Chapter twenty: Wrapped around your finger.
Alec was kissing me.
Without any warning; he grabbed my face and pulled my lips to his.
The feeling of being overthrown by a powerful wave crashed around me. I felt as thought for the first time in forever, I was finally feeling what it was like to be home. My body, my mind and my heart welcomed Alec back with open arms.
It was as if they had been on standby, waiting for him to come back. It wasn't until I felt his lips against mine that I realized just how empty I truly had been without him. I didn't just want him, it felt as though I needed him. My heart was bursting, my head was screaming, my body was tingling from head to toe.
He pulled back and looked into my eyes. The anger, the irritation, the rage was all still there; but they were mixed in with this determination I had only ever seen once in his eyes before. When he had rejected kissing me before.
I needed that moment to take a breath, and somehow get a hold of my thoughts. But the moment I saw his eyes, and I could see everything going on inside of them; I knew one thing was for sure. This wasn't a 'get-back-together' kiss. Hell, I wasn't even sure if this was us getting back together. This was his way of shutting me up; and calming me down; alongside letting out all this... This tension that had built itself between us. I had felt it, and therefor he must've also.
It was long awaited, but I welcomed it.
Despite the fact Alec had said I deserved better, and that we could never be together again, I decided I couldn't allow that to be true. Even if this wasn't certain in this moment, if I wanted there to be a chance for us; I had to make him see that. It was my right to decide who I wanted to be with. It was mine, and mine alone. Not his, and if I chose for that person to be him, or the Prince of England, then so be it!
Throwing caution to the wind, and taking lead from where he left off; I pulled his face closer to mine and let our lips meet once again.
Alec didn't object in the slightest. His lips cooperated with mine, and opened easily when I tried to pry them apart. Electrical sparks fluttered throughout my whole body the moment his tongue met mine and began a long awaited dance for dominance.
The feeling only increased when his posture relaxed and melted into mine more. His hands, that had been on my face moved and wrapped themselves around my waist; pulling me closer to him. My body meshed against his, while his lips moved in sync with mine.
For the first time in five months, I felt complete.
Alec arms around my waist hoisted me up, and my legs automatically obeyed by wrapping themselves around his waist. My hands shifted from holding his face to entwine themselves into his hair. Tugging, pulling, begging for more of him. My back pressed against the hard wall; while his body pushed me up against it even more. I felt like a sandwich between the both of them; but I still craved to be closer to him.
Although, just like all good things, they had to end. Despite me pulling at him; trying to coax him back to my lips; Alec pulled his lips from mine and moved to my throat.
Here I thought he was going to stop!
He nipped and nibbled at the base of my throat and... Oh.
Still pressing me up against the wall, his hands gripped hold of my shirt and lifted it up from my body. He tossed it to the side, while I pushed the shoulders of his jacket and waistcoat from his body. Alec's lips found their way to my shoulder and along my collarbone while I desperately tried to claw his shirt from his trousers. The moment it was untucked, Alec used his pelvis to hold me up - and by god could I feel it! My body felt as though it was on fire just by registering that it was there, waiting! - and leant himself back so I could pull the shirt over his head.
I copied his motions and tossed it to the side and let my hands search his shoulders, his chest, his stomach and then back up to his throat. Alec was watching me, but said nothing.
I leant forward and pressed a kiss to his throat; and listened as a sigh of pleasure ghosted out of his dangerous teeth and partially parted mouth.
With this reaction, I did it again; only this time it wasn't a sigh that left his mouth. It was a growl.
I always had liked it when he growled. It awoken things inside of me and caused them to squirm, which was what it left me doing. Squirming between him and the wall.
I heard his smirk above me, and his breath to dance its way across my skin skin as he pressed me further back against the wall. His lips found mine yet again, and in a violent battle for dominance; I pulled back sharply as his lips once again moved from my lips to my throat and further down.
The bra I had been wearing was shredded from my body with his teeth, and the cold air hit my already erect nipples like a train. My head smacked hard against the wall as Alec began kissing a path between each one of my breasts.
"A-Alec."
Alec let out an animalistic growl from his throat. His teeth took hold of my left nipple, and tugged on it. I yelped and arched further against the wall.
