun'.

Saying that you only believe in me, you group of lovely children, I don't know how to repay you with the flawed me. I can only try my best to sing for you, and smile at you - - before you hate me and leave me.