Author's Note's: First 2 paragraphs are Kurt's POV. They are still in the woods and will be for most of the time. We get a little bit of POV from Blaine's mom to!
I woke up to a pair of arm holding me tightly around the waist. I sat up a little to see Blaine holding my wrist. His cheeks were wet from tears. I sat back and laid my head against his chest. I lay there listening to the rattling sounds Blaine's lungs made and his little snores. My head rose and fell along with his chest. I knew what happened while I was asleep. He was my scars, I know he did. My sleeve was pushed high enough to see them. My head swarmed with thoughts of guilt. How could I have ever done that to myself? I know I didn't know Blaine then but if I had known I would have this much love I never would have done it. I know I need to forget about all that but there's always the voice in the back of my head that tell me I'm worthless.
I tried to sit up but Blaine had me held so tightly I couldn't move. I pried his arm off my waist and laid my head in Blaine's lap. "Somewhere over the rainbow, way up high. There's a land that I heard of once in a lullaby. Where your troubles melt like lemon drops high above the chimney tops that's where you'll find me. Somewhere over the rainbow." I hummed softly and I held Blaine's hand. Blaine shifted and sat up. He rubbed his eyes and looked down at me. "Hey sleepy head." He said with a sleepy grin on his face. "Hi honey." I smile as he leaned down and pressed his lips against my forehead. "I love you." He whispered. "I love you too, and I love hearing you say it." I smiled. I sat up and scooted over so I was resting my head on Blaine's left shoulder.
"Are you happy Kurt?" I asked. "I'm very happy Blaine." he grinned. "You promise?" I pressed. Kurt sat up and looked at me confused. "Why are you asking me this Blaine?"Kurt questioned. "When you were asleep your sleeve got pushed up and I saw your scars. It killed me Kurt. I know we didn't know each other but I still feel guilty. Knowin' that you were so unhappy while I was down here not having a care in the world kills me every day. I would give anything in the world to turn back the clock." I whispered running my fingers across the cuff Kurt's sleeve. Kurt just bowed his head and shook it.
I pursed my lips and sighed. I started to push up his sleeve but Kurt pulled his arm back. I tilted his chin up and looked into his eyes. I grabbed his arm again and pushed up his sleeve. I ran my fingers along the white scars striping his perfect pale skin. I bent down and kissed each scar. I looked up to see Kurt shaking furiously. "Hey, hey, hey. Kurt look at me. Look at me babe." I pleaded. Kurt looked up at me with the same sad I had seen on the train. "I love you Kurt, no matter what. We're stronger than this. I'll be there to make sure you always know how special you are. I'm always gonna make those voices that tell you 'no' are silenced by me tellin' you how much I love you." I said kissing Kurt tenderly. Kurt shook his head. I sighed and pulled Kurt on to my lap. I wrapped my arms around him and held him tight. "I love you Kurt, every part of you. Nothing you can do is going to make me stop." I whispered. Kurt didn't say anything. He just nuzzled himself in closer to me and kissed my neck.
Kurt sighed and sat up. "Okay no more crying. We love each other we should be happy." He said wiping his eyes with his sleeve. I smiled and let go of him. He sat across from me and held my hand. "Fine what are we going to talk about?" I smiled. "The fact that you are going to a college baseball camp and you're only 16." Kurt exclaimed. I shook my head and laughed, "It's not a big deal Kurt." "It's a huge deal Blaine. You're going to be staying in a college dorm with a college kid! You're going to college before I am!" Kurt laughed. "It's a camp Kurt, it's not like I've been accepted there." I huffed. "Whatever, I just hope your room mate isn't cuter than me." Kurt joked. I froze. "I'm kidding Blaine." Kurt laughed. "Let just focus on now. We get to do Michigan in a few days." I said changing the subject. "I know and I get to meet the infamous Cooper Anderson" he said. "Gosh don't remind me." I groaned. "What, you love your brother." Kurt frowned. "I do but things are different now. Coop is nosy and I'm worried he may find out about us. I'm not ashamed of us I promise but Coop was always the golden boy. If he was to out me to dad he'd hate me even more." I huffed. "Then screw your dad. I don't give a shit about what they think. I love you Blaine, you are my golden boy." Kurt said grasping my hands. "Thank for that but no more sad. Let's go." I said getting out of the truck. "Where are we going?" Kurt asked. "Walk, and watch the sun rise." I said pulling Kurt of the truck.
We walk between the trees and out to the cornfields. We swung our joined hands back and forth as we walked through the short stocks. The sky was a pallet of orange, pink and purple as the sun rose in the sky. "So beautiful." Kurt smiled. "When I was little I used to get up early just to watch the sun rise." I said. "I would have loved to see that. I envision you in Star Wars footie pajamas sitting by your window with your fair falling in your eyes. Trying to be quite because you didn't want to get in trouble." Kurt teased. "I did not wear Star Wars footie PJs, they were Toy Story and it was pants and a shirt." I said shoving him playfully. "Whatever it's still cute." Kurt said pecking me on the cheek.
I stood in Blaine's bedroom looking down at the cornfields. I could see Blaine and Kurt out there. He had his arm wrapped around Kurt's waist like it was the most natural thing ever. My heart ached for Blaine. I can see the way he looks at Kurt when he thinks nobody is looking. The love in my son's eyes is so strong that it hurts. I want Blaine to be able to love anybody he wants, to have a fantastic life with a family and kids and a big house with lots of love. With Kurt he has that love but he can't have that family here. I want them to be able to walk hand in hand down the halls at school without the sneers.
I set down the basket of laundry on the bed and walked over to his desk. It was littered with papers and books. I picked up Blaine's copy of Harry Potter and smiled. The spine was worn and the cover as ripped. I started to open it but papers fell to the floor. I bent down and picked them up. They were pictures of Kurt and Blaine. The one I took of them on the porch, one in front of some lockers, but two caught my eye. One was of Blaine sitting on the tailgate of his truck. Kurt was sitting behind him and had one arm around Blaine's neck and the other was taking the picture. The other was the same pose but Blaine was kissing Kurt's cheek. It was so innocent and happy. I could hear Blaine's pick up rattling into the drive. I snapped the book shut and placed it back on the desk. I could hear Blaine running up the stairs. I grabbed the bucket of laundry and started to put it away.
"Mom?" I said. I set my bag down by the door and looked at her. "Hi sweetie. How was your campout?" she grinned. "Um it was great, but why are you in here Ma?" I asked walking over to her. "Oh uh, I was just putting your cloths away. They were piling up so I just was putting them away for you." Mom explained away. "Well I woulda' put em away Ma, you didn't have to do it." I said smiling at her. "Its fine Blainey." She said starting to leave the room. "Wait, thank you mama." I said pulling her into a hug. "You don't need to thank me sweetie." She said. "Just thanks for everything." I smiled. She gave me a kiss and shut the door behind her.
Author's Note: Sorry very short. Just needed a little filler chapter before the next cause it will be a big one. I love Blaine's mom, she really does want Blaine to be happy and be able to love Kurt but she knows it's not possible there. How much longer do you think I should keep writing this story? I like writing it but I kinda wanna start a new story. What do you guys thing? Love you guys. Read and review please!