"No. Talking."
A hard shiver ran through my body at the authority in his voice, demanding me to keep quiet. I whimpered against the wall while he had his way with my nipple - and I savored every moment of it. Every lick, flick, tug and kiss set my skin on fire, and my body into spasms. Was it possible to want someone more than how much I wanted this man?
I was positive I was just about to reach my end when Alec moved and my body was no longer pressed up against a hard wall; but rather a soft mattress. Sure, the headboard was there; supporting me up; but Alec was still towering over me. His hands toyed with the buttons of my jeans; before just growing tired of them and just ripping the button off.
I liked those god damn jeans!
I might've told him, if he hadn't of already warned me for talking. Yep, I'd finally learnt when I needed to listen to him; and in a moment like this... This was one of those times. If I disobeyed him; he might stop what he was doing, and then I'd be forced to tie him up.
Not such a bad idea, actually...
Alec let out a gentle chuckle while he kissed his way down my stomach. Oh crap! He heard that!
He didn't so much as remove my trousers before his hand snaked its way into my.. Jesus Christ!
It was hard enough to breath as it was; but with this added feeling now cascading throughout my body; I was panting for the life of me. My lips parted to let out a moan; but his lips captivated them angrily.
His lips hungrily ate away at my lips while he did a small sensual dance with his fingers against my opening and his thumb toying with my clit. I could feel my eyes rolling to the back of my head, but he didn't seem to care. He continued this act of torment; and just as I felt my walls about to close around his finger; Alec stopped. Cold turkey.
I opened my eyes to glare at him, but he was already grinning at me. In a blink of an eye, Alec ripped my trousers and panties from me in the one; and left them lying in a shredded pile on the floor. It wasn't' as if I was going to get the chance to wear them again anyway. He had broken the button, after all.
I sunk lower into the mattress as he unbuckled his belt carefully.
"Alec, wha-"
His eyes darted back to mine and his lips were in a firm, but swollen, line. "No talking."
Why didn't he want to talk?! I wanted to talk to him! I wanted to know why he had kissed me to begin with. I wanted to know what had changed his mind on this, and why he was doing this; but then there was that part of me that didn't want to in fear of scaring him off. If I spoke to him, and made him see sense; he might stop.
Alec removed his belt and undid his button agonizingly slow for me, despite him doing it rather quickly. The moment they were off; Alec crawled back up to me. I readied myself for another kiss; but it never came. Instead, he went straight for my throat.
I could be hilarious and comment on the fact he was acting like a typical vampire, going for the throat and all; but I wasn't allowed to talk. Instead, I let my hands take his sides and slide down them; making sure to dig my nails in.
As I expected; Alec groaned. He always did like it when I used my nails.
Sliding my hands into his pants either side; I pushed them down and let more skin become on show. His pants fell to his knees and he kicked them off.
He lowered himself to me; and pressed his bare chest against mine as he sucked viciously at my throat. If he wasn't careful; he was going to leave a love bite. Come to think of it, if he were to give me one... How long would it last? I was half vampire, after all... And I could heal rather quickly. Sure, not as quickly as Alec would; but it was quick.
"Renesmee," I couldn't help but groan in response to the use of my name. My back arched closer to his naked one. "I want you. Now."
"Then have me."
Another animalistic growl left his lips, and before I could register it; my face collided with the pillows. The front of my body, that had been pressed up against his, was now slammed against the soft fabric of my cover. Alec's hands on my hips sent shivers through my body, and even more when he slammed into me from behind.
I had to hold back a scream. His chest pressed against my back, molding himself against me while his lips rested beside my ear. He nipped at my earlobe, and breathed down my skin.
"You. Are. Mine."
Yes, yes. I was his. I was always his. Just like he had said to Finn. Just like he had said said to me before I had told him I wasn't. Alec had always had it right. I belonged to him. I would belong to him always.
"And forever."
Alec heard my thoughts. He was still listening to me. I yelped out as he began to move; starting slowly but then growing faster and deeper. His hips found it's familiar rhythm we were both so used too, while his lips returned to my neck and shoulder blade. I threw my head back and started digging my nails into the fabric.
