AN: soooo sorry that this has taken so long. Thank you again for your awesome reviews. I continue to apoligise for my lack of grammatical knowledge and incontinuity with spelling etc. I hope any errors can be looked over and the story enjoyed. I actually have 2 other stories Im working on but I wont start to publish them until this one is complete (or ill get very confused) Im going to do a mass upload of coontent (hopefully) over the next few days. its taken me sometime to get my head around the plot line and where I want to go with it. I had it all laid out nicely and then a review made me re-think the whole thing. but dont worry, its better than I ever could have thought originally so keep the reviews comming. Im so delighted with the amount of followers I have on this story Im so touched. I do plan on making some artwork for the covers when I am done but if anyone wants to do any inspired work then please do and message me and ill link it in on my notes. -bug out-

Something about what Louis had said struck a chord with her. She breezed over the rooftops of Paris with the night air in her face. She was sad still, she did want to make things right with Chat, she needed to give him the opportunity to be a father. If she didn't do it soon she might never do it.

Adrien fit the role so nicely. Strangers to the fashion world often commented how much he looked like his father when they were out together. Adrien always smiled and never corrected their assumptions.

She landed at the meet up point. Chat was already there.

"M'lady, please, I know we cant pick up where we left off and I know I hurt you and I know I can never make up for the things I've done and you've probably moved on like I'm trying to but I need to know that we can be partners again, we knew each other so well and I want to have that back, can we please just start a fresh?"

His words stung her more than the icy air of the night. He was moving on. All those years, everything they had been through. She couldn't help it, she was so mad. This isn't how she planned on telling him. 'you know what' she thought as her hand balled into a fist 'he doesn't deserve Louis'.

Her hand was balled in a fist around her yo-yo but Chat was as oblivious, as usual, to her emotions. She was shaking with rage, betrayal. If akumas were still around and she certainly had enough rage to attract one, super-suit be damned, her emotions overpowered anything the super powers had ever given her.

Her voice was cool and calm. "Yeah, sure, I suppose that works, moving on. Anything I should know about?"

He let out a breath, relived that she seemed to have calmed down since their last meeting. "well actually its someone I work with as a civilian ..."

SLAP

"what the heck LB!" Chat managed to get out between being hurled to the ground and kicked hard in his side.

"YOUR SUCH AN IDIOT!" Ladybug screamed, tears running down her face.

"Bug-a-Boo...OW!" She kicked him in the side again insistent on causing him as much pain as she had been through the last 5 years.

"I – WAITED -FOR-YOU" she shouted in-between kicks and then straddled him, holding him to the ground so he couldn't try to run away again. Her thoughts went a million per minute but catching onto one 'How can I tell him, trust him, what if he runs away again and I have to break Louis heart, I cant do that'

She punched him in the face and he reached up and grabbed her hands so she couldn't hit him again. "LB for crying out loud, no one asked you to wait for me, you had that other guy you liked remember, you were never interested in me like I was for you."

She released one of her hands from his grip and started hitting him anywhere she could and sobbing hysterically. She stopped hitting him and continued in her crying "Yeah, of course Chat, because this is me not interested in you, that night we made love, again me not interested in you right?" she spat at him.

Her emotions were on a roundabout of rage and betrayal, sadness and even hate, bitterness, pain and that much less frequent spin of love and desire.

"Ladybug, i'm, - i'm – i'm sorry..." he really looked sorry but it wasn't enough and he knew it. "what can I do? What can I do to make it up to you?"

Tears fell silently down her cheeks. There was nothing. What could he possibly say or do to make up for 5 years of abandonment. Her thoughts turned to Adrien. Maybe it was time to go their separate ways. They let go of each other and sat there in silence for a while until one of them spoke.

It was Ladybug who found her voice first, Chat Noir wasn't daring to speak in case she started hitting him again. She might be a small woman but with her super powers and rage he could feel a bruise forming on his ribs and had a feeling one may even be broken despite his own suits protection.

"I confessed. To the guy I liked. I told him I loved him. There was someone else. I was crushed, I admit, I still have feelings for him. But I always knew that if I hadn't have met him, if he didn't exist, then it would have been you Chat." She looked up at him, her eyes sparking in tears and the moonlight.

"So... I was second choice? Back-up plan?" Chat managed to whisper a little hurt in his voice.

Ladybug glared at him "That is not what I said OR what I meant. If you think I was hurt by a kid at school what do you think I felt about my partner who I gave my whole self to and then he vanished."

"ok, ok, I get it. It was my first time too you know, but it was nothing to do with that, I loved you LB" He looked at her and she knew he was telling the truth.

"Loved?" the words fell out her mouth as the tears started to well up again. "past tense"

Chat Noir gulped, "I don't know LB, when I see you my heart skips a beat, I feel more at home then I've ever felt in my life. A connection beyond anything I've felt with anyone. But when I'm with this other woman... I've known her since I was 14, I cant help but, well, feel that way for her too, she has this kid, the fathers not around and he's the most amazing kid. I cant help thinking that I should be there. Be the man they so sorely need in their lives. Show them the love they deserve, the love I never had. I know you felt that way about the guy you liked, why did you never pursue it, or anyone else?"

Ladybugs tears were streaming heavily now "It was my first time, my only time" she looked up at him hoping he would understand the impact of her words. "When I realised I had lost you, I tried so hard to find you. As for the other guy, well, he was my friend and I, well, I see him a lot now. I still have those feelings for him. They don't go away. I thought they would after 5 years. But despite our friendship, I had... other things... to look after and I lost contact with him. I cant blame him for leaving Paris." she smiled a sad smile at Chat "his father was hawk-moth you know?"

Chats jaw dropped and the wind which was only a light breeze seemed to envelope him and take the air from his lungs.

"but, as close as we get to each other, I know to keep my distance. He plans on staying in Paris now, but, its not fair on him, or you. Chat. I need to tell you something."

Chat was still in shock from the most recent development. Ladybug, His ladybug had loved him in civilian form, and as his alter-ego. And worse, he had rejected her, at some point, he had so many confessions in those days, and still now, it would be impossible to narrow it down.

"Chat... You have a son."

Chat shook his head, This was too much to take in. "But...but... we only...it was once..."

"once is apparently all it takes. I don't want to get in the way of your new life, your new love, but its also not fair to Louis, he's wanted to meet you for so long." tears were falling again. "but I'm not ready yet. I'm so sorry, I just cant." She got up and swung out into the night.

Chat had no time or energy to follow. He felt like someone had hit him in the head with a frying pan. He sat there still processing the words that had been said to him. Finally he managed to let out one word which he breathed onto the wind. Nature was the only one to hear it.

"Mari?"