"Remus, I'm sorry." Said Sirius.
"What the fuck were you thinking?" Remus ignored his apologies as if they were pesky flies tickling his face, small and annoying, but nothing a good swat with a wooden spoon wouldn't fix. Even bug spray.
"That's the point, I wasn't thinking, I was jealous and stupid and immature."
"You were more than that, you tried to get me to kill someone. You're lucky the Ministry didn't find out. Or else you would be in Azkaban and I would be expelled." Gritted Remus through firmly clenched teeth.
"I know." Admitted Sirius.
"I thought you loved me." Sighed Remus, forcing his mind to think of something else, or else the tears would break through.
"I do. I honestly do Rem, I love you so, so much. More than anything, more than James, Lily, Peter, Mary and even myself. Do you know how that feels? Do you have any idea how it feels to know that you can only rely on your other to really make you happy? I'm not talking about the light chuckles, I'm talking about that deep burning happiness that erupts right from inside your very soul. You're my life, Moony. Do you have any idea how vulnerable that makes me feel? It's like I've got my back exposed to a Artic storm, I hate knowing that you're the only one that can make me like that, and on the other end of the scale, you can cut me down into a thousand pieces with just a few words. It makes me scared and afraid, and I don't like being afraid at all, it makes me do stupid things. Like that. The truth is, I need you Rem, and I hope –I know- that you need me too. You don't have to need me as much as I need you, you don't even have to say it back, I just need you to know that I do, honestly and from ever crevasse of my heart, love you. I'm so sorry."
"I thought I could trust you." Here came the tears, Remus could no longer feel his legs, or anything as a matter of fact. He felt as if his own skull would implode from any moment from the highway of thoughts that darted around in his head.
He did love Sirius, he loved him a lot. He just had no idea how he was meant to trust Sirius ever again after he had put so much faith into him, he had told him about his furry little problem, allowed him to sneak away every full moon to see him, he had trusted and loved him enough to give him his own virginity. But, Sirius could hardly trust him enough without telling Severus to go find him on a full moon. That was the underlying problem, wasn't it?
You can love someone until the sun bleeds out, but if you can't trust them enough to let them go then the love means nothing.
"You can. Honestly. "
"Then you can trust me enough to leave me alone."
Remus fled the scene, biting on his tongue, which gave him an awful and piercing pain, but distracted him from the five pounds of lead that had settled in the pits of his stomach and in the bottom of his heart.
In case you didn't catch on, their talking about when Sirius was all "HEY SNAPE GO TO THE WHOMPING WILLOW, YOU PRICK!" and he almost died. I'm implying that Sirius did it because he got jealous of Remus spending time with Lily because they're prefects and not with him, his boyfriend. Sirius thinks that they're together and Remus is cheating and he wanted to tell Snape to do that to get Remus back. His rationality fails, considering that Snape was dead to Lily by the time this happened. Double fail because Remus is committed to Sirius and doesn't swing Lily's way.