I could hear it ripping under me. I could hear the headboard rattling against the wall. I could hear it all. If there was anyone else in this house, they'd hear it too. Alec must've known that; but he didn't seem to give a damn.
If he didn't care, then why the hell should I?!
It wasn't long before I could feel the intensity building within my stomach. I was beginning to see stars flash before my eyes with his consistent rhythm. I couldn't hold it in anymore. I just couldn't.
I buried my face into the pillow as I let out a large scream. The walls surrounding Alec clenched shut, making me feel him all the more. Everywhere, everything was Alec. I could feel him. I could smell him. I could taste him. Although Alec couldn't move as freely, or as deeply as he had been; it didn't stop him from trying.
You can't dominate the king, I thought as the spasms throughout my body increased with every small thrust of his hips hitting against mine. Alec chuckled again. The fact that he was inside of my head, listening to everything, only made me feel all the more closer to him. He really was everywhere, wasn't he?
It didn't take long at all before Alec joined me in my superior climax. His body went stiff and rigid up against my back. As we both tried to catch out breathing, Alec's arms braced themselves either side of me. His chest pressed up against me, and his throbbing shaft twitching within my core.
My pulse was still going insane. My heart felt like it was about to combust.
I could just imagine his face. Panting, eyes closed as he tried to regain control of his body. Complete and utter serenity and vulenrability.
I wanted to see it. I wanted to turn and watch him as he came down from his climax, but at the same time... I didn't want it to be over.
That couldn't be it. After everything, that couldn't be...
I didn't want it to ever end. I wanted to be trapped in his embrace, with him inside of me, surrounding me everywhere, forever. A dark part of my mind sparked to life; and before I could stop myself I had turned myself around in his arms. His eyes opened, a vivid shade of red and fire mixing together. He looked me me... Almost lovingly. Almost.
Stealing the moment, I pushed his side and forced him down onto the mattress. His eyes met mine with a surprised and almost glowering look as I climbed on top of him; grinding myself onto his still hard erection. I leant down and captured his lips with my own.
He complied with running his hands up my sides, and bringing them to a rest on my hips. I shivered at the coolness of his touch, and continued to dance with his tongue. There was no way in hell I was letting this be over already. If I had my way, this would go on for days.
It had been five months since I had last been with someone. Five months since I had last felt his touch. He was the only one I wanted to touch me, to hold me... To make love to me. But this wasn't making love. The times Alec and I made love was sweet and gentle, full of passion and happiness. This was raw, hard, rough and savage.
Alec's nails dug themselves into my hips as he tried to turn our bodies over. Oh, no. He wasn't getting away that easy. You couldn't dominate the king, but I could damn well try!
I wasn't sure what came over me, but in the past when I did something Alec didn't want; he would hiss at me. So that was exactly what I did in response. I hissed against his lips and violently pushed him back down. Alec's back arched into the mattress, and I was positive I saw his eyes roll to the back of his head.
Prying my lips from his, I leant myself down to his ear. "It's my turn to be in control."
If this is what he liked; a dominating female in the bedroom; one that was game enough to challenge his constant nature of being in control, of being the dominant, then so be it. I would challenge him until there was nothing left within me to challenge him with. I expected him to scold me for talking; but he didn't. Instead, he let out a small groan and arched his back a little more.
I... I sorta liked seeing him like this. Writhing under me. Complying to my every demand and want. Of course, he had always done that in the past; but this was different. This was... Hot.
I still liked, no loved!, the Alec that took control of situations and lead me into the darkness of filth; but seeing this Alec... This complying, this writhing perfection of a man under me; was just as good.
Alec lifted me up easily, and I squealed in surprise. Another scream left my lips as he slammed me down onto him. My hands moved to take hold of the headboard; while he guided my hips in a rotation before lifting him up again.
Slam. Groan. Lift. Slam. Jesus! Lift. I can- Rotate.
The headboard rattled against the wall with each movement Alec guided me to do, that I did on my own. I had to move my hands from there, in case the wall became indented with my hand prints. Instead of holding onto the headboard, I moved my hands to his shoulders then swiftly ran my nails down his chest, leaving two sets of nail tracks all the way down.
