AN: Hey everyone, I deeply apologise for the delay in updates. I've just been struggling deciding how I want this story to go. so here's another warning though. its a little depressive, but we will get our happy go luck characters back shortly, don't worry.

Songs used in chapter: I want it all (By Queen)

Astronaut (By Simple Plan)

PS: I do not own Transformers (dammit)

CHAPTER 6

Autumn and Blaster could not help but be worried about Sideswipe who had done nothing but sit and stare blankly at the wall since he had awoken from his forced nap via Blaster hitting a cable in the mech's neck over an hour ago. Autumn could only imagine his pain of being separated from his brother and the other half of his soul. She had grown up in a happy family despite her social outcast status and therefore could not symphysis with him. It saddened her because growing up, he and Sunstreaker had been some of her most cherished characters next to Ratchet and Jazz, and seeing him in such a state made her saddened.
Taking a deep breath, she looked up at her figurine shelf, automatically noticing Sunstreaker near the front. An idea came to her mind, and the determined glint appeared in her eyes. Blaster gave her a funny look, but she simply ignored him and pushed herself of the floor and onto her feet. She padded across the room and gently picked up the fading yellow figurine. Nothing happened and not wanting to be discouraged she closed her eyes and thought of a song that reminded her of him. Rocking gently she sang.

Adventure seeker on an empty street
Just an alley creeper, light on his feet
A young fighter screaming, with no time for doubt
With the pain and anger, can't see a way out
It ain't much I'm asking I heard him say
Gotta find me a future move out of my way
I want it all, I want it all, I want it all and I want it now.
I want it all, I want it all, I want it all and I want it now.
Listen all you people, come gather round
I gotta get me a game plan, gotta shake you to the ground
Just give me what I know is mine
People do you hear me just give me the sign.
It ain't much I'm asking, if you want the truth
Here's to the future to the dreams of youth
I want it all, I want it all, I want it all and I want it now
I want it all, I want it all, I want it all and I want it now

I'm a man with a one track mind,
So much to do in one life time (people do you hear me)
Not a man for compromise and there's where's and why's and
Living lies
So I'm living it all, yes I'm living it all
And I'm giving it all and I'm giving it all
It ain't much I'm asking if you want the truth
Here's to the future, hear the cry of the youth
I want it all, I want it all, I want it all and I want it now
I want it all, I want it all, I want it all and I want it now

Autumn trailed off for a moment, allowing the last cord of the song to simply hang in the air for a moment as she softly opened her eyes and allowed them to a just to the light after having shut them while she swayed to the music. Hopefully she looked down at the toy. Only to be met with the bitter tasting frozen lamppost that was disappointment. Her eyes filled with tears of shame. She slowly turned to face the bots now on her bed and for a moment silently opened and closed her mouth as she tried to figure out what to say. Exactly how did one apologize for failing to reunite two brothers by ripping one out of his dimension and into one where he for all intents a purposes did not exist?
"I'm so sorry Sideswipe," she settled for at last, "I tried to bring you your brother, I really did."
He did not reply but there was a gleam to his optics that they hadn't seen since he arrived and lost his connection to his brother. Blaster too was standing with his mouth agape and she imagined if he did not have a visor on his optics would have been the size of saucers. Miniature saucers. Autumn dipped her head future in shame.
"He was glowing gold when you sang that song," Blaster said after a moment of silence. Autumn's head snapped up to glance at him.
"He did?" She asked raising the figurine to her face height and frowned, "he doesn't look any different than before."
"He was glowing though," Blaster said moving over to her when she sat on the edge of her bed, "that's gotta count for something."
"I don't know blaster," she set the toy down onto the comforters on her bed, unsurprised when Sideswipe suddenly launched himself onto him and began begging him to wake. She couldn't take it anymore. She got up and left the room without a word, ignoring Blaster for a moment and kept her head down in thought. She'd disappointed him, a character she had well admired since she was a small child. A lump wrenched itself in her gut, and she found it was a feeling she did not enjoy at all. Miserable, she kept on shuffling though the house, only stopping when her musings took her to her little brother's bedroom. He was still at school and would not be home for a while. So she wondered exactly what had led her to this particular room. She thought for a moment, silently happy to finally having a distraction from Sideswipe's pain, and raked her mind once more to find out why. While she mused, Autumn chuckled at how his door was decorated with 'Keep out' symbols and signs from different movies and cartoons, the most abundant being from Star trek and transformers. Mainly the deception symbols. Deceptions! Autumn's eyes widened in horror and quicker than she had ever thought possible she found herself standing in her messy brother's room. It was around the same size as her own with the walls covered top to bottom in drawings her talented artist brother had done over the years that he was just too lazy to organize. The bed was pressed against the wall behind the door, the Spock blanket messily lying on the floor along with the dinosaur and star wars figurines. She hurriedly scrambled through the mess and opened the heavy toy chest at the foot of the bed, sighing in relief when she saw all of the toys within. All 24 of them.
Autumn laughed, but it was a hollow and empty crackle, as she sat down against the bed on the floor. It seemed that she had worried over nothing after all and wondered if it was simply the stress she had been under about Sideswipe and Sunstreaker. She leaned backwards and closed her eyes. What was she going to do now?
THUNK
Autumn jumped. She looked around hurriedly, wondering where the sound had come from. Frowning her brow, she listened, but could not hear what could have caused such a racket and eventually just played it off as her imagination. Softly she rested her head against the dash and fought bravely against the tears that threatened to spill. She wondered but for a moment how her life had turned so upside down in a matter of hours. What had made her so special to make the fictional characters she had looked up to as a young child come to life. She had never really had a lot of friends, being too cocooned in her own little world as a child, and the shows had been her safe retreat from all the teasing and torment the other kids had put her through. She snorted and rubbed her eyes tiredly before she hummed softly as her eyes caught sight of the old guitar she had given her brother when she had brought herself a new one. Tenderly she reached over for it, and ran her hands in greeting over the soft neon strings like she was greeting a long lost friend after many years apart. Autumn went through the long process of tuning the guitar, mentally noting in the back of her mind to chew out her brother for not looking after it properly. When she was satisfied by the sounds it made, she gave it a quick strum and made herself comfortable and began to play to what she felt, singing softly.

"Can anybody hear me?
Or am I talking to myself?
My mind is running empty
In the search for someone else
Who doesn't look right through me
It's all static in my head
Can anybody tell me why I'm lonely like a satellite?

'Cause tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut
Sending SOS from this tiny box
And I lost all signal when I lifted up
Now I'm stuck out here and the world forgot
Can I please come down
'Cause I'm tired of drifting around and round
Can I please come down

I'm deafened by the silence
Is it something that I've done?
I know that there are millions
I can't be the only one whose so disconnected
It's so different in my head
Can anybody tell me why I'm lonely like a satellite?

'Cause tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut
Sending SOS from this tiny box
And I lost all signal when I lifted up
Now I'm stuck out here and the world forgot
Can I please come down?
'Cause I'm tired of drifting around and round
Can I please come down

Now I lie awake and scream in zero gravity
And its starting to weigh down on me
Let's abort this mission now
Can I please come down?

So tonight I'm calling all astronauts
All the lonely people that the world forgot
If you hear my voice come and pick me up
Are you out there?
'Cause your all I got

And tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut
Sending SOS from this tiny box
And I lost all signal when I lifted off
Now I'm stuck out here and the world forgot

Cause tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut
Sending SOS from this tiny box
To the lonely people that thew world forgot
Are you out there?
Cause your all I got

Can I please come down
Cause I tired of drifting around and round
Can I please come down"