10 [Byun Baekhyun] I'm Sorry

"Ahh…"

I was back-facing him. Unable to see his actions, I was terrified.

When he thrust into my body violently, I let out a scream, unprepared.

"Shut your mouth, bitch." He spat at my ears, in between hot breaths, despite so, I felt no sense of warmness.

His strong and big hand held onto my waist tightly, the already wounded place felt extremely painful under his tight grip. He attacked my body without even half a bit of pity, like I was a lifeless toy. His other hand found its way to the front of my body, pushing my legs open with force so that he could thrust in deeper.

The white dress shirt I had on for the dinner event was still draped on my body, he could probably see the patches of blue on my back and waist if he lifted my shirt even the slightest bit. I could only let out soft whines from the pain all over my body. My tears somehow surfaced, wetting my eyes and causing my vision to turn blurry.

The hand on my waist moved away, and reached up to forcefully tug at my hair. At that moment, I could not even let out a sound, instead I was gasping and gaping with my mouth open – like a dead fish.

"You feel this pain?" He said in a low voice as he pulled my hair, causing my head to jerk back, the attacks from his lower body had yet to cease.

Yes. It's extremely painful. Till I can no longer speak. I could only let out a few broken sounds, along with the shameless sobbing tone.

"You need to know! That her pain was ten times worse than yours!" He shouted angrily next to my ear. As if to worsen the punishment, he pounded even hard into my body.

"…Ahh…Chan…Chanyeol….Ah…" I wanted to beg him to stop.

"Don't you dare call my name."

…Alright. I won't call your name. I can't help but to feel afraid of the current you. Even if all I ever do is to stand there silently, there would always be a chance of you pulling me over to abuse me.

I can't help but to feel afraid of the current you.

And after you're done with your punishment, you are going to throw me to the floor like a worthless piece of clothing.

Almost as if it wasn't enough for you to release your anger, you pulled me up again to throw me into the bath tub.

Park Chanyeol. You, are such a scary person.

He forcefully turned on the shower head from above before switching the water temperature down to its lowest. All of a sudden, the ice cold water showered down from above, the water droplets splattered onto my skin, the coldness felt piercing.

I had no energy to fight back, not even able to let out a sound from my throat. Only like a worthless animal, I curled my body up, shivering hysterically.

He cruelly sprayed cold water at me with the shower head, and in the end throwing it at me, before turning to walk away.

"How dirty."

He said.

I continued to sit in that bathtub. Without even having enough energy to turn off the cold water.

The chillness spread through my whole body. The water from hair dripped off drop by drop, some sliding off from the side of my cheeks. Some dripped into my mouth mixed with a salty liquid, dripped into my heart, into the gaps of the wounds.

I continued shivering unstoppably. In the hell like coldness, I curled up and hugged myself tight, burying my face in my arms.

The next day, I caught a fever.

Hayeon had already left. Manager Hyung found out about her stay when came to our dorm in the morning. He called Hayeon's manager to fetch her away after throwing a massive temper.

I who was originally lying on the sofa, wearily returned to the bedroom to lie down. But even after I closed the door, I could hear the loud bickering between Park Chanyeol and the manager.

"Are you trying to joke around? Bringing a girl back to the dorm? And it actually being that Lee Hayeon!"

I also heard him reprimanding Luhan Hyung along with Park Chanyeol.

I didn't know why but I kept hearing a voice in my mind saying –

Byun Baekhyun, this is what you've caused. These are all the mistakes that you've made.

I'm not sure if it was the fever that had caused my mind to feel unclear, but the words felt like a spell, repeating itself again and again in my head, accusing me over and over. I felt like I was about to go crazy.

- I'm sorry, it's all because of me, it's all my fault.

- But please let me go, even if just for a while.

The scolding from outside gradually faded. I'm not sure if I was falling asleep, or Tae Shin Hyung had left for real. But the silence did not last for long; I heard the bedroom door being pushed open violently. Followed by that, I was pulled off the bed and thrown onto the floor.