My head threw itself back in pleasure; due to the... Strange, yet sensational feeling of my breasts bouncing every time his body thrusted itself up to meet mine. Truthfully, this felt like heaven; but I could have laughed at that comparison. This wasn't heaven. I had to remind myself of what we were. He was a sadistic killer, and I was an abomination hybrid. The act of passion we had submitted ourselves to do was natural yes; but it was sinful to give into it before 'marriage' as mother had once said to me. Alec and I were sinners, and because of these sins it was hell they would both spend their eternity in.
However, hell wouldn't be so bad if it meant they'd be burning forever.
I felt myself coming closer to the edge again, and could have wept. No, no, no. Not yet. Not yet!
Against my mental pleas for me to last a little longer, I tumbled over the edge. I let out one final scream before falling forward and burying my head into Alec's shoulder. He continued to move; still as rough as ever, and I couldn't help it. I really, really couldn't.
I bit into his shoulder.
His body went stiff and arched. I imagined his eyes widening under me; as his neck arched itself away from me. He let out a large, dangerous snarl at the surprise bite; but it caused him to explode into me yet again. I cold, soothing climax shot into me and mixed with mine. It helped cool the warmth, the never ending fire burning within me, but I still wanted more. I still needed him..
I fell limply against him, finally releasing his shoulder from my teeth. Alec lay still beside me. He said nothing. He did nothing. He just lay there.
For a second, I thought that he was dead.
Hilarious, right? He was dead. But that didn't stop me from checking. I sat myself up and looked down at him. His eyes were closed, and he let out a breath.
Was this how he was trying to regain his breathing quicker? By holding it in? I would try it, if it wasn't vital for me to breathe...
I leant myself forward again, and rested a hand onto his face.
Alec's eyes opened, and the vivid red met mine. He brought his own hand up and rested it on top of mine, giving it a gentle squeeze against his face.
He let out another sigh, and then sat himself up; easily lifting me off him and putting me to the side. I sat there, naked, sweaty and reeling in body aches to the rawness of our shenanigans.
Alec began to move around the room; looking for his clothes.
"You're leaving?" I blinked.
"Yes." He answered, picking up his shirt. "Why?"
"Why?" I repeated in disbelief. "Because... Wait, why're you leaving?"
"Your friends will be returning from the party soon, won't they?" He didn't even look at me.
I gritted my teeth. "So?"
"So, do you really wish for them to walk in?"
"I don't care. They can come in and watch if they like."
From the side, I saw Alec smile.
"Come lay with me." I purred, lying myself back and stretching out on the bed.
"If I get in that bed again, it won't be to lay with you."
"Even better."
Alec sighed, but he was still smiling. "Why miss Cullen, are you trying to seduce me?"
He was pulling his shirt on over his shoulders. His jeans were already on; but unbuttoned. He sat down onto the edge of the bed to pull on his shoes. I took my changes and crawled across the bed. It wrapped myself around him from behind and whispered into his ear.
"You started it... Now finish it."
Alec's breathing became ragged again, while his eyes snapped to a close.
"Reny..." The use of the nickname for me wasn't helping him. If anything, it spurred me on more.
"We've got a nice shower room..." I continued, pressing a gentle kiss onto his earlobe. He wasn't getting away that easily. Not if I had anything to do with it.
"Reny..." He said it again.
"Please?" I crawled around to sit into his lap. He stared down at me as I played with the fabric of his shirt. "Just... Stay with me?"
Alec blinked, and inhaled deeply through his nose. He leant his lips down to mine and met them in a gentle, passionate kiss. When he pulled away, he stared into my eyes with seriosity.
"This doesn't change anything." He stated. "You still deserve better."
Yeah, we'll see about that.
—xXx—
Lilianna was on to something. There had been a shift in the air, and she could sense it. Every fiber in her being told her to go out and check, but then she was reminded - by Damien - there was no need too. Scott and Delilah were out there, and if they had seen anything; they would have said.
When they did return, it had been nothing. There was no cause for concern; and they had acted as if it were normal.
Scott had returned to Mary's side, she had snuggled into his side again; while Delilah moved to stand beside Damien and Ryan. They were both looking at her cautiously; but they didn't say anything until Lilianna was out of the room. The only reason she left the room was due to a argument breaking out somewhere else in the house.
