Guilty of being happy.

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Damon P.O.V

If someone asked me I ever thought about being a father I would had laugh at that thought, after all I don't had any idea what ideal fathers are like. Our own father was worse kind of father and he was no role model for me. I am good brother, good friend and I think good lover if I can forget about my lies but I have no idea what kind of father I will be.

I look at Elena and she was sleeping peacefully in my arms. After she told me that she was pregnant all I felt was happiness I never feel before.

( Earlier.

I kissed her hard as my heart swell with love and happiness because she has given me the most precious gift of my life.

''Lena please tell me I am not dreaming. You are really pregnant? But how ?''

She smile and looked at me teasingly .

''Well when man loves women they sometimes sleep together and kisses each other and then.''

I put my hand on her mouth as I heard my brother and his girlfriend laughing hard at me.

''Ha, Ha, pregnancy made you joker.''

She pushed my hand from her mouth and smirk at me.

''You asked about it.

I was just educating you about bird's and bee's.''

I rolled my eyes at her strange sense of humour.

''Elena please be serious.

You were on pill.''

She smile and took my hand.

''This kind of stuff happen sometimes. Those pills are not always hundred percent affective. Maybe we are one of those rare cases. Why are you not happy?''

Her smile fell little and I couldn't believe myself that she is doubting herself and my love again.

I grab her in my arms and get up carrying her in bridal style in my arms. I turned around to face amuse faces of our guest.

'' Umm, guys sorry but don't wait for us.

I want to show my happiness to this crazy, beautiful girl who is now mother of my child.

So good night.''

With that I took her in our room and for rest of night we show each other our love and happiness to each other.)

I remember when Stefan was born, I promised my mother to be the best big brother in the world and somehow I managed to keep that promise.

But now I don't know what I am going to do. Today I was supposed to confess my lies but it was all forgotten the moment Elena told me about baby, even Stefan and Caroline remained silent and they were too happy for us but I can see worry in their eyes.

My thoughts were driving me mad so I get up and gently remove Elena from my arms. My girl who was so tired, groans in her sleep but thank God didn't wake up.

I went outside and was surprised to see my brother sitting in my living room drinking beer he was eating leftover pie.

''can't sleep? ''

He looked startled by my voice but then relax little.

'' I was waiting for you Damon.''

I saw he has two beers at table. My brother knows me better than myself.

I sat beside him and open beer for liquid courage.

'' What I am going to do Steff?

I was supposed to tell her truth today but I never thought this will happen.

I mean of course I want to marry her and have children with her but that was part of our future.

She is student Stefan with great dreams. What if she gave up on her dreams. Its all my fault .

I already took so much from her by lying to her and now this! I don't know what to do.

I am happy, God knows how much happy I am to be father of our child but I am also guilty of betraying her. Now my child will also hate me if truth came out and I will lost both of them.''

Stefan was quite the whole time I poured my heart out. My own eyes were wet with tears but I didn't hide them.

Finally he sighed and rubbed his face.

After few minutes of complete silence he finally look at me.

''Don't tell her anything.''

For all things he can say I never thought he will say something like this.

''What? But why?''

He took deep breath and drink his beer.

Finally he looked at me with sympathetic face.

''Damon she is early on her pregnancy. Trust me I am medical intern for a reason and stress is not good for her and her baby. Maybe later but now is not the time for you to confess anything.''

My heart clenched. I can't risk my unborn child and Elena health if truth came out. I never hated myself but now I am loathing my existence.

''How long Stefan. I can't keep this hidden from her anymore. I wished I had listen to Elijah and told her truth but now.''

I couldn't carry on as I break down in tears and my brother held me as I drowned in my remorse.

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Elena P.O.V

I was sleeping peacefully in Damon's arms but now he is not here in bed with me and then I realize I was sleeping alone.

Strange, Damon never left me alone in our bed.

I looked at watch and it's two am. I called for him but he was not in our bathroom. feeling uneasy I cover myself in long black robe just in case Stefan or Caroline is awake outside, I don't want them to see my see through black lingerie I specially wear for Damon tonight.

I slowly went outside and saw Damon and Stefan sitting on couch.

I felt relax seeing him and was about to leave so both brothers can have some privacy when I heard Stefan voice.

''Don't worry Damon. Everything will be alright.''

It was then I look closely and saw tears in Damon's eyes.

''Damon. ''

His eyes snapped as he looked at me. His beautiful blue eyes were looking like sea because of its tears.

I went toward him and dropped down on my knees in front of him and held his face.

''Damon? What's wrong? Why are you crying, is this is about our baby?''

He didn't say anything but he looked so vulnerable as he touched my face with his hand.

''Elena, I, I.''

Stefan squeezes his shoulder and looked at me.

''Don't worry Elena, my brother is talking about our new family member and got emotional by thinking about fatherhood.''

Oh , of course my sweet boyfriend will start worry about our child.

'' Damon listen to me carefully. Our son will be lucky to have father like you who will love him and care for him just like he did with his uncle Stefan.''

Stefan nods in agreement but Damon frown at me.

'' Daughter, I want daughter who look exactly like you. We can have son later but this little one is my daughter.''

With his other hand he touched my belly and then pulled me on his lap and kissed me softly as if he was scared to break me.

Stefan smile at us and left us alone after saying good night.

Damon eyes were still damp but he was looking at me with mixture of wonder and adoration.

''Thanks Lena, for making me the happiest man in world. How will I ever repay you for all this happiness?''

If he wasn't looking so earnestly at me I would have thought he was just simply saying those words in emotions.

Still I looked at him long enough to finally say the answer.

''Well if you want to give me something than be mine forever.''

He looks confused so I took deep breath and asked the live changing question.

''Marry me Damon , be mine and make me yours for ever.''

His eyes went wide as he looked at me with dumbfounded expression and as silence stretch on I can only wait for his answer that can change our lives forever for better or for worse.

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