This website is hard man. I don't know how others do it.
Anyways, don't expect uploads this fast anymore. I only uploaded chapters 1-5 to catch up with the Ao3 fanfic.
Enjoy!
I lay in my bed, looking up at the ceiling. It was roughly 1 am. The tv had shut off, all the lights were off, everyone went to bed. The faint echoing of the ending of the anime rings in my ears constantly. It wasn't an unpleasant sound as I found the song beautiful. I whisper the lyrics into thin air while the tune buzzes in my head.
"Being scared of an unseen tomorrow.
Being tired of who we are."
I'm surprisingly not tired despite it being 1 am and all I wanted to do all day was sleep. I guess I just wanted to get out of that school so badly I faked being sick. I couldn't face people laughing and smiling. I can't stand people not knowing.
"Let's stop doing that already.
Tell yourself it will all be ok."
However, I still chose to put my friends in the dark. A valid excuse? I think not. I made up my mind that I was going to tell them tomorrow. Or today. It doesn't matter, I'm telling them tomorrow. I smile at the bare ceiling, showing it teeth full of pride.
I'm doing it.
"Things like that will always be close by.
I know I had lost sight of it."
My smile faded away. I don't blame myself, I never been one with pure confidence. At school, most of my confidence has been forced and the things I do was things I didn't necessarily want to do. My friends had helped me with that and even, before all this ever happened, my aunt.
"It's a little scary here, but we'll get through it, surely."
I start to wonder what will my aunt think of me now. I left being afraid. Curious but frightened and unable to speak my own mind. Now, I still am that same person, somewhat, but I can gladly say that I have grown. She'll be proud of me.
She will also have a kick out of the stories I now have.
"Melody, it's heard by all the people who come and go.
Melody, it's in you.
Ah, melody, it's in absolutely everyone."
I wonder what will my aunt react to my friends. I'm sure she will hit it off with Sayori, playing childish pranks on Yuri and Natsuki. She would be curious Yuri and her books, often going off in deep conversations. She'll have fun baking with Natsuki, the creative duo pulling off marvelous recipes.
I hope she meets them soon.
"Melody message."
"Melody message."
I look up to see Sayori, leaning against the doorway in her pajamas. She had a more relaxed, loving smile on her face than earlier.
"Sorry, did I wake you," I asked, sitting up. Sayori shakes her head.
"I see Yuri's anime had an impact on you," she says, sitting on the side of the bed.
"Yeah, I couldn't get Melody out of my head." I laid my head down on her lap. She giggles.
"Ah, me too! I never knew how eleven episodes can impact me that much!"
She takes a look at the dimly lit room. It was a small thing, with light green walls and white furniture. The bed was just a regular mattress with a white painted bed frame. I hardly customize my room, I had no reason too.
"Do you mind me sleeping in your room tonight," she asks, suddenly turning shy. I raised an eyebrow.
"Your room of yours getting too cluttered even for you, I see." She lightly punches my shoulder.
"Monika, you meanie. My room has been slowly getting better!"
"Since when?"
She thinks about this for a moment and laughs awkwardly, not giving me an answer.
"It's not that," she says after her silent laughing fit. "My room just feels more lonely than usual."
"To be honest I kinda felt that too."
"Twining!" Sayori and I share a light laugh.
After a few moments of talking, Sayori and I laid down properly, facing each other. Sayori's smile lessens and her eyes drooped, but still reflects a positive beam. I smile my own drowsy smile.
"You're so beautiful," she whispers. "I hope you know that."
I felt a blush creep up my face, cursing me with warmth. "What is this? Are you okay?"
"I'm fine! I'm fine! I just realized that I'm looking at the most beautiful thing in the world. I'm so lucky!"
She takes my vacant hand sitting on the space between us and squeezes it. I felt my face heat up from a desirable fireplace warmth to the scorching heat of a wildfire.
"I love you."
"I love you too."
And that was it. Sayori falls asleep holding my hand while I am left to think about how I got wooed by a drowsy Sayori in less than .5 seconds. I'm not complaining but was wondering, how. The last record was .7.
I need to up my flirting game.
