Chapter 7

Note: Heyy sorry for the late update, but at least there was an update this week. Anyways might be a little difficult to post these next couple of weeks, College finals are right around the corner; so most of my time is going to be spent preparing on failing them(Or just the one...). Also we are catching up with AO3 on chapters, and once we do you are going to have the same day updates as them, which is a little all over the place since I do not have that time to write many chapters as I did back in high school. Well that is all from me this chapter is a little written better than those last two so I do hope yu enjoy it. If you see anything wrong PM me or if you are too shy for that email at demondog136 I love when you guys do that. ^^ Enough of me and on to the story!

Eren's POV

I felt trapped in this small room I rolled up into myself anymore, listening to Erwin speak to someone, most likely Petra. I couldn't focus on anything anymore my mind was back to that dark place, that place were my mom was murder, where my dad did things that were unspeakable. It was there when I first met Petra. Whimpers escaped my lips against my will, with thoughts of that man finding me again, I thought I was safe here, I thought the reason I was put in the system was give me a better chance on not being found? Could it be that he will see through the whole thing?

"Eren!" Mr. Smith pulled me from my thoughts, "Petra wants to speak with you right now."

"Eren" Petra's worried tone came through the receiver, "are you alright? Erwin called me and told me that you were having a sort of panic attack."

"S-Sorry Petra," my voice trembled a bit just thinking about what happened that day, "I just had a dream was all, I didn't think he would call you over such a small matter." I said trying to play it down so she wouldn't have to worry about me as much.

"Eren, I can tell that dream frighten you enough." She paused a moment, "It was about him wasn't it?" My breath caught, even if she didn't say his name, just talking about him brought back the memories of those awful days. Days where I thought I was going to die like my mother, days I wished I could have died so I wouldn't have to live in fear.

Petra is one of the few people that know the real reason I am in the system, I could have stayed with other family members, and some of them would take me in and treat me better than some of the foster parents in the system. It was fear of what would happen to me if I was put in a house he would know about.

Petra isn't only a care worker for forgotten children, she is a care work for the police, for those children that have parents on the run, from the law. Those parents that want their kids dead, and I being one of the cases was put under her care. We have become close, so she knows me well and the dreams I have. When a foster parent didn't know how to calm me down after them after them they always called her, and not shortly after that I was moved because they were scared to take care of me after that. As I got older the more I knew how to hide the dreams, but tonight was different somehow, it was like I was being watched and not by Levi.

"Eren? You still there?" Petra asked, pulling me from my thoughts.

"Yes Petra I'm here…" I took a breath to steady my nerves, "To answer your other question yes. It was a dream about him." I mumbled the last part into the phone so Erwin couldn't hear.

"Alright Eren, I'll stop by in the morning, till then please get plenty of rest." I chuckled at Petra and the mother hen she is.

"Yes mom," I said with a sad smile on my face as I gave the phone back to Erwin to finish speaking with Petra.

I laid down on the couch I was placed on when I was brought here, it felt so comfortable against my tired body. As soon as my head hit the couch I was out like a light, but not without the scenes that someone was close and watching me waiting for his chance.

Morning

I felt a gentle hand on my shoulder shaking me awake, I slowly opened one of my eyes to look at who was disturbing my sleep. I saw Petra looking at me with a face of worry, I open my eyes wider now a shot up to a sitting position. I looked around at my surrounding to figure out where I was.

"Eren it's alright you're safe," Petra said running a soft hand through my hair. I started to calm down a little bit taking in the surrounding little by little.

It took me a few minutes to calm down completely, it was then I remembered what happen, I felt tears escape my eyes falling down my checks.

"I-I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry," I kept mumbling that to her, feeling her pulling me into a warm embrace, her warm hand rub small circles into my back.

"Eren," Petra said gently pulling back a little to look at me, "it is not your fault on what happen to you during that time, what he did to you either. He was a nasty man, who is on the run for what he did." I was numb now, all I wanted to do was go back to sleep for the rest of my life, wanting to wake up from this nightmare that is forever haunting me.

"P-Petra," my throat was now raw from all the crying I had just done, "did… did you tell Erwin about it? You know before I came here?" I asked, sometimes she would tell the fosters that I would have nightmares others found it out the hard way; I always felt bad for those, they are helping us kids out, but never really know what to do when one of us breaks. They just stand there awkwardly trying to get us to calm down, awkwardly rubbing our backs, scared of not knowing what to do.

"I filled him in on parts of what happens, but not everything," she said to my question, "he knew of the nightmares, but not like the ones you have like last night."

"I-I should apologize to him, and Levi," I looked down suddenly scared on what might the other think of me. He saw a side of me a very few has ever seen, Jean has seen it once and Mikasa none but she heard my panic screams.

"It's up to you, if you want to explains to both them on what happened light night, or not. I told them that it is up to you not me if they wanted the information." She said smiling at me, "I am not going to say anything unless you told me to." I couldn't help but smile as well this woman in front of me was an angle, one that has not left my side since I was put in the system.

"Yeah I might as well explain to both of them on what happened. Erwin because he is nice enough to let me stay here, and Levi because I have to share a room with him."

Petra only nodded at me encouraging not going to say anything against it, probably happy that I am going to talk about this stuff with someone other than her.

It was only some time later that Erwin Levi, Petra, and I sat in Erwin's office. Petra was sitting close to me ready to stop everything if I got too emotional over something, Erwin sitting in one of the leather chairs looking at me, and Levi standing to the side leaning against the wall with his emotionless stone face.

I cleared my throat before I started talking, "I first want to apologize for last night's events, do not mean to be a bother to anyone." I paused thinking on what next to say, "Last night was a mistake, something I wish neither you Levi nor you Erwin had seen, it was a look into my past that I wish I could forget. The only thing that keeps me from forgetting everything is the reminder of the system I am in. The thoughts I no longer have my old life of which was stripped from me, by actions that make me sick to think about. Along with other things that I can't nor do not want to remember." I looked at both of them, words stuck in my throat, not knowing what to say next. "I am only going to tell you bits at a time. The first bit I am going to tell you is only the beginning of my story. One that brings me here today." I already feel tears in my eyes, I looked at Levi knowing that he might be the only one to understand my pain of not having a family, much like him, I don't know what happened in his past, or what happened to his family. I don't know how long he has been alone. Right now I was breaking the first rule of being a system kid by telling a part of my past. "It was almost 10 years ago this night happened, 10 years of the endless torture, it was the night my Dad murdered my mom right in front of my eyes. The night began two years of endless pain. It was the night I was stripped of everything that made me a human." The memory of those years always blended together for me, never knowing what day, what month even. "I-I'm sorry I-I can't go on, j-just not yet," The thoughts didn't stop the way my dad treated me, those years were awful.

Petra held me closer to her, as shivers erupted down my spine at the memories.

"I'm sorry to hear about this Eren, I am happy that you told us what happened in your past, not only for our sake, but for your own as well. Keeping all this stuff to yourself isn't the best. I will always have my door open to you if you ever need anything." Captain eyebrows said, looking at me not with disgust as some of the parents had, but with pure concern. I just couldn't bring myself to look at Levi. I don't want him to be scared of me like other kids, I am tired of losing friends.

"Thanks brat, for telling me and all," Levi said looking at me, his face was once again set in an emotionless state, but his eyes held concern for me. Something I have never seen someone have for me in all my years of houses and homes, with every different style of parents, but not one stopped and helped me. All they wanted was a kid that didn't have baggage from their former life. So when I saw the concern in his eyes I felt that one day I would be able to tell him my story, I could be friends with him. My heart ached for this, something that made me feel human once again.