Chapter 12

Notes: Heyy super early chapters not sure that I am going to have internet this weekend so I decided to post it today. On another note I only have a couple more chapters that are pre-written so after chapter 14(as of now) you have to wait awhile before I can type the next chapter. So just a couple more updates before it will be spontaneous updates since college is going to need all my attention. ^^ I do hope you enjoy this chapter.

Eren's POV

Everyone was quick to get back to work even with the other three quickly settling in, I talked to Marco and asked him not to say anything to anyone, and being the saint he is he promised that he wouldn't say anything. Of course this worried Levi greatly, but he didn't pry around too much, just a few glances here and there, but nothing more than that. I of course was fighting my demons still that had resurfaced after weeks of being dormant, my nightmare had returned tenfold leaving most night sleepless. Of course Levi voiced his opinion of my sleepless nights, and Jean, Mikasa, and Armin noticed the lack of sleep, but they tried their best to keep my head out of it during the day; making me laugh and participate in class.

I tried my best to make them believe that I was okay, I hide everything to the best of my abilities, especially since the Holidays are right around the corner. Of course we aren't expecting anything from anyone, we are just happy to be spending time with friends. At St. Rose we planned to have a small dinner party where everyone will be together, laughing, dancing, eating, and even sharing some of the fonder memories of this time of year. Some of us had some memories of what it was like to have a real Christmas with a family, and this was the only time we were willing to share these; we weren't afraid of the tears that might follow, since it was for the more happy memories that we carry around, ones that we chose never to forget. For now I needed to keep my head up for them, then after everything I can share everything of the faithful year of pain. I feel like I can finally share with someone of what had happened in that house; the police nor Petra knew the full story what had happen that year, I had it shut away in my head for so long, but I could feel that I need to tell them soon.

I felt a poke to my forehead, pulling me from my dark thoughts, there in front of me sat Levi. He had concern in his blue grey eyes, I smiled at him, happy that I was able to give him a real one. In such a short amount of time he had become to someone important to me and it scared me. Maybe I can learned from him what it was like to live a real life, one where I can always smile and never to know pain of rejection again.

"Hey Levi," my voice held a cheerful note to it despite the lack of sleep I have been getting the last few nights.

"Hey yourself brat, keep out of your head till class is over." He mumbled and poked me again in the forehead his eyes set in a friendly glare, "this is the last one for the year, and then we have a breather till next month." That's right Erwin had explained to everyone since other kids had the holidays off we did to, but once they ended we went back to the studies.

I pouted at Levi for poking me in my forehead, I puffed my checks out at him setting my nasty glares I could manage. He just chuckled at my childish tendency, and turned back around to set his eyes back on his own work. I sighed again letting my head drop to the desk wishing that the class would end soon, so I didn't have to do anymore work.

Levi's POV

We were all worried about Eren he had been spending more time locked in his mind then talking with any of us. Of course we tried our best to return that smile to his face each time we saw a moment of retreat into his head. I turned around him my seat to talk with him when I saw him once again lost in his mind. I left him be for a few moments seeing if he would resurface himself, but sighed when I saw how deep he was in his mind.

I couldn't help but feel a pang of sadness that this person had suffered this much pain in his life; it felt like he could understand what it was like. Unlike most of the other kids it seemed, he had witnessed something dark something that a young child should never face. Like him I saw things that I wished that I would never saw; I knew I would share with him one day of those years I spent with my Uncle. Those years I knew he should know about, so that he knows that he isn't the only one that has been there. Of course it had to be the right time. I knew it was coming upon me soon, this brat was something special to me, more than so anyone I had ever known. I felt my heart race each time I got to hold him, sadness each time he cried, and anger at the thought that someone could hurt a beauty like him. It had scared me at first, but now I accepted it these feelings that I had for Eren was one I had never felt before. I thought for the longest time that I would never feel something like this until Eren, I had fallen deep in love with him.

I poked the brats forehead to pull him from his thoughts as well as my own, his green and gold eye flicked back into reality, those eyes alone captivate me so much.

"Hey Levi," The brat somehow said with brightness that I would never knew how it stayed there, even with all those sleepless nights he had such a cheery personality.

"Hey yourself brat, keep out of your head till class is over." I said setting him with a glare, that seemed to falter with his huge mismatched eyes staring back at me, of course I should take my own advice sometime as well. "This is the last one for the year, and then we have a breather till next month." The brat puffed his cheeks out in a pout that made him too adorable for his own good, I shook my head and chuckled at him turning around facing my own work that need to get done. I chest pounding and my face red at the thought of just how cute Eren looked pouting, his eyes worming their way deep into my heart. I can't wait till the Holiday's that is the time I have decided that I will tell Eren my feelings for him. How cliché was I?