Seeing a flustered Sayori was one of the best things I could ever see on a thought provoking day like yesterday.
With these thoughts, I smile and close my eyes, dreaming of one to wake to.
"I'm really glad that you guys visited today, it's one of the nicest days," I say, smiling out to the Florida sky. My friends were visiting me and my aunt all the way from California. I really appreciate them doing this, it's a four-hour flight one way!
"You can say that again! It was horrible in California, too hot for even me to bear," Natsuki complains. I laughed, a bit thankful for being in Florida, where the heat has given us it's grace.
"It wasn't that bad," Sayori pouts. "We have an air conditioner."
"It was when it the power had gone out. Even you can't reject that," Yuri says calmly.
"The power went out?!"
"That's a story for another time! Ehehe..." Sayori puts her arms around me to ensure that everything is alright at home, however, that nervous grin I grew so fond of doesn't help her. I hope they haven't forgotten to pay the monthly bill.
Please haven't forgotten to pay that monthly bill.
I felt droplets of sweat form from my forehead. "Sayori..."
"Look! The sun is setting!"
I turned and sure enough, the sky was full of light and dark blues, vibrant oranges, and a skim of purple. I was moved by it, it was a long time since I saw one from Florida. Natsuki and Yuri arrive by my sides, also moved.
"It's beautiful, isn't it."
"Damn Monika, I never knew you have sunsets this luxurious."
"I agree. All of the buildings crowded the one back home."
It was silent for a while when we all watch the sun hide in the night. Well, until something grabbed my hand.
"Let's go see it closer," Sayori smiles and runs towards the shore dragging me along.
"Hey! Wait up," Natsuki shouts, running with us. Yuri silently curses herself from wearing sandals.
After running towards the shore, Sayori sits on the beach, her feet touching the cold water. She giggles at the sensation. I sit with her, holding my legs with my arms. Natsuki and Yuri soon join us after panting from trying to keep up. We laugh together.
I watched the sunset one more time, now dissolved in mostly dark blue and purple and began to think we should go back. My aunt should be home from her shopping trip by now.
"Is it time to get going," I ask, brushing sand off my dress. Sayori whines.
Yuri stands next, a smile on her face. "Yeah, it's getting dark and rather quickly."
Sayori whines some more before slowly getting up. Natsuki looks at the water in thought before joining her.
We were walking back home, chatting up as usual. Natsuki insulted Sayori for the hundred time and Sayori was currently pouting. Yuri was chuckling at this whole thing, watching it from behind. I was about to ask what happened but a sound caught me off guard.
The deafening sound came closer.
The deafening sound shot Yuri in her chest and exploded in ç̸̡̞̼͎͉̜̹̥̺̘̩̲̯͌ơ̷̩̤͇͖̼͔̝̫̰͔̝̱̮͎̳͔͔̾̃̑́̏́͂͆̊͑ļ̸̨̧̯͔̗̯̻͙͕̠̳̪͆͊͊̿̈́̿̊͒̂̄̕̚̕o̷̩̘͙̙͔͕̣̩͒̾̌̈́͛͐̚̕͜͜r̸̡̧͙͚̲̣͓͔̱̹͆̑̈́͊͜s̷͈̩̭̯̣̿̇̽͊̓̽͗͒͜͠͠͠͝
Oh, the blindingç̸̡̞̼͎͉̜̹̥̺̘̩̲̯͌ơ̷̩̤͇͖̼͔̝̫̰͔̝̱̮͎̳͔͔̾̃̑́̏́͂͆̊͑ļ̸̨̧̯͔̗̯̻͙͕̠̳̪͆͊͊̿̈́̿̊͒̂̄̕̚̕o̷̩̘͙̙͔͕̣̩͒̾̌̈́͛͐̚̕͜͜r̸̡̧͙͚̲̣͓͔̱̹͆̑̈́͊͜s̷͈̩̭̯̣̿̇̽͊̓̽͗͒͜͠͠͠͝
"YURI!"