Although Delilah hated arguments, she was thankful for this one happening.
"So? How'd it go?" Ryan pressed his finger into her knee, poking her for information. Literally.
Delilah shrugged her shoulders. She couldn't outright say it, after all Lilianna could still be listening. Instead, moved her body and sat between them. There, her hands took hold of both of theirs - ignoring the confused glare Shay and Mary was giving. Scott was there for that, he reassured them it was 'nothing.' The moment he did, they dropped it. - and let them see for themselves.
Delilah let them see the whole conversation between Jane and Demetri. That the very moment they had been dreading had come.
Their coven was on their way; and would be here... Soon, if they weren't already here that is. And although it petrified Delilah to no extent, this meant it would soon be over. All they had to do was give it a few more days before the Volturi took over for them and moved on in.
Of course she dreaded was going to come, but this was just the beginning. The beginning of their lives; and as soon as it was done; they could go on their lives. Together, until the end of time.
This would work out in their favor; Delilah hoped.
Delilah prayed.
Delilah wished.
Not only did she show them that; but she let them in with the knowledge that they would be expected to attend a meeting. All of them. Together. In the same room as the Volturi, and the Cullen's. Like one, huge weird party of immortal beings; plotting to take down some coven as if that was a freakin' normal thing to do. Of course, to the Volturi; it probably was a normal thing.
Damien was the first to remove his hand from hers, and he sent out an extra wave of 'calm' across them all. It was probably for Ryan, since he was easily wound up. Ryan pursed his lips and turned to look up at Delilah.
"Nothing much then," he smirked. "Nice choice on your meal, by the way."
Delilah rolled her eyes and pulled her hand out of his. Returning them to her lap, she relaxed into the sofa and let out a sigh. It was odd how... Comfortable she felt like this. Coming home to them in the living room. Sitting down and relaxing in the middle of the sofa with Ryan at her side; even though she had been out most of the day - betraying their creator. Their sister. Well, that wasn't entirely true. Delilah hadn't thought of Lilianna as a sister for a long, long time.
A sister wouldn't do what she was currently.
There was a ripping sound in the other room where the argument had taken place; then dead silence.
Delilah couldn't help but cringe. Their numbers were beginning to go down due to the newborns being unable to control themselves. Lilianna's patience was wearing thin; and she was beginning to lose her temper.
"Lets just hope we can last a few more days." Damien said boredly, and stood himself up. "Shay, c'mon. We'll go read a few more words."
Shay practically threw herself up off the floor and marched on after him.
Delilah leant herself closer to Ryan and let her head rest against his shoulder.
"Lets just hope." She repeated.
Across from them, Mary had asked Scott what they meant by that. Delilah let her eyes close to the sound of Scott soothing her with the words: "It's nothing to worry about."
If only it was.
—xXx—
So far, from what he could understand; Alec hadn't been entirely true to him. To them all; when he had said about their breakup, nor had they been truthful in their 'dealing' with this problem in Verona. The ones that they had destroyed wasn't the one who had been causing the problems; but it had been someone else entirely.
And now, this threat was bigger and badder than ever. Threatening the Cullen's existence, but the Volturi's also?
Honestly, the very subject of it made Caius laugh. Marcus showed no emotion, obviously. But Aro was oddly... Stumped. He stood with his hands clasped together and his fingers resting against his lips. He wanted to hear this from Alec, of course he would, but he was currently otherwise engaged. Although Aro praised his precaution and his way of going about this - as professional as ever, which Aro took pride in - Aro couldn't help but feel a little... Disappointed in his choices.
That may be due to the fact he always expected the best, and quickest result from his two favorite guard members when they were out on a mission; but Aro could understand Alec's reasoning.
From what he could gather from taking hold of Jane's hand, and then Edwards - thus being able to see into the minds of those he had read - Aro was faced with some of the most remarkable gifts he had seen since the twins themselves, alongside Isabellas, Edward's, Alices and Alec's precious little Renesmee.