…Are you here to punish me again? I looked up, to see Park Chanyeol's darkened expression, and Luhan Hyung who had just dashed in.

"Park Chanyeol! What the hell are you doing?" Luhan Hyung helped me up, but I did not have much energy to stand properly by myself. I was relying most of my weight on Luhan Hyung's body.

"Baekhyun, what's wrong? — Park Chanyeol, he is sick!"

"That's not my problem."

"You —"

"Byun Baekhyun, why don't you say it," Park Chanyeol's sharp arrow-like gaze, stared at me viciously, "Tell us what you did."

What I did…was he still referring to last night?

Last night…actually I did nothing last night, Chanyeol-ah.

All the other members entered the room.

"Yesterday, Baekhyun told me about the situation, he was barely there by coincidence. Park Chanyeol, don't release your anger on Baekhyun just because you got a scolding." Luhan Hyung spoke again.

Park Chanyeol who was in front of me opened his mouth to speak. But Sehun spoke first.

"But back then, wasn't it because of Baekhyun Hyung?"

I tried hard to lift my eyelids open to look at him.

Sehun watched me expressionlessly, "Wasn't it because Baekhyun Hyung went to tell on you to the company, that's why you and Hayeon noona had to be separated."

"…I…"

"Isn't that the reason why Hayeon noona is in her current state?"

"Oh Sehun! You shut up!" Luhan Hyung shouted, furious.

"Hyung, why are you always helping him?" Sehun continued to show no expression as he watched Luhan.

"Because I'm more rational then the bunch of you insane people!"

"Luhan Hyung…"

Are they fighting because of me, again?

Don't quarrel anymore, please. It's not worth it over me.

"I'm sorry…It's my entire fault."

I heard Park Chanyeol's cold laugh.

This is what you like to watch right? The people around me leaving one by one, going over to your side, accusing me of crimes that can never be forgiven of.

"Why are you apologising!" Luhan Hyung said, "Let me tell you Park Chanyeol, back then if it was me, I would've done the same as Baekhyun, it was for your good!"

"Ha, maybe you might have done so for my good, but why not ask this bastard beside you what was his ultimate intention of telling on me and Hayeon to the company?" Park Chanyeol continued to smile coldly, step by step coming closer to me. His hand reached forward, causing me to feel afraid. Luhan Hyung slapped his hand away.

"Speak, Byun Baekhyun. Aren't you the capable one? Wasn't it because you had feelings for me, that's why you went to tell the company about us, asking the company to chase Hayeon away. Aren't you the one who wants to see the people I love in a terrible state, that's why you asked those bastards last night to torture her."

I could hear from Park Chanyeol's snide tone that it was filled with anger and hatred.

"…Last night, I really didn't…" I tried my best to open my mouth to explain.

"Hayeon already told me all about it, and yet you bastard – "

"Baekhyun said he did not do it." Luhan Hyung cut in.

"Ha," Park Chanyeol laughed incredulously, "Hyung you still believe him."

"I believe him."

When Luhan Hyung said those three words, I almost teared.

Right at that moment, there was a noise from the living room's door.

Hearing that someone has come, none of us spoke, leaving the tensed atmosphere hanging in the air.

It was Tae Shin Hyung. He froze when he pushed open the door to the bedroom to see the current scene.

"Why are you all here?" He asked.

"We had things to discuss." Luhan Hyung said calmly.

When I saw the manager, I tried my best to hide my sickly state.

Tae Shin Hyung seemed to still be in a bad mood from the events just now, but he also had a strange expression.

"Oh…Then Baekhyun, go get ready, and then follow me."

…Me?

Before I could ask anything, Luhan Hyung spoke, "I thought we had no schedule today? Baekhyun is sick, can he…"

"Sick? That's fine, I'll bring him to the hospital." Tae Shin Hyung said as he stared at me with a strange expression. I nodded, not sure what was happening such that I had to go alone.

"…Alright, I'll go get ready."