Yuri drops to the ground silently, hardly having any time to react. The ç̸̡̞̼͎͉̜̹̥̺̘̩̲̯͌ơ̷̩̤͇͖̼͔̝̫̰͔̝̱̮͎̳͔͔̾̃̑́̏́͂͆̊͑ļ̸̨̧̯͔̗̯̻͙͕̠̳̪͆͊͊̿̈́̿̊͒̂̄̕̚̕o̷̩̘͙̙͔͕̣̩͒̾̌̈́͛͐̚̕͜͜r̸̡̧͙͚̲̣͓͔̱̹͆̑̈́͊͜s̷͈̩̭̯̣̿̇̽͊̓̽͗͒͜͠͠͠͝ were bleeding out of her body in a rush. There was no telling that she was going to live. There was no sense of telling.
She wasn't.
Hardly a second after,ç̸̡̞̼͎͉̜̹̥̺̘̩̲̯͌ơ̷̩̤͇͖̼͔̝̫̰͔̝̱̮͎̳͔͔̾̃̑́̏́͂͆̊͑ļ̸̨̧̯͔̗̯̻͙͕̠̳̪͆͊͊̿̈́̿̊͒̂̄̕̚̕o̷̩̘͙̙͔͕̣̩͒̾̌̈́͛͐̚̕͜͜r̸̡̧͙͚̲̣͓͔̱̹͆̑̈́͊͜s̷͈̩̭̯̣̿̇̽͊̓̽͗͒͜͠͠͠͝ exploded from Natsuki, ringing out of her skull.
"NATSUKI!"
Natsuki topples to the ground, her eyes fluttering.
I look at Sayori worrying after looking at our fallen friends. She was in a state of shock herself, her eyes wide looking at the bleeding ç̸̡̞̼͎͉̜̹̥̺̘̩̲̯͌ơ̷̩̤͇͖̼͔̝̫̰͔̝̱̮͎̳͔͔̾̃̑́̏́͂͆̊͑ļ̸̨̧̯͔̗̯̻͙͕̠̳̪͆͊͊̿̈́̿̊͒̂̄̕̚̕o̷̩̘͙̙͔͕̣̩͒̾̌̈́͛͐̚̕͜͜r̸̡̧͙͚̲̣͓͔̱̹͆̑̈́͊͜s̷͈̩̭̯̣̿̇̽͊̓̽͗͒͜͠͠͠͝ from Yuri and Natsuki.
And then the light in her eyes disappeared completely.
Sayori's eyes widen as the b̸̨͈͍̭̖̦̠͚̬̓̂͌͘͘͜͜͝ṳ̵̢͇̣̹̹͔̩͈̦̏̎̿͂̒̊̏͑̿͝ͅl̵̡̛̫̻̟̪̺̻̞̩̻̎͜͝l̶̡͙̍̊͌̃̑͊̚͝͠ḙ̷̭̘̞̬̜̠̀̒̓̉̆̑͜ͅt̸̢̡̨̠̜͈̪͙̖̝̱̊̄̒͝ ̶̬͙̇̓̈́̃̀͋͝ͅp̶̧̟̬̪̦̮͓̥̤̫̹̆̃̽̃̉ļ̴͉͙͈̩̭͈͖̍̔̒̈̏̾u̸̢͕̼̥͍̖̭͙̮̯̐̋̾̓͠ͅn̴̼̩̘͖̞̺͈͓̖̽̉͂̊̏͒̕̚̚ͅg̸̳͈̞̀̒͊̔e̴̡̘̭̜͌̓̏̓d̵̢͈̼̯̀͝ ̶̳̝͑͐̓̔̉͝͠t̶̼̙̘̗̯͚̔͘͜h̴̨̧̧̹̗͕̱̱͚̍͂̊͌͌͛͂̉̍̆͊ṟ̴̛͖̺͉̼̾͊͆͐͌͊̈̚̚͝o̷̩̺͋̾͒̄́̿͌̓͛̈́̿͒͠ṳ̵̲̮͒̀̅͒̍̐͛͌͝g̸͍͊̒̍͌̒̿͋͗̄̍̔͐h̸̥͓̹͚̟̜͛ ̵̻̲̟̞̳̲̳̝̙̦̯͚̤͛͊̿́̅͊̈h̸̨̡̺̼̩̻̓͝ͅḛ̸̳̥̺͖͍̲͙̓̐͌̕͜ͅr̵̢̳̙̣̞̼̬̝̳̉͗̓̓͌̓̅̕ ̷̟̯̝̐̂́̍̕̕͜f̵̢̫͇̾͆͆̃̿̆̑r̶̗̦̿̆̏̓̓̐̾̚ȃ̶̧̟̲̝̯͖͖̬̬̦̙g̴͍̺̫̗̯͔͖͔̞̖͊͑̈̔͜ì̵̡̧̨̧̟͙͎̬̳̠̞̟̿̅͊͑̃͝ͅl̵̢̥̪͋̇́͊́̔e̴̼̺̼͉͛̾̊̃̄̎͋̄͐͘͝ ̵̢̹̣̱̠̠͙̠̘͕͚̝̗̐ḩ̸͓̬̖̆̏̑̄̿̚͘e̴̢̬̤̘̖̩̭̯̝̋̀͛͆̏̎̇͌ả̵͙̘͈͙̖̍͛̀̈́͌̏̄͂̕ŗ̴̛͓̠̥̟͕̗̍̎̽̍t̵̨̛͙̤̤̮̎̇̆̆.C̴̛̙̮̋̏̈́̉͒͛͐̔͘̚͝o̷̧͇͔͇͍̳͔̫̤̭̾́̒̈́͑̔̍̓͗̋͝ͅͅͅl̴̡̹̭̣̩̭̻͚̜̗̤̗̱͒̅̐̃̈́̾͆̆̑͝ơ̸̳̪̼̻̜͉̤̞̞̖͇̇̅̄̂̕͠͝ṛ̵̺̥̬̋͆̃̊ş̷̦̣̖̪̤̠̱̦̝͂͗̈́͋͋̊̓̈́͑̃ plunged though the air. Sayori looked at me in quick desperation, her eyes were full of worry and fear and pain. But then they relaxed.
And then she smiles.
And then she falls.
A̸̡̨̛̤̺̯̪̞͉͎̞͇̲͇͙̮̰̞̭̮̯̰̲̱̜͈̩̹͎̩̠̤͚̣̗̰͓̰̱̜͉͍͙͎̗̬͓̬͚̫̮̳̲͖̱̙̜̱̝̪͚̽̏͂̃̃̿̆̏̊̔͑̍̄̀̒̏͒͛̿̾̓̾̚͜͜͝͝ͅͅͅn̴̡̧̡̧̨̹̰̺͔̞̹̥͓͔̫̘͔͙͉͈̻͙̣̘̠̙̮͇̫̻̬͉͍͚̖͓̦̞̲̳̰̞̘̜̹̱͉̻̯͕̘͚̩̬̺̮̪͐̇͋͗͋̀̎̚͘͜͝ͅͅd̶̛̛̻̯̣̫͎̭̘͔̙̟̱̼̼̠͔̘̦̥̻̼̝̯̪̖͓̜͈̣̝̭͕̠̲͙̠͚̩̪͇̺̰̂̓̋̊̈́̾̓͋́̒͘͝ͅ ̶̢̢̢͍̘̻̪̤̘͎̘̭͔̭̪̬̘͙̰̺̪̼̐̉́̕͜͜͜͜͠ͅt̵̨̢̡̡̛̛͈̞̺͚͖̪͇͍̮͖̯͇͇̟̭͎̥̹̹̞͈̹̫̦̆̑̀̓͋̂̽͋̿͑́͘͜͠͝͠͝͝ͅͅh̴̨̡̢̧̨̛̛͈͉̫̣̟̙̗̗̩̻̞̫̞̲͔̙͍̬͚̲̥͙͈̝̥̤̰͈̟̲̟̝̬̎̊̉̿́̋͌̉̋̈́̇̍̒̔͌͗̽͒͊̾̏̔͒̏͑̚͘͠͝ë̴̩̟̘͎̝̯̗͇͉͔͉́͑̏͌̈́̂̈́̓̉͝n̵̨̢̢̛͙̬̙̯̖͎̺̻̘̞͎͔̩̫͖̻̳̗͚͚̖̗̻̺͚͇̫̥̳̱̟̦͖̣̝̯͚̲̰̮̘̘͊̏̑̔̀̽̈́͆́͋́͒͛͑͐̚͘̚̚͜͠͠ͅ ̵̨̨̨̡̛̛̛̟͕͎̙͉̼̤͈̹͉̤̫̪̖̤̘̥͈̣̯̫̝͕̫͍͔̖̭̽̈͊̍̒͑͆̋̒̑̈́̋̏̆͗̂͋͌̉́͊͌̐͗͘͘͘̚̚͝s̴̡̧̨͈̘͓̹̳̲͈͔̣̤͉̤̳̝̭͎̹͔̯̼͈̰̍̉͛͒̃́̂͆̒̄͘͘̕̚͜͜ḥ̸̨̧̧̛̥̱͎̝͉̫̲͖̘̥͇̪̬̟̟͉̹͇͈͔̝͍̪̜̰̗̙̬͙̰̻̪͐̓͐̏̓̏̊̓̈́̏͌́͒͂̈́͆̈͆͛̌̂̚̕̚͜͝͝ͅȩ̷̡̧̪̤̭̭̙̩͎̩̙̻̗͔̺̳̺̞͕̃̈̔̐͊͐̓͂̔͑̽̋̅̄͛̀̓̇̔ ̴̨̧̧̡̢̺̮̥̜̞̘͇̹̠̩̹͚͇͙̙̺̝̦̙̠̾̓͂̂̈́̐̎́́͐͊̉̉͋̉̋͐́̃͆̋͊̎͗̐̒͛͗̑̍͘͘̕͘͝ͅd̷̡̛̛̛̛̬̯̻̻̦̙̦̤͈̗͙̠͓̠͔͎̥̩͔̓̏̉̒̌̊̄̆͊̅͆̀̔͑̓̒̌̐̍̽̉͂̇͆̑͑̋̄̒́͗̒͆͐̅͌̉̌̑͋̉̓̇͑̔͛̾̋̿̋͂̚̕͝͝͝͠͝i̴̧̡̢̨̢̛̙͓̫̮̤͍̳͉̤͚̼̜̟̪̪̙̝͈̗̰̱̮̱̰͙̳̞̩̯̩̝̹̼̗͈̞͕̠͆͂͗̍̀̈́̒̀̄̆̂̈́͌̀̒̕̕͜͠͝ę̶̢̡̨̡̡̢̛̼̞̠̮̪̣̫̘̯̥̟̠͉̗̗̳͈̣͈̹̬̭̭̲͕̪̤̱̪̝͎̳̫̦̳͔̼̩̞̹̠̮̪̳͇̙̘͎̯̤̺̯̲̈̏͋̓͐̉̇̌̍͋̀̋͂̽͌͛̆̓̒̊̾̊̉͘̕̚͘͘̚͜͜͠͝͠ͅͅs̴̨̢̛̛͚̯̲̘̜̹͍͇̻̹̖̠̙̬̠͍̜̺͚̩̙̮͚̮̯̲͍̘͚͎̻̯̗̠̮̪̭̰͔̩̠͎̳͊̊͒̈́̆̊̐̈́͛̇͑̓̉̾̑̑͐̈́̌̎̊́̊͛̒̌͂͆̽̌̈́̽̒͂̐̈̑͋͆̽͑͂̓̑͗̋̂͛͋̅͒̕̕͘͜͜͝͠͝ͅ
The sunset dissapered, in it's place t̵̨̡̖̩͕̪̖͚͙̯̗̒̓̅̽͌̆͆̐͘͝h̵̛̭̟͒̂͗̌ẹ̵̗̼̰̱̣̽̐̔̂̉̿̊̆̿͆̚ ̴̧͆͗̃b̶̢̥̮͖̘̙̦͓̘͍̊͊͂̈́̾̔͝͝ͅl̴̡̠̬̰͇̹̙̿̓̊̎̄͗e̴̘̲̣͂͋͋ę̷͕̤͍̪̅ḋ̶͎͔͚̉̄į̶̭̤̭͓̺̲͍͔̭̪͋̇̿͐͗̀n̵͎̗̗̳̼͙͙̤̦̼͙͐̿̆̏͐̎̋g̴͔̙̬̓͗̈́̑͑̆́͋ ̷̞̥̺͕̲̓̂̓͐͛̒̒̇̓̄̚c̵̨̨̮̗̥̟̮̻̙̐͑̔ͅȫ̸̹̪̙̦͎̦̙̞͇̯̤̏̾̓̈̚̕l̴̨͇͖̽̋͆͊̿̒̈̿͠ŏ̴̼̅̎̈̽̌̊͘r̷̼̤̻̞̻̖͂̾́͋͆͋͠ͅͅs̷͇̒̊̇̐̈́̊̇̇̓͠ of my friends. I dropped on my knees, unable to do anything. Scared to do anything.