Never in his years would he have expected to see a... Mirror. Hell, he didn't believe that they would have existed. To be able to reflect a gifted attack onto it's owner was remarkable. In any other circumstances; Aro might've offered her a place in their guard. If she had played her cards right in the proper way; she would have gotten the eternity with Alec she so obviously desired. She would have gotten to stand by his side until the end of Earth itself; working alongside him, being his constant companion.
Love must have clouded her judgement, as it had clouded so many others he had seen. He couldn't help but to use Alec as an example. He was someone Aro would have deemed as reliable, and yet he had betrayed them. He had kept valuable information from them; and put not only the Cullen's in danger; but their coven also.
He was disappointed. Of course he would be. But what was done, was done. Aro couldn't change that now. Alec had worked with what he could, and for that reason; he still took pride in his child's decision. Bringing him, and his coven here; to stand off with this threat alongside the Cullen's was probably rash and out there - but he could see Alec's reason behind it.
She wanted to take them down one by one, and would not be expecting them to make allies of one another and face this threat. However, Aro was faced with the evident problem that their most valuable members would most likely have to handle this in the basic's of way.
She was a mirror. She would only counteract their attacks with projecting them straight back. Which left Aro in the dilemma, and the decision he had come to. His members were well trained. They had to be, but the Cullen's in comparison to that was quite frankly... Dull.
Aro ignored the glare Edward sent to him as he paced back and forth the living space of their home. Marcus and Caius stood at the fireplace, watching him intently as he went through his own mind.
Aro turned, and let out a sigh through his parting mouth.
As he did this, Carlisle finally joined them once again. He had left moments before to call Renesmee's imprinter, on the hope that they would join in on this obvious problem.
"The pack are getting the first flight out."
"Splendid." Caius hissed in obvious resent and irritation.
"Indeed, it is." Aro ignored the sarcasm and set his sights on Carlisle; then let them cross over the rest of the Cullen's scattered across the room. "I've come to the conclusion that we may have to... Hold back on our abilities."
"Hold back?" Emmett asked, leaning forward to rest his elbows on his knees. Rosalie, at his side, remained as impassive as ever. She was just as uncomfortable as the rest of them in the room; having the Volturi in their home wasn't exactly the most comfortable of situations.
"Yes. This is where vampires, such as yourself will come in useful Emmett." Aro explained. "This Lilianna... The mirror, more or less, is able to switch the direction of the an intended attack onto it's origin. Now, I'm positive it wouldn't harm you all too much." He intended that towards Alice, Edward and Isabella; since they weren't offensive gifts.
Where as his members were a mixture. There was Alec, and then there was Jane especially. Although he was disappointed in the twins; Aro would never allow them to endure their own gifts being thrown back at them. Which meant that under no circumstances would they be allowed to use them. No one would be allowed to use any of theirs; since it could pose to be more a threat than what was already to come.
"But it would harm those who depend entirely on their gifts and those who do not know how to... Fight in the way which the Volturi are required."
"So what are you suggesting, Aro?" Carlisle asked, looking to each of his family members before looking back to his superior. "We can't let you go into this alone. You've come this far to help us, the least we can do is help also. This involves us as much as it does you."
"I understand that, Carlisle." Aro bowed his head in gratitude. "But you may be more of a burden on us than helpful, my friend."
"We know how to fight," Jasper spoke up; his arm linked around Alice. She nodded her head with him. "I trained them."
"Ah, yes. You used to train the newborns..." Caius chuckled sadistically, but it wasn't taken into offense. If anything, it was ignored by Jasper.
"Even then..." Aro pursed his lips and glided across the room. "That training isn't as effective as to how we do things within our guard."
"Then teach us." Isabella said, surprising everyone within the room.
Aro looked at her with confused, baffled and intrigued eyes.
Bella, despite Edward telling her to stop, stepped forward to face Aro face to face. She didn't care what it took, or what it would cost. If it meant the survival of her family, of her daughter, then she would do it.
"Teach us as you would if we were Volturi members."
—xXx—
I was warm, and wet, and cold at the same time. Above all, I was exhausted. In truth, we had practically been everywhere within the room. Against the wall. Against the drawers. On the bed and even in the shower. My lips were throbbing in ecstasy; my senses were tingling with the familiarity of this and my heart was pounding in content.