The shooting stops.
Why did it stop!?
Why didn't they shoot me, however they are!?
Why didn't I join my friends?!
I sobbed into my knees, alone. Hopeless, defeated, and utterly alone. My mind is swimming with confusion. Why? Why? Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?Why?
The sky screams at me, yelling my name, crying in the wind.
"Monika!"
I try to hold in my whimpers and block out the sound, but it keeps calling. And calling. And calling. And calling. And calling. And calling. And calling. And ca-
"Monika!"
Oh please, shut up! I just want to mourn my friends in peace.
"Monika!"
Just put me out of my misery! Just let me see my friends again! Just get it over with!
And then the world darkens.
And then the world disappears.
It reappears with a scared Sayori, tears in her eyes.
"Sayori!" I wrapped my arms around her, crying into her shoulder. She holds me tightly, whispering comforting words in my ear. As I cry harder she hugs tighter and soon she was gripping so hard that I could hardly breathe, but I didn't care!
It was her arms.
Thank god it's just a dream.
After calming down, she forcefully unwraps her arms from my body. It was bittersweet, but I get to see her face again, her shining face again!
"Oh god! I thought you were a goner!"
"...goner?" Sayori asks, letting her curiosity peak through.
I nod furiously. "You see, we were in Florida and was watching the sunset. It was nice for a while before somebody shot Yuri and then Natsuki and then... you." Sayori breathes hitches and she mutters something inaudible, anger burning in her eyes for a slight moment. I continue, ignoring the action. "It was... very scary. I wanted to... die so I can hopefully see you again. Is it a bad thing?"
Sayori sighs. "You were mumbling things in your sleep...like wanting to die. I was scared for a moment but now knowing the full context of things...I...I could say that everyone in this house would want the same thing if that ever happened. However, that's a rare situation. Despite...what happened... we will never leave you and we will try our best to not die on you. We are stuck with you forever, Moni!"
I laugh lightly, shedding more tears. "I'm glad!"
She kisses my tears away, our faces were full of smiles once again.
It wasn't long before we were both washed over with a light silence, trying to figure out what just happened. I was long lost in thought when Sayori whispers something.
"I want to know the truth."
I turned towards her. Her smile was gone, replacing it eyes of longing. I knew this was going to happen, eventually. I looked at the floor in guilt while Sayori continues. "Something's wrong, Monika. I know that you're not feeling your best and Yuri isn't sick. We know Monika, we both know."
I sigh, still looking away from her gaze. "I'm sorry. I thought...the truth might worry you."
"What do you think you're doing to me now. Seeing my girlfriend in pain like this worries me. Anything you tell me can't amount to the worry I felt for you!"
I look up to Sayori in shock. Her eyes were glistening with new-found confidence and love.
"Sayori..."
"So, please tell me. You don't even have to tell me the whole truth even, just don't hide your feelings."
"I- I tell you later. Now just feels too.." My words drifted. I don't know how to describe this. Happy? Intense? Complicated?
Sayori beams. "I knew you'll come through!" She traps me in a comfy loving embrace, giggling lightly. A smile shows up on my face too, despite what is going to go down later.
"Moni," Sayori asks later, the sleepiness on her face gone.
"Hmm?"
"What now?"
I thought about it for a second, before checking the clock. 5:36. Perfect.
"What about a run?"
"Oh?"
Tutu tu tu~ melody...
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