Alec was laying beside me on his back, while I had my head rested on his chest; idly drawing circles on the skin of his chest. Any small pattern that popped into mind, I drew it. He seemed happy enough, for he just lay there; lost in the moment, just like I was. Relishing in the beauty that was our moment of passion, and heat and the breakdown of all this sexual tension that had built up between us.
I grazed my finger across his nipple, which caused his chest to twitch a little. At least I could still make him react in some small way. I moved along his chest, and began to drag the small droplets of water left on his chest down; smearing them into his skin and creating lines of wetness.
"Are you having fun?" Alec commented once I had added yet another finger into the mix; using both of them to play with the droplets.
I purred in happiness and nodded my head a little.
"I really should get going."
"No." I nuzzled my head closer into him. "I've missed this. Just... Hugging into you."
Alec's chest rose, and then fell in his sigh. "I know."
"You've missed it too. So, shut up."
He chuckled, and clasped his hand around my shoulder; so that he was pulling me closer into his chest. A kiss was planted onto the top of my head, and I let my eyes close in the serenity of it all.
"Alec?" I said after a few moments.
"Mm?"
"Do you ever think... Things will go back to normal for us?"
He paused before he answered me. And when he did; it was just with another question.
"What do you mean by 'normal'?"
"Like... When I first met you? Your life in the Volturi, mine with my family... Will it ever go back to the way it was?"
Alec stroked my arm tenderly, and pressed me closer to his chest.
"For you, I hope so." He whispered into my damp hair. If it was damp due to the shower we had taken, or due to the sweat after our continuous playing in the sheets.
"For you, I hope so too." I whispered back as a tear fell from my eye. It fell like a steady stream across my nose, before eventually dropping to make contact with Alec's chest. I was thankful for the shower we had taken, for he wouldn't know I was crying. He could just go on and think it was my hair dripping onto his chest. I hoped that was what he thought it was.
I didn't want him to know I was crying. Not again.
I knew what I was getting myself into when I fell into bed with him again. There was no definition that we would end up together again; it was just letting out bodies connect again. Rekindle in a way we had left them so cold, waiting for one another. This was how he wanted it to be, and how they ought to have been. Alec hadn't been sent to investigate me in order to fall in love. It had just been one of those moments where it just... Happened.
And although I was thankful it had happened, I still couldn't help but wonder what it would have been... If I hadn't fallen in love with him. If my life would have been easier, if I would have ended up with Jacob; like it had always been intended. He might've viewed this as wrong now; but I didn't. I stilled hoped that there was a chance. This was how things ought to have been for me. To me, we were just two lovers currently locked out of love; trying to get back in. I know the worst of it wasn't all that it seemed, and the worst was still to come; but why couldn't I dream?
Why couldn't I believe that somewhere... He still cared about me.
I sucked in a breath and turned my head to look up at him. He looked down at me and ran his thumb over my shoulder. "You should sleep now."
"If I do, I'll wake up and you won't be here. I'm... Scared this is just a dream."
Alec closed his eyes, and I quickly reached up to take his face in my hand.
"Please don't close your eyes. I won't know where to look without them..."
Alec gave me a sad, but gentle smile as he reopened his eyes. "I'll be here. I promise."
Slowly, I nodded my head and settled my head back down onto his chest. After a few moments of silence; I let my mind wander back to the time where I had gone through my aunt Alice's record collection and found a song I'd grown to pretty much adore.
With the recollection of that song, and being lost in my own paradise involving just Alec and myself; I began to hum the tune and say the lyrics.
"You know I'm such a fool for you... You got me wrapped around your finger. Do you have to let it linger..."
Alec's thumb stroked over my shoulder again, as he pulled me closer to him. His lips pressed themselves against my head and captivated me in both his arms. My eyes began to feel heavy, and as I fell into an oblivion; I swear I could hear Alec mutter one of the lyrics.
"You got me wrapped around your finger..."
A/N:
Hey there guys. I apologize for the late update, again; but due to some personal events happening within my life, updates may be a little late for the time being. I will try my hardest to get them up on time, but just in case; I thought it would be best if I let you guys know.
As we speak, I'm writing the next chapter as quickly as I can. Whenever it's finished, I will upload it as soon as I can - be it before Saturday or not.
